I had a dream about my two little children, who couldn't walk yet, and were unconsciously crawling around on the ground.

And on the couch sat the man I loved.

A family of four, happy.

"Miss Shi, wake up......"

Someone is calling me.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw the doctor's anxious face, I exhaled heavily and asked anxiously, "Where is my child?"

The doctor didn't speak, and the nurse on one side comforted me, "There are stitches, you can see them later." ”

When I heard that I would be able to see the children later, I instantly settled down and grinned and couldn't wait to see them.

After the doctor finished stitching, he pushed me to the senior ward, and Song Yiran rushed over at this time and held my palm with moist eyes.

Her eyes were filled with tears, and it seemed that they were about to pour out in the next moment, and I shook her palm back and smiled and asked, "Is the child pretty?"

"Pretty, the most beautiful kid I've ever seen. ”

I happily asked, "Two daughters or two sons?"

She replied with tears in her eyes: "Dragon and phoenix fetus, a man and a woman." ”

"Miss Song, you don't look very happy. I closed my tired eyes and said happily: "I'm so tired, the doctor said that I can't move for the time being, and the children can't leave the sterile room because they are not full-term, so I'll go to see them when I wake up." ”

I fell into a coma again, dreaming in a daze that there were no two children in my dream, but the indifferent man in vain.

He was only a few meters away from me, and I remembered that I had been scarred twice in Finland and I didn't dare to come near him again.

The man in the dream called out to me, "Yuna." ”

I shook my head, never daring to come closer.

I'm scared, I'm scared of him.

I never had the courage to approach him again.

"Yun'a, where's the child?"

He asked me with a cold look on my child.

I opened my eyes suddenly, Song Yiran saw that I was awake and hurriedly clenched my palm, I kept panting for breath and didn't ease up for a while.

Song Yiran asked sadly: "Did you dream about something?"

I paused for a long time and asked, "Where's the child?"

Song Yiran hesitated: "I'm sleeping." ”

I relieved myself and said, "I want to see them." ”

Song Yiran called me with tears in her eyes, "Miss Shi." ”

I patiently asked her, "What?"

"The two children are sleeping in the morgue. ”

I got up violently to get out of bed, but Song Yiran hurriedly ordered Jing Yu to stop me, and I roared in my throat: "Let go of me!"

Jing Yu was unmoved, and I scolded, "Get out!"

Perhaps my momentum was too aggressive, Jing Yu let go of me, and I hurriedly got up and ran outside to ask where the nurse's morgue was.

I was guided by a nurse to the morgue.

Entering this cold space, my heart suddenly calmed down, and I smiled and asked the nurses, "Are they still sleeping?"

"They ......"

The nurse paused and pointed me to where they were.

I went over and saw two little people with pale faces, they were so small, about three or four pounds, I took them in my arms and whispered coaxing, "Good, mom is here." ”

Well, Mommy is here with you.

They didn't respond to me, they didn't even cry.

I sat on the ground with them in my arms and smiled and asked, "What do you say you should choose?" I suddenly don't want you to follow your father's surname, can you follow my surname? It seems that my mother is also a member of the Xi family. ”

Their bodies were cold, and I suddenly burst into tears and said, "Actually, you left your mother, right? Is it because I'm not good enough?"

No matter how much I deny it in my heart, I can't go against the facts.

The fact is that I am separated from my two children.

I tightened my arms and cried silently, Song Yiran slowly came in and squatted beside me, comforting me in a gentle voice and saying, "Miss Shi, don't be sad, they are asleep, can you go back to the ward to rest first?" Your wounds are all cracked, and blood is flowing everywhere. ”

I didn't pay attention to Song Yiran, I fell into my own grief and couldn't extricate myself, I worked hard and carefully for ten months, and even broke with Xi Zhan, but I didn't keep them after all.

I muttered, "What am I going to do next?"

How do you face your life in the future?

I don't have any hope of living.

Song Yiran said sourly: "Miss Shi's future is still very long, and the two children are also with you, everything will be fine." ”

I cried heartbreakingly, hugged the child tightly with my arms and refused to let go, and finally fainted and was carried back to the hospital room by them.

By the time I woke up, it was already three days later.

Jing said the two children had been buried.

Jing Yu also said that he was buried in the ancestral grave of the Xi family by Tan Wen.

I stared at him in a trance and asked, "Have I ever had a baby?"

Hearing this, he changed his words and said, "No." ”

Yes, not yet.

I haven't had a baby.

I closed my eyes and ordered, "Go back to Tongcheng." ”

I got up and stood by the window to look at the scenery outside the window, and the beautiful sunset sun was shining down the sky.

The sunset is infinitely good, just near dusk.

It's infinitely good, it's just near dusk.

I smirked and said goodbye in my heart.

Goodbye, my babies.

Mom's heart is incomparably sad, and it hurts so much when she thinks of you, so she can only suppress herself and stop thinking about you.

Jing Yu is reliable and can leave soon.

I didn't say hello to Song Yiran, and quietly returned to Tongcheng.

I'm afraid to see Jiu'er when I say hello.

When I see Jiu'er, I think of my two children.

And two children were born in August, Leo.

No name, no surname.

......

After returning to Tongcheng, I stayed in the apartment, and after two months, the wound healed, so I quickly found a tattoo artist to tattoo the scar left by the caesarean section with a purple bellflower flower.

The petals bloom on top of each other, small and delicate, burying the traces that have been left behind.

I have been staying at home for the two months since the death of my child, and when my parents, Yu Luoluo, Gu Lanzhi, etc., sent me messages to ask about my child, I replied one by one that I had not saved it.

I didn't keep it, and I still had my soul with me.

I sat by the floor-to-ceiling window smoking a cigarette and stared at the rain outside the window, hazy, and soon received a call from Tan Yang.

I hesitated and never answered.

Then she texted me, "Do you drink?"

The person she poured a glass of wine actually invited me to drink.

Wait a minute!

She invited me to drink?

I replied, "Returning home?"

"Well, Xi Zhan's power in Europe is stable, and it has returned to its previous state, and now it is beginning to rectify the power in the country. ”

After eight months, he returned.

It seems to be faster than expected.

But so what?

I didn't reply to Tan Yang's message, but sent a text message to Yu Luoluo.

I remember she said the other day that she was on a business trip in Tongcheng.

Soon she replied to me, "Sister Shisheng, are you looking for me?"

I asked her expressionlessly, "Do you drink?"

I'm so depressed that drinking alcohol can be considered excretion.

"Well, I'll come to you somewhere. ”