Chapter 21: The Ring of Morbius (3)
Jin Huan watched Lin Mu leave, she couldn't stay here any longer, she had to go home and ask Chu Xiu.
"How are you, it's really you?" Jin Huan listened to Chu Xiu's narration, she never thought that it was really Chu Xiu.
"I'm really miserable, for so many years, as long as I show the characteristics of a girl, others look at me like a monster, and the world has not tolerated me at all. Chu Xiu roared pathetically, and Jin Huan looked at him without any expression.
The two men stood in opposition to each other, each thinking about their own thoughts. After a long time, Jin Huan finally spoke:
"But you can't kill. β
"I really can't control myself! He saw that I was a man, called me a pervert, called me a freak, just like seeing the group of children around me and laughing at me when I was a child, I couldn't stand it!"
Jin Huan hugged Chu Xiu and soothed his back, he was like a wounded beast and needed to be comforted.
"But you made a mistake, is it good to turn yourself in. β
"No, I don't want people to mention me and say I'm a women's pervert, I'm not a women's pervert, I'm just different from other men. But I can't say ......."
"You're not a pervert, no, yes, you're just blending two different genders together, aren't you?"
Chu Xiu just sobbed and didn't answer, but he calmed down.
"Then what are you going to do?" Jin Huan looked at Chu Xiu's face and asked, how long had it been since she had seen Chu Xiu's face without makeup?
Lin Mu was unsuccessful in applying for a search warrant because of insufficient evidence. Lin Mu could only vouch for himself and rushed over with Zheng Wei.
Jin Huan watched Chu Xiu finish writing the last sentence and said, "It's good to do this." β
"It's better, I really don't want to say anything about my embarrassment. Jin Huan nodded, took out a note and made a Mobius ring and put it next to the suicide note written by Chu Xiu, and said to Chu Xiu with a smile, "Let's go." β
Jin Huan and Chu Xiu sat on the rooftop, facing inside. Chu Xiu changed into a man's costume and washed his face.
"What did they say about you?"
"Call me a pervert and a monster. β
"What else?"
"And you're a man, how can you be? Why can I only be a man?"
"Well, I won't hear those words anymore. Jin Huan squeezed Chu Xiu's hand, if you don't want to face it, don't face it.
"Wife, have you thought about it?"
"Well, I've thought about it, I'll accompany you wherever you go. β
"Why, I am not a normal man, why do I have a woman's soul. β
"It's not your fault, it's not. β
The two were silent, the wind on the rooftop was very strong, and now the hearts of the two were extremely relaxed.
Jin Huan thought that he would finally no longer be entangled in facing his beloved for the rest of his life.
Chu Xiu thought that he had finally ended his life of two genders, ridiculed, and incompatible with the world.
"Wife, I'm sorry for you. Chu Xiu felt that in his life, the most sorry person was Jin Huan, a person who sincerely accepted himself.
Jin Huan looked at Chu Xiu and asked seriously, "If there is a next life, will we still be together?"
"Okay, in the next life, I want to be a normal man to give you real happiness. β
"Well, I love you no matter what you look like. β
Jin Huan and Chu Xiu looked at each other and smiled, and fell back hand in hand without hesitation.
In the midst of people's exclamations, the two of them had fallen in a pool of blood, but their faces were smiling.
Lin Mu found his suicide note in Chu Xiu's house, looking at the crimes he wrote down and the inner struggle, Lin Mu took the Mos-Woobi ring, and thought to himself: They may be free.
The two sides of the MΓΆbius ring are cleverly merged into one. Does it represent the possibility of the two sides of opposites having the possibility of blending, but also the love of soul blending?
Chu Xiu's man had a woman's soul living in his body, so was he a monster? Of course not.
There are so many different people in the world, and daring to admit and face yourself is also a kind of practice.
In fact, the world can really tolerate all different souls, but it can't be saved, the heart can't reconcile with itself, and the special malice can't be accepted.
Someone will definitely ask, so whether Chu Xiu is a man or a woman. Does this answer really matter? If there is one answer, it has to be himself.
If Chu Xiu could get the support of his mother when he was a child, if he could be tolerated by his friends, if he could meet someone earlier and tell him: He is not a pervert, not a monster, but his soul chose the wrong body. Then the pain and entanglement that he has been lurking in his heart for more than twenty years will not evolve into a murderous monster.
But how can there be so many ifs?
There are still many people who cannot escape the eyes of the world.