Chapter 44: You have always been the light hidden in my heart
How devoted she was this time, this song forced her to think of Wang Yizhou again, and to feel her bloody heart again! It forced her to break her heart like a blunt knife cutting flesh again! Obviously, she was ready to let go, and she would never think about the past again for the rest of her life! Obviously she was already in a hurry as a passerby! Obviously she had tried to restrain her love for him...... Why? Why did she have to force her to face it? Why did she know that she was actually very eager for his love? Why? Mu Jing burst into tears in the recording studio, crying while playing, and couldn't pull out after playing, crying so much that the body of the violin was full of tears......
Wang Yicheng patted her on the back and soothed: "Okay, don't cry!"
Mu Jing slapped his hand away coldly, "No way, I can't help it!" Isn't this what you want?!
Wang Yicheng: "Okay, hug it!"
Mu Jingleng: "Don't touch me!"
Wang Yicheng: "Then kiss it!"
Mu Jingleng casually took the music score on the music rack and threw it on Wang Yicheng, and then walked out of the recording studio quickly! Everyone was surprised and dumbfounded...... dared to treat Wang Yicheng like this, but Wang Yicheng was not angry but showed a distressed look!
Song Tian didn't want to kiss her in his heart, Wang Yizhou wanted to kiss her without her in his heart, Wang Yicheng wanted to kiss her when he got married, who am I?! I hate to die! When I came out and saw her only safe haven now, I immediately threw myself into my brother's arms and cried exhausted......
Alas, Mu Jingliang knew that his sister would be like this, he understood the flow of the notes of the song when he read the score at that time, and this song would arouse the deep embodiment of his sister's heart!
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Aunt Lin asked all the airlines she could ask, but there was no record of Mu Jingleng's flight; Xiao Yuanxuan went to check the United States, but there was no entry record of Mu Jingleng, but she said that if Wang Yicheng wanted to erase it, it would be easy; Aunt Lin and Gao Zhi could not find Mu Jingleng in China with all their relationships; Wang Yizhou did everything that could be asked and checked, but to no avail! Where was she? Which city should he start looking for? If there was no flight record, would he go to London to find it first? But she can take a bus, she can drive, she can go to many places from London, everything is possible! Alas, when his heart was as fast as ashes, he suddenly remembered a person, so he made this phone call as if he had grasped a life-saving straw......
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Wang Yicheng looked at Mu Jingleng in the corner, this is the seventh day he has done this, he looks at her quietly in the hidden place, and seems to be guarding her, she will sit quietly in the park near Mu Jingliang's house every day, sitting in front of the lake for an hour, he has also been with her in the hidden place for an hour in the past six days, not to disturb her, he doesn't know what she is doing?
She is not a delicate girl, she will always be a paralyzed face that rejects people thousands of miles away, but she is so out of the world in his heart, he sees pity, she is the white moonlight in his heart! She hasn't really laughed for him a few times, but just a few times, but it melted his heart! Looking at her, just like those who are very tired from work every day, and when they come home and see their cute baby, they will be cute and healed, and they feel that they are worth it no matter how tired they are! However, the world is that something is wrong or wrong, and there is no way to repair her relationship with him, even if he wants to work hard! He wants to force it! However, he has cast a shadow in her heart, and she has no way to accept him!
He and his wife are in a contract marriage, and two people who are in the same condition have walked together, and they each already have their own piece of white moonlight in their hearts! As time goes by, the two have no strong love, and some are just trivial time together, which makes both of them have feelings, and he feels that he loves his wife now, and his wife may also love him. However, his heart has always left a place for Mu Jingleng, if in a country where he can have three wives and four concubines, if Mu Jingleng is willing to stay with him, Mu Jingleng will be his favorite and most favored wife!
I have to admit that he is dragging the progress, in fact, with the piano skills of the Mu brothers and sisters, the recording of the soundtrack ensemble can be finished a long time ago, but in order to stay with Mu Jingleng for a longer time, he has been dragging it until Mu Jingleng began to doubt, he made two more songs and asked her to play with him, but this is not a way, sooner or later she will be forced away!
Mu Jingleng suddenly got up and walked towards him, not giving him a chance to hide, because she had been watching him when she got up. "Wang Yicheng, do you have anything to say?"
He looked at her, still looking like a cock blowing up!, "Do you listen to everything I say?"
Mu Jingleng: "No!"
In order not to get angry, Wang Yicheng changed the topic: "Do you still like to read comics?"
