The meeting between Wang Ruoxin and Jiang Yu reminded Li Meimei of her green and hazy relationship, maybe it was love, maybe it was just classmate love.

No matter what it was, that boy did leave a good memory in Li Meimei's senior year.

When I was in my third year of high school, the school's bell tower would wake up Li Meimei on time at six o'clock in the morning, and the elegant melody without lyrics was very beautiful.

She slept very little, but she was already very content, standing in front of the mirror and combing her hair, she saw that her eyes were transparent and clean, without a trace of bloodshot, in such a senior year, aren't these a gift from God?

Mom would call her at half past six on time to call her to school, even if it was just the usual "Meimei, it's time to go to school." ”

But that has become the biggest pillar of her days, because she knows that this short sentence unfolds - mother's love.

Her parents rented her a house next to the school, so she had breakfast and walked to class just in time for seven o'clock in the morning.

She sat in the seat near the window, looking out at the old tree that had begun to lose its leaves, and a gentle gust of wind carried the withered yellow and pale red leaves dancing around, she pursed the corners of her mouth and felt satisfied, and then sank into the sound of the raised endorsement.

There would be a short break at the end of the morning reading class, and she sat there and saw the physics book on the table and felt so far away, so far away, as if there was never a day of approaching.

She thought that this was probably the real pain of pain, and the first thing she did when she graduated was to throw it away and never touch it again.

Thinking about it, she felt happy, and unconsciously looked at the front seat, it was a very strange classmate, I don't know if it was the senior who brought him to her, or if he brought the senior to her.

Because since this boy transferred to their class in the third year of high school, he has the scores in various subjects that she longed for but couldn't reach.

After every monthly exam, she would feel a deep heartbreak voice, and the boy's paper was hung high by the teacher as a sample paper.

Although it was not jealousy, a terrible pressure forced her to admit that the boy's superiority did make her miserable and depressed.

Maybe it's the tense atmosphere, the boy never talks to her, and rarely looks back, she doesn't even know if he can recognize herself when she bumps into herself while walking on the street.

However, such a neglect of the boy in the front seat at least brought her a little comfort, after all, she would be angry with him as soon as she took the exam, and she had the urge to strangle him.

The boy took advantage of this moment to sleep, and Li Meimei found that his back was very thin, the kind that made people feel very distressed.

His hair was messy and looked like it hadn't been washed in a long time, she frowned, people who didn't wash their hair were so uncomfortable.

"Hey, hey" she touched the boy's slender and thin back with the tip of her pen, and he turned his head with a pair of bloodshot eyes, which did not miss all the time to sleep, and she sneered in her heart, and continued, "Do you never wash or comb your hair? ”

The boy's face was flushed, and she noticed it, but she had always spoken boldly and directly, and now she didn't feel anything wrong.

However, an inexplicable sense of victory made her heart beam, and it seemed that the pressure that the boys had been putting on her in the rankings was all pushed back to him at once.

The boy smiled embarrassedly for a while, turned his head without saying anything, and the physics teacher happened to come in too, and the shadow in Li Meimei's heart returned, and the sky was full of dark clouds.

After a short nap, Li Meimei would rush to school early to solve the problem.

Most of the senior high school teachers do not go back at noon, and there will be many students asking questions, so the school stipulates that they eat at school at noon and then answer students' questions in the office.

In such a provincial key high school, which is famous for its science subjects, not only the students but also the teachers will secretly compete with each other, and they will take away at least ten years of their life.

She looked at the bald hair of the physics teacher, and she couldn't understand the profound solution principle, and her heart was desolate, and it was clear that a piece of wild grass occupied the field of physics in her brain.

The more Li Meimei thought about it, the more she couldn't understand, and she sighed deeply. The teacher paused and looked back at her, and then she realized that she had finished speaking.

A man lay on her seat and looked at the physics problem, and the sea of desolation and confusion overwhelmed her whole spirit.

Damn tears came again, Li Meimei felt aggrieved, she studied physics so seriously, it was still not a good score, and some people can do anything without reading books.

