The cinema hall is connected by two seats, and the front and rear and the aisles are spacious.

Because she wanted to drink Coke, Du Shi had to take off her mask, and even if she couldn't see the faces of the audience next door, she still cautiously lowered the brim of her hat and looked up at the screen.

The first ten minutes of the content focus on the heroine's childhood, and the voice of Dusch runs through it, recounting her childhood experience from the perspective of memory, and her first appearance is in high school. There will be memories of the same year interspersed with them.

"At that time, I didn't understand the meaning of my biological father and stepfather, let alone what it meant to reorganize a family, and I was not even old enough to remember, but now I can only remember that in the blue leather pickup truck that was rickety on the rough road, I sat on my mother's lap and looked out the window, the dust flying in the sun was like gold, and there were low houses on both sides of the road, and there was a small yard in front of the house, there were small shops and barber shops, and when I passed in front of a certain house, I smelled the fragrance of steamed buns, and I was full of anticipation at that moment......

In the picture, the little girl is holding the car window with her hands, and her black and white eyes are under her bangs. Curiously gazing at the scenery on the side of the road, coupled with Dusch's calm voice after the trauma, quickly introduces people into the play.

The car drove a section of the road without many people, and saw the roadside houses lined up from a distance, and the neighbors had heard that the man had married a wife, and went to pick it up today, and after hearing the movement, they all stood outside the house and watched, wanting to see the appearance of the woman, who knew that the woman was with a baby. For a while, there was a lot of pointing, and there was a lot of discussion.

A group of boys playing marbles in the compound also stopped, covered in dust and sweat, staring strangely at the girl in the car.

The stepfather turned the car into an alley and finally stopped in front of a small two-story building, two mottled mahogany doors closed tightly in the color of dried blood.

In the small township more than 20 years ago, the secular tolerance for divorce and remarriage was not high, and the biological father of the heroine was originally in good condition, the mother and daughter were dressed exquisitely and fashionably, and they looked out of place with the surrounding neighbors.

The stepfather and parents died, and he was also withdrawn, alone, and often had bad relations with others, and the mother and daughter became isolated objects.

Not only that, but the stepfather's true nature was gradually exposed, and he was an alcoholic and gambling. Domestic violence has made the lives of the mother and daughter even more miserable.

One night, when the stepfather came back drunk, his wife asked, "Are you drinking again?"

The stepfather didn't say a word, grabbed his wife's hair from the door and dragged it in, the wife had no power to fight back, hit her forehead on the door, almost fainted, and the whole person was dragged to the ground and pulled in.

For a while, the crying and scolding in the yard came together, the girl stood at the door and watched this scene, stunned and did not dare to move, nor dared to speak, her eyes were full of fear, the first time her mother was beaten, she was so frightened that she cried, and was beaten by her stepfather until she was bruised.

The alley in front of her house was dark, and she stood there alone, and even the darkness seemed less terrifying.

Then the neighbor's boy came out of the darkness, took her by the hand and sat down on the steps beside her, and gave her half a popsicle, and she looked at it but didn't eat it.

The boy snorted his popsicle with relish: "It's five cents, you're half bigger." If you don't eat, you'll have to pay me back three cents, do you have any money?"

The girl quickly shoved the popsicle into her mouth.

The two children sat on the steps by the wall, until the beating and scolding inside had subsided, and the mother came out to look for the child, and the boy ran away.

Many years after that. This situation has happened countless times, and the boy has become the heroine's dependence and spiritual pillar.

On the eve of graduating from elementary school, when her mother was abused again, the heroine who had a sense of self mustered up the courage to call the police. But before the patrol arrived, he witnessed his stepfather lose his mind, grabbed his mother's head and kept slamming into the crimson iron door, and the blood stains and red paint were almost integrated.

She desperately stepped forward to stop it, and she lost half her life.

Mother in that domestic violence in the internal organs of the broken and brain injury, treatment ineffective death, stepfather in prison, news from afar, biological father has also died, no relatives and no reason of the heroine rely on social assistance to live and go to school, but in middle school suffered a series of school violence, resulting in her psychological breakdown.

The boy and her childhood sweetheart, always pulled her back from the brink of ending life at critical times, and when she graduated from high school, the two established a relationship. But because the university that the heroine was admitted to was in a different city, the two had to start a long-distance relationship.

In his sophomore year, the heroine secretly went north to meet him without telling him, but found out that he had a girlfriend who had been dating for many years, and the two had already lived together.

