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Compared with interests, Su Mu pays more attention to the interpersonal relationship between colleagues. Maybe it's because he has read too many realistic novels, or he cares too much about other people's opinions, so no matter what kind of work he does, Su Mu cares more about whether his colleagues can get along well. Although she doesn't like to interact with people and participate in various types of team activities, Su Mu still forces herself to create an image that is easier to approach, and often plays the role of a peacemaker, trying to make sure that even if someone says bad things about her behind her back, she can't say anything too bad.
Occasionally, Su Mu would feel that he was too hypocritical, he didn't live freely or freely, and he couldn't express a lot of what he wanted to say directly, which added a lot of trouble to himself and made him more vulnerable to being bullied. But think about it, this is probably a way to protect herself, she doesn't have enough brains to participate in those intrigues, so it's better to go on like this and stay neutral.
It's best not to get her involved with anything.
Su Mu had never mentioned such an idea to anyone, not even her best friends, and she never mentioned it to her. It's not that they're afraid they'll think she's hypocritical, but they're afraid they'll start persuading her to change jobs again.
Several of them had already talked to Su Mu many times about this matter, in fact, in addition to the first job, the last two jobs were all discussed with her about resignation at the end of three days. Although they didn't know much about the job, they saw her working hours and her physical condition, including what happened to her. The most serious time, Le Duo went to Su Mu's place of work to see her, sat for a while and even wanted to take Su Mu back directly, so that she would resign immediately.
That time was really a farce, and after going back, Leduo kept educating Su Mu and telling her not to be so good-tempered. A fool can see that the colleague is targeting her, why does she always endure it. Although Su Mu knew that Leduo was worried about her and afraid that she would be bullied, she just kept saying "forget it" and didn't say anything else.
Le Duo knew that Su Mu didn't want to say it, and there was nothing he could do about her, so he told her a few more words, and took her out to eat her favorite hot pot. Su Mu was grateful that Le Duo didn't force her anymore, she knew that Le Duo's work was not going well, and when she saw her being bullied, she remembered her troubles that would become like this, and there was no way to blame Le Duo.
She knows that Leduo really cares about her, and hopes that she can have a more comfortable life, without having to suffer hardships and hardships, and without suffering such grievances. Leduo even often said that if it weren't for her limited earning ability, she wouldn't have to work for Su Mu, just take her as a rich daughter, buy whatever she wants, and do whatever she wants, as long as she is happy.
Although this was an extravagant idea, Su Mu was still very happy when he heard these words. When the two of them got together, they often cheered up this ambition, even though they knew it was impossible, they never gave up this little "ritual".
Because they know that they are not trying to work hard to achieve this dream, they are just trying to find a reason for themselves to continue to work hard and persevere.
This life is very tiring, relying on your own hands to fight for the life you want, without finding some reason to persevere, it is really too easy to give up.
After all, it's much easier to go with the flow than to swim against it.
As for this job, not to mention that Leduo didn't want her to continue to do it, even her parents had vaguely expressed their desire for Su Mu to change jobs several times. Because since he started this job, Su Mu has never had dinner with his family again, which is fundamentally different from what Su Mu said to them at the beginning. After the last job passed, they always wanted Su Mu to find a stable job, and they didn't want her to follow her own temperament anymore to do this kind of work that they liked but worked hard, if Su Mu hadn't said that this job could be in shifts, they wouldn't have agreed in the first place. As a result, it was like this now, they didn't say it, they didn't say it, they didn't even dare to express their worries a little more, for fear of adding some pressure to Su Mu.
These Su Mu actually know very well in his heart, but aside from everything, Su Mu really likes this job and is really reluctant to give up. Although she worked long hours every day and couldn't eat properly and sleep on time, in the process of work, she met many people and heard and saw too many beautiful stories that were incompatible with this hopeless world. She needs these stories to comfort herself, to inject energy into her perseverance, so that she can have the courage to face her ideals and reality, and the love that has already disappointed her. And every time she helps these customers to do what they want and fulfill their wishes, she feels very satisfied, as if she has found a meaning to exist.
It was really not easy for Su Mu to find such a job, after all, it was completely in line with part of her hobbies, and the salary was quite satisfactory, and it was really difficult to give up. But it's true that the body can't bear it, if she can, as long as she can change her working hours, is she really willing to do it for a long time?
However, the boss never seemed to think of finding another employee to give her the idea, and after so many interviews, she was basically transferred to another store, and finally resigned, and none of them left her, so she was the only one who supported this one store. She had politely mentioned this matter to her boss several times, but the boss was indifferent to it, and at the same time told Su Mu about her arrangements. When Su Mu heard that her store could only assign a part-time child during the winter vacation, she felt that her whole life was a little hopeless.
In this way, the morning was spent cleaning and cranky, and at this time Su Mu also calmed down. Seeing that all the work had been done, Su Mu took out his mobile phone from the spare cabinet and prepared to order some takeout. Unexpectedly, as soon as she got her phone, she saw a bunch of missed calls and WeChat messages on the screen.
Ninety percent of the messages were sent by Ling Feng, and eighty percent of the ninety percent were from Ling Feng who asked her why she didn't answer the phone, whether she had lost it or didn't want to contact him.
This hit the point where Su Mu went from boredom to outburst.
Su Muqiang endured his anger, read every message carefully, and then replied to the important information, and went to order takeout.
She didn't reply to Ling Feng's message.