I tried to make my expression natural, as I felt my eyelids jerk.

I've never heard of it, and I've never heard anyone talk about it.

"What do you mean? It's not April Fool's Day, does it? It seems like there is? Then I've just heard about it and haven't seen it, right? What the hell are you talking about, does it have anything to do with me?"

"Assistant Shen and I are just an ordinary colleague relationship, just a little better than you, who called you all goddess-level people dare not approach! I'm just an ordinary errand runner, everyone is willing to say a few more words to me!"

"Besides, look at you, you shout more than anyone else every day, and you used to coax Assistant Shen to be wet without rain and dew! Now that he has a girlfriend, you all have a favorite object, but now you look like this, I really don't understand you!"

I added.

In the face of this sudden news, I was a little incoherent, I didn't know how to express it, but I said a lot!

"You're really not in love, it's just a little better than ours, then we'll rest assured, since he's not important, let's treat that news as a piece of fart, it's all fake news!"

"Look at what you guys are so much to do!" I said with almost crying dissatisfaction.

I don't know what I said or played with them, everything seemed to be a formality, I was just a walking corpse.

My expression was like boiling water, frozen and ready to crack at any moment.

When I returned to my dormitory, the "boiling water" was finally boiling and flowing.

"Looks like he has a girlfriend!"

Just such a sentence was like a thunderbolt from the clouds of beautiful dreams that lifted me into the abyss.

When several beauties in my office told me in person, and with serious expressions, that Shen Yiwei's girlfriend was not me but someone else, and everyone in the company knew about it, I was naturally shocked!

Shen Yi only has a girlfriend! The joy and happiness that I have barely supported in the past few years was not only shocked? I was immediately knocked down by this simple news!

The next thing I did was dizzy and suspicious of everything for days, but I couldn't stop the dead energy of closing my eyes.

If someone else had told me this, I might have been skeptical.

A male god as good as him says that he is a bachelor, maybe only a fool will believe it.

And how can I believe it? I'm that fool!

But is it true that he shouldn't be like that? Why did I always think I was his girlfriend? I never thought he would lie to me!

Aren't we in love? Am I not his girlfriend?

What kind of standard is a girlfriend? They all seem to be masters of love, they all say I'm not, isn't my standard a traditional or international standard?

I didn't care to look at the scenery full of sarcasm outside, and their little eyes, I also felt that it was not soothing but gloating!

I called Shen Yiwei many times in a row, and I wanted to hear him confirm it in person, but it was all busy and I couldn't get through at all!

In a fit of rage, I deleted all of his communication methods and chat friend information, and I wanted to return the phone he sent me in its original packaging.

I think he's always quick to ask me why!

I waited for him to re-add the information of my friends every day, but he didn't add me back, but I was in the embarrassing situation of not being in the village or in the store, not knowing whether I was an enemy or a friend, and fighting alone.

Do I still need to prove this fact? What am I still fantasizing?

I should have been able to imagine, I was a silly girl who was carried away by love.

Just because Shen Yiwei has an unusual way of falling in love? Just because he always doesn't have much time to accompany me in the morning and twilight, or take me to meet his parents and family?

Or seriously, like Qianqian and all other lovers who are in love, the two first have a secret crush, then publicly, then the parents meet, and then get married and have children?

I don't understand these traditional or international standards, and I don't like these so-called standards and red tape.

But when I suddenly heard them talk about Shen Yi's girlfriend, I remembered that there seemed to be something missing between us, missing the confirmation ceremony of both families that I didn't know.

But I loved him so much, and I was convinced that he might love me just as much.

Why do I only think that he is just maybe? Those beautiful moments and memories that he is still the original Shen Yiwei that I have been looking up to.

I just wanted us to love each other like this forever, no matter what was out there, no matter what was past and what was going to be, just now and I would be satisfied.

I thought of everything so calmly and beautifully. But all of a sudden, this beautiful fairy tale was interrupted, and I was terrified.

But why don't I want anyone to know about our relationship? I don't want anyone to know how sad I am?