The heroine's depression relapses. Because he committed suicide in the dormitory several times, he was persuaded by the school to keep his student status for treatment.

But she has no family and no money, and she wants to get rid of this dark life, so she can only take antidepressant drugs day after day while working part-time.

After her condition improved slightly, she went back to school, got a scholarship, and went to graduate school. Eventually, he became a well-known journalist.

This life was included in her autobiography to be published at the age of thirty-two.

When she sent the manuscript to the editor and left her desk, the camera was filled with green plane trees outside the window. Sunlight shone through the cracks and into the study, and the shadows of leaves and branches fell on the desk.

The camera falls on the computer file, and the last sentence of the afterword is: The world is acceptable.

At the bottom is the payment and date.

This is the end of the movie, in the ending song sung by the female voice, the camera overlooks Wutong Street outside the heroine's address, people and cars come and go, and they are full of anger.

Meng Yan didn't say anything for a long time, and asked before the light: "The last postscript, is it a suicide note?"

Dusch hasn't played yet. Nodding with a heavy heart, many people found out at the first time, and some people only analyzed it after the second brush, and the date of the payment was the same as the time when the heroine went to her stepfather's house with her mother at the beginning of the film.

The heroine seems to have broken free from the mud. lived a successful and upward life, but in fact, he struggled with depression all his life, and the shadow of his childhood lingered, so he chose the time node that initially changed the trajectory of his life to end his life.

The lights came on and the hall burst into applause, and Du Shi hurriedly put on his mask, but the man in the seat next to him in the aisle leaned over and said, "The movie is very good." ”

Du Shi's masked hand paused and looked at Huo Shifang.

As if she realized something, she turned around and looked around, the entire hall was full of people from the Meng family, mostly of the younger generation.

Du Shi originally thought that he had chartered the scene, and there were only the two of them in the audience, but when she came in, she saw other audiences, and thought that this was just a show that Meng Yankai bought casually, and the lights had been turned off at that time, so she couldn't see other people's faces clearly, so she wore a hat again, lowered her head to find a position, and didn't take the initiative to look at others.

She looked at Meng Yankai in surprise: "Is it really you who chartered the venue?"

At this time, someone stepped forward to talk to her, and there were waves of praise. almost made Du Shi unable to find the north, she smiled and thanked people over and over again, greeting her.

Whether these people are sincere or fake, at least this moment seems to be full of affirmation for her.

It was still early after the movie ended, and Meng Yankai asked Qu He to book a restaurant in the hotel next to him. The group went over to eat.

Meng Zhizhi was also there, and when he walked out, he took Du Shi's hand and said, "Shi Fang praised you to me yesterday, saying that your movie is very good, and I was thinking about when to go and see it." I just saw the group saying that Yan Kai gave you a package in order to support you. ”

Meng Zhizhi looked at Meng Yankai as he spoke, and said with a smile: "Becoming a family is different, and doing things is becoming more and more comprehensive." ”

Du Shi was very grateful on his face, but he was suspicious in his heart, he didn't know what she meant, obviously he had personally come to the house to let her stay away from Huo Shi before, why didn't he avoid suspicion today?

Huo Shifang said as if chatting: "The image is very deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, and the state of the depressed person is very realistic, and those who don't know think you have experienced it yourself." ”

Du Shi was stunned for a moment, looked at him fixedly, and soon said with a faint smile: "Thank you, it's too good." ”

Huo Shifang turned his eyes to look at Meng Yankai and saw that he was staring at him, as if he had been looking at him for a long time.

The two looked at each other, Meng Yankai hooked his lower lip, and the two nodded to each other.

Du Shi was happy tonight, Meng Yankai successfully made her float, which is a feeling that no matter how many viewers affirm, he drank two more glasses at dinner.

Leaving the restaurant, Dusch's steps were already a little vain.

The group walked in the direction of the elevator, Meng Yankai was talking to a cousin, just for a short while, his eyes were not on Du Shi, and in a blink of an eye, she was not steady, and when he looked, the person was already being held by Huo Shi.

Huo Shifang instructed in a low voice: "Be careful." ”

Meng Yankai stretched out his hand and pulled the person, and Du Shi leaned on his chest like a soft bone.

Huo Shifang looked at Meng Yan innocently, smiled and said, "She doesn't drink very well. ”

It's an affirmative, not a question.

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