I stood on the guardrail against the wind, looking wide to find the reflection of the "city in the sky" on the flowing river, but all I could see was the glitz of the city under the flashing neon lights, and I realized that I was so afraid of death, afraid of being drowned in the bottomless moat.

I looked back at Zhang Rixuan, but she looked so indifferent.

"Are you really not going to persuade me?" I frowned and asked Zhang Rixuan.

"Why should I advise you?"

"But I'm going to die if I jump. ”

"It's you who dies, not me. Zhang Rixuan still said with an expression of not being surprised or surprised

I jumped off the guardrail and said angrily, "I didn't misunderstand you at all, you are a poisonous woman, and in order to achieve your own goals, you do not hesitate to let others die." ”

"I don't have a purpose, you said you were going to jump into the river. Zhang Rixuan still said very calmly

I was even more angry, pointed at Zhang Rixuan and said, "Can you not be so calm and put me to death?... I remember I called you to persuade me not to dance, and according to the script I set, you shouldn't have done that

"When I came, you were like a dead man, and you couldn't jump, so why did you call me so much? Zhang Rixuan's words finally had anger

I was a little aggrieved, I did jump under the impulse, who knew that my life should not be extinguished, and suddenly the strength of the wine rushed up and made me fall asleep.

I didn't know how to explain to Zhang Rixuan and said nonsense, "I really want to jump the moat, when I was about to jump, I remembered that I still owe you more than 10,000 yuan and haven't paid it back, it doesn't matter if I die!

Because I am a person with a conscience and a moral bottom line, I will never do that kind of immoral thing that I don't pay my debts. ”

"What a tragedy!" Zhang Rixuan looked at me and said with a smile.

"Is it really tragic? You don't know how much I struggled at that time, on the one hand, the liberation after death, and on the other hand, the conscience condemnation after not paying the debt, it is difficult to choose... Of course, in the end, I chose to keep the moral bottom line with great difficulty, so I am still alive. I said with an exaggerated expression.

Zhang Rixuan seemed unwilling to listen to my nonsense anymore, got up from the ground, and prepared to leave

"Wait. "I called out to Zhang Rixuan.

"What's wrong again?" Zhang Rixuan was already very impatient between her words, and put on the coat she had just put on me

"Have you been sitting here watching over me since the afternoon?"

"I'm here to collect your body, not to persuade you, so I'm here in the evening. Zhang Rixuan said with her characteristic calmness

"Who are you bluffing, you're coming to collect my body and help me put on my coat?" With a meaningful smile, I debunked Zhang Rixuan's lies, Zhang Rixuan looked back at me and said coldly

"The corpse will be covered with a thing

Don't you know?"

I was speechless by Zhang Rixuan's words, so I jumped out of the fight, so the alcohol that had not been completely digested began to stir up waves in my body again, I was dizzy, and then I had a strong feeling of vomiting.

I lay on the guardrail, hollowing myself out and spitting vomit into the moat, and I drank too much wine by noon.

After vomiting, I collapsed and sat down against the guardrail, closed my eyes, my consciousness became more and more clear, and the image of the wedding experience of Li Yang and Yanjie at noon reappeared in my mind, and then a tearing pain filled my body.

At that moment, Tai Jing helped Angel put on a diamond crystal necklace that meant a token of love, and I wanted to tell Angel desperately

I want to go back to the past, the past that rejoiced in silence, the past that was affectionate and loving, but the past that I never could go back to, I lost Angel, and I could only watch her happy in someone else's world forever!

In the pain of tearing, there was a warm feeling from the corners of my eyes, and I felt like crying!

It's not me crying, it's the city in the sky that is crying, and she's using her tears to break down the sorrow in my heart.

"You cried, wiped your tears. ”

When I opened my eyes, it turned out that Zhang Rixuan had not left, and she handed me a tissue.

I didn't pick up the tissues, and it was better to let the wind dry the tears so that they wouldn't leave any traces.

Zhang Rixuan squatted down and looked at me, and finally asked in a lighter tone: "Is it that what I just said on the net is too heavy? I shouldn't laugh at you for being a corpse."

I was silent for a long time and whispered: "Actually, it has nothing to do with you, even if it is really a corpse, it is only painful before death, but the pain of being alive is heartbreaking... You know how it feels?

Zhang Rixuan shook his head and said, "I don't understand, all I'm thinking about now is when you will move out of my house."

"Are you that annoying me?" I asked, smiling, tears drying out

"Yes, your actions really don't give me a good impression, you're an out-and-out bastard!" Zhang Rixuan said bluntly.

"Really?... But you don't know that the bastard who did all the bad things in your eyes once had a clean city in his heart!

"I don't quite understand what you're talking about. ”

"You don't need to understand... Because today this city has been detached from my body and has become a city in the sky that I will never be able to touch!"

I looked down and fumbled in my pockets, but there was no cigarette left for me to burn away my melancholy and mend my broken soul. Zhang Rixuan didn't speak, she was in mine

Sitting next to him, leaning on the guardrail behind him in the same posture, our surroundings became quieter and quieter, as if isolated from the hustle and bustle of the city by the night, a gust of night wind blew, blowing out the equality of all beings, blowing out the fireworks in the world, I saw a cigarette on the ground that was only half smoked by me and extinguished, picked it up, blew it, and lit it again, the smell of tobacco spread again, and dissipated in the dim light, I finally said to Zhang Rixuan: "I know you want me to go, I will move out tomorrow." ”

"Is it real this time?"

"It's true... I don't even have a city

If you lose it, will you still care about a room?

Zhang Rixuan seemed a little curious about the city I always mentioned, and she asked me, "What does the sky city you said look like?"

I thought for a moment and said: "She is a crystal clear but always silent city, she has a kind of magic, it will make people forget their troubles, forget their pain, forget the glitz, when you live in it, nothing matters anymore, because you will become a crystal clear bird, breaking through all constraints and shuttling in the wind of freedom."

"But the bird will eventually land, and will it still be crystal clear after it lands?" Zhang Rixuan looked at me and asked.

"I don't know... Because I haven't thought about what I'll look like when I land. "Maybe my pitiful appearance aroused Zhang Rixuan's sympathy, this night, she didn't treat me

Abandoned by the river, I drove to the bustling and somewhat illusory city in her car, and I had already made up my mind that after this night I would move out of that old house, and my life would not be any worse anyway, it would be better to complete Zhang Rixuan and return her to peace.

On the way, we were silent, this silence I understand that Zhang Rixuan is still dissatisfied with my deception of her several times today, and I am now depressed and pitiful can not completely extinguish the flame of her anger, can bring me back from the suburbs has shown a very human touch Back to the community where we live, Zhang Rixuan parked the car, I walked with her to the entrance of the building one after the other, but unexpectedly found that the father was sitting on the steps of the entrance of the building, and the old black briefcase that had been used for decades was placed next to him.

(End of chapter)

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