What's the last thing I regret?

What answer did Xi Zhan want?

I thought about it for a long time and couldn't figure it out, and seeing that I was silent for a long time, Xi Zhan said again: "I'll ask at will, don't be too entangled." ”

"I have only one answer in mind. ”

That's the answer in my heart, I don't know if Xi Zhan wants to hear this answer, I explained: "The thing I don't regret the most is that I gave birth to Yun'er and Run'er for you with my own life, although it's not entirely for you, I also want to be a mother, but I think, if I can't let you be that father in this life, you will be a pity, I don't want you to regret it in this life." ”

Xi Zhan suddenly stopped the car.

I asked him, "Why did it stop?"

"Does Yuna want to hear what I regret the most?"

He asked me the last thing I regretted.

But he asked me what he regretted the most.

I subconsciously asked, "Is this it?"

"I'm sorry I wasn't with you, it should have been your hardest time, but I was far away in Espoo. ”

I should have said I'm sorry.

Because it's not Xi Zhan who is wrong.

It was I who brought him into disrepute and forced him to go to Europe.

And it has been hunted down by major forces.

He was forced to leave me.

So it was never him who was at fault.

It's me.

Thinking about it carefully, I have known Xi Zhan for all these years, this transparent man has never really done anything wrong, he is an extremely rational man, he knows the standard of right and wrong, if it is wrong, he will never do that, and he calculates everything in the future, even what I will do, even Zhao Duan He knows exactly what they want to do, and it is precisely because he knows too well that he will not do anything wrong.

"It's always been me who was wrong. ”

Xi Zhan was smart, he understood the meaning of my words, he started the car again, and said in a warm voice: "As long as it doesn't touch my principles and bottom line, no matter what you do, it's not wrong." ”

Xi Zhan's principles and bottom line......

It's that I don't betray him.

Respect him.

Love him.

That's all.

His request to me was simple.

"You're pampering me like this. ”

Xi Zhan smiled and said nothing, I hung my head and played with my mobile phone, chatting with him from time to time, and soon arrived on the street.

The weather outside was cold, so I got out of the car and shivered, but fortunately Xi Zhan stopped and didn't see it, otherwise he would have to talk to me again.

I stood in front of the car and waited, Xi Zhan quickly parked the car, and when he got out of the car, I grabbed his arm and went to the crowd.

Shopping is indispensable to buy things, but I was afraid that Xi Zhan would only buy some small snacks with a burden, and I was hungry before noon, so I took Xi Zhan to find a Western restaurant.

As soon as I sat down, I saw a passerby outside buying cotton candy, and I asked Xi Zhan to wait here for me to come out of the restaurant.

I went out and asked in English, "How much is one?"

He replied, "$8." ”

Off-site marshmallows are really expensive.

Although I don't have to buy a lot of things at home, and I haven't often walked on the street, I still know the domestic market price, although I complain in my heart that it is expensive, in fact, I didn't argue with him about anything, after all, buying things is a wish to fight and a wish, if I think it's expensive, I don't buy it.

I took the money out of my wallet and gave it to him.

He asked me, "What do you want?"

"Pink this. ”

He handed me an oversized pink and said, "The little girl is beautiful, I'll give you a big one, eat it sweetly." "Alignment

I gratefully said, "Thank you." ”

I took the marshmallow back to the restaurant, and saw a person sitting opposite Xi Zhan, and I seemed to have seen the woman.

Indeed, I seem to have seen it.

But I can't remember it for a while.

I didn't go directly, but sat in the seat behind Xi Zhan, and I heard the woman's sad voice say to Xi Zhan: "Although you are married, you have been ...... for so many years."

She paused and asked, "How are you doing after all these years?"

Xi Zhan responded lightly, "Hmm." ”

"I still remember when you were in school, you liked to sleep on your stomach, every day, as if you didn't get enough sleep, and as if you were very tired, what were you doing at that time?"

I remember her.

The woman I once met at Xi Zhan's alma mater.

I forgot her name.

Xi Zhan said she had a crush on her.

It's just that Xi Zhan has been pretending not to know.

Xi Zhan perfunctorily said to her: "I forgot." ”

Hearing this, the woman was stunned, her expression was a little sad, and she continued to say to Xi Zhan: "I have been thinking about a question for so many years, if I had been braver back then...... You know what I mean, I'm wondering if my mood will be echoed by that teenager, I just hope to think like this, I was too cowardly back then, I obviously liked it but was afraid of approaching. ”

This woman has an ordinary appearance, but a good temperament.

It was Xi Zhan's female classmate when he was young.

Xi Zhan didn't speak after hearing this, but the woman's expression began to fall silent, "Is there no hope at all?" ”

"Well, no. ”

Xi Zhan's answer was too cold and ruthless, the woman's expression changed abruptly, and her face was extremely embarrassed, as if she had a secret love that she had insisted on for many years and that faint hope collapsed in an instant.

"Sorry for bothering you again. ”

Xi Zhan was silent, and replied in a cold voice: "It is the young Xi Zhan who should give you this answer, and you didn't clearly express your feelings back then, after many years, you shouldn't ask me this unanswered question again, I am Xi Zhan after I became an adult, and I have long lost the heart of my youth, not to mention that now I have a wife and children, how can I give you an answer?"

Xi Zhan's answer was seamless.

It means that if she wants the answer, she will go more than ten years ago.

Instead of looking for the current Xi Zhan.

Such an answer actually gave her leeway.

Preserved the pure heart of her crush.

"I see, I'm sorry for bothering you again. ”

The woman stood up, she paused as she passed me, she looked at me, and finally only said, "Your wife is probably the happiest woman in the world, and so is she...... It's beautiful. ”

Xi Zhan's shallow voice replied to her: "Well, beautiful is heartwarming, when I first met her, I thought she was amazing." ”

Xi Zhan has never praised me like this in front of me.

"Xi Zhan, congratulations on getting your wish. ”

After saying that, she hung her head and left.

I patted Xi Zhan on the shoulder after she left, and he turned his head to look at me, "When were you here?"

"I just heard you chatting. ”

Xi Zhan explained: "She is a simple person, and she wants simple people and things, and I just said those words because I didn't want her to feel that her persistence for so many years was a joke." ”

"You don't have to explain, I get it. ”

Xi Zhan is kind.

It's just that his kindness lies beneath his coldness.

Very few people can detect it.

Xi Zhan curled his lips and seemed to be very pleasant.

I squinted at him and asked, "I amazed you when we first met?"