Mu Jingleng: "Are you going to stand here like this for a few days? I found you the day before yesterday! I thought it was just an accident! But yesterday and today! Do you have a stalker?" Is he waiting for an opportunity to catch her?
Wang Yicheng: "Mu Jingleng! Are you too narcissistic?! I just like the bad environment here, which makes me have creative inspiration!"
Mu Jingleng: "It's better to be like this!" Oh, yes, he's already married!
Wang Yicheng: "Why do you have to speak coldly to me? Aren't you afraid of angering me?"
Mu Jingleng: "I'm afraid, but I can't meet you!"
Wang Yicheng: "Can't you treat your own first love?"
Mu Jingleng: "First love?" What is he going to go crazy about?
Wang Yicheng: "I! You haven't been in love before you met me, and then you talked to me about a plain love! Isn't that your first love?! All the youth and beauty are given by the first love, and the first time is the most unforgettable! I am so unforgettable to you! Can't you tell me your heartfelt feelings to me? After you reunite with me, you should have a heart-to-heart talk with me! Not such a zombie face!"
Mu Jingleng: "What kind of Su Lian? What nonsense are you talking about?"
Wang Yicheng: "It's platonic love!"
Mu Jingleng: "......" doesn't want to argue with him about anything! He is right, all the youth and beauty are given by the first love, and the first time is the most unforgettable! But this person is not him! I don't want to talk to him!
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A few days later, London's Hyde Park.
In order to avoid Wang Yicheng, she came to Hyde Park today, sat on the bench in the park, faced the Jiuqu Lake, felt the leisurely life, bathed in the sun, and felt indescribably comfortable!
Wang Yizhou is just a passerby in her life, just a youthful love in her memory, as long as she puts it down, now she can be happy, she is under the warm sun, feeling the touch of the cool breeze, thinking: I want to start a new life with the baby! Mu Jingleng, even if there is no love, I have to run my life colorful! What will I do next? Do a violin private tutor in my brother's studio? If I practice for a long time, will I be too tired to be pregnant? Or do you want to apply for a job at a pharmaceutical company, but will you hire a pregnant person? Open a Chinese medicine hall here? Or do you really want to study for a doctorate? The breeze is blowing, the soft sun is basking in, ah, I don't want to move, I am lazy, hee, I don't want to think about it first, then take a break, and then think about whether it is work or further study next month! Life needs to be enjoyed! Baby, my mother likes to look at the lake like this in a daze! So meaningful, chant a poem:" There are flowers in spring, there is a moon in autumn, there is a cool breeze in summer, and there is snow in winter. ”
Close your eyes, feel the breeze, it's comfortable, and your brain is empty...... Suddenly, a figure blocked her sunlight, and a male voice she was familiar with sounded: "So Yaxing?
Wang Yizhou's sudden appearance really scared Mu Jing coldly, obviously told his brother and them, don't tell Wang Yizhou, how did he find it?Or just happened to meet, but what does it mean to hold her? Aren't you afraid that Murong Jing will misunderstand?"This is the torture of the former boss meeting the former employee?"
Wang Yizhou: "I didn't accept your resignation!"
Mu Jingleng: "Even if you don't accept it, you can already terminate the labor relationship after being absent from work for so many days." ”
Wang Yizhou kissed her hair, absorbing her breath, ah, I miss her so much! hugged her tightly, and said, "I don't want us to have only a labor relationship! More precisely, I don't want this kind of relationship now!"
Mu Jingleng was full of doubts about his ambiguous action of hugging him behind his back and kissing his hair, "Aren't you afraid that Murong Jing will misunderstand?"
Wang Yizhou was angry: "Murong Jing is just my subordinate! Mu Jingleng! Are you from ancient times? Always thinking about sending women to me?" "Do you think I want three wives and four concubines? It's enough to have you!"
Mu Jingleng: "What? I sent it to you?" You found it yourself, saying that I sent it to you!
Wang Yizhou shouted: "Yes! It's really inexplicable!"
Mu Jingleng: "Wang Yizhou, why are you so fierce?! Now it's you who is inexplicable! Is your sudden appearance just to lose your temper with me?"
Oh, it's not the time to lose your temper, "I'm sorry, I didn't control my emotions!"
Mu Jingleng broke free and said, "How long do you have to hold it?!"
After speaking, Wang Yizhou let go of her, walked to her and knelt down on one knee, looked up at her with affection, did not speak, just smiled at her stupidly!
