It seems that no one cares about the episode just now, the whole banquet has always maintained a very good atmosphere, and the wine has not been reduced, anyway, today is the weekend, everyone takes advantage of this banquet to relax themselves.

I was the only one who didn't let go of drinking, because the renovation plan of the bar had not yet been made, and I needed to have a clear mind to work hard for the future of the bar.

Seeing that it was almost half past twelve, I really didn't have the mood to stay any longer, so I said goodbye to everyone first.

Walking out of the hotel and breathing the air outside, my mood was finally not so dull, and I don't know when Renhe followed me out of the hotel.

I took out a cigarette and lit it for myself before I asked him, "Why did you come out too?" ”

"I'm going to go to the company to organize a merchant management meeting later. Renhe explained.

"I have to work overtime on weekends!" I sighed subconsciously.

Renhe smiled and said to me again, "By the way, are you going to have my Alto?"

"What's the price?"

"Forget it, you can drive it, the car won't sell for much anyway, but I'm still very good at maintaining it. ”

I said politely, "Okay, you can get your work done and send it to my place of residence." ”

While I was talking to Renhe, two men and a woman walked out of the hotel, and I couldn't help but take a closer look, because the woman who walked with the two men was extremely intellectually beautiful.

Renhe said to me in an envious tone: "Jiaming, do you know who those two men are?"

I shook my head and said I didn't know, but I knew it had to be successful people, because they were all in luxury cars.

"They are very famous in the catering industry, one is Zhang Yixi, the head of Seaview Coffee, and the other is even bigger, Han Feng, the young head of Huali Group...... They are all young entrepreneurs who have only risen in the past two years! They should have come to Suzhou to attend a business meeting. ”

I didn't have words, and I felt a huge gap in my heart, but I couldn't say that I envied them, because each had its own circumstances and creations, and asked Renhe in the middle of the night, "Who is that woman?"

Zhang Yixi's wife, Chen Qingyi, is a well-known female anchor. After speaking, he sighed and said, "This is the upper class! We civilians can only look up to and envy." ”

I smiled and said, "How do you know that people in high society must be doing well? Maybe Zhang Yixi's marriage with that female anchor is not happy!"

"This is impossible, if I can marry such a wife, I will be satisfied in this life, and I will die without regrets!"

"When you get to that height, maybe you won't think so, people are fickle, right, Renhe?"

Renhe thought for a while and said, "Maybe, who can understand whose world...... I'm going to the company, I'll give you the car later. ”

I nodded, but I watched two men drive past me in a luxury car, and I couldn't help but wonder, are they really doing well when they look glamorous? At least I have an equally glamorous Zhang Rixuan next to me, but he is so lonely.

So what should people pursue in life? And how much is the value of material wealth?

I don't understand! I may never understand it! Because life is an unsolvable proposition.

......

When I returned to my accommodation, I began to immerse myself in the state of work again, and it was not until almost evening that I finally made the decoration plan, and then collected information about various decoration companies in Suzhou on the Internet, so that I could improve the efficiency of negotiations tomorrow.

It was already dark outside the window, and I closed my notebook, leaned on my back in my office chair and lit myself a cigarette, but I didn't know where my mind had drifted.

The smoke from my mouth filled the room without the lights on, and I felt depressed and heavy again, what happened at the luncheon today made me realize how failed I had been all these years, I was reduced to asking my ex-girlfriend to help me maintain my dignity, what the hell was wrong with me?

And Angel's departure must have been disappointed in me, I remember that it was not long after she went to the United States, we hadn't broken up yet, that day, the two of them were chatting on voice and video, Angel asked me: Have you worked hard for our future, I took out a bag of lottery tickets from the cabinet and told her that this is the result of my hard work.

Angel was very angry with me that day and thought I was unreliable...... Later, although we were still in contact, the frequency became less and less until we broke up.

On the day we broke up, I hugged the pile of lottery tickets and cried because Angel didn't understand me...... It's not unreliable to buy lottery tickets, because I love her too much, care about her too much, afraid that I can't give her a material explanation after she comes back, and I'm afraid that I can't afford to marry her, so I ridiculously pinned my hopes on the lottery ticket, and bought ten tickets a day, which lasted for several months.

Thinking of this, my heart twitched again, who can really understand the world of another person alive?

So Angel will never understand that the effort I had made for the love between us, before we broke up, I even had to go to the bar after work every day and sing until the early hours of the morning, just to make more money.

No matter how tired I am, as long as I think of the "wait" she wrote on the window with lipstick when she left, I don't feel tired, I think of the happiness we once fantasized about together, and I feel that all the waiting is worth it.

But now I'm really tired, I can't seem to find the direction of my life, and I don't know what kind of love I want, or I have rejected love, because I don't want to bear that heart-rending pain anymore.

That's why I want to marry Chen Sitian, and I am infatuated with the sense of security she gave me, but do I really love her? I don't love her, so when I broke up with Chen Sitian, Ban Dad didn't feel pity, on the contrary, he thought that I let Chen Sitian go!

This is a great irony, an irony that makes me helpless, and makes me even more painful.

Finally, the street lamp outside the window lit up again yesterday, and my emotions gradually calmed down in the darkness, but I inadvertently saw the guitar standing in the corner of the wall, engraved with the names of me and Angel...... So I cried, cried aggrieved.

I sobbed and lit myself a cigarette, but in the smoke I saw through the future, even if I put a pair of wings on my current self, I couldn't get to the place I once fantasized about with Angel!

......

The sound of car horns outside the window finally woke me up from my past memories, and I looked out the window to see that it was Renhe driving his little prince Alto.

I hurriedly wiped the tears from my face with my hands, I can cry very sadly alone, but in front of others, I am still the Jia Ming who is casual and doesn't care about anything, just like before, I can instantly change into a mask with a senseless smile to face Renhe