Chapter 293: Self-blame
She knew that Feng Chengyu was dissatisfied with Shao Jiamin's previous attitude of talking to her, so she mentioned a few words, but she didn't want to embarrass Shao Jiamin.
Feng Chengyu looked at Shao Jiamin indifferently, and continued: "Remember that you are a policeman, don't bring your personal emotions to the world. One day in the future, when you have a significant other and bring it to me, I will give her the same respect as you, so I hope that you can treat Ding Dong with the same attitude towards me, and she is no less important to me than you. ”
was educated by him for such a beating, and Shao Jiamin, who was proud by nature, did not refute it out loud, but looked back at Feng Chengyu with a somewhat ugly face.
After all, he was right.
He had a preconceived idea of Ding Dong as a vase who would only rely on men, so he didn't have a good impression of her. But after an in-depth discussion just now, he suddenly realized that Ding Dong didn't seem to be as weak and quiet as he imagined, she had even had close contact with Wen Chengguo, and knew the inside story of the case that even he didn't know, and her logical thinking ability was even better than terrifying.
She's not the kind of little white flower that grows in a greenhouse.
On the contrary, she seems to be weak, but in fact, she has a ruthlessness in her bones that does not admit defeat.
The perseverance in her eyes seemed to be about to compete with this unfair world.
Shao Jiamin was silent for a long time before he looked at Ding Dong and said seriously: "I'm sorry sister-in-law, I misunderstood you before, don't take it to heart." ”
Ding Dong was flattered and said again and again: "Don't be so polite, just call me by my name." ”
She could see that Shao Jiamin didn't want to see her, but she didn't really care, after all, no one could do it Everyone liked her, as long as he didn't make a stumbling block for herself, she could accept the occasional sharp words.
Seeing that she didn't take advantage of Qiao, Shao Jiamin's opinion of her changed a little.
He nodded, and after a pause, he continued: "Regarding your background, I have already contacted an old police officer who I once took over, he retired a few years ago, and I am going to visit him another day. You- you can come with me if you want to go. ”
Ding Dong was stunned, and the sentence he said to himself last time came to mind, "What can you do to help with the police", and now she was quite surprised to hear him say such things to herself.
"Is that okay?" she hesitated, she really thought about the inside story a little bit back then.
"You are the person concerned, it is understandable to understand the situation, not to mention-" Shao Jiamin paused before continuing: "That old police officer also wants to meet you." ”
Hearing that the old police officer also wanted to see him, Ding Dong was a little surprised, but instead he felt an indescribable sense of subtlety.
"Good. Ding Dong glanced at Feng Chengyu and saw that he didn't open his mouth to object, so he agreed.
"Okay, the old police officer is on vacation with his family this time, and I'll contact you after the date of the visit is set. ”
Shao Jiamin packed up the computer, sat down for a while, and chatted for a few words before leaving.
Feng Chengyu looked at Ding Dong sideways for a long time and stretched out his hand to her.
Ding Dong was all too familiar with his move, and obediently walked over and sat on his lap.
He lowered his eyes, wrapped one hand around her waist, raised the other, gently rubbed his fingertips over the left side of her face, and asked in a low voice, "Does it still hurt?"
The effect of the ice compress is very good, and the swelling on the left side of the face has completely disappeared at the moment, and the pain has also disappeared. At dinner before, Feng Xiaochuan saw her and didn't notice anything unusual.
Ding Dong shook his head, looked into his eyes, and felt inexplicably relieved.
"Are you dizzy?" he asked, his eyes touching her face that was paler than usual, and her voice tightened a little.
Ding Dong spoke: "No." ”
In fact, the feeling of weakness in the limbs is still a little, and dizziness is not enough, after all, Ding Dong has never donated blood, and suddenly he pumped 400cc, which is a normal reaction, and the nurse has already explained.
Hearing her say this, Feng Chengyu seemed to settle down a little.
He lifted her sleeve again to look at the wound on her left arm.
He had noticed it when Shao Jiamin was there before, Ding Dong was wearing a loose three-quarter sleeved shirt, and his left arm had been hanging weakly, although it didn't look awkward, but he knew that the wound must still be painful.
The wound was covered with medical cotton yarn, thickly wrapped layer after layer, and there was no blood oozing, and it seemed that she had not been vigorously active as instructed by the doctor.
When he thought that she was injured and insisted on donating blood to Lin Xiaojing, he felt both distressed and powerless.
He lowered her sleeve and was silent for a few seconds before blurting out sullenly, "It's me who is not good." ”
Didn't protect her well. It was and still is.
Again and again put her in dangerous situations, but he couldn't do anything about it. Originally, he could have done better, he could have avoided all this.
"What's wrong with you?" Ding Dong glanced at him, sighed lightly, and then said, "I am the one who is going to Lin Xiaojing's house, and I am the one who took her downstairs." It's just that I was defenseless, knowing that I was not safe, but I still easily relaxed my vigilance, and even harmed the child in her belly. ”
Speaking of this, Ding Dong paused for a long time.
Then she lowered her eyes, and her thick eyelashes hid the deep feelings under her eyes, "If it weren't for me, Anseong and they would have welcomed their first child soon." ”
Looking at Ding Dong like this, Feng Chengyu hugged her more and more.
He suddenly felt a sense of imminent loss of her.
"Don't talk nonsense. He frowned deeply and said in a stern tone.
"Really, Feng Chengyu. Ding Dong raised his eyes to look at him, obviously with a little smile on the corner of his lips, but his eyes were full of desolation, "I feel like a disaster star, always bringing misfortune to the people around me." ”
I feel as if I can't do anything well and mess things up all the time.
"No, you don't. Feng Chengyu quickly denied it, and said over and over again, as if he was afraid that she would interrupt, "You are very good." ”
He has always felt that it is his luck to know Ding Dong.
It's just that this time the matter was too bad, he knew that Ding Dong felt uncomfortable, and she couldn't help but blame herself. He thought that if there was anything he could do to ease her psychological burden, he would do his best.
Some accidents are beyond human control, she didn't mean it, but everything started because of her, and finally caused such a result, which is the most uncomfortable.
"The second before the man cut me with a knife, I was thinking, it's nice to have a baby, if only we had one. ”
Ding Dong's eyes were empty, staring into the distance as if he was out of his mind.
"Now there is none, there is nothing. I still really felt the existence of that child today, but now, he has completely disappeared from this world. ”