This was something Su Mu had been looking for a long time ago, and although she had forgotten what had prompted her to do so, she clearly remembered her purpose. She has always wanted to find the meaning of her existence around other people, and she has always wanted to prove that she exists in various ways, and when this feeling is the strongest, she will even try to make herself feel that painful feeling, trying to prove that she is alive in this way. Those days had almost become a nightmare for Su Mu, and she always tried her best to avoid reminiscing about those days, so she never mentioned it to Ling Feng. But not mentioning it doesn't mean that she will forget, nor does it mean that the impact of that time will disappear forever. On the contrary, in the following years, although Su Mu restrained herself from causing pain on her own, under such an influence, whenever Su Mu realized that she might not be so important in the other party's heart, Su Mu either turned around and left immediately, or went crazy, desperately being good to others, trying to attract the attention of others to her, anyway, she would not let the other party have no impression of her at all.

Although Su Mu knew that her state had almost entered a pathological state. But strangely, she has no control over her behavior at all. She can try to stop hurting her body, but she can't control herself from deliberately brushing her sense of existence. What's even more terrifying is that in the eyes of those who are familiar with Su Mu, Su Mu has indeed become quieter and quieter in recent years, and her image in front of them is completely different from what she imagined about herself.

This is a very strange phenomenon, and perhaps no one can help Su Mu answer this question except for the psychiatrist. Su Mu herself actually knows the seriousness of this situation, she has no prejudice against psychological problems at all, so she also knows that she should look for a solution to the problem when it is just revealed. But there are too many illusions in reality that try to cover up the essence of this problem, so much so that even Su Mu would rather deceive himself than recognize this reality.

The last thing people should do is to deceive themselves. Su Mu has always understood this truth very well, but she has never done it. She even comforted herself that she was only doing it to make her life a little easier. Smart people are never having a hard time, and since life is already difficult, there is no need to push yourself so hard anymore. It sounded like a beautiful reason, but she forgot that the phrase "causal cycle" that she had been putting on her lips would also apply to it. She felt happy now, but only the time she should have given had not yet arrived.

After Valentine's Day was busy, Su Mu began to pack up her things in the store and was ready to move, because the boss was not in a hurry, so Su Mu followed the instructions of the leader little by little, and packed up the things she wanted to take away every time, and the other things were tossed little by little while she was at work. After all, before moving the store, according to the regulations of the mall, it was still necessary to continue to operate, so in order to maintain the normal operation of the store, Su Mu was not in a hurry. In addition, the boss's own work has always been in shifts for the past two days, so Su Mu has to follow the rhythm of her work, running back and forth between the two stores, which also adds a lot of burden to her, and there is no way to concentrate on preparing for the move.

Originally, Su Mu was already a little irritable because of these things, and in the past two days, her dentist has always sent WeChat messages to urge her, so that she can hurry to her to remove the braces when she is free. Su Mu also wanted to take this thing off quickly, but this upside-down working time and place of work really gave her a little headache, not to mention going to take off the braces, and she didn't even have time to watch a movie with Ling Feng, so she could only keep shirking, and in the end, even she was a little annoyed, so under Ling Feng's comfort, she made up her mind that even if she didn't want to get a full attendance award, she would take a day off to take off her braces.

Although it is to become beautiful, she really doesn't want to endure the pain of wearing braces for a day. Recalling the days when he first wore braces, in Su Mu's memory, it was not just pain. Because her teeth were forcibly pulled by external forces, she had no way to bite anything, and her sore teeth made her very upset, so she didn't have any appetite at all, so at the beginning, Su Mu could only drink a little millet porridge every day, and she was directly hungry to the point of seeing things green.

Su Mu always thought that starving until her eyes glowed green was a plot that only happened in it, and she never thought that she would experience this kind of thing one day. She felt a little like laughing at the same time, so that when someone asked her later what was inconvenient about wearing braces, she would tell that person that there was nothing inconvenient, and if she wanted to lose weight, wearing braces would also help her lose weight.

Although she gained a lot of weight because of the fact that she wore braces.

This is also what everyone finds incredible, after all, if you can't eat normally for a long time with braces, it will definitely affect the food and affect the intake, which will definitely lead to weight loss. Su Mu didn't deny this at all, because she had indeed survived this situation, and she understood that hunger very well. But Su Mu is an ordinary person, when she feels hungry, she will not stop eating because of a toothache, even if it is to cut the Snickers into pieces, she has to eat it.

Don't look at Su Mu's lack of food, but her dedication to eating is really incomparable to ordinary people. As long as you stay with Su Mu for a long time, there is no weight that does not rise. The ones that rose the most were the few friends she played with her when she went to Dalian to participate in the Comic Con last time, and they were fed three pounds by Su Mu in three days.

This can't be completely blamed on Su Mu, after all, they can't resist the temptation, as soon as Su Mu says that they want to eat, they will make peace, and no one refuses at all, so it's strange if they are not fat.

But then again, in fact, wearing braces was really not Su Mu's initial choice. Su Mu's teeth have not been good since he was a child, and his family has always said that this is because he gave Su Mu too much calcium when he was a child. Of course, Su Mu would not believe such a statement, but after all, this was her problem, and it was useless to investigate the reason, so she never refuted it. By the time she was in high school, her front tooth was still very small, and every time she smiled and showed her teeth, it would give the impression that she was missing a front tooth. If it were another girl who loved beauty, such a situation would definitely be a huge blow to her. Although Su Mu only loves other people's beauty, to a certain extent, she is not very able to accept that she has any external defects, so this incident has also affected Su Mu for many years.

