I slept lightly that night, and my tired soul struggled in gray dreams, until the morning sun shone through the window on my face.

I sat on the bed for a long time, and suddenly remembered that I didn't have to go to the company today, so I lay down again, didn't want to get up, and didn't want to fall asleep again.

It was almost noon, I left the bed, after a simple wash, immediately opened the 58.com network, and then announced the house rental information on it, my current plan is to sublet this house first, and then pay back the money owed to Zhang Rixuan, and finally leave Suzhou.

After posting the rental information, I went to the snack bar downstairs and ate a bowl of water to get my breakfast and lunch, and then life fell into a boring situation.

I sat in the closed room for a long time, and finally I could not bear it anymore, and I left the cage-like room with my guitar, and I came to the moat again, and I wanted to sing a few songs to myself against the blue sky, white clouds, and clear water, to comfort my tired soul, and then wait for the dusk.

I sang one song after another, singing that I was sad for a while, and my heart was full of joy for a while, and finally I put my guitar aside and lay on my back on the lawn, once again looking at the sky with white clouds drifting through the sun obliquely shining on me.

I naively thought that the city in the sky would be hidden behind the white clouds, so I looked and waited, but until the sun became soft, until the wind blew at dusk, I didn't see the crystal clear city, I was even more lost, this loss contains the heaviness of reality and the disillusionment, so the pain is even more painful!

It took me a long time to sit up from the lawn, to light a cigarette habitually, and to meditate in the twilight, not to wait for the dawn, for in this city I will not have any more dawn.

The wind blew colder and colder with the setting sun, and I couldn't help but recall everything that happened in the city, all of which was like a sharp blade pulling countless deep and shallow wounds on my body, and I could only watch helplessly as blood dripped from these wounds...... Now the blood is about to run out, in order to survive, I can only flee the city, return to a city that has no love, but there is family affection, maybe with the warmth of family affection, those wounds will slowly heal.

After a calm day, the mobile phone finally rang again, and I knew that it was Chu He calling, because we made an appointment to go to Alin Hotel together tonight to eat bamboo chicken.

The phone was connected, and Chu He said to me with relief: "I'm done filming today, Zhaoyang, where are we going to meet?"

"Let's go straight to the Alin Hotel. ”

Chu He thought for a while and said, "I'll go to where you live, and then let's go over together." ”

"Why bother, just go over there, and I don't live in the same place now. ”

Chu He's tone was a little surprised, and he said, "When did you move out?"

"Just these days. After a period of silence, I finally gritted my teeth and said to Chu He, "There is something I want to tell you...... I resigned yesterday and will be back in Xuzhou in a few days. ”

Chu He didn't react for a while, and was stunned for a long time before asking excitedly: "Why did you resign, last time you said that you had a chance to be promoted!"

I said to Chu He apologetically: "It's my personal problem, let's talk about it after we meet." ”

Chu He's mood was obviously lowered, and he was silent for a long time again before he said to me: "Okay, then let's meet directly at the Alin Hotel." ”

I answered, then hung up the phone with Chu He, looked at the river that had been covered with light and shadow, and walked to the river bank with a box for guitars.

……

When I came to the Alin Hotel, Chu He had already arrived before me, and she was standing at the door of the hotel waiting for me.

The autumn breeze at night was blowing along the street, Chu He's hands were in his jacket pockets, and the white scarf around his neck was fluttering in the wind, which made her look even thinner, and this powerless thinness made me feel a great sense of guilt.

I walked lightly in front of Chu He, she looked at me with complicated eyes, I knew that she had complaints in her heart about my sudden resignation, I clearly remember that the last time we met, we agreed to work together to be a master of life, but the more I lived, the more degraded I became, as if I had become a slave of life......

I didn't want the atmosphere to be too dull, so I forced a smile and said, "Let's go, let's go in and eat." ”

"Can I say I'm already full?" Chu He said to me with a straight face.

Chu He's words made me feel dull, but I still had a smile, and I pulled her into the restaurant and said, "Don't insult your reputation as a foodie if you're angry!" Besides, are you willing to see my villain eat alone, you're too cost-effective...... So don't punish yourself for my mistakes, right?"

While speaking, I had already dragged Chu He into the hotel, but Chu He's mood was still not high, and I was a little depressed and took the menu from the waiter and ordered it alone.

After a while, when the dishes were ordered, I poured myself a glass of liquor, but Chu He didn't drink some liquor with me as she said before, she just asked for a glass of hot white water, not even a drink like juice.

I picked up the small wine glass and drank it all, smacking my lips and sighing that this liquor tasted enough, but Chu He never said a word, which made me even more frightened.

I picked a chicken nugget from the bamboo tube and put it in Chu He's bowl, and said with a smile: "Try it and see if his chef's skills have improved." ”

"I'm full of gas!" Chu He picked up the chicken in the bowl and threw it into my bowl as if he was angry.

"Then you can't drink all the boiled water, drink too much, your pretty little face will definitely be swollen when you get up tomorrow, and it won't affect tomorrow's play. ”

Chu He ignored my jokes, and asked me with a solemn and serious face: "Tell me, why do you want to resign?"

I poured myself another glass of liquor, drank it in one gulp, felt the high-intensity liquor tumbling in my abdomen, and was helpless for a long time before I said to Chu He: "Life is full of choices, this is a cruel choice for me, I don't want to, but I have to do it, you don't want to get to the bottom of it, I won't be happy if I resign......" I changed my smile again, and said: "I'm leaving Suzhou soon, and there will be fewer opportunities to meet in the future, so let's not let the atmosphere be so heavy, eat happily, drink happily, isn't it?"

Chu He looked at me, his expression gradually softened, and he said helplessly: "Zhaoyang, you remind me of a song by Shao Yibei, "Mr. Denial". ”

"Who is Shao Yibei?"

"Don't pretend, last time we went to a music festival in Shenzhen with Lu Yu to listen to her special performance, did you forget it so quickly?"

I smiled shyly and said, "I just like to pretend!"

"Bastard!" Chu He scolded with a smile, and then took back the piece of chicken that I had originally sandwiched to her from my bowl, and then ate it