40. Humility
Ergou fell in love with a girl.
Ergou thinks she is very good-looking, with thin broken hair and white and clean skin.
She lives on the opposite side of the door, and the distance between the doors is three meters.
Ergou often sees her on the balcony.
Sometimes she is drying clothes, sometimes standing by the window, wearing headphones and looking outside, Ergou doesn't know what she is looking at, but thinks she is really good-looking.
She likes white clothes, whether it is underwear, bottoms, or clothes outside, the most common thing that Ergou has seen is white.
Her desk should be by the window, so Ergou can often see her, and many times only one head and shoulders can be seen. Ergou guessed that she might be sitting at her desk reading a book, watching a play, or putting on makeup, ready to go out on a date.
She shouldn't have a boyfriend.
Ergou often secretly stood on the balcony to watch her, and didn't see a boy send her back, Ergou guessed.
Ergou's work is very free, he doesn't need to go to the company, he can do it at home, so Ergou often stands on the balcony, and sometimes, Ergou will pretend to be an office worker and follow her to the subway station, in fact, just to see her closer.
She would go out on time at eight o'clock, and Ergou would hold the time a little later than her, so that Ergou could walk behind her and watch her. She didn't even find Ergou, because she always plugged in headphones when she went out, and Ergou was guessing, what song she likes to listen to?
Ergou really wants to hear her playlist, so much.
She always came home on time, usually at seven o'clock.
When she gets to the room, she will first open the curtains and open the windows to ventilate.
Ergou likes her too much and wants to know what she does in the room every day.
She hasn't come back today, the room has been dark, Ergou walked around the room anxiously, where did she go, why hasn't she come back yet?
At about ten o'clock, Ergou stood on the balcony and saw a man and woman enter the building, Ergou was familiar with her outline, and Ergou knew that it was her.
The second dog passed through the cat's eye, saw them holding each other and walked to the door, let go of each other, she swiped the access card, opened the door, and walked into the house, the second dog couldn't hear what they said, probably reluctant to love words.
To be honest, Ergou was very jealous.
Ergou hates her for holding other men, and Ergou wants to think that the person she is holding is herself.
She took the garbage bag in the room out of the house, and today, Ergou didn't follow her to work. Ergou saw her throw the garbage bag into the garbage bin and watched her figure get farther and farther away.
Ergou is going to pick up garbage, and the first time he does this kind of thing, Ergou is a little nervous.
Ergou looked left and right, an office worker came over, Ergou pretended to squat down to tie his shoes, Yuguang, saw him walking towards the road, Ergou looked around, no one, picked up the garbage bag she threw away, and walked home.
Ergou's heart was beating fast, and he couldn't stop looking around, afraid that someone in the distance would see Ergou's behavior and see through Ergou's thoughts.
Ergou walked home quickly, quickly closed the door, no one saw Ergou "steal" her garbage, Ergou was happy.
Ergou poured the contents of the garbage bag on the ground, there was a torn stocking inside, an old toothbrush, and a lot of used tissues, as well as plastic packaging bags, Ergou took out the stockings if he got a treasure, she probably didn't walk easily, the thumb was more stressed, and the stockings were worn very thin at the position of the thumb, and a hole was broken.
She doesn't have to throw garbage every day, and in the morning when she doesn't throw garbage, Ergou silently follows her to the subway station and looks at her behind her.
Ergou secretly took a lot of photos of her, she will wear different clothes every day, mostly jeans or small skirts, she looks very gentle, she doesn't like to wear high heels, Ergou guessed, because she almost always wears sneakers or canvas shoes.
Ergou washed out her photos, and when he couldn't see her, Ergou flipped through the photos, but the photos were almost all back and side faces, because Ergou was secretly shooting, Ergou was afraid of being discovered by her, so Ergou was always cautious.
Today, she didn't take out the garbage, Ergou followed her as usual, she was wearing a plaid dress today, she was very gentle, and Ergou's heart was pounding all the time. She was in trouble, rummaging through her backpack before entering the subway gate, and Ergou guessed that she might have lost her transportation card.
Ergou inadvertently threw her traffic card behind her, and then walked away, she rummaged through her bag and began to look around to see if it had fallen to the ground. -A child picks up the traffic card on the ground and asks in a milky voice, "Sister, is this yours?"
She was pleasantly surprised, a smile spread out of the corner of her eyes, she said thank you, and then took out a lollipop and gave it to the child as a thank you.
