Blue Star, 2020.

June in the south of the Yangtze River is rainy and rainy.

After a whole month of cloudy to light rain, light rain to heavy rain, heavy rain to thundershowers, today is a rare usher in the rising sun.

In Lihu City, in a damp and cold apartment, there is also a hint of warmth because of the morning light that sneaks in through the curtains.

The simplicity of the apartment is unobstructed, with a bed, a computer desk, and nothing else.

If you look closely at the walls, you can still see a few cracks caused by the moisture.

Above the computer desk, there are several posters of the RNG team.

On the contrary, it adds a bit of popularity to the cottage and makes it look less deserted.

......

"Squeak, squeak. ”

The sound of Li Yu turning over the bed broke the silence in the hut and helped him usher in a new day.

His brain began to work, and as soon as he woke up, he felt all the symptoms of a hangover.

Splitting headache, dizziness and nausea, dry lips, and stomach churning......

After drinking a few sips of water, his symptoms were still the same, and he was extremely uncomfortable.

It just so happened that Li Yu remembered a statement on the Internet.

After getting drunk, drink some wine the next day to "get through".

In line with the attitude of a dead horse as a live horse doctor, I slowly drank a can of beer, and gradually got better.

Lazily lying on the bed, Li Yu carefully recalled everything that happened yesterday.

What a terrible day.

……

Yesterday afternoon, his best friend Zili suddenly told Li Yu that the ad player of the RNG team, Uzi, retired due to illness.

It was a bolt from the blue for him.

The joke title "Forever Dripping God" that has been passed down from the Internet is not a joke in Li Yu's heart.

For him, from the very beginning of his contact with League of Legends, Uzi was just born to compete in the professional arena.

Since then, the little fat man has become his favorite contestant.

Even his wishful thinking that he has accompanied Uzi through the best years of his youth, with ups and downs, ups and downs.

From not having a championship in six years, to winning six championships in a year, from the golden rain to the lonely departure, from the royal family to the current RNG, he accompanied uzi to stand at the peak and fell into the abyss together.

It wasn't until yesterday that Uzi officially announced his retirement, and looking at the tirade, he knew that the sadness of adults was so lonely.

Maturity forces itself not to be sad and pretends to be nothing.

But when he saw Brother Zaozi's retirement video, and saw that immature and crazy puppy turned into a mature Jane Pride, his tears involuntarily soaked his eyes, and his black glasses were covered with a layer of moisture.

It must be that the video is too sensational!

Then there were words about himself being mercilessly ridiculed at the wine table.

"Don't you know, when Li Yu opened the door for me, do you know what he looked like?"

"Tears in my eyes. His eyes slid down his cheeks and into his neck, and he was calm enough to tell me that you were here!"

"Grass, a male ghost alive, has a fight with Sadako. ”

After finishing speaking, his friends laughed, and Li Yu was still a little embarrassed, wanting to explain something but not knowing where to start.

After a few glasses of wine, he mocked his self-reliance but whimpered on the spot.

"Forever dripping God, why do you think he retired?"

"He hasn't won that top championship yet!"

"There are injuries, I know, I understand, but I'm so unwilling......"

Lin Hao's sudden collapse of emotions hit Li Yu's lifeblood at once, and he wanted to say something but couldn't say anything.

yes, who can blame that injured idol?

But......

It's really unwilling.

After three rounds of drinking, Li Yu became more and more fierce the more he drank.

Everyone thought that he was still sad about the retirement of his idol and didn't explain it, young man, why don't you drink some wine?

Is that really the case?

Li Yu's drunkenness seems to be sudden and inevitable, and the collapse of adults is often a momentary thing.

Uzi's retirement only brought his collapse forward in time.

He did nothing, and finally met a reason for catharsis this time.

21-year-old Li Yu, as a senior this year, is about to usher in his graduation ceremony.

Compared with the success and retirement of his idol, he really can't bear to look at it directly.

The college entrance examination sent him to a 985 university, and four years have passed in a flash.

I haven't failed a course, I haven't been in a relationship, and I haven't participated in activities......

Ordinary and ordinary are his truest synonyms.

From the beginning of the school recruitment, I was full of ambition to the final feather.

When dreams and reality collided for the first time, Li Yu was confused.

Since childhood, I was taught by my parents to read in order to get ahead, and I was at a loss for a while.

Neither parents have studied in college, and their high school education is a regret they have always had, so they have hoped for Li Yu since he was a child.

has also been instilling in Li Yu the idea that as long as he can graduate from college, he will be able to soar to the sky, not to mention that "above one person, under ten thousand people" will also be a "fragrant bait" sought after by tens of thousands of people.

But when Li Yu stepped into the school recruitment venue, he found that the 985 bachelor's degree in the eyes of his parents was completely different from what they thought.

A monthly salary of six or seven thousand.

996 busy.

Migrant workers under the fence.

In this way, the bone feeling of reality extinguished the enthusiasm of this young man who is about to enter society from beginning to end.

