His mimosa is really good, so good that he pities it and makes him feel distressed.

The girl was so warm that she could see that he felt a little guilty, and she was not relieved, nor explained, nor blamed, nor complained. She didn't say much, just got home and told him, "I'm fine," and, "You look really handsome in a white coat." ”

She is so clever in communicating her position: I understand, I agree, I support.

She easily dispelled all his concerns.

He finally relaxed, leaned back in his chair, and closed his eyes. It was late at this time, it was dark, and even the noisy hospital during the day was quiet. Everything was silent, except for some people crying in the corridor, some people sighing in the quilt, and some people shouting in their dreams......

The doctor on duty couldn't sleep well, his nerves had to be tense all the time, ready for surgery. Even Red Bull and coffee should always be kept in the office, and it is not uncommon for patients to suddenly feel unwell in the middle of the night.

He chatted with her intermittently, the two of them didn't talk much, they were both busy on weekdays, and after he had surgery, it was dozens of minutes or even hours later when he replied to the message.

Just eat, and when he is about to go to bed at night, he can talk to her more, that is the most enjoyable time of the day, the time he indulges in, and rewards his time.

"Did you dream of Edward and Bella last night?"

"Announcing the answer now?"

"Inconvenient?"

"No, wait for me to brew it. ”

He laughed, imagining his mimosa brewing, she should hold her face with her forehand and cheer herself up silently, or hold Lin Diandian and rub its face to heart's content.

She made a condition, "Wait until I'm going to sleep before you announce it?"

He was a little curious, "Why?"

"Otherwise, I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep well tonight. ”

He didn't know why, but he still followed her, "Okay." ”

The two chatted for a while, and he recently found that Lin Qing liked to stay up late, so he told her in detail about the disadvantages of staying up late, aging skin, damage to eyesight, and decreased concentration.

I don't know if it was because he had reservations, or because Lin Qing had a strong psychological quality, and the effect was not ideal, he didn't succeed in convincing her.

It was almost 12 o'clock, and he urged her to sleep.

At this moment, he was still sitting at his desk, ready to wait for her to fall asleep, and then start writing medical records. Luckily tonight, there were no sudden seizures of pregnant women, but writing medical records was enough for him to keep busy all night.

"Ready to go to bed?"

"Dr. Xu is really good at inducing people to sleep. ”

He laughed, and could imagine her gritting her teeth.

"Alright, I'll announce the answer. I'll shut it down after sending this message later.,I won't reply to your message.。 ”

She seemed to be giving him a vaccination, "Okay. ”

She had to finish before turning off the phone, "If you're okay on duty, you have to squint and stay up late to hurt your body." ”

His eyes were crooked, and Mr. Kobayashi also knew that staying up late hurt his body, but he didn't dare to say it, for fear that she would stop saying it in anger. "I will. ”

There was silence for a while, "I didn't dream of Fox last night, I didn't dream of Edward, I didn't dream of Bella. She paused, and another message came in.

"I dreamed of you. ”

"I'm off. ”

She quickly ran away.

He didn't know what to say for a while, he had been so lucky lately that he was a little flattered and couldn't believe it. Today she can take the initiative to come to the hospital to deliver supper, and she can still say to him, "I'm thinking about you".

Towards the end of the day when he thought it was good fortune, she said, "I dreamed of you. ”

His peach blossom eyes narrowed, she was really terrible today.

No wonder love will become the eternal theme in human epics, unrequited love is good enough, he is like Alisa in "Love in the Time of Cholera", if I have lovesickness, then let me stay sick for the rest of my life.

It's not that he hasn't thought that the matter of love can't be twisted. He knew that he was finished, even if she really didn't like him, I was afraid that he would wait for this life, just like Alisa, watching her get married, looking forward to a chance encounter with her, waiting for her to divorce, guarding her until she was dying.

And how lucky he was, she didn't seem to hate him, and even slowly fell in love with him. He is a very confident person, but in this matter, he doesn't dare to trust his instincts easily, he is afraid that he is too greedy, and he can't help but take advantage of her before she can think about it, and don't let her escape.

It wasn't like he hadn't thought about it, but it wasn't fair to her.

And now, she is coming to him step by step.

Unrequited love is good enough, and I am afraid that it will be fatal for the two to be happy.

