"Sheng'er, I know very well what it's like to miss out, you must have experienced it from Gu Tingchen, I hope you have no regrets on this road of feelings, I have always supported you in pursuing your own happiness. ”

My sister-in-law's words have always sounded in my ears, and the pain of losing Gu Tingchen at the beginning of my heart comes to mind, and it is better to die than to live!

I quickly hung up the phone and opened the door, Jing Yu and they were resting next door, I didn't want to disturb them to leave alone.

When I entered the elevator, my steps were weak, my spirit was a little trance, I shook my head to the side of the road to stop the car, and after a while, there was another person beside me, it was the familiar clear breath in the depths of my memory.

I tilted my head and froze, "Why are you here?"

The man's voice was unusually gentle and explained: "Last night's incident was a dereliction of duty in the Gu family, Ji Nuan's relationship with you is like a sister, I know that you are uncomfortable in your heart, originally I wanted to find you last night, but you and Xi Zhan are together...... Sheng'er, I want to accompany you. ”

Gu Tingchen wants to be the man who accompanies me.

He wanted to replace Xi Zhan, but he didn't dare to say it clearly!

I didn't want to get entangled with him, so I simply ignored him, and instead of feeling embarrassed, he asked me, "Where are you going?"

I still ignored it, and Gu Tingchen asked me in an aggrieved tone, "Sheng'er, it's been two years, are you still angry with me?"

There is a big difference between the personalities of Gu Tingchen and Xi Zhan, Xi Zhan is a very rigid man, he does things, speaks and does what he says, and he is too lazy to explain, the whole cold machine!

But Gu Tingchen is different, he can bend and stretch when he encounters problems, and he can show weakness in front of me, but I am very easy to be soft-hearted.

Gu Tingchen knew this, he stared at me with gloomy eyes, and said in an aggrieved tone: "I did something wrong before, but I never thought of hurting you after that! If I had to choose again, I would still do that, compared to the pain of losing you, everything else is nothing, I am willing to bear it, but I never thought that the woman who once loved me so much and was willing to marry me would get off the bus and fall in love with other men halfway!"

Gu Tingchen's words pierced my heart, I couldn't disperse with a breath in my heart, my whole body was in pain, and my head was even more dizzy, I shook my head and said softly: "Actually, I can understand the decision you made that time, because if it were me, I would have done the same, but before that, I had been hurt by you too many times, so I built a wall in my heart to stop you outside!"

It had rained in Wucheng before, the ground was very wet, and my high heels were full of mud and water, which was terrible to look at, I took a deep breath and said very firmly: "I'm sorry, there are regrets between us, but I still want to say that I love Xi Zhan." ”

I love Xi Zhan, and I love the man who has a cold expression all the year round, but protects me impenetrable and gives me infinite indulgence.

In this life, in my limited life, I only identify with him.

I'm going to find him right now!

I want to be there for him.

But a smell of blood welled up in my throat, and I forced myself to swallow it and said to Gu Tingchen, "I have a private preemptive departure." ”

I stopped a taxi and went up, in the car my spirit suddenly weakened, the driver asked me where I was going, I slowed down for a long time before I remembered that the seaside villa that Xi Zhan said was there.

I reported the address, and as soon as I blurted out this sentence, my throat was itchy and I couldn't stop coughing, and the driver cursed and said, "Bad luck!"

I covered my lips and kept coughing, I didn't have time to pay attention to him, Gu Tingchen knew my condition, he hurriedly opened the car door and asked me how I was, I spread my hand and found that my palms were full of blood.

I was stunned, Gu Tingchen helped me get out of the car and got into his car with a worried face, I sat in his car and said with a smile: "Tingchen, I can't get his forgiveness anymore, send me to the hospital." ”

"Sheng'er ......"

I burst into tears of laughter, and the despair in my heart was so deep, and I muttered to myself, "Although I have no children, and I am not qualified to be a mother after all, I still want to live! I want to be by his side, but why does God have to treat me so cruelly? I just want a healthy body." ”

Hearing this, Gu Tingchen couldn't cry and said: "I'm sorry, I caused you to do this, and I took away your health with my own hands!"

Indeed, the cancer of my womb was given to me by him!

It was he who kept me on the brink of death!

I hate him, I hate him and want to kill him!

But the most blamed is yourself!

It was he who let him do what he did!

My spirit is too fragile, so weak that I don't even have the strength to talk to him, as if a touch of coldness fell on the corner of my lips, I reached out and touched it gently, I don't know what it was!

When I became conscious again, I was in the hospital four hours later, when I was lying on the hospital bed, Gu Tingchen was by my side, and he held my palm tightly as if he was afraid that I would disappear!

I withdrew my hand from his palm, and his eyes darkened and he said to me, "The doctor said your condition is getting worse. ”

I closed my eyes and said, "I know." ”

Gu Tingchen was silent for a long time, and said in a gentle voice: "Although medicine can restrain your condition, but only restraint, you can't spoil your body anymore, you can't get sick again, you can't get hurt anymore, you must always pay attention to keeping warm, and your mood can't be too low." ”

I hummed coldly, Gu Tingchen didn't care about my attitude, and continued: "The doctor gave a proposal, and he said that the best treatment for you now is to remove the uterus to prevent the condition from getting worse, I think the proposal is good, at least it can make you ......."

I interrupted him and asked in a frustrated tone, "Does it increase my chances of survival? Cancer is never cured, right?"

Hearing this, Gu Tingchen was silent, and I said self-deprecatingly: "After I had surgery two years ago, Assistant Yin said that I was cured, but now the condition has recurred, how can there be any real recovery?"

Seeing that I was in pain, Gu Tingchen bent down and hugged me into his arms, and I silently shed tears and felt very sour in my heart.

I just want to live.

But why is it so hard to live?

I pushed Gu Tingchen away, "You can go." ”

He didn't force me to stay, he told me to rest well and left the ward, I stared at the infusion tube all night, and the doctor came to check on the ward in the early morning to ask if my body was still in pain.

I nodded and said, "It's a little, it doesn't hurt much." ”

After drinking the medicine and infusion, the pain in my body eased a lot, and within the scope of what I could bear, the doctor recorded my condition and stood in front of my hospital bed and hesitated for a long time before saying, "Master, you have to have surgery, although you have to take it off...... But now it's time to control your condition......"

He was afraid of me, so he spoke secretly.

I'm afraid of offending me.

After a night of emotional precipitation, I am now at peace deep inside, and I lowered my eyes and asked him, "Are there any side effects from surgery?"