Everything is not why, everything is inexplicable! Everything is not known why it is so tightly secret!

All I know about him is that it's so irresistible. All I know is that he will never have another girlfriend. All I knew was that he would never hurt me so without saying a word!

I still have a glimmer of hope, and I think hard about how we got along, to see where things went wrong.

Every time we met in the company, it was very short, sometimes he would only be in the office for a few minutes, and we would just look at each other for a few seconds.

His eyes, his breath, his every move, even the sound of his car sounding seemed to me like a part of my life.

We have been together happily for more than half a year, what a happy and romantic process, but unfortunately it is so short!

The concern when we don't see each other, the sweetness after meeting, although we only talk occasionally, or even sometimes just a few words, I am also content.

But what am I afraid of?

I was afraid that I would fall in love with him, and I was afraid that I was not loved by him when I fell in love with him. He's so good, I'm so ordinary, I have a thousand reasons not to be confident.

But the more I worryed, the more I couldn't help myself!

The more I worried, the more bad news came that he had a girlfriend!

At this time, I was full of worries, and it happened that the three of them were discussing countermeasures in Li Jin's single dormitory.

"Are you saying that this Gu Caiyun is really stupid, you didn't find out that the photo sent by Ye Lei was a photo with Assistant Shen!"

"Maybe she's pretending to be stupid!

"Ye Lei and Assistant Shen are talented and beautiful, they are really a good match! Originally, Assistant Shen was a little blind to Xiao Caiyun, but this time we are all balanced in our hearts!"

"No matter what, Assistant Shen is too unkind to step on two boats!"

"Let's not irritate her for the time being, and don't mention Assistant Shen and the photo again!"

"You see, this official Weibo photo posted by Ye Lei has been deleted!"

"It's useless to delete it, many fans must have already switched it!"

"I hope Cai'er really didn't see it!"

"Alas, what a big deal, I believe Cai'er can survive, didn't I also fall out of love at the beginning?

"Can that be the same? You're in unrequited love!"

"This Assistant Shen is really not a thing, he pretends to be a person, and he is a scumbag who plays with his feelings in private!"

They finally scolded Shen Yi for the only time, and after a burst of hip-hop, they went their separate ways.

Since then, I have been in a trance for more than a month, silent, and ignoring Shen Yiwei.

I don't know how to get through these days, and it feels like a dead life.

I still see him occasionally, and he pretends to be nothing, as if he doesn't know what is happening to us.

Once, after he came back from a business trip, we always met for the first time.

Every day and night after we reunited, I would happily think of him, miss him, and worry about him.

Think of every word, every laugh, even every car sound when we were reunited.

Every car sound sounds so wonderful to me!

But I used to have some preconceptions about the profession of driving a driver!

Qianqian told us that her father was a full-time driver, and that her driver's father went out of his way to abuse her mother when she was five years old in order to be with his lover.

As a result, Qianqian's mother is still a little stupid.

Qiaoqiao told us that her cousin driver had three children from three different mothers, and that her current cousin-in-law did not have any children of her own.

"All poisons are not poisonous, only the driver is the most poisonous!"

These are the words that Qianqian occasionally chatted with us in private.

So when we were with Qianqian, we often showed a deep hatred for the driver.

However, since I often sit in Shen Yiwei's car, I am very friendly to the driver colleagues who drive, and I actually like the car just like Shen Yiwei.

I can actually think about what the driver thinks, walking on the street, I will smile heartily for the traffic around me, and wish every face behind the glass to get out of the car safely.

Recently, Director Ma also stared at me several times and said, "Xiao Gu, I didn't wake up, why is it like a dream?"

"Director, Caiyun hasn't been sleeping well at night lately, and she's daydreaming!" Qianqian explained to Director Ma.

"Don't work overtime too late, combine work and rest!" Director Ma said with concern.

Alas, this scene is really true: looking back on the love and friends of the tour, the traces are gone, the song dust is scattered and the dream is collected!

How could my love be such a dream!