Chapter 196: Get to know you again
Jin Yefei hugged Jin Yefeng all the way according to the memory when she came, and finally returned to the boat while ensuring that her feet did not touch the ground.
On the way back, Jin Yefeng always kept her eyes closed and her neck tightened, as if his neck was her lifesaver.
"Don't worry when you get on the ship, there will definitely be no ...... here"
Jin Yefei thoughtfully didn't say that word, but he didn't put her down, but sat directly on the chair.
However, this posture is a bit "unsightly": he sits in a chair, she faces him, straddles his lap, and snuggles up to his shoulder......
Jin Yefei was happy in his heart, but Jin Yefeng was still immersed in fear, unable to extricate himself, he didn't realize these at all, and the two of them hugged for a long time.
It wasn't until the trembling on Jin Yefeng's body gradually eased down, and due to excessive tension, she had a hypoxic reaction, which freed herself from the state of "clinging".
She finally let go of Jin Yefei's neck, straightened up and breathed the air greedily: "It's okay, it's okay......"
While Jin Yefeng was self-persuading, he suddenly discovered that something was wrong-
Such an ambiguous sitting posture and Jin Yefei's eyes looking at her also made her blush and heartbeat, and what was even more terrifying was that the clothes on her body still faintly exuded the smell of Feng Yifei......
"Are you feeling better?" Jin Yefei's words were like the last drop of EDTA standard solution before the critical point, making Jin Yefeng's face instantly turn from pink to "blue".
"Thank you......"
After she woke up from her fear, the first thing she did was to jump off Jin Yefei, clutching the corner of her clothes in her hands.
"What are you polite to me, it's the right thing to protect you, I'm your boyfriend......!
This is the biggest worry in Jin Yefei's heart, he wants to get a definite answer.
"No, no!, no, no, no, no, of course you're my boyfriend, it's just that there's been a bit of a misunderstanding recently!" Jin Yefeng explained nervously.
Recently, she avoided Jin Yefei, not because she didn't want to be with him anymore, but because she felt that she couldn't straighten out the relationship between them at all.
Especially around the matter of "interest" and "first kiss"-
Since Jin Yefei asked her for "interest", but Feng Yifei shamelessly deceived her "first kiss", it made her even more confused.
Fortunately, the ring that Jin Yefei gave her was "snake-shaped", which gave her an open and honest reason not to wear it.
Otherwise, she really didn't know what to do......
Jin Yefeng retreated to a place very close to the side of the ship, and opened a large distance from Jin Yefei.
And when Jin Yefei heard that she also admitted that she was the role of her boyfriend, she not only felt a little more down-to-earth, but also became more bold.
He walked up to her, bent slightly, and took her hand, staring at her with a sincere wink:
"Xiao Feng, since we are still boyfriend and girlfriend, why can't we communicate honestly?
"You're right!" Although Jin Yefeng nodded obediently, she didn't know how to express the so-called "honesty" in her heart, and she couldn't figure out the logic herself.
"It's me who's wrong today, I shouldn't have ruined your baby on the spur of the moment, but that's because I think you don't value me, but you value the gifts that others give you, and I admit I'm jealous......"
Since he wanted to be honest, Jin Yefei opened his head and said what was in his heart first:
"Later, I found out that you didn't wear my ring because you were afraid of snakes, and I was too careless to ask your opinion, but why didn't you make it clear to me at the time?"
"If you told me at the time that you were afraid of snakes, I would never force you, we can choose another style!"
"That ......" Jin Yefeng wanted to say that she had objected, she didn't even want a ring or a necklace at all, these were just formalities at best.
They are still so young, they have just begun to taste love, and they don't understand anything yet, but she believes:
If two people's hearts are together, whether there are these "forms" or not, even if they are across the sea, you can always remember the smile on each other's faces and the smell on their bodies, and they will live in your heart and will not leave for a moment.
They don't have such feelings yet, does this kind of thing really make sense?
These words are the words in Jin Yefeng's heart, but can she say them to Jin Yefei?
If it were Feng Yifei, she would definitely say it without reservation, in front of him, she could say whatever she wanted, but he was "Xiaofei......
She couldn't!
She was afraid of hurting him, she didn't want to see the loss in his eyes, she was very worried that he would throw the book "Letter to His Wife" that he had written full of feelings for eight years into the fire and burn it......
She didn't know how to face Jin Yefei's honesty, at this time, what she wanted to do most was to ask Feng Yifei, what should she do?
However, she couldn't do this, he understood what Jin Yefei meant, and from the moment he pulled off her "happy rabbit tail", she realized-
Jin Yefei didn't allow Feng Yifei to have such an important position in her heart!
This is contrary to the agreement she once promised Feng Yifei: "If you have a boyfriend in the future, you must put him in the highest position in your heart".
How can she be "honest" with Jin Yefei?
"Xiao Feng, just say what you want, don't worry, you can tell me all the thoughts in your heart in the future, okay?
Seeing that Jin Yefeng wanted to speak and stopped, Jin Yefei intuitively thought: She hasn't regarded her as a "boyfriend" in the real sense yet-
So far, she has not given him "interest", and he doesn't know what she likes to eat or what she is afraid of, and he doesn't know as much as Feng Yifei understands her, these are all cruxes.
