This afternoon, the weather was raining lightly, the cold wind was raging in the city, I stood at the door of the people's hospital with an umbrella with the girl in front of me, her face was a little pale, and I don't know if it was cold or...

I was about to take off my clothes and put them on her, when she spoke: "Jia Ming... I... I'm pregnant!"

I was stunned for a moment, then turned my eyes and said, "You are pregnant, you are pregnant, you are looking for the child and her father, it is still raining all the way away, what are you asking me to come over!"

"I've been with you alone this year, don't look for anyone you find!"

"I said I slept with you a woman this year, do you believe it?"

"You're a bastard! Are you a man?"

"How do I sleep with you? Bar, big sister! They all come out to play, and you rely on me when you encounter this kind of thing, and I am confused and happy to be a father?

Chu He was silent for a while, and said, "I have already taken it out, and there is no evidence." ”

I was a little angry: "Do you think I'm a stupid x, why did your kid take it off, and... I raised my hand and said weakly: "Tell me again that the child is my Zhang Jiaming, are you fake and naïve or am I really stupid?... We're all adults, can we do something decent?"

She still stood there with a pale face, her eyes seemed to have some tear stains, she bit her lip, then raised her head and said, "If you are not responsible, I will go to your company!"

"I, what are you doing!" I said loudly, causing passers-by to turn back.

She wasn't talking, but I looked at her and thought... This girl doesn't go to acting is really a failure in life, this acting is too good! I met her in a bar, a woman who often clubs, said that she only had a relationship with one man a year, I want to believe her, I'm stupid!

I didn't want to mess with her here, so I took out my wallet, pulled out all the hundred-dollar bills from it, and handed it to her: "Isn't it just money, take it, don't come to me." ”

Chu He didn't entangle with me, nodded, and walked towards the hospital with an umbrella, as if there was still a fee to be settled......

Looking at her departing back, I suddenly had an indescribable emotion in my heart, although I still don't believe that the child in her belly is mine, but I feel that she must have a hard time now, otherwise she wouldn't have slandered me like this.

I was silent for a moment and called out to her, "Wait......"

Chu He looked back at me

I took out another bank card from my wallet and handed it to her: "This card can overdraw some money, you just had surgery, and you can buy something to make up for yourself." ”

She didn't answer: "No need, seeing that you are willing to be responsible, is my purpose, I am looking for you because I don't want to be slept with in a daze, and I have an abortion in a daze!"

.......

In the bar, I drank a lot of alcohol while waiting for Li Yang, the only friend and colleague in the city.

From the first day I came to this bar, I saw too many women, empty men, drinking all kinds of alcohol, or silent, or looking for something called "drunken life and dreaming death" with lust in their eyes.

It's all like this, when we throw away the body of the day, and let the soul get lost in this glimmer of light, we are already drunk and dreaming of death.

I forget what night I started that night, I regarded this place as a place to settle down, I like to watch the women who twist their waists here, I like the flickering lights, I like the various colors of wine, I like the smell of perfume mixed with tobacco, I like the drunken dream here, and then in the mess of drunken dreams and death, the messy past is carved into a tombstone.

Light a cigarette, smoke the film on the cigarette case, cover it in front of my eyes, look at the swaying light, my body is also swaying, in the light refracted by the film, I seem to see a kind of erosion that can be passed, I can't help but be a little fascinated!

Li Yang pulled off the film in my hand, and my world suddenly became clear again.

"What's the matter with you yelling at me in such a hurry?" Fang Yuan put down the briefcase in his hand and took out a cigarette from my cigarette case to light it for himself.

"Borrow some money, I'm being blackmailed!" Got the girl's belly bigger again?"

Li Yang said strangely. "Your uncle again! This time he was really falsely accused, "Who slandered you this time?"

"What are you doing with so much nonsense?"

"I borrow thousands, thousands of dollars from you every time, and you at least let me know that my money has been blackmailed by someone, right?"

"Chu He!" I said angrily, lighting a cigarette.

"The graphic mannequin?" Isn't it just her, your circle is in chaos, she said that she was slept with by a man of mine in a year, do you believe it? Li Yang, this matter is going to be put on you, do you believe it?"

I crackled with my fingers.

"This kind of thing can't happen to me, and besides, she won't cheat you for thousands of dollars, the promotional posters of our department store last month were all taken by her, and the remuneration alone is more than 10,000 yuan. ”

I sneered and interrupted Fang Yuan, "Don't you look at what she usually spends more than 10,000 yuan to live with her for a month, at this time, she has an accident with others, and she has no money to deal with the aftermath, and she thinks of me again, a cheap pao friend... I'm so cheap, I shouldn't have been kind enough to introduce her to our company in the first place, I didn't make less money for her, and now she is still cheating me, do you still have a conscience in the industry!"

Li Yang ignored my anger and asked me in a low voice, "Did you bring that thing with you when you slept with her?"

I thought about it for a long time, but I remembered that I was about to break off when I was drunk, and I really couldn't remember whether I had a condom or not, so I said, "I brought it...... If you can't say you've been cheated!"

Li Yanghu glanced at me suspiciously, and then sighed and said to me after a long time: "Jiaming, we have been friends for almost ten years, sometimes I really want to persuade you, I know that Anqi broke up with you, which hit you hard, but it has been two years, you really don't need to practice your youth like this, find a girlfriend and settle down, okay?" When the name Anqi was mentioned again, I was subconsciously stunned before saying, "Don't fuck, I'm idle, buddy is doing well!" There's no shortage of worries!, huh?" Li Yang enlightened me for a long time, I coped with it impatiently for a long time, and finally he left with a sentence "The mud can't support the wall", and left with dissatisfaction, but forgot about me borrowing money from him.

Fortunately, I have been in the bar for two years, and I often bring some friends to the bar to consume, and I am quite familiar with the bar owner, so the consumption of this drink is temporarily recorded in the account. Walking in the bar, walking in the rain-soaked streets with an umbrella, I really experienced what it means to be a child, I have struggled in this city for two years, but what I have gained is endless emptiness and loneliness, in order to get rid of this poison-like emptiness and loneliness, I have to wear it

The last mask to hide shame is alive, and with this mask, I can live in laissez-faire with peace of mind

But no matter how much I struggled on the brink of pain, she wouldn't come back......

Alone in the amazement of the road to go back to their own community, this is an old community, the old not even a property, the first year to come, listen to the aunts in the community said, this community was built in the early 90s of the last century, under the erosion of the long years, each building in the community looks so decadent, but one next to each other, for fear of being lonely, so it seems that each building has life again, which makes me think: in the dead of night, they will also say a few whispers, dispel decades of loneliness with a cigarette in their mouth, take out the key from their pocket, I walked to the building where I livedThis building is the only one in the community that has a creeper, every summer, the south-facing walls will be very green, if these buildings, there is also a gender distinction, then this building is undoubtedly a woman, an indifferent woman. It often makes people feel sad for her!

What surprised me was that there was a red Audi Q7 parked downstairs in this dilapidated building, and in my image, I lived here for two years, and there seemed to be no more than 500,000 cars in this community. I didn't think much about it, I whistled, walked along the corridor to the house where I lived, and when I reached the top floor, I was surprised to find that the door of the house was hidden, and I remembered that the door was obviously locked when I left, and I subconsciously thought that there was a thief in the house, and I remembered that I had not paid rent to the landlord Lao Li for two months, and most of it was Lao Li who came to urge rent.

Pushing open the door, the landlord Lao Li and a strange woman sat on the sofa, and a string of Audi Q7 car keys were placed on the coffee table, and there was no doubt that the Q7 parked downstairs was this strange girl.