The time on campus was exhausted by himself, and he seemed too ordinary in the recruitment army without any skills.

There are no extra positions, no organized activities, no high scholarships, and no honors.

Even the grades are ordinary 60 plus.

It's too ordinary, so ordinary that no matter how much you try to retouch your resume, you will eventually be PASSED.

Let's talk about family.

The family has a small business, not to mention the wealth and wealth, but it is more than the bottom.

Two apartments and a car in third-tier cities, plus hundreds of thousands of deposits.

But the frustration of school recruitment made Li Yu suddenly feel that the academic qualifications that he and his family were proud of in front of their relatives were too ordinary.

Even my cousin, who dropped out of junior high school, can earn more than 10,000 yuan a month by selling electric cars at home.

But what about him?

After more than ten years of hard study, it seems that in the end it is nothing more than that.

I was still sad and worried about the future of my idol.

Now it seems that there is no reason to worry.

I am about to step into the ranks of "unemployment after graduation", but I am sad for a successful person who is worth more than 100 million yuan and has a beautiful car.

I didn't understand the denominator, and I was worried about whether the numerator was too small.

The sense of superiority that I had since I was a child because of learning has long since I was gone.

He will always remember that on the day when his college entrance examination results came down, there was light in his parents' eyes.

Looking at his parents' pride in him, Li Yu felt that he had grown up for the first time.

has been able to share the worries and problems of parents and make them happier.

From the moment he was born, his parents were full of expectations for himself, they said that he was begged from the mountains, and his birthday was calculated by others, and he would definitely be rich or expensive in the future.

From the name to the arrest of Zhou, everything is a statement that makes parents proud.

They have always considered themselves to be pride, hope, and their tomorrow.

As a result, there is nothing left until now.

He really couldn't look directly at his own obscurity.

He really felt sorry for his parents.

Every time my parents ask me about my current situation in a video, I will always be hesitant, and finally I will be angry and say: You don't care, you don't understand.

Like completing a mission.

But in the face of his ruthless words, his father always transferred more living expenses to let himself not suffer himself.

Shame, shame, silence to the end, habit.

Love?

Li Yu's maternal solo has been 21 years now.

Of course, it's not that he's not always been good enough.

Li Yu's appearance is also considered to be at the upper middle level, and it is not an exaggeration to say that he has always been a handsome guy in the class from childhood to adulthood.

In particular, a pair of slender peach blossom eyes under a pair of sword eyebrows are particularly moving.

But it's useless!

He has been using electronic products for a long time, and now he has 600 degrees of myopia.

His eyes have also changed from bright to dull and simple, and a pair of heavy black-rimmed glasses completely covered his bright spots.

Although he has a height of 183 and a weight of 130, which is considered a perfect body benchmark for men, he is still solo until now, and he is naturally inseparable from his personality.

Before college, he devoted himself to studying, like a primary school bully, and his good appearance naturally attracted the attention of many people of the opposite sex.

It's just that Li Yu, who looks at the big grin, doesn't know anything about contacting girls.

When he speaks, he is either nervous or his words are not meaningful, which can be described as a straight man and brain damage.

Young boys always want to show that they are different and maverick.

Saying outrageous things and doing outrageous behaviors, I still think it's cool.

As a result of his childish behavior, the girls eventually turned away from him.

When he arrived at the university, he moved out of the dormitory early because he slept very lightly, and there was no communication with the rest of the class.

Because of his love for League of Legends, he is devoted to the game.

In addition to playing black with a few classmates, one of the few recreational activities is to go out for a drink with a few people in the black team.

The female classmates in the class have long forgotten about this ordinary little otaku, and naturally there is no heterosexual relationship, let alone any "peach blossoms".

What about games?

After playing for a few years, the highest is only a platinum segment, and from time to time it is crowned with the title of "The King of the Canyon".

I can't even buy a few skins.

Watching live broadcasts during pastime is also an ordinary passer-by, A and B, who can't be a big brother and can't get anyone's attention.

The players I like have also retired, and the future of the family is bright.

Friend?

There are no rich second generations who are rich and noble, and there are no arrogant and domineering young masters of official families, and some are all ordinary people like themselves, like-minded and heart-to-heart.

Do you have a future?

It seems that you can see the head at a glance.

Find an ordinary job, meet an ordinary girl after a blind date at home, get married and have children, and finally cover the coffin and put it in the ground.

There are also two big words on the tombstone: ordinary.

Thinking of this, Li Yu could only anesthetize himself with glass after glass of alcohol: there is wine today and drunk today, and tomorrow will be sad tomorrow.

Afterwards?

He forgot how he came back.

Fuck the fuck!

Fuck the retired!

Fuck the fuck!

Fuck love!

Survival is simple, life is hard.

For a while, there were a lot of worries.

A person's life is from the pretentiousness at the beginning, to the slow acceptance of the ordinariness of the people around him, then to accept his own ordinary, and finally to accept the ordinariness of his children.

He Li Yu has probably been named ordinary since birth in this life.