A moment later, I went downstairs with Li Yang, he got into the company's business car, and I sat in Yanjie's car. My nerves fell into inexplicable colic, and I even complained in my heart that Li Yang shouldn't have told me the news that Angel would come back so suddenly, after 3 years, I didn't know what emotions to use to face her.

I've been crazy for countless days and nights trying to see her, but I'm afraid to see her...... Fear of silence and embarrassment after meeting is too painful.

Yanjie started the car, looked at the rearview mirror and changed lanes, and asked me Jiaming, why do you look preoccupied?" After asking, he shook his head and added, "It's not quite like you!"

I smiled and said, "Do you have to be heartless to be like me?"

"It was Li Yang who told you the news that Angel will be back, right?"

"Hmm. I answered, but opened the window and lit a cigarette.

"No wonder, except for Anqi, no one in this world can pry your Jia Ming's melancholy nerves!" Yanjie sighed.

"You're thinking too much, she's not so aggressive, and I'm not so vulnerable. I still smiled in response. Yanjie shrugged his shoulders and said, "Jiaming knows how cold and warm she is...... The brighter you smile, the more your heart hurts. ”

"It's like you know me better. "This time, I finally put away the smile that Yanjie thought was a disguise, to prove that I was not as hurt as she said.

"So many years of friends, I don't know you who understands you... Jiaming, let's talk to you from the heart, although we all feel sorry for you and Angel, but....I have to tell you: when a woman changes her mind, the man she once loved has become a second-hand smoke that has been smoked, and she can no longer breathe in pleasure, and she smokes her own red eyes, and the only thing she can do at this time is to abandon this second-hand smoke, do you understand what I mean?"

"What are you talking to me about?" I asked, taking a deep puff of my cigarette.

"I hope you're smart. ”

I was silent for a long time and asked unwillingly, "What do you say is love?...... Isn't it just a promise, and then a lifetime of perseverance? Why do you give the other party a promise, but you don't have the courage to be persistent?"

"Jiaming, love is really not as simple as you think, why can Li Yang and I go to the end, but you and An Qi cannot

It should be understood. "I was silent again, I did understand that Li Yang and Yanjie, although they are not rich families, but their family backgrounds are not bad, they can be said to be the right family, and I and Anqi ...... I distinctly remember that before Angel went abroad, her dad bought her a Cadillac CTS as a graduation gift...... But does love really have to be measured by material things? I don't quite understand!

Yanjie said again: "Angel really loved you, and you also know that she went to the United States to study to avoid her parents' forced marriage.

I hope to stay for 3 years, and after returning to China, her parents can accept the fact that she is with you, but why she broke up with you after arriving in the United States, I can't figure it out... Yes. ”

It was really because I didn't want to repeat the feeling I felt when I broke up, so I interrupted Yanjie: "Stop, like you said, when she changes her mind, when I am a second-hand smoke that can't breathe pleasure!"

"I said she changed her mind just as an analogy...", Yanjie comforted again. "There is a kind of person in this world, they have a special ability to comfort a person who wants to die to really die, and there is no doubt that Yanjie is ......

Throughout the day, I accompanied Yanjie to buy the relevant items for their marriage according to the list made by Li Yang, and it was not until the evening that Yanjie and Yanjie simply ate something and dispersed.

Although I didn't sleep all night yesterday and did another day of hard work today, when the night was approaching, I didn't have a trace of sleep, walking on the street, every time I saw the couples snuggling past me under the neon lights, my heart swelled up with endless loneliness and emptiness.

I still habitually wanted to empty myself, as if my night should belong to a nightclub, and I told myself: maybe some drink, today

I will sleep more soundly at night. Listening to the lively bar music and watching the flickering lights, the people who twisted their waists frantically, after a while I had a few beers in my stomach, and people were a little dizzy, I liked this feeling, there were no worries, no love and hatred, only the haze and illusion that was both true and false.

There are two resident bands in this bar, and the two bands take turns performing every night, and today happens to be "tearing" led by Lu Yu

The "Split Nerve" band is singing, and I have a good relationship with Lu Yu, and sometimes we play music together.

Lu Yu stuck his fingers on the guitar strings, made a noise similar to rubbing, and smiled teasingly at me: "Jiaming, come up and play.?" 7

I put down the beer bottle, jumped on the stage, took the guitar from Lu Yu, and said to the rest of the band, "Come on." ”

Everyone nodded, various musical instruments began to speak, and under the flickering lights, the heavy metal music began to expand. With a drunken vent!

I stepped on the prop in the shape of an ammo box with one foot, and began to play the electric guitar frantically, singing in a roaring plosive voice: "The dreaming hand tugged at the flag, the coat tucked my bones, desperately remembering the route from which I came, turned around and smashed against the wall; Mom, I can't come back; Mom, you're a little tired, Mom, give birth to me, lift your throat and tear your neck when you give birth....."

Only halfway through the song, the young man with long hair, a black jacket, and a gold chain stared at him

yelled at me, "What kind of bird are you singing... I stopped and squinted at him, "Your grandson will tell me again." Long hair kicked over the nearest drum kit: "You stupid, Lao Tzu asked you to change the song!"

"I'm fucking, your uncle... I stood on a high place, kicked the long-haired face in the face, as if to find the pleasure of venting, and followed the stage

Zishang jumped down and smashed the guitar with him, and in a blink of an eye the guitar was smashed by me, and the long hair was also beaten and curled up on the ground with his head in his arms, screaming heartbreakingly.

A few people with long hair rushed towards me with beer bottles, but were blocked by Lu Yu and the members of the band, and in the confusion I saw someone calling the police, so I threw away the remains of the guitar and ran out of the bar, and the lights were on in the interrogation room of the police station

On top of me, sitting across from me was an elderly policeman who looked quite kind

"Name, gender, age, place of work. ”

"It's not... Brother policeman, that grandson is really underbeaten, it was he who kicked our drum kit first, you know we play music, the instrument is our own brother, he beat my own brother, can I live with him?... Brother policeman, it's not like I want to fight, there are really bad people in the masses!!" I said with a sad face

"You kid don't talk nonsense, no matter how many reasons you have, it's not right to fight, the law doesn't give you this right, you know

Is it?

"Brother policeman, I know that I am wrong, I have done a very deep introspection and review in my heart, I should not ignore the majesty of the law,

In the future, I will definitely raise my consciousness, be a good citizen who abides by the law, and resolutely do not drag down the harmonious society... I paid the fine. ”

"Not detained, right?" I'm cautious.

"The young man who was beaten by you also suffered some skin trauma, and he agreed to go private, and you compensated him for the cost of going to the hospital and the cost of lost work, plus a fine, a total of 6,000 yuan. ”

"6000 police brother, I don't have so much money with me!"

"Call & call to find your family and friendsWhen I heard the words family and friends, I was suddenly confused, and I really felt at this time

I felt that I was so lonely in this city where I had lived for two years. I definitely can't look for Li Yang or Yanjie, first, they are about to get married, I don't want to provoke them with this trouble, and second, they have expressed their hope to me countless times that they hope that I will live in peace, and it is better not to let them know about such things, for fear that they will be disappointed and think about it for a long time, and the excessive face that hates me extremely but is beautiful appears to me

in the mind.

Looking for Zhang Rixuan, yes, looking for Zhang Rixuan! Anyway, I was a scumbag in her eyes, and I had no image at all, so she asked her to help me pay the fine first

Wait until the next week's salary is paid, and pay her back along with the money she owes before.

At this time, I was really glad that I had written down her mobile phone number in the morning. took out his mobile phone from his pocket, found Zhang Rixuan's number, and then pulled it out.