Jin Yefeng raised her head and looked back at Jin Yefei's eyes seriously, the flame of determination burned in her heart: what the future holds, who knows, the road, if you don't go step by step, you can't see the end ahead at all!
So, she looked at him firmly and said:
"Xiaofei, what I want to tell you is that I don't want to repay your 'interest' now, and I don't want to wear the couple ring you gave me, because we don't know each other very well, and our relationship hasn't reached that point!"
"When I was young, we didn't understand anything, at least I didn't understand what it was to be in love, and I didn't know why you liked me so much......"
"I just think that you are a person who knows how to keep your word at a young age, and I admire you very much from the bottom of my heart. ”
"And now, I still don't know about feelings, I'm not sure if I'm with you because I like you, but I know that I'm afraid to see your sadness and disappointment, I can't bear to live up to your persistent feelings......"
Although Jin Yefeng's words were like a ruthless knife, stabbing Jin Yefei's heart twice, making him bleed, it was not so painful that he couldn't breathe.
Because these wounds have never healed, they no longer bleed because they have long been inflamed and even suppurated, and the pus and blood that comes out of them when she pokes them down is not necessarily a bad thing.
"Xiao Feng, thank you for saying this to me, I finally understand now......"
Jin Yefei lowered his head, although his heart was very painful, it was a growing pain in transformation, a pain that everyone had to experience, and a pain that would open up the sky after the pain.
He was suffering from this cone in his heart, and his hands were still holding Jin Yefeng tightly, and he thought:
Even if she doesn't like him now, at least she still cares about his feelings and recognizes him as a person, not that she hates him, and that's hope!
"I also want to tell you that my feelings for you are not just persistent, but from the heart, I have known you since I was a child, and over the years, I have been secretly paying attention to your growth, and my feelings for you have long taken root in my heart. ”
He couldn't help but confess, so that a warm breeze blew in Jin Yefeng's heart, she lowered her head shyly, he suppressed the urge to touch her face, and continued:
"Then I'm not going to force you to do anything again, can we start over, just when we just met, and get to know each other from the beginning?"
Jin Yefei's eyes were full of begging, because he didn't dare to imagine what it would be like to lose her? The feelings he had accumulated for her over the past eight years made him lose his air without her.
"Absolutely, it's the best way for us!"
Jin Yefeng held his hand back, and finally showed a down-to-earth and warm smile on her face, this is the result she wanted, the two of them started from scratch and went to learn about "love" together.
At this moment, Jin Yefei also showed a sunny smile after the pain, just like the completely clear sky behind him - the sunshine in the sunshine, which was so enlightening:
"Okay, thank you, let's start again: Hello, my name is Jin Yefei, I am fifteen years old this year, I am 179 cm tall, my interest is to play basketball, my favorite thing to eat is meat, I like any meat!"
"So you're less than 180 tall? haha!" Jin Yefeng covered his mouth and smiled sweetly.
"That's the real height without shoes, and I'll grow up, I'll definitely exceed 180 soon!" Jin Yefei was full of seriousness, "You haven't introduced yourself yet!"
"Haha, my name is Jin Yefeng, I am sixteen years old this year, my height is secret, you can't ask, my interests are sucking cats and playing the piano, and my favorite food is corn and ice cream......"
Jin Yefeng was also very serious, but when it came to the back, he still couldn't help laughing.
"You two sisters and brothers have a good chat! I was worried about you just now when I was scared like that!"
Feng Yifei appeared behind them silently like a ghost, and he suddenly happened, startling the two of them.
"When did you come back? Why do you walk without a sound, it's scared to death!"
Jin Yefeng's body was obviously shocked, and he quickly covered his violently undulating chest with his hands.
"Are you okay? I'm relieved to see you smiling so happily......"
Feng Yifei's caring eyes plucked Jin Yefeng's heartstrings heavily, and the rhythm that had been straightened out was disrupted by him again.
Seeing this, Jin Yefei suddenly had an idea: "This is Xiao Feng, can you introduce me to it?"
"Ah, Jin Erfei, did you commit another crime? Or did you pour your brain stupidly just now?" Feng Yifei was inexplicable when he heard this.
He ...... He is my best friend, his name is Feng Yifei, he is eighteen years old this year, he is in the same class as me, his height is 180, his interest is to flirt with girls, and his favorite food is braised pork......"
Introducing Feng Yifei and Jin Yefeng as a few treasures, she said, and she also realized that something was wrong.
Of course, this once again caused Jin Yefei's discomfort in his heart, but he digested it immediately, and he made up his mind that he must let her know him like this, and he must also understand her like this.
"Are you also scared silly?And why is my interest in 'flirting with girls'?"
Jin Yefeng didn't explain to him right away, and she didn't even dare to look at him again, because she began to worry again:
She and Jin Yefei can start over, but what should Feng Yifei do? One day in the future, if her relationship with Jin Yefei matures.
Then, the agreement between her and Feng Yifei will be broken, how to solve this contradiction?
Once again, she was caught in a vortex that made her dizzy......