Chapter 501: She Has to Be
Gu Jinyan was stunned for a moment, she felt that something was wrong, Mrs. Ke came to her, it had nothing to do with Mu Beichen, right?
"Mr. Mu, that seems to be my business?" Gu Jinyan looked at him, this man really has to take care of everything now?
And she felt that she should resist, if she gave him some chance to get closer, wouldn't it be good for her?
Gu Jinyan was still so persistent in rejecting all this in her heart.
For her, feelings are still something she doesn't dare to face, and what she is afraid of is still hurt.
If you don't face your feelings, won't they happen?
But can she really escape for the rest of her life? Even if she wants to do this, Mu Beichen won't agree, right?
Gu Jinyan still knows Mu Beichen very well, if that man is unwilling to let go, then he will definitely not let her do whatever she wants.
"Gu Jinyan, do you really have to keep running away like this?" Mu Beichen looked at her with a helpless expression, he knew that Gu Jinyan had been running away for so long, and she was unwilling to face it, but even if it was so, then he had already given her enough time, he wanted her to know that his heart for her would not change, he could give her time, so that she could be better mentally prepared, but Gu Jinyan never seemed to want to face these things.
Gu Jinyan pursed her lips, she didn't speak, she lowered her head slightly, looking at the ground, she didn't know how she should face it was the best, she didn't know if she was willing to face a relationship again, even if the person she was facing was Mu Beichen.
If there should be a choice for everything, then how would she go about it?
No matter who it is, Gu Jinyan is difficult to face, just like she is facing Ke Shaohan, in order to give herself a chance to start over.
But it still didn't go as smoothly as she thought.
She also knew that because of her relationship, the Ke family was actually not comfortable, and Ke Shaohan's departure was even more regretful in Gu Jin's happiness.
"Mr. Mu, I think, I don't want to talk about anything related to feelings now, the Ke family will look for me, in fact, it's just for Shao Han, if it weren't for me, Shao Han wouldn't leave. Gu Jinyan looked at Mu Beichen and told him what she was most afraid of in her heart.
She has always known that she has never had much courage in emotional matters, and she is afraid of causing distress and hurt to the people around her because of her relationship.
"So, do you still care about Ke Shaohan until now?" Listening to Gu Jinyan's words, Mu Beichen's heart felt a little sour.
Even though he knew that Gu Jinyan had always been very considerate of others, he really minded that he took Ke Shaohan's man to heart.
After all, Ke Shaohan has also been gone for a while, hasn't Gu Jinyan ever thought about thinking more about herself?
That incident hurt her a lot.
Gu Jinyan saw displeasure in Mu Beichen's eyes, he was unhappy, but she and he had been separated for three years, and now he said that he cared about her, would she believe it?
Gu Jinyan muttered in her heart, she still had a lot of hesitation.
"I don't know where he is now, I don't know if he's doing well, and I don't think I'm going to have another relationship. Gu Jinyan knew that she would make Mu Beichen angry if she said this.
But she really thought so in her heart, no matter how much Mu Beichen had an impact on her, she still couldn't let go of that guilt and live the life she wanted to live.
"You ......" Mu Beichen looked at her, does this woman think that now that he lets her do everything, she must make him angry?
"Mr. Mu, actually, if you really want to find a woman, you don't have to be me. "There are too many things that have happened between Gu Jinyan and him, and all of them are enough to make Gu Jinyan feel that it would be a relief if some things are over.
"But what if I only want you?" Mu Beichen's hands clasped her shoulders, he didn't know what the woman in front of him was thinking in his heart, didn't she know in her heart that it was impossible for her and Ke Shaohan to be together?
The attitude of the Ke family has already decided everything.
"Mr. Mu, where am I good? Let you have to be so stubborn, you should know that I have done everything in order to let you let go of the car accident back then, in order to fulfill you, in order to let you let go of the hatred in my heart, I have lost everything, even the little life that has not yet been born, you only come to tell me now, we can continue to walk, even if you are willing, but I don't want to!" For her, the pain of the past can never be erased, and it is also the wound that Gu Jinyan is most unwilling to touch.
"I owe you, and I will pay you back one by one. Mu Beichen is willing to exchange everything for Jin Yan's mind.
Gu Jinyan shook her head, "No, it's impossible! Do you know why Shao Han and I can't be together? You obviously know why the Ke family opposes me marrying Shao Han! Some of the things that have been lost can never be made up, and you can't pay it back!"
She didn't know if Mu Beichen would understand if she said this, but she should let him understand.
Mu Beichen looked at her, he knew the pain in her heart, but he was still reluctant to let go of that feeling.
"No matter what you do, I just want you to come back to me, do you understand?" Mu Beichen sighed heavily in his heart.
No matter what Gu Jinyan does, he just wants to love her well, take care of her, and he will compensate her for the harm he once did to her.
He also wanted to tell her that even if she couldn't get pregnant in the future, even if they didn't have children in the future, he didn't care!
Gu Jinyan took a step back slightly, her face was full of bitterness, and she shook her head, "I don't understand, and I don't need to understand!"
She never knew if she could have the courage to go back to the life she had in the past, she didn't know how she should face Mu Beichen, and if she didn't meet, it would be the best result.
"Gu Jinyan, what do you want me to do? Are you willing to give me a chance?" Mu Beichen let go of his arrogance and gave up everything he had in Binhai City, he was just for Gu Jinyan.
Perhaps, there are too many things that he can't imagine, but only Gu Jinyan is what he has wanted to stick to for so long.
"Between us, is it necessary to do it all over again?" Gu Jinyan didn't understand.
She thought that she was in Linjiang City, in a strange city, she could be a different Gu Jinyan, but she was still wrong, as long as she faced Mu Beichen, no matter how strong the fortress in her heart was, it would collapse at any time.
But would she ever think about changing?
No, she never had!
I'm afraid she doesn't want to go back anymore, and she wants to go back to the past!