I really don't understand why I chose science in the first place?

Suddenly, her father's words came back when she was filling out the sub-subject application, "It's difficult to find a job after studying liberal arts." ”

She didn't understand anything but "sad" about it.

"Here!" she saw a tissue in front of her, the hand holding the paper was slender but not bloody, clean was the only color.

It wasn't until later that Li Meimei often thought of that hand, maybe it was a very cold hand, but unfortunately she didn't touch it back then.

Li Meimei didn't pick it up, and when she looked up, it was the boy, who was standing there with a satchel. She raised her head high so that she could see his face, Li Meimei never expected him to be so tall.

One day, Li Meimei suddenly noticed that his hairstyle had changed, as if it had been cut short, and it hung down very softly on his forehead, and there was a faint fragrance of a familiar shampoo.

It turned out that he and himself were using the same brand of shampoo. Li Meimei smiled happily, took the tissue and wiped away her tears.

"I'll tell you. The boy put down his schoolbag and turned around and asked cautiously, Li Meimei knew that he was afraid of hurting her self-esteem, and he meant well.

And Li Meimei didn't expect that he would really wash his hair and get a haircut because he said casually, so she felt very happy, this was also the first time that she was not willful and stubborn, and she was happy to accept the help of others.

The boy held the pen in his hand and kept writing and drawing, and Li Meimei felt for the first time that those damn physical formulas and data could be so cute. She felt something approaching, a sincere smile that enveloped her whole heart with a mood that could only be found in the night rain.

It wasn't until later that she recalled the improvement of her physics grades during that time, and Li Meimei would unconsciously immerse herself in that happiness, which interpreted her thoughts about boys.

In her junior year of high school, Li Meimei always bought instant soy milk fritters and brought them to her class to eat, everyone was trying to save time, and the boy was the same. She likes to sit behind him, secretly follow his habits, and eat the breakfast he also loves, which makes Li Meimei feel happy and satisfied.

The boy didn't seem to notice anything, he still gave her a lecture, he still got a high score, and he still took the time to sleep......

The days of the third year of high school are like a gorgeous car driving in the mud, the difficult progress is slow and steady, and the monotonous itinerary leaves traces of lines and rows of deep crust, the rain can't wash it away, the snow can't cover it, and looking back at it, it's just two bitter words - profound.

But such a car is made of dreams as a metal shell, decorates the body glass with hope, and builds wheels with faith, so its magnificence shines blindly.

At the last moment, you may be able to fly to the proud paradise with its wings woven with high scores, or you may not be able to persevere with it, completely injured by the pressure, tired and sinking into the deep mire, without even a chance to cry.

Li Meimei's itinerary was very ordinary, not smooth but not extremely difficult, that is, she went to an ordinary university so smoothly, while the male student went to a double-first-class university, a university that Li Meimei could never hope for.

Probably a lot of ambiguity in middle school ended up like this. Although this kind of unhealthy death is regrettable, it makes people occasionally miss it and make it more unforgettable.

Li Meimei was not as lucky as Wang Ruoxin, and none of her best friends were relatives of the boys she liked, so they broke off contact after going to college.

Li Meimei is not as persistent as Wang Ruoxin, for her, it all ended just right, she doesn't need too much further development, she doesn't need the sudden discovery of boys, and she doesn't need boys to worry about her......

All in all, for Li Meimei, it is just right for everything to end there, she is not greedy or persistent, she just hopes that everyone will forget about the arrangement of fate.

If there is still fate, goodbye, if there is no fate, it is okay to go there.

Because whether she likes him or not, whether he likes her or not, they don't know, they don't have time to know. They may enjoy this not knowing.

Li Meimei sometimes feels that although she is more outgoing and bold than Wang Ruoxin, she is more like a coward when it comes to love.

Wang Ruoxin is indeed brave in dealing with the matter of having a crush on Jiang Yu. Although Li Meimei admires her, she is unwilling to learn from Wang Ruoxin.

For love, Li Meimei chose to be passive, she has been waiting, waiting for the man who will desperately chase her and give her a sense of security to appear.