Ergou watched them from a distance, that candy should be for Ergou.
Today she came down with a bag of garbage, and Ergou was no longer panicked, and had learned how to pick up the garbage bag quickly and recognize the path to get home quickly.
There is a takeaway box inside, and she shouldn't eat spicy food, because every time the chili sauce delivered by the merchant is thrown away by her, it will be thrown away by her.
She likes to eat sweets, because she often orders milk tea, but she is probably afraid of fat, so she always orders 5 points sweet.
Her surname is Chen – if she hadn't written a fake last name.
She wears size 36 shoes, 75B underwear, and comes to relatives on the 12th of every month for six days at a time.
She is not a person who will spend money indiscriminately, because every time she orders takeout, it will not exceed 25 yuan, and there are red envelopes full of reductions, and every time she loses something, she can no longer use it, probably because Ergou likes her, so she is a good girl who is gentle and thrifty in Ergou's heart.
Ergou likes her so much and wants to know more about her.
Ergou dreamed of her last night, Ergou missed her very much today, especially wanted to see her, Ergou followed her all the way to the subway station, and then still not satisfied, Ergou followed her into the station again, stood in front of the same carriage and waited, Ergou aimed at her chatting WeChat.
There were a lot of people in the morning rush hour, the carriage was packed, she stood in the small corner next to the door and couldn't move, Ergou deliberately moved to her side, pretending to be squeezed over. Ergou stood outside her, using his back against the force of the crowd to press down on the Ergou, Ergou held the railing with one hand and the wall with the other, she seemed to be encircled by Ergou in her arms, Ergou could smell the fragrance on her body, she sprayed perfume.
This was the closest the two dogs had gotten to each other, so close that the second dog could feel her breathing.
That boy has been coming back with her recently, don't you have to go home after work, why do you send her home every day, Ergou hates him. What made Ergou most angry was that Ergou saw her take him upstairs.
When she got to her room, she closed the curtains.
Ergou stood by the window, unable to see the state of her room, and suddenly panicked, she seemed to be out of the orbit that Ergou had mastered.
That night, the boy didn't come out, he spent the night at her house. The next day they came out holding hands, and the boy was holding a bag of garbage. As soon as they left, Ergou took the garbage home.
When Ergou saw what was inside, Ergou felt that Ergou was going to suffocate.
The messy garbage, as well as the dazzling, used sleeves and bags, they had a relationship, the girl that Ergou liked, did not belong to Ergou, belonged to others.
Ergou thinks that she has someone she likes, and Ergou should give up on her, although Ergou has never had her.
They lived together, that day Ergou watched her and the boy directing the moving company to move things, there was a sofa, there was Simmons, probably the original bed was too small for two people to sleep, Ergou imagined that they were lying on the same bed, and he held her in his arms, and he felt really uncomfortable.
They always go out and go to work together, she no longer listens to music with headphones plugged in, she always hangs on him, as if she can't walk anymore, once she met them at the gate of the community, she held the boy's arm, and the smile on her face was something that Ergou had never seen. So brilliant, so sweet, a woman in love, like exuding a dazzling light, so that Ergou can't take his eyes off, and such a good-looking, now she, was created by that boy.
Ergou is really jealous and jealous.
That morning, she was in a hurry to go to work, and after closing the door, she forgot to pull out the key and left it on the door, and Ergou stole the key, and bought two miniature cameras, which were cleverly placed in the gap of her lamp.
Since that night, Ergou has been watching what she is doing every day.
In the picture, when she is the only one, she lives a very daily life. Go home from work and rest after work, feed the cat and shovel feces, sometimes sit on the carpet and use a notebook to look at things, the angle relationship, the second dog can't see what she is looking at.
It was also from that time that Ergou often watched her or them at night, and after she went to work during the day, Ergou sneaked into her house.
The trash can often has their used transparent covers, and the two dogs have seen pink, milky, blue, and yellow.
Her house was very clean, and there was nothing dirty on the floor except for a little cat hair.
The cat would be scared when he saw the second dog, so he hid under the sofa and couldn't come out, so the second dog cleaned the cat litter, poured cat food, and changed the water. The second dog also bought canned cat food to please it, but it ignored the second dog, and the second dog walked away, and it would come together to eat.
Her room was very clean, and as soon as she approached, she could smell the laundry detergent on the quilt.
There are some skincare products and cosmetics on the dressing table, not as many as Ergou's ex-girlfriend.
