Chapter 78: The Price of Growth
Li Xinyuan lay on the hospital bed for a day and a night, Li Xinyuan's uncle and aunt went home first, Zhuo's mother also went home first, and Zhuo Ziyuan accompanied her here at night, it was not a serious illness, Li Xinyuan could move on her own as long as she woke up, there was no need to stay so many people.
Zhuo Ziyuan thought for a long time in the evening, he was wondering if his appearance caused the car accident, whether there was no car accident in his previous life, whether the little girl married a good family and lived happily with her parents for a lifetime.
Zhuo Ziyuan thought that if it weren't for his appearance, Li Xinyuan wouldn't have been admitted to Longcheng Senior High School, and if he hadn't lived near the school, Li Xinyuan wouldn't have chosen to live in the school, and a series of things would not have happened.
Thinking of this, Zhuo Ziyuan felt deeply guilty, why did he want to change the fate of these people, whether he did it wrong or right.
Zhuo Ziyuan thought of another possibility, maybe Li Guoqing and his wife also had a car accident in their previous life, but it was not necessarily now, or not necessarily in that place, but due to the inertia of history, the time and place changed, and they passed away, maybe everyone's fate is doomed.
What about the lives of his parents, will there be car accidents or other accidents, Zhuo Ziyuan thought about himself again, will he still have an accident in 19 years.
I don't think much about it, but Zhuo Ziyuan has been thinking back and forth, if it is the first one, then how can he make up for Li Xinyuan in this life, will there be other people, and what should he do. If it is the second type, what should I do, escape or face, and how to face it?
No matter what, let the people you care about live happily.
Zhuo Ziyuan decided that after Li Xinyuan got better, he would go to the temple to offer incense, not to pray for the blessing of the Bodhisattva, but to have peace of mind. He decided to use the money he earned to change his fate to do as many good deeds as possible and do more things that would benefit the people.
The next morning, Li Xinyuan woke up early, she had a dream, in the dream she played the piano, painted, and flew kites with her parents and Zhuo Ziyuan, and felt that it was a long, long time to forget the time, and to do these single but happy things every day, suddenly one day, her parents pulled her and Zhuo Ziyuan and said that they were leaving, and they would hand her over to Zhuo Ziyuan in the future, hoping that they would be happy in the future, and they would still play the piano and paint the same every day. Fly kites, so that they can walk with peace of mind, hoping that Zhuo Ziyuan can take care of her, Zhuo Ziyuan nodded and agreed, but Li Xinyuan desperately held her mother's hand and didn't let them go, but she couldn't pull it, her parents went farther and farther, she wanted to chase, but she couldn't catch up, Zhuo Ziyuan had been by her side to chase, and finally, she couldn't see her parents' backs anymore, Li Xinyuan shouted "Dad, Mom", and then woke up.
Looking at Zhuo Ziyuan who was lying on the side of the bed and falling asleep, feeling the warmth from the hand held by Zhuo Ziyuan, looking at the sun shining on Zhuo Ziyuan's face, and frowning in his sleep, Li Xinyuan couldn't help but stretch out his other hand, caressing Zhuo Ziyuan's handsome face, and stroking his frowning brows, he must not have slept last night, he must have been very worried about me.
Li Xinyuan suddenly figured it out, her parents are gone, no matter how sad she is, it doesn't help, her parents have spirits in the sky, and they don't want to be down, they definitely want to be happy, and Brother Ziyuan, he will definitely be unhappy when he sees himself sad. They are the only three people in this world who they love, I can't make them unhappy, I want to cheer up, I don't have nothing, my parents will always be with me in the spirit of heaven, and my brother Ziyuan will always be with me, what else do I want.
People are like this, when they are faced with great grief, there will be outbursts, and some people feel bored, and they will fall from then on, or even commit suicide. And some people grow up after great compassion, the world is still very beautiful, and there are people who care about themselves and protect themselves, and they grow up in an instant. Li Xinyuan chose to grow up, and growing up has a price.
Zhuo Ziyuan felt a little cold on his face, opened his eyes, it was the little girl's hand, a spirit, Zhuo Ziyuan sat up, and said with concern, "Yuan'er, how is it, how is your body? ”
"It's okay, I'm okay. Li Xinyuan took Zhuo Ziyuan's hand.
Zhuo Ziyuan looked into her eyes and confirmed that she was fine, "Yuan'er, it's all to blame Brother Ziyuan, it's all to blame me, when you were the saddest, my brother didn't stay by your side to take care of you, causing you to become like this." ”
Zhuo Ziyuan is really blaming himself, Yuan'er, it is very likely that my appearance caused you to be like this.
"Brother Ziyuan, I don't blame you, I really don't blame you, it's good to have you here. Li Xinyuan looked at Zhuo Ziyuan and suddenly smiled.
Seeing Li Xinyuan smile, this scared Zhuo Ziyuan, "Yuan'er, are you really okay, don't scare your brother, if you want to cry, you can cry, don't hold back, with my brother here, you will be my family in the future, my parents will be your parents, my brother will take good care of you and not let you suffer a little grievance." ”
Li Xinyuan smiled and said, "Brother Ziyuan, I'm fine, I'm really fine, I've figured out something, I believe that my parents are in heaven, and they must not want me to be unhappy, not to mention that I still have my brother and uncles and aunts, and you care about me so much, I should be content." ”
Zhuo Ziyuan looked at Li Xinyuan's haggard face and the smile on her face, he didn't know if Li Xinyuan had really figured it out, but no matter what, he was by her side, and time could heal all the grief.
