Chapter Twenty-Three: Her Past Has Nothing to Do with Him
The old ghost is the only person in Ding Dong's life other than Ding Xiaowei who makes her feel truly warm.
Even if his status is lowly and his profession is not glorious, it is a ray of light that allows her to continue to live tenaciously in the world.
Ding Dong even finished telling the story with a smile.
Seeing that Feng Chengyu's gaze at her changed again and again, she still just said indifferently: "Mr. Feng, a person like you will probably never be able to understand the pain of hunger and cold of inferior people, and the need to worry about livelihood every day. You may feel that I am not living a glorious life, or even that I am not worthy of being in your life. But at that time, even if I had the slightest hope of survival, I would want to hold on tightly. For me, being alive is the best and most luxurious thing to do. ”
She didn't know why she said so much to Feng Chengyu, maybe it was just the situation.
The past flooded into her mind, everything she had experienced was vivid, and she told her words as if she had found an outlet.
Feng Chengyu stood quietly in place and looked at him, his dark pool-like eyes full of sad and complicated feelings.
He had never known she had such a past. He never cared about her background, even three years ago, when the two were close, he never thought of getting to know her better.
He thought that she, like himself, had a normal family, even if it was not very happy, but it could be regarded as a family.
He seemed to suddenly be able to understand. Why did she always laugh heartlessly when she first met, why did she always giggle and seem to have no trouble, why could she say something that shocked him in an indifferent tone.
She had experienced pain that he had never heard of, and she was an ant who was forced to survive in the lower classes.
"You've never told me that. He spoke, his tone flat, but his hands were clenched into fists.
Ding Dong stared at him, his lips twitching, and finally closed tightly. The words he wanted to say swirled in his throat, but there was only one sentence left in his mouth: "It's just the past of an inferior person, so why should Mr. Feng bother to understand?"
She is always humble. She knew that they weren't from the same world, and she didn't even deserve to be with him.
Why, then, should he let him know about his terrible past, and since he believed that she was a thief, and she was, there was nothing to explain. No matter how much he talked, he would only feel that he was trying to win sympathy.
Her words made Feng Chengyu's beating heart gradually calm down. He lowered his eyes and smiled lightly, and the emotions in his eyes were all hidden.
"Yes, your past is just that, what does it have to do with me?"
They are no longer the same person as they were three years ago, and even if he once had any illusions about her, now there is only a barren land.
From the day she disappeared, he had left all his old feelings behind.
The two walked one after the other and walked away from the cemetery.
On the way, Feng Chengyu suddenly remembered something and asked her, "Are you going to rent a house?"
Ding Dong was stunned, thinking that he should have seen the newspaper he threw down casually, so he nodded: "I'm going to rent it for my brother, he's about to have a winter vacation." ”
He frowned, a little puzzled: "Wouldn't it be okay for him to live directly in Jingtai Bay?"
Ding Dong glanced at him and hesitated for a moment before saying, "I'm afraid it's not convenient." ”
Feng Chengyu thought that she was worried that Su Kerui's identity was not suitable for appearing with Ding Xiaowei, so she said: "Jingtaiwan is my place, no one dares to talk much, as long as you don't take him to public with no fanfare, there will be no problem." ”
Seeing that Ding Dong was still hesitating, Feng Chengyu frowned slightly, and his tone was a little displeased: "Or is there anything your brother can't see?"
"Nope. Ding Dong quickly denied: "Just do as you say." ”
During the three-year contract period, it is impossible to hide it from Ding Xiaowei all the time, sooner or later, the two will always meet.
Feng Chengyu nodded, seemingly satisfied with her answer.
originally thought that Feng Chengyu would leave soon, but after he returned to Jingtai Bay with her, he stayed in the villa until it was time for dinner.
Ding Dong suspected that he had forgotten the time, but seeing him typing on his notebook in the study, he was too embarrassed to drive him away, so he could only order the servant to make a meal for two.
When it came to the meal, Feng Chengyu really stayed to eat.
Ding Dong ate at the same table with him for the first time, the atmosphere was a little awkward, neither of them spoke, and the whole restaurant only had the soft sound of dishes and chopsticks colliding.
He eats very gently, not in a hurry or impatient, but chews quickly and is very comfortable to see.
He finished eating quickly, and he was not in a hurry to leave the table, but just sat quietly opposite Ding Dong, staring at her with dark eyes, making her feel like she was on pins and needles.
After a while, she put down the dishes and chopsticks, and suddenly heard him ask: "Three years ago, why did you suddenly disappear?"
There was silence.
Ding Dong hadn't swallowed the food in his mouth yet, so he looked at him in a daze, not knowing how to answer for a while.
This is the first time they have brought up this topic since their reunion. This matter is like a thorn between the two, and no one has taken the initiative to mention it.
Just as she was thinking about how to answer this question, Feng Chengyu's mobile phone suddenly rang.
Seeing that he took out his mobile phone and began to answer the phone, Ding Dong breathed a sigh of relief, and was about to leave the dining table, but he was glared at by him, so he sat in place and did not move.
Feng Chengyu looked at her and didn't dare to move again, so he said "hey" to the phone.
Yin Qinqin's aggrieved voice immediately came from the other end of the phone: "Ah Yu, why don't you come to my house for dinner, my parents are rarely at home, just to see you." ”
"Not available. Feng Chengyu replied dryly: "Your Aunt Li should have told you." ”
Yin Qinqin was silent for a moment, and then whispered: "But we haven't eaten together for a long time, and you have been so busy all this time......
Ding Dong sat opposite him, and he couldn't hear the voice on the other end of the phone, but it was not difficult to hear from Feng Chengyu's tone that the other party was Yin Qinqin.
"Qinqin. Feng Chengyu was upright, and his tone was cold: "Have you been a little too idle lately?" You know my temper, don't do superfluous things. ”
His words were a little heavier, but they were still intimate when he called her name.
Yin Qinqin knew that he was blaming himself for telling Feng Mu about Ding Dong, and her heart suddenly felt a little empty. Feng Chengyu hates talkative people the most, but if he and Ding Dong really have nothing, why should he worry about Aunt Li knowing?
She was just afraid, she was worried that Feng Chengyu would be moved by this woman of unknown origin like she had done three years ago.
"Got it......" Yin Qinqin replied sneeringly, and then reluctantly hung up the phone.