"If I can take a nap tonight, I hope to dream of you again. ”

I also wish to dream of you again.

Sure enough, she didn't reply to the message.

He slid lightly to the chat log just now, the emotions in his heart were still so thick that he couldn't disperse, he looked at her message, thoughtful. "Otherwise, I'm afraid I won't be able to sleep well tonight. ”

He imagined her tone, her expression, the true meaning of her words. He couldn't quite guess why she wouldn't sleep well if she turned on the phone, and couldn't help but send him a message?

"A little fairy who turns into a mimosa, good night and good dreams. ”

The one who can't sleep tonight should be him.

I hope I can send you my good dreams, good night, good dreams.

He flipped through the medical records and began his long night.

Xu Hui has not been a talkative person since he was a child, he is introverted, but he has a lot of ideas. Before filling out the college entrance examination, he rarely revealed his desire to become a doctor to the people around him, so his parents were quite surprised.

Unlike his classmates, many classmates who had been clamoring to become doctors at that time were forced by their parents to change their majors, but he never mentioned it, and finally chose to be a doctor.

His father and his mother talked to him seriously the night before he filled in the college entrance examination volunteers, and that was the only time he said the reason: because when he was 12 years old, something happened. A couple in the neighborhood, in the first year of marriage, the wife became pregnant with their first child. Because the aunt had a bad constitution and a congenital disease, the child was born prematurely after only 7 months in the mother's womb, and stayed in the incubator for a few months.

The neighbor's family was not financially well-off, and his parents also gave them a lot of things at that time, and lent them tens of thousands of yuan.

After a few months, the baby can be discharged from the hospital. That day, he remembered that the neighbor's house was very lively, and many of their relatives came, and the aunt's maiden house also came that day.

In the evening, Xu Hui's family was invited to dinner together, and as soon as he heard that the little guy who had been in his ears for several months had finally returned, he threw away the Lego that was almost finished and ran to the neighbor's house.

The little boy was so cute, it was the prettiest child he had ever seen, and he looked a lot like that beautiful aunt. His eyes were big and very bright, his skin was white, and he looked very delicate, like a little girl.

He tried to shove his fingers into the little baby's fist, soft and warm.

Xu Hui was so curious that he circled around the little baby, but he didn't dare to get too close, for fear of breaking him.

But at that time, there were too many people who wanted to see this baby baby, Xu Hui was sensible, and quickly gave up his position and asked his grandparents to come.

Somehow, when he got to the door, he looked back again, and the little baby was smiling at him.

The next day, he got out of school at noon, and when he came home for dinner, his mother and his father didn't eat much, and he thought that the two of them had daily conflicts and didn't care much. His mother saw that he had almost eaten, so she put down her chopsticks and looked at him very seriously, "Huihui, my mother wants to tell you something." ”

Only then did he realize that his mother's eyes were red, as if he had just cried, and his intuition was not good. How to describe the feeling, there is no buffer time, 1-2 seconds of blank mind and fear in the heart.

"At two o'clock last night, my mother received a phone call, and the baby," she burst into tears, "was out of breath and brain dead." ”

He never thought that in the seemingly ordinary night, since life can happen, there should also be death, there will be people crying, some people hurting, and some people grieving.

But he still couldn't accept that the pretty little boy who was still holding his finger yesterday had disappeared like this.

The story doesn't end there, the neighbor's aunt suffers from postpartum depression, and for a long time the air pressure in their house is so low that it makes people cry sadly.

At that time, it seemed that a seed was planted in his heart, and it was also the reason why he finally chose obstetrics and gynecology.

He just hopes that he can be less powerless, save one more life, and make one more family happy.

Even now, when he is a doctor, he understands that some situations are really powerless, and medicine cannot solve all problems, but he still persists.

Whenever he was exhausted by midnight surgeries, crowded wards, and messy medical records, he always wanted to persevere, even for the sake of the little boy.

Whenever he encounters one powerless thing after another, refreshing his psychological quality, he will be afraid, he is not afraid of death, he is afraid that he will slowly become hard and indifferent, afraid that he will become indifferent after seeing too much death.

He would dig open his wounds in the middle of the night, just to remind himself that he had not forgotten his original intention, and to try to empathize and try to do his best, even at the cost of giving him nightmares after nightmares.

It's getting late.

Good night and good dreams.