At 7 o'clock, Zhuo's mother took her own porridge and arrived at the hospital, Zhuo's mother looked at Li Xinyuan, still a little sad, tears couldn't help but flow out, and said to Li Xinyuan with tears, "Yuan'er, I'm sorry for you, child, we will be your family in the future, our family should be happy, if Xiaoyuan dares to bully you, you tell me, I will help you teach him a lesson." ”
"Mom, how could I bully Yuan'er, it's too late for me to spoil her, only for her to bully me. Zhuo Ziyuan knew that his mother said this to liven up the atmosphere and not let the little girl think about sadness.
"Yuan'er is so well-behaved, how can she bully you, it must be that you did something wrong first, no matter what, if Yuan'er is wronged in the future, I will settle accounts with you. Like Li Guoqing's family, Zhuo's mother has actually regarded Li Xinyuan as her daughter-in-law for a long time, such a smart, beautiful, and well-behaved girl, if her son marries, I don't know if it is a blessing that has been cultivated for several lifetimes.
Looking at everything in front of her, Li Xinyuan felt warmth, she felt that she was still happy, there were still people who loved her, and her parents also cared about her in heaven.
"Auntie, Brother Ziyuan has never bullied me, don't worry. Thank you, Auntie. Li Xinyuan had tears in her eyes, and she couldn't tell whether she was sad or happy, but she felt satisfied, it was enough for a person to meet these people who really care for her in her life.
In the next two days, Zhuo Ziyuan stayed with the hospital to take care of Li Xinyuan, and her complexion was much better, maybe she really saw it.
Li Xinyuan asked him to go back to school, Zhuo Ziyuan didn't agree, saying that he was so powerful, and he was afraid that he wouldn't be able to keep up with the class for a few days, Li Xinyuan didn't say it anymore, she also liked the world of such two people, quiet.
In the past two days, Zhuo Ziyuan has already discussed with Li Xinyuan, and when he is discharged from the hospital, he will directly move to the Chunyuan community where Zhuo Ziyuan lives, and also move out of the school.
On the third day of discharge, Zhuo Ziyuan pulled Zhuo's father and Zhuo's mother, and used a van to pull all the clothes, quilts, luggage, and musical instruments to the Chunyuan community.
After the luggage was placed, Zhuo Ziyuan found an intermediary again and proposed to buy the house, and now Li Xinyuan has also lived here, this will be home in the future, and the study will be renovated, so it is more convenient to buy.
The agent contacted the homeowner on the spot, and the homeowner agreed to sell, and the agent's efficiency was very high, and the transfer was handled in 3 days.
After finalizing the sale of the house with the intermediary, Zhuo Ziyuan pulled his mother and took Li Xinyuan directly to the school, and applied to Li Xinyuan's head teacher for day school, Zhuo's mother communicated as Li Xinyuan's aunt, the reason was that she was worried that the child would not be able to think about it, and the head teacher had no reason to stop it.
At this point, Zhuo Ziyuan was finally relieved, during this time, he still wanted to look at Li Xinyuan by himself, at least a year and a half, and wait until he was completely relieved.
Zhuo Ziyuan's worries were justified, on the night of the move, Zhuo Ziyuan deliberately went to bed late, and when Li Xinyuan fell asleep, he closed the door of Li Xinyuan's room, opened the door of the study, and translated the second part of the twilight New Moon inside.
stayed up until more than 11 o'clock, heard movement in Li Xinyuan's room, quietly opened the door, heard Li Xinyuan shouting her mother for a while, and shouting Brother Ziyuan for a while, through the light of the living room, Zhuo Ziyuan saw tears on the little girl's face, Zhuo Ziyuan quietly walked in, held one of the little girl's hands, helped her wipe away the tears, gently touched her hair, and slowly, Li Xinyuan quieted down.
Looking at the little girl who was finally asleep, Zhuo Ziyuan suddenly thought of his daughter, after she left, whether she was as sad as the little girl, missed herself the same, whether she would also shout "Dad" and "Dad" in her dreams in the middle of the night, Zhuo Ziyuan hoped that her daughter could miss herself, and hoped that her daughter would forget herself and not live in sadness, Zhuo Ziyuan was very conflicted.
However, there is one thing that Zhuo Ziyuan is very sure of, that is, at this moment, he misses his daughter very much, and he involuntarily walked to the study, wanting to draw the portrait of his daughter who is the most memorable.
Painting, he seemed to see his daughter standing in front of him smiling, watching her run happily in front of his eyes, and seeing her coquettish in his arms.
Zhuo Ziyuan was a little stunned, painted one after another, a total of three portraits, and when he came to his senses, the sky was already a little bright, looking at the time, it was almost 5 o'clock, looking at the three paintings he painted, Zhuo Ziyuan smiled happily, exactly the same as in his memory.
In the first picture, the daughter stood there, smiling at herself, very quiet and well-behaved.
In the second picture, the daughter is running, turning her head and smiling brightly at herself, so lively and sunny.
In the third picture, the daughter is in her arms, holding her head up, coquettish to herself, cute and playful.