I have ignored the pain from being burned in my mouth and looked at Zhang Rixuan with a red face, my heart was beating violently, in fact, in the more than 20 years I have lived, I am not a person who likes to look ahead and look backwards, but this incident is too significant, my choice is not only about my own fate, but also the career prospects of friends and bosses, including Le Yao, she made sacrifices to give me the opportunity to fight for a job is still vivid, and I really want to ruin all this for Zhang Rixuan?

"Jiaming, what's wrong with you, your expression is so ugly?" Zhang Rixuan looked at me and asked with a puzzled expression.

During the struggle, my heart suddenly calmed down, rubbed my mouth, and said to Zhang Rixuan: "It hurts to be burned, and there may be blisters in my mouth." ”

"Are you going to the hospital?"

"Can this kind of small injury and pain be used to trouble the hospital that saves the wounded, please can you have some common sense in life!"

"Oh, you're fine, then let's go ahead and look for a house. Zhang Rixuan said and started the car.

No matter how difficult the decision is, it is often only in a moment, and I finally did not choose to tell Zhang Rixuan, I don't know if it is right to do this, but my heart is still tormented, I wish Chen Jingming did not tell me all this, but I am willing to be just willing, I finally know, so I floated weakly in the ocean of self-blame like a flat boat, how can I not see the other side.

The shadow of the street lamp was reflected in the car window and was stretched longer and longer, and my mind was so scattered, and I couldn't think of a way to get the best of both worlds.

......

After searching in the middle of the night, we finally found a more cost-effective bachelor apartment, I immediately paid 3 months' rent and put a month's rent, after the landlord left, only me and Zhang Rixuan were left in the house.

The two of us stood side by side on the small balcony on the 26th floor, I lit a cigarette, looked at the night view of the whole city, and said to Zhang Rixuan for a long time: "It's very quiet here, and your room is very quiet and quiet!"

"Do you finally admit that the ownership of that room is mine?" asked Zhang Rixuan with a smile.

"It's all settled, why don't I admit it. ”

Zhang Rixuan nodded with a worried head and asked me, "Are you moving here tonight?"

"Tomorrow night......" I paused and looked at Zhang Rixuan and said very sincerely: "Let me go to your place for the last night tonight, I will say goodbye to my mop, grandfather clock, sofa, and cabinet friends, for fear that they will miss me too much!"

I was ready to be rejected by Zhang Rixuan, but I didn't expect her to nod her head in agreement, maybe she really believed in those unconscious mops and table clocks...... It's really my friends, in fact, I didn't deceive her, let alone hypocrisy, sometimes I'd rather make friends with these seemingly unconscious objects, and I don't want to get along too deeply with people with subjective consciousness, because if you're not careful, you'll encounter beasts wearing human skins, and some simply don't even bother to put on human skins, for fear that others won't know that they are beasts, such as the actress who once slapped Le Yao because of schedule problems, such as Zhang Rixuan's uncle Mi Zhongde.

......

It was very late when I returned to the old house with Zhang Rixuan, Zhang Rixuan went to the bathroom to wash up before me, and I sat on the sofa, seemingly quiet, but my emotions were surging.

After a while, Zhang Rixuan walked out of the bathroom, she smeared toner on her face, and said to me without knowing whether she was joking or serious: "Jiaming, aren't you going to say goodbye to your friends?

I covered my chest and said to Zhang Rixuan: "My friends and I communicate with our hearts, and we have already said goodbye, just now." ”

Zhang Rixuan nodded and made a surprised expression and said, "Then the tacit understanding between the two of you is very high!"

"That's for sure, in front of me and my friends, you're all mortals. ”

Zhang Rixuan pursed his lips, then smiled, didn't say anything more and turned around and walked towards his room, and then closed the door, I suddenly felt that we were isolated by this door in two worlds, my world was messy, and her world was quiet before the storm.

After washing, I went back to the room where I lived for two years, but I was about to leave, I looked at the ceiling with some distraction, but I didn't empty my brain, for the first time in my life, I racked my brains to think about the so-called human nature, but I felt that human nature was ethereal, such as myself, when faced with a choice, but deviated from what I had been sticking to, of course I can say that this deviation is because of friends, because of the boss who has the grace of knowledge, because of my own work prospects, but these many because can it really transcend the value of human nature, so that I can distort human nature with peace of mind?

As the night deepened, the moonlight outside the window swayed through the gaps in the curtains and on the quilt, and my consciousness gradually blurred, and after a moment I threw away the burden of humanity and went to sleep.

......

I got up early the next day, as before, I boiled porridge in a rice cooker, and then went downstairs to buy some fritters, steamed dumplings, and some pastries, and fried two poached eggs after I went back, I planned to have breakfast with Zhang Rixuan, but this was not a tribute or a thank you to her for helping me find a house last night, it was more like a kind of guilt, guilt for my own knowledge.

Ready for breakfast, Zhang Rixuan had already gotten up, and after a while, after washing up, I prepared breakfast and said to her: "Let's have breakfast together, I boiled porridge." ”

Zhang Rixuan politely said "thank you" to me and then sat opposite me, and the two of them ate breakfast like this, but the atmosphere was always a little depressed and silent.

Zhang Rixuan seemed to enjoy this silence, but I was suffering in depression, so she was eaten quickly by me, and said to me very politely: "Jiaming, you eat slowly, I'll go to work first, by the way, if you don't have time to clean up the rice bowl or something, just put it first, and I'll come back at night to wash." ”

Zhang Rixuan had already walked to the shoe rack with her handbag and changed her shoes, I looked at her back and shouted, "Wait." ”

Zhang Rixuan's action of changing shoes did not stop, and he asked with some puzzlement: "What's wrong?"

I was silent for a while before I said, "You can give me a ride, and I'll go to work with you." ”

"By the way?"

"Don't you work at Jumei, our company is just across the street from you. ”

Zhang Rixuan nodded and said, "Oh...... What kind of company are you?"

I was stunned for a moment before replying: "We are a small company, like me, I just get a salary to make a living, it's not worth mentioning." ”

"Okay, then you hurry up. Zhang Rixuan said that he had changed his shoes and stood outside the door waiting for me.

I took a few bites of the porridge in the bowl, changed my shoes, carried my briefcase, and went downstairs with Zhang Rixuan.

......

The traffic situation during work hours is not very good, stop and go along the way, and when we are about to get close to the company, the car is blocked on a double carriageway again, and Zhang Rixuan and I have nothing to do, but we are silent.

I took out a disc from the storage box of Zhang Rixuan's car and put it in the music player, intending to listen to a piece of music to kill the irritating time.

The song "Proverbs of Love" was performed by Luo Dayou with a voice full of vicissitudes and stories, and this song expressing great love was scattered in a small car.

The car was lightly wrapped in the autumn fog, and the cars waiting for traffic outside the window were lit up with marker lights, like a firefly only perched, quieting the world.

The same is true for Zhang Rixuan next to her, she looks quieter than me, but the corners of her eyes are already moist, tears are slowly falling from her cheeks, as if she doesn't want to be seen by me, she is lying on the steering wheel of the car, so except for some messy hair, I can't see her face at all.

What's wrong with her? It's just that she listened to a song by Luo Dayou on this inadvertent morning, and she cried!