It was okay earlier, but in high school, due to the influence of adolescence, Su Mu's ability to accept this aspect became fragile. Although no one has made any bad remarks in front of her about this problem of her teeth for so many years, she herself has not shown anything, and even when the friends she just met do not understand the situation, she will laugh at herself on this issue, but Su Mu has to admit that this is a shadow in her heart that has an extremely huge impact. A large part of her lack of self-confidence, her sensitivity, and her low self-esteem come from her dental defects. In addition, over the years, she has heard many people say that she is beautiful and good-looking, so she is even more afraid to speak, for fear that as soon as she speaks, that tooth will destroy all the beauty in the eyes of others. Even if she never thought she was good-looking, she didn't want to see a disappointed look on other people's faces.

Some people who could guess Su Mu's thoughts had also tried to comfort Su Mu and tell Su Mu not to have such negative thoughts. Su Mu also understood that what they said was right, but the problem did not fall on herself, and it would never be a problem, so although Su Mu knew this truth, she still had no way to let herself not care.

In fact, when Su Mu was in high school, he thought about going to do correction, but at that time, his studies were too intense, and his family was afraid that correction would delay Su Mu's study, so he didn't agree to let Su Mu do it. When it was time for college, her family felt that she was not too young to pay all her attention to her appearance, and after so many years, Su Mu should have been used to it a long time ago, so she felt that it was unnecessary to do it or not. Su Mu didn't have any financial strength at that time, so she didn't argue with her family, and it was really expensive to do correction at that time, and her family was not a wealthy family, and she was reluctant to let her parents take out such a large amount of money for her to use, so she thought about waiting until she made money in the future to do it.

Anyway, it's been so many years, and it's not a big problem to stand up.

Later, when she finally graduated, she was not satisfied with the first two jobs, not to mention that she didn't make any money, and almost all the savings she saved were used by her to travel. And she gradually changed her mentality, thinking that it was more important to look at a person than his inside, so she gradually gave up this idea. Although she is a little unwilling, she often comforts herself, she has been like this for so many years, and she has not missed much because of this matter of teeth, and it is not so necessary to do orthodontics now, so there is no problem in waiting for another two years.

Having made up this idea, Su Mu focused all his attention on making money and traveling, if it weren't for the fact that her family suddenly wanted to find her a decent job later, hoping that her face would become better, Su Mu would not have the opportunity to straighten her teeth at this time.

After wearing braces, Su Mu felt that it should be the best choice for him at this age. Because the whole process was so painful, she almost didn't stop when she was so strong now, let alone when she was in high school before. At that time, I was too young to think about so many things, and I guess I would have to take it off in a few days because it was too painful. And now, even if she feels that she can't afford it, she has to think about whether she can afford the price, and when she thinks of this, even if she can't bear it, she has to force herself to bear it.

A year and a half is neither a long nor a short period for those who undergo orthodontics. According to Su Mu's ability to bear the pain, although the process was very difficult, she quickly adapted to the day when she wore braces, and she was not so much looking forward to the day when the braces were removed. But then again, this is something that affects her appearance, and wearing braces is really troublesome, it always scrapes her mouth, not to mention, it is inconvenient to eat and brush her teeth, and if she can take it off a day earlier, she can get rid of such pain a day earlier, so after learning that she can take off the braces, even if she was calm before, she suddenly felt that time began to become difficult, and she wanted to take this thing off immediately.

After Ling Feng knew about this matter, he must accompany Su Mu, but Su Mu didn't want to have Ling Feng accompany him at this time. It's not because of anything else, but Su Mu has always thought that this kind of thing that can completely expose her flaws, she doesn't want anyone to get involved. So when she was pulling teeth and wearing braces before, although it was very painful and Su Mu was also very scared, she still refused her mother's request and didn't let her come along.

At that time, the dentist still admired Su Mu's courage, and told her that he had rarely seen a little girl come to extract a tooth by herself, and when she knew that she was going to have a tooth extracted, these little girls always had to find someone to accompany her, either parents or objects, or girlfriends. Su Mu explained that she actually had someone to accompany her, but she didn't agree. As a result, after listening to it, the doctor felt that Su Mu was even more powerful, and couldn't help but praise her twice, and then when the tooth was extracted, he also found his assistant to accompany her.

Su Mu was made to cry and laugh by this dentist, but she knew that he was also out of good intentions, and he was afraid that she would not be able to call someone when she needed someone during the tooth extraction process, so he prepared an assistant for her in advance. However, the whole process was extremely smooth, except for the pain that Su Mu had when he was injected with anesthetics, there was nothing else that Su Mu couldn't accept.

Later, when she wore braces, another doctor also asked Su Mu the same question, why didn't she wear someone to accompany her, Su Mu had to find an excuse casually, so that she could be regarded as foolish.

The pain at the beginning has already passed, and the end is a relief for Su Mu, and he doesn't need anyone else. But Ling Feng always insisted that he must accompany Su Mu, even if Su Mu had explained all the reasons for this, and also made it clear that she didn't want others to see her so embarrassed, but Ling Feng still insisted. 2k reading web