There is a carpet next to the bed, and Ergou guesses that she often sits here with her cat in her arms, playing with her mobile phone and reading books.
There is a water cup on the table, a blue ceramic cup, half a heart, obviously a couple's cup, and another, probably with the boy, the second dog is a little unpleasant.
Suddenly one day, they started cooking, they liked to eat chicken wings, almost every time there were chicken bones in the garbage, but they stopped exchanging body fluids.
They began to quarrel and didn't go to work together the next day, Ergou thought it was an accident, but today she also walked alone, and she plugged in her headphones to listen to the song again.
She didn't come back for the next few days, Ergou stood by the window every day and watched, the lights in her room were dim, and the boy didn't come back, Ergou guessed that they were going on vacation.
In the morning, Ergou went to take out the garbage, a taxi stopped downstairs in her house, the man helped her down, Ergou looked at her from a distance, she could feel her weakness, her face was pale, and the boy supported her, with big bags and small bags.
She hadn't gone to work since they came back, and only the boy went to work every morning, and she was in bed all the time.
They make soup every day, and Codonopsis black chicken soup is made very frequently, such a nutritious soup is really a great supplement.
Ergou understood.
About half a month later, Ergou finally saw her, she looked so thin, as if the wind could blow her away, Ergou felt that she was not happy that the girl who was so good to see the light seemed to be suddenly extinguished.
There were no cigarette butts and empty boxes of cigarettes in their garbage, and Ergou didn't see him again, and Ergou thought that they should have broken up.
Ergou guessed correctly, one morning, the boy went downstairs and pulled away the suitcase.
Ergou saw her standing by the window, the curtains were not all opened, and she missed a corner, she stared at him downstairs, watched him move all his luggage, get in the car, and then leave.
Ergou couldn't see her specific face clearly, but Ergou guessed that her eyes were red and she was crying.
She began to go to work alone again, and went home alone, it was only early autumn, but she was already so thickly dressed, and she walked and shrunk her neck from time to time, and she seemed to be unusually afraid of the cold.
In the morning, Ergou followed her as usual, and Ergou saw that something was wrong with her at the beginning, she was pale and bloodless, and she walked unsteadily.
Ergou was not at ease, followed her into the subway station, followed her to transfer, when going up the escalator, Ergou specially ran behind her in small steps, she first shook, people fell backwards, fortunately Ergou saw that she was wrong, held the handrail, and caught her.
She was dizzy and was helped to the waiting bench by the second dog, and the aunts next to her gathered over.
"Didn't the little girl have breakfast, anemic? 」
"Such a thin little girl, it looks like the wind is about to blow away. 」
The aunts were babbling.
There is a piece of chocolate in the second dog's pocket, which was bought in the store yesterday and given away.
The two dogs broke it into small pieces and fed them to her mouth.
After a while, she probably recovered, although her lips were still as pale.
She opened her eyes, and the aunts applauded happily, and then one by one they actively told her about the "great achievements" of the second dog.
She thanked Ergou and said that Ergou helped her and really saved her life.
She said that she still had to go to work, and Ergou gave her all the rest of the chocolate, so that she must finish it to replenish her energy.
She smiled softly and said a lot of thanks to Ergou.
Ergou watched her get into the car, and his heart was warm.
Ergou thought, does she have an impression of herself?
Ergou deliberately opened the door when she went home, she recognized Ergou, thanked Ergou, and invited Ergou to dinner, saying that it was to repay Ergou.
Ergou gladly accepted her invitation.
Ergou thought that he would be restrained if he talked to her face-to-face, but he didn't. She's a very gentle girl and doesn't feel pressured at all.
When ordering, she asked Ergou to pick, and even if she ordered, she must thank Ergou.
Ergou took the menu, looked at the list, and picked one by one.
"You can't eat spicy, then this is not suitable, you like to eat chicken wings, this braised chicken wings is very good. You have recently come to relatives, don't drink cold, drink some brown sugar and red date soup."
The second dog chattered while choosing.
Ergou asked the waiter to place the order, and after everything was done, Ergou looked at her and found that she had been looking at Ergou.
"How do you know that?" she couldn't see through her eyes.
The second dog was suddenly speechless.
How could Ergou tell her that all the information about her was engraved in Ergou's heart.
