(5) The first time I mentioned breaking up

After Su Mu finished saying this, her tears began to fall uncontrollably.

She admits that she is a person who is easily affected by emotions and sheds tears, such as when reading books and watching TV dramas, she can't control her tears when she sees touching or sad or special reunion scenes. However, her tiredness is very strange, for example, when "A Dog's Mission" and "Wolverine 3" were released at the same time, she didn't cry when she watched "A Dog's Mission", which her friends thought was particularly touching, but cried for nearly half of the time when she watched "Wolverine". What's even more exaggerated is that when Leduo accompanied her to watch the premiere of "Avengers III", he almost watched her cry. Since Loki's death, Su Mu's tears have hardly stopped, and when the two of them came out of the movie theater, Leduo has always regretted why she didn't prepare a large pack of tissues when she went out, so that she almost wiped Su Mu's tears and blew her nose with her sleeve.

But although Su Mu loves to cry like this, she has hardly cried in public because of her own affairs. Even if she was greatly wronged, she could endure it until she went home, even if her parents asked, she would not cry, she would only hide and cry by herself. She had always felt that her self-control ability was quite good, but since she was with Ling Feng, her self-control ability seemed to have disappeared.

She really couldn't remember the first time she had cried because of Ling Feng when she was working, which made her have to think about what the meaning of the two of them being together was. And now she began to wonder if she was right to keep going.

Yes, that's right, he said that he wanted to give Ling Feng a chance and wait for him to get better slowly, but according to the current trend of development, Ling Feng not only didn't show any signs of getting better, but even seemed to get worse. She really couldn't understand why Ling Feng had been calling her recently, no matter what she did, it didn't seem right in his eyes.

She wasn't the one who couldn't afford to let go, if Ling Feng felt that she didn't love her anymore and had no feelings for her, then she didn't mind breaking up with Ling Feng at all. After all, she had already planned to break up with Ling Feng before she started, and it was nothing to break up now. And she had already told Ling Feng that if there were other girls she liked, she must tell her that she could accept his frank confession, but she would never accept him getting along with others behind her back. Now it seems that it is really impossible for Ling Feng to become like this for other reasons than these two reasons, so why has the relationship already become like this, but he still doesn't break up and wants to torture the two of them?

Is it waiting for her to say break up?

Who said a breakup makes that big of a difference?

When he thought of this, Su Mu's tears already had an uncontrollable tendency. She wanted to hang up the phone while wiping her tears, but before she could hang up, Ling Feng's voice suddenly rang from the other side of the phone.

"What are you crying about, what is there to cry about in a day, are you annoying!"

When Ling Feng's words fell on Su Mu's ears, Su Mu was so shocked that his heartbeat skipped a beat. Her eyes widened in shock, she couldn't believe it at all, this was what Ling Feng would say. And she couldn't think of any other words to describe the rest of her mood other than shock.

She suddenly had the feeling that the sky was falling, and it was almost pitch black in front of her.

Su Mu didn't say another word, but hung up the phone at a very fast speed. And in order not to let Ling Feng disturb her again, after hanging up the phone, she quickly changed the passwords of all the software to prevent Ling Feng from logging in to his software again, and then she muted the phone, then wiped away her tears, and told Li Chao that if there was any news in the work group, she should remember to tell her.

Li Chao didn't know what was going on, when he heard the two people arguing, he honestly sat far away, and it wasn't until Su Mu talked to him that he sat down on the console again and continued to start the work he hadn't done just now.

And since Su Mu said that, she has been walking back and forth in the store in a trance, her eyes are empty, as if she has lost her soul.

Maybe it was because he felt that he could no longer play a role in relieving his mood, so at this moment, Su Mu's tears disappeared. And Su Mu, who couldn't cry, seemed even more at a loss, she felt that her whole body was in pain, and she couldn't help but hug herself tightly, but the feeling of pain did not lessen a little. So she began to bite her lower lip tightly, until her lips were bitten white, and she seemed to regain a little bit of her consciousness.

She made up her mind to break up.

All along, the reason why she wanted to persist was that she felt that Ling Feng still liked her. That's why she wants to work hard, she wants to grow up with Ling Feng, and accompany him to get better little by little. She understood that everyone had to have a process of growth, and she was also willing to give Ling Feng time, she thought that as long as she had the patience to wait, Ling Feng would be able to understand one day how much she had paid for him and how much she loved him. But all this effort and patience was all destroyed when Ling Feng had just said that sentence to her.

She never thought that the two people who were once thought to be in a sweet relationship by so many people would one day become like this. She hadn't believed that the person she once loved would become the most disgusting person in the eyes of the other party, but just now, she seemed to experience that feeling in an instant.

So at this point, there is no point in continuing at all.

Although Su Mu had such thoughts, she did not call back immediately. She knows very well what the things she is going to do next will have and what kind of impact will be there, she is still working, and she can't let these things affect the interests of the store.

So you see, when people go to society, there are a lot of things that they can't help themselves. But Ling Feng would never be able to understand these truths before her. A relationship may not make people understand what she wants, but it will definitely make her understand what she doesn't want, and Su Mu now knows very well that she no longer wants to continue this relationship. Not only because she felt tired from the process of accompanying him, but also because she was disappointed in him.

People say that girls' disappointments are accumulated again and again, and when they can say it, they will never have hope again. Su Mu knew that she hadn't reached this point yet, but a person like her, who would rather take the initiative to abandon others in order not to be abandoned, couldn't wait for her to be desperate, she didn't want that kind of thing to happen to her.