Mu Jing looked at his behavior today, it was really full of question marks written in capital letters? What happened to him today? Did he drink water with his brain?
After looking at each other for about 30 seconds, Mu Jingleng looked away, because she was ready to end everything, and the calm heart lake didn't want to be disturbed!
Wang Yizhou looked at his longing face, and couldn't move away for a while, he reached out and grabbed one of her hands, interlocking ten fingers with one of his hands!
Hearing this, Mu Jingleng's brain flew rapidly, it was not that she couldn't hear the meaning of Wang Yizhou's words, but it was too sudden! She couldn't believe it! Even before she stepped on the plane to London, he was still the friend, brother and sister who had no relationship with her, and the rest was the labor relationship between his superiors and subordinates! He didn't know that it was her that night, at best, it was one more one-night stand relationship that he didn't know! Later, it was also his father who was a child he didn't know! What happened these days when she left? She wanted to withdraw her hand, but Wang Yizhou clasped it tightly, and Mu Jing couldn't pull it out!
The two of them sat side by side like this, everyone looked at the calm lake, their fingers clasped, and they didn't make a sound to each other, like an old husband and wife. Wang Yizhou understood at this moment that this is what everyone is talking about holding the hand of the son and growing old together, even if there is no interaction, they are not embarrassed by each other, just holding the hand of the son plainly, there is no need to be vigorous, everyone feels the quiet years together!
It was basically Wang Yizhou who broke the silence between the two of them, "Lengleng, you have been gone for 23 days!"
Mu Jing ignored it indifferently.
Wang Yizhou was used to her indifference, "Lengleng, why are you leaving?"
Mu Jingleng still ignored him, thinking: Because I want to leave the place where you are!
Wang Yizhou: "Didn't you say that 21 days is a habit? But after you left for 23 days, I still don't get used to it! On the contrary, I am getting more and more irritable! I even feel that I have nothing! When I hear the tunes we played together, go to the shops we used to go to together, and do some things that we used to do together, I will feel a pang of pain in my heart. Leng Leng, do you like me?" and then looked at Mu Jingleng's side face expectantly.
Mu Jingleng lowered her head and said in disguise: "I don't like it! You just get used to me being by your side, it will be fine after a while!"
Wang Yizhou still gasped when he heard it with his own ears, did he not love him anymore? But he still held Mu Jingleng's hand tightly!
Mu Jingleng's expression was indifferent at this time, but her heart lake was already roaring, and she was trying to maintain its calmness!
Another silence......
If you don't like it, how can you give it to him for the first time? Since you have chased it to London, you must convey your thoughts to her well, and you don't want to regret it anymore! And even if you are left out in the cold, you will stalk her! Wang Yizhou took a deep breath and continued: "After breaking up with Yangyang, I pretended to be strong in front of everyone, but I was alone in the dark night with a sore nose that I couldn't control it, I loved her so much at that time! But ......"
Mu Jingleng didn't want to listen to it anymore, so she interrupted directly: "Well, everyone knows!" I haven't questioned her status in your mind, the point is that I don't want to hear you say how much I love her, although I know it's the truth, but I don't want to listen to it anymore!!
Wang Yizhou still had to continue: "After the breakup, when I saw your brother and Hu Tang, Gao Zhi and Xiao Yuanxuan, my heart was bitter! So, when I saw you and Song Tian together, my heart was blocked, and I mistakenly equated this feeling with seeing an intimate couple! From a little blockage at the beginning, to the blockage that I couldn't breathe! I realized that in fact, I couldn't stand you and Song Tian being together! To be precise, I couldn't stand a man other than me being with you! Lengleng, do you know? How happy I was when I asked Song Tian about your whereabouts, and he didn't know anything! Even if I didn't know if what he said was true or false? Lengleng, can you tell me if you were with Song Tian?"
Mu Jing looked cold: "No!" "Can't stand me being with a man other than you?"
Wang Yizhou asked cautiously, "Then, have you ever considered being with me?"
Mu Jing Leng thought without thinking: "I never wanted to be with you, even if I ......" Mu Jing paused coldly and did not continue.
Wang Yizhou said bitterly: "Heh, it's really ruthless!"
Mu Jing pursed her lips coldly and was silent, she didn't dare to think about it for so many years!
Wang Yizhou: "Leng Leng, do you still think that I am in love with Ouyang Jing? Do you know why I know that you are in London? Are you so sure that I won't ask her?"