"When you looked at the menu just now, you subconsciously looked at the chicken wings, not only glanced at the other dishes, but also glanced at the other dishes, and when you saw the chopped pepper fish head, you said this is too spicy, I think you shouldn't be very spicy, otherwise you won't subconsciously talk about spicy but whether the dish is delicious, when you just went to the bathroom, you took a small cloth bag, and my ex-girlfriend also has it, it's a long paper towel." 」
Ergou saw the change in her eyes from surprise to admiration.
"Did you study psychology?"
"No, they just subconsciously observe each other. The two dogs were talking nonsense.
She looked at Ergou's eyes and softened a little, "Then you must be a person who can take care of others." 」
That day, Ergou talked a lot, from horoscopes to psychology, from Keigo Higashino to Junichi Watanabe, Ergou felt that the girl he liked was really exciting, and he had a good time chatting with her.
She said that she was very happy to meet Ergou, and Ergou also felt so happy to meet her.
Later, she often invited Ergou to her house as a guest.
They cook together and watch movies together, she is very cute, every time she watches a movie, she will go to watch a round of reviews in advance before watching a movie, if netizens have a bad evaluation of this movie, she will definitely not go.
After watching the movie, I will go to the Internet to search and analyze, search out the places I don't understand one by one, and then tell Ergou as if asking for credit, even if Ergou understands, she will follow her, she will be very happy and feel that she is very powerful.
She likes to eat sweets, especially keen on dirty bags, every time she eats her hands and faces, Ergou will take a tissue and hand it to her to wipe, she has no free hands, Ergou will help her wipe it little by little, chocolate sauce, chocolate powder, she is a little girl who makes people like.
Ergou and her are getting closer and closer, and finally blending together, Ergou feels that he has become the happiest person.
But after the negative distance contact, it is like a wavy line, after the peak, followed by the trough.
Ergou felt that the relationship between him and her was cooling, she never said that she loved him, it seemed that she was just a friend, and that time, it was just a little deviation from the course.
One day, she went to buy a cup.
Ergou then found her and saw her carrying the cup with great interest.
Then she stopped in front of a shop window, where there was a pair of blue love ceramic cups, the same as those in her home.
She looked at it for a while, her eyebrows flashing with emotions that Ergou hadn't seen in recent days, and then it was fleeting.
Ergou knew that she was thinking about that boy.
She had never talked to Ergou about the man.
Later, Ergou bought a pair of cups with cats painted on them.
She is one, and two dogs are one.
Immediately after that, her circle of friends always shared some very sad songs.
Ergou talked to her, and she didn't say a few words that she was tired, or busy, and asked her to go to dinner, but she always refused Ergou.
Ergou had an ominous premonition in his heart, and he expected that the trough was accelerating.
Until one day, Ergou saw her putting on makeup.
She rarely wears makeup, just applies skin care products every day, and goes out after wiping something alive. But today, Ergou saw her sitting at the table for a long time, blush and eye shadow, and sat for half an hour.
Ergou's heart is getting colder and colder.
Ergou stood on the balcony and watched her bounce out of the building.
That night, Ergou saw him, the person she hadn't seen for a long time, who had existed in her mind.
Ergou watched them go upstairs hand in hand, and then they started kissing from the door, kissing until the two fell on the sofa, Ergou watched them confess to each other, and then collided, far more intense than before.
They went to take a shower and lay on the bed in the bedroom together, the video was not very clear, but Ergou knew that she was laughing, she exuded joy all over her body, and Ergou knew.
They ordered takeout, she went to open the door, took the bag in the hand of the takeaway brother, and when she came in, Ergou saw that she was opening the bag and opening a box, and then poured a glass of water, like a pill, she drank the water and swallowed it.
He didn't stay that night, he left, taking the garbage bags from the room with him.
At night, when it was very dark, Ergou turned on the light of his mobile phone and found their bag of garbage, which contained a pill box and emergency contraception.
Ergou didn't contact her, she didn't contact Ergou, Ergou knew, even if they got back together, Ergou was just a friend of hers, a friend who had a negative distance.
Or, not even friends.
Ergou finally understood that he was just one of her dogs, temporary, humble, on-call, unknown, and thrown into the dirt when he ran out - dog!
Ergou's heart was twitching, his blood was cold, and a dark emotion was burning.
Ergou wants to redeem her, so that their relationship will always be on the road to climb Gaofeng, if it can't be recovered, Ergou grabbed a flat-headed driver.
So, they went to the middle of nowhere.
Then, she rejected Ergou's redemption.
At last......