After that, until the end of work, Ling Feng never sent a message or made a phone call. If it was before, if Ling Feng hadn't called immediately, Su Mu would definitely not have waited so long, it was estimated that after a while, he would have cried enough, and he would take the initiative to call Ling Feng, make a coquettish or pretend to be wronged, and let him coax himself. Although it was a bit against her will, she thought that a boy of his age needed more self-esteem and needed to have a step down, so she tried her best to lower her figure, first took the initiative to show favor, and then after Ling Feng's temper was gone, she would reason with him or something.

But this time she didn't do it, just like Ling Feng insisted on not contacting her.

stayed up until the end of work, and Su Mu dragged his tired body home. After opening the door and feeling the darkness into her room, and then making sure that her parents were asleep, she cleaned herself up, got into the bed, and then took out her mobile phone.

Ling Feng called her at 8:50, which happened to be when she had just gotten off work, but because her phone was silent, she didn't hear it. She originally wanted to call back directly, but when she thought that Ling Feng might be playing a game with her roommate at this time, she dispelled these thoughts, and instead put down her phone and grabbed a book to read.

Although she didn't have the heart to read at all at this time, she always had to do something to kill the time. So after two hours of hard work, Su Mu called Ling Feng on time at half past eleven.

The phone rang for a long time before it was picked up by Ling Feng, and as soon as it was connected, the first thing that came to Su Mu's ears was the sound of constantly pressing the screen while playing games, and the sound of Ling Feng's roommate talking.

At that moment, Su Mu felt as if her heart was a little colder again, she took a deep breath, and then said to Ling Feng in as calm a tone as possible:

"I'll get back when I'm done. ”

Fifteen minutes later, Su Mu's phone finally had Ling Feng's call prompt. She hesitated for a moment to figure out how to speak, before she picked up the phone.

"What's the matter with the call?"

There was obviously a kind of joy hidden in Ling Feng's tone, but he also forced a very stern tone. Su Mu knew very well that it was the tone he would have when they were fighting in the dormitory or when the game was won, and she suddenly felt a little disgusting, and her tone unconsciously became serious.

"The two of us are not suitable, so let's break up. ”

Ling Feng thought that Su Mu was using means to attract his attention, or just wanted him to coax her like before, so he didn't care at all, and just said casually that it was impossible. Before this, Su Mu had thought of many kinds of Ling Feng's reactions, but he had never thought that he would have such an attitude, which almost made the strong forces that Su Mu had just established collapse in an instant again.

"What does it mean that it can't be?"

"It's impossible to break up, and I can't coax you. ”

"I didn't ask you to coax me, I just wanted to break up with you. ”

"It's impossible for you to understand what I said?"

The more Su Mu's words were spoken, the more like he was crying, and after Ling Feng heard it, all the good moods he had when he was playing the game disappeared at once, and he yelled at Su Mu directly. Of course, he regretted it a little after yelling, but he didn't know what was going on, he just felt that if he didn't yell such a sentence, Su Mu would not be obedient. This is about the habit that he cultivated every time he quarreled before, because every time he quarreled before, as long as he yelled like this, Su Mu would immediately be obedient, even if she was so aggrieved that she was crying, she would give up her strength, soften her attitude, and beg him to coax her like other girls. He has always hoped that Su Mu is like this, and sometimes he is really tired of the way she has to say that she is very wronged when she has made a mistake, and he doesn't feel that he is wrong, and always says that he is young.

Can you do whatever you want when you are old, besides, he just needs her to be obedient, this is really a very simple thing, why can't Su Mu do it?

He had been working hard to meet Su Mu's requirements, why did Su Mu never make any changes because of him?

Just when Ling Feng's mind kept thinking about this, Su Mu had already stopped his tears on the other side. Although she felt that Ling Feng's behavior was really unreasonable at this moment, she didn't want to quarrel with him on this kind of issue, so she continued to say to herself:

"I understand, but I want to make the impossible possible. ”

"Are you sick, telling you that no is impossible. Don't talk to me about this, if there is anything else to do on the phone, go to bed if not. ”

"You've always liked to run away from problems, and you don't even want to ask why I want to break up with you. ”

"Why should I ask? Aren't you just here to be me, and want me to coax you? I said, no way, no way to break up, no way to coax you. It's okay to go to bed quickly, if you don't sleep, I'll still sleep, I don't know if I get up early for class tomorrow?"

"I said it, I don't need you to coax me, and I'm not doing you, I just think the two of us are really inappropriate, so I hope the two of us can break up peacefully. ”

"You're a liar, a big liar, who said that as long as I don't let go, you'll never leave me, and I don't agree to break up, so why do you say break up? What qualifications do you have to tell me to break up?"

After Su Mu said these words, Ling Feng's whole person was like crazy and began to become hysterical. Su Mu completely ignored his tone and attitude, and just answered Ling Feng's question very calmly.

"I said it to one person, but that person is not you, he won't make me cry, and he won't force me to admit my mistakes when I'm crying, and blame all the mistakes on me. He will surprise me, he will make me feel that he has me in mind all the time. But you're not him, you just make me cry all the time, you only accuse me of being wrong, you haven't even said you love me for a long time, even every time you quarrel with me, you haven't said a word that you love me. I can't be wronged to be with someone who doesn't love me, but I can't wait for that person to come back. "Take a hundred plating and read the latest chapter of "My Shengqing Weisheng Claw Book House" for free for the first time.