The old woman in the interrogation room was full of white hair and dressed very plainly and cleanly. A wrinkled, rough hand caresses an old photograph of a young woman. If you look closely, it is not difficult to see that the woman above is herself.

It's hard to believe that she is the "demon mother" who killed her three children in a row.

"Pan Lifen, why did you kill your two sons and one daughter?" As the saying goes, tigers don't eat their children, and Lin Mu really can't think of any reason for a mother to do this to her own children.

"When people get old, they are like a river that gradually dries up, and they can't keep the fish and shrimp in the river. Pan Lifen explained with a smile, looking like a loving mother.

"What do you mean?" Lin Mu looked at Zheng Wei beside him a little confused, Zheng Wei leaned over and explained, "Her three children have brain problems, and there is no way to live a normal life alone. ”

"Yes, I'm dying, what will happen to them if I die, if I suffer a greater sin in the future, it is better to be liberated first. After Pan Lifen finished speaking, she continued to look down at the photo, "It's so good when you're young, how can you have so many worries." ”

"Alas, there are always more ways than difficulties, why do you bother, besides, it is your own flesh and blood. "If you look at Pan Lifen's point of view, her way is not impossible, but from a legal point of view, these are three fresh lives.

"Yes, Comrade Police is right," Pan Lifen nodded heavily, "I have believed this sentence all my life, but this time there is really no way." I couldn't think of a better idea to arrange them, and it was the best outcome when I thought about it. ”

Lin Mu was speechless for a while, there were a lot of helpless things, and no one could stand on the commanding heights to accuse others of what they did. He looked through the information, and his two sons were poisoned and his daughter was strangled to death.

"Why did you kill them in a different way?"

"My sons are always so tall that I don't have the strength to strangle them, daughter...... The daughter is skinny. Pan Lifen lost her mind, she actually didn't want to recall the scene at that time, and the painful appearance of the children is still vivid.

Her lips trembled, and a tear slipped from her cloudy eyes and hung on her wrinkled face. Realizing her emotions, she took a deep breath and blinked her eyes vigorously, "I made two sons' favorite meals, two stinky boys, one loves to eat the fried pork I made, and the other loves steamed egg custard." The two of them ate all the food, but they didn't know that it was poisonous. ”

Although she had tried her best to restrain herself, the tears still fell one by one" Soon after they finished eating, they became poisonous, and they kept shouting their mothers in their mouths, and kept ...... Convulsions on the ground. Pan Lifen raised her hand and wiped her face and continued, "My daughter is very obedient, let her stay in the room obediently, she will stay, she is quieter than her two brothers, but she is too obedient, without me, I am afraid that it will fall into the hands of some bad people and be ruined, who can protect her?"

I bought her favorite hair flower, which I always wanted, it was so beautiful, and I thought at that time, how nice it would be if she were a normal person. If nothing else, marry a personal family seriously, at least there is security.

When I strangled her, she didn't react, and she didn't let go of the other flower in her hand. Pan Lifen clutched her chest, closed her eyes tightly and shook her head.

"Give. Lin Mu got up and handed over a tissue, Pan Lifen was a little surprised, she took the tissue and wiped her face indiscriminately and held it in her hand, letting the tears splash on the photo.

When Pan Lifen was arrested, she was standing in front of her own burning earthen house and kept shouting, "Let's go, let's go, my son, have a good baby in the next life!"

The surrounding neighbors rushed to put out the fire when they saw that the situation was not good, and the firefighters arrived and found that there were three bodies lying neatly in the house, which had not been charred, so they called the police. Seeing the police, Pan Lifen voluntarily confessed to the crime she committed.

Xu was crying enough, and Pan Lifen spoke again, "It's no wonder that others are miserable, and the sins you gave birth to will be solved by yourself." ”

"Were your three children born or?"

"Two sons are born. The daughter was disgusted and beaten stupid by her father. Remembering that in the past, Pan Lifen fell into her own world, counting the things she had experienced over the years.

"When I was young, I was also a carefree little girl, and I still wanted to be a female soldier in the past. "Dreams can make people shine, reality detracts from all your courage. In Pan Lifen's time, these were even more out of reach.

"Later, when I got married, I was only eighteen years old. After getting married, I realized that my husband was an uncompetitive gambler, and my life was very hard. gave birth to a son in less than two years, but he didn't think he was a fool, so he was beaten and scolded a lot. When my eldest son was six years old, I gave birth to a younger son, and it turned out to be stupid. finally gave birth to a normal daughter, but she was disgusted and had no way to pass on the lineage, and was beaten by her father every day. ”

Pan Lifen grinned bitterly and said, "Hmph, my daughter was also beaten stupidly, so our mother and wife were kicked out and helpless." That's right, who wants to be involved in such a ** annoyance. I pulled the three big stupid children by myself, doing hard work and picking up the rags...... Also in the mine. It's been so many years, and it's like it happened yesterday. ”

Lin Mu and Zheng Wei glanced at each other, and then looked at Pan Lifen opposite, a woman, ill-fated, I don't know whether to deplore her experience, or admire her greatness as a mother.

"For so many years, I didn't know how I lived, I was so tired that I wanted to die every night, but the next day I opened my eyes, gritted my teeth and survived again. Pan Lifen put the photo on the table and carefully wiped it, "It would be nice if people were like flowers, they would die once a year and start again the next year." ”

"Thank you. Pan Lifen raised her head in surprise when she heard this, her heart was sour, and her body couldn't stop shaking.

"In my life, no one has ever said that to me. Pan Lifen stood up tremblingly, and two policemen behind her came over to prevent her from making any moves.

But after she stood, her hands hung down and crossed in front of her, and she bowed deeply to the woods. Lin Mu was so frightened that he hurriedly stood up and walked over quickly to support her, "What are you doing here?"

"Thank you. Pan Lifen emphasized again, "Thank you, little comrade. "Thank you to him for giving her a little warmth in this moment.

"You're still going to jail, and you don't know what the judge will say. Looking at the old woman, Lin Mu felt very uncomfortable, in this business, he has seen any murderer, he is not afraid of seeing perverts, he is afraid of meeting helpless.

"My wife, it's a rotten life, and she should have died a long time ago. She looked calm, with a faint hint of anticipation, "Besides, I want to go down and look at those three stupid children and say I'm sorry." ”

Pan Lifen suddenly smiled, the wrinkles on her face were squeezed together, and Lin Mu wondered if this would be the easiest time in the second half of her life.

"Come to think of it, my life is not worth it, I went for nothing and got nothing. Pan Lifen picked up the photo on the table, "I, ah, sometimes I still envy my children, I don't understand anything." This man, if he lives too clearly, he will not get anything. ”

It's rare to be confused, these four words suddenly flashed in Lin Mu's mind, and he may have a new understanding today.

Looking at Pan Lifen's back when she was escorted away, her already rickety figure, I don't know how much suffering she was bent by.

The suffering of the world did not let her go, just like a box, after experiencing vicissitudes, she ended up empty.

Her years passed and came to a tragic end.

Some people's biggest fear is not death, but living without knowing how to live.