Mu Jingleng was still unfazed on the surface, it turned out that Yang Yang told him that he went to ask Yang Yang in order to find her, and when she came to London, she changed her phone number and did not log in to all the chat software used in China. She has only called her family and Yangyang in China.
Seeing that she didn't answer, Wang Yizhou was silent for a long time and then restarted his words: "Maybe you all think that I can't let go of Yangyang! Until Murong Jing's appearance, you still think that I am looking for the shadow of Yangyang from her! But no! It was also her appearance that made me face up to and think: Is it Yangyang that I am really reluctant to give? Or am I reluctant to really invest in the feelings that I really invested in for the first time? What am I angry about? Is it angry that she is playing with my feelings?"
Wang Yizhou spoke very slowly, and when he heard Wang Yizhou say that Yangyang was playing with feelings, Mu Jingleng couldn't help but interrupt: "Wang Yizhou, Yangyang didn't play with your feelings, she was also sincerely in love with you at that time!
Wang Yizhou tightened his clasped hands, smiled happily, and said: "I know! I have never hated Yangyang! After breaking up, I slowly found that at the beginning, it was just that Yangyang's appearance was too in line with my long-established ideal lover, these are all sticking to appearances, in fact, our personalities and three views are incompatible, and these will suddenly appear after a long time! This relationship will end no matter what! It's just that Yangyang found out earlier than me, so that I was the one who was abandoned! In the end, I also found that what I couldn't let go of was the loss of my self-esteem, and what made me unbearable was the shame of being a cuckold, which had nothing to do with love!"
Mu Jingleng: "Oh!" Is that to let go of Yangyang?
When Wang Yizhou heard her say, he was irritable and angry!"Mu Jingleng, you give me another 'oh' to try! I've said this, don't you have anything to ask?!"
Why did you suddenly lose your temper again? Mu Jing was curious: "What are you asking?"
......Wang Yizhou grabbed her other hand and put it on his chest and rubbed it! "Hmph! You really have the ability to kill me when you are angry! Then you won't ask? Wait for me to say anything!"
Mu Jing looked at him coldly, in fact, she was a little anxious to verify it in her heart, and said softly: "You really don't love Yangyang anymore?
Wang Yizhou: "826 is Yangyang's birthday?" tilted his head and thought about it: "It seems to be!"
Mu Jingleng: "Well, August 26th!"
Wang Yizhou was a little stunned by her: "What are all the passwords?"
Mu Jingleng: "6826"
Wang Yizhou let go of the hand she was rubbing on his chest, "I knew I would misunderstand you, so I wouldn't have set this!
Mu Jingleng opened the input method of the mobile phone to select the nine-square grid, and pressed 6826 to come out with the word "warm", and suddenly there were several black question marks???
Wang Yizhou saw that she didn't understand, and explained: "What is the antonym of your name?"
Mu Jingleng: "......" Sure enough, the boss's brain circuit is particularly strange! This means that she can't continue......
Wang Yizhou picked up the jade hand that he had been clasping tightly, kissed her lightly on the back of her hand and said: "It's just that I'm sluggish, and I've made a lot of mistakes! I'm sure, I have no love for Yangyang! Even if I see her again, my heartbeat won't speed up anymore, and I no longer need to dodge her eyes! I called Yangyang that day, it was the first time I contacted her after breaking up with her, I didn't have any other thoughts, I just wanted to know where you were as soon as possible? Are you afraid of being alone outside? Will you be wronged? When I hear you in London, I can no longer hear what she says to me, because I have no love for her, and I want to fly to you!
Mu Jingleng still has a lot of doubts: "I don't remember Yangyang's birthday, so why did you drink so much that night?
Wang Yizhou: "Of course not! That night I thought you were leaving with Song Tian, but you didn't come, and you abandoned me! Lenglen, what I'm most afraid of now is a turn, and we will never see each other again! You say that my heart is dark, that's right! Since I was 20 years old, you have been like a lighthouse illuminating my heart, taking me out of one predicament after another, crushing the horns that I drilled myself, and constantly giving me self-confidence, I can always feel inexplicably relieved, relaxed, calm and peaceful with you, I can be myself! You will encourage me, you will take care of my emotions, you will consider my feelings, and you will give me the courage and armor to fight against harm. When you call my name softly and elegantly and talk to me, I will feel warm and relaxed after being tired every day. In fact, you have always been the light hidden in my heart! I was just blinded by myself! You are my eyes! Without you, I can't see anything clearly! Lengleng, I really know clearly! Mu Jingleng, I love you!"