"I don't deserve it. ”

"Don't deserve it, don't you deserve her happiness?"

"yes, you guessed it. ”

What did she think? ”

"She cried the day she left," the boy continued, with a trace of sadness on his face, "she just didn't know that now she was in pain and nothing was going to happen." ”

"Isn't a long pain as a short pain?"

"Yes. ”

Ning Meng sneered: "Yes, yes, self-righteous." ”

"What did you say?"

"I said you were self-righteous. I thought that breaking up with the girl I liked was to give her happiness, but in fact, it was just because of my own heart. Your heart already hurts when she's there, because you're happy for a while. Now that she's gone, your heart is starting to hurt again, isn't it?"

The guitar boy looked at Ning Meng with wide eyes and said, "How do you know?"

"Guess. ”

"Then you're right. ”

"It's written in your song," Ning Meng said, "You're depressed." She finally used the word.

The boy was silent for a while before he said, "yes, I checked it out a long time ago." But it's much better now. ”

"You can see you're trying. ”

Ning Meng saw a notebook on the low table that was still full of garbage just now, and finally revealed its true face after the garbage was cleaned up.

Accidentally, of course, on purpose, she took aim at what was written in the diary:

"May 3rd fine

It's a sunny day again, and I don't really like sunny days. I prefer a drizzle to a sunny day.

Her birthday. She's gone today. I drove her away.

Uncomfortable bugs have been crawling in my heart for a long time. Every time I see the sun rising, I tell myself I must be happy today, but every time it backfires. When the sun went down, I seemed a little lighter, and I was glad I had another day.

While she was gone, I went out for a walk. The flowers bloomed a little, the grass was green, and everything was thriving. I think I should be happy. But I'm still not happy. Of course, this has something to do with her departure. The scary thing is that I was still so unhappy when she didn't leave. So I let him go.

I wanted to love everything I saw, I wanted to embrace the world, but I couldn't do anything about it.

When I see the window, I always tell myself that I must hold on a little longer, and if I hold on a little longer, maybe tomorrow there will be new hope, and tomorrow I will see something new. I persevered again and again, but day after day, it was still the same.

I hope I'm alive tomorrow.,Then I can continue to record.,After all, this book hasn't been used up yet.,It's a good book.。 ”

Ning Meng was so engrossed that she didn't notice that her body had been tilted to the side.

"Have you finished reading?"

The guitar boy's sudden question made Ning Meng nervous.

"I'm sorry after reading it. Ning Meng wanted to explain something, but she didn't say anything.

Guitar Boy said, "It was that day that I wrote that song, the song you just heard. ”

"She is the light in your heart, and you drove that light away with your own hands. ”

"That's for her good. ”

"Does she think so too?"

"She must have thought so. ”

"You asked her?"

"No need to ask, I know her. ”

Ning Meng looked down on the guitar boy's self-righteousness, and said, "I thought it would be too arbitrary for her to think so without asking." ”

"She must have thought so. The guitar boy repeated it again, but it didn't seem that this sentence was for Ning Meng but for himself.

"Go ask her. ”

"Don't. ”

"Why?"

"The answer is the same. ”

"You're scared, aren't you?" Ning Meng decided to make a big move, she had never done anything like this, she took a risk, she vaguely knew that it could be done, she called this a woman's intuition.

"Joke, what am I afraid of?" the guitar boy was annoyed.

"You're afraid that the result you've asked is different from what you think, or the same as you think. ”

The guitar boy was silent.

Ning Meng said: "Maybe you don't need to ask her, just meet her." ”

After a long time, when Ning Meng was a little sleepy, the boy finally spoke.

"I want to see her. ”

"Good. ”

Ning Meng took out the golden key from her pocket, she was going to do something she had never done before. Since the golden key can change anything, that is......

Ning Meng threw the golden key to the ground. 2018

At that moment, another person appeared in the room, it was the girl Ning Meng had seen in the photo just now.

"Why are you here?"

"Why am I here?"

The guitar boy and the girl asked in unison.

But the girl asked more.

"Who is she?"

Ning Meng saw that the girl's round face was already slightly red, and immediately said, "I'm just passing by, passing by." ”

The girl seemed to give her own answer, saying, "Are you a door-to-door psychologist?"

Ning Meng hurriedly nodded and said, "Yes, he just said that he wanted to see you, so you came." ”

The girl was not at all surprised by this mysterious-sounding thing, and said to the boy, "You want me back again?" Look at how long it has been, more than two months. ”

The guitar boy was already thinking that Ning Meng was air at this time, of course, this was exactly what Ning Meng wanted, and said, "I want to see you." ”

"Yes, I'm here," the girl said deliberately angrily, "so I'm the kind of woman who comes and goes at a moment's notice." ”

"You know I didn't mean that. "The guitar boy was a little anxious.

"Of course I know you don't mean that. ”

The guitar boy touched the place of his heart and said, "I still have a lot of pain here." ”

The girl put her hand over the guitar boy's hand and said, "That's why I'm here." ”

Ning Meng knew that it was time for her to disappear.

What Ning Meng didn't know was that after she left, the guitar boy added a lyric to the song he wrote, "The doorbell didn't ring, but you came."

His heart may have been aching for a while, but he seemed to have found his antidote.

The moment Ning Meng left the boy's room, she once again held the golden key in her hand. She didn't know how the girl had just appeared in front of the guitar boy, maybe it was "teleportation", maybe it was "becoming", but anyway, she was back, and nothing else seemed to matter so much.

Black Rose was digging the soil like a puppy in the flower bed, as if she was intently observing something, and when she saw Ning Meng coming, she immediately abandoned the pile of soil and ran to Ning Meng, saying, "You are finally back, I am tired of waiting for me." ”

Ning Meng took out a clean tissue, wiped her hands and said, "How much noise did you eat again, did you come back, are you full?"

"I'm full. There's a park next door, and I love the music. ”

Ning Meng got goosebumps when she thought of the so-called "music" in those parks, and said, "It's good to eat enough." Before Gu Mai handed you over to me, he told us that we must feed you the noise well. ”

"Of course, I'm a distinguished guest. ”

Ning Meng threw the dirty tissue in the trash and said, "Can you still hear it?" ”

"I never look for food by hearing, my ears can't hear my food. ”

"That's the feeling, or something, or whatever?"

"Also, but it's a lot less, and it looks like you're going to need to clean up the kitchen. ”

Ning Meng was already very satisfied with this statement.

"Where are you going now?" asked Black Rose.

Ning Meng said: "Find Mingxi." ”

"I'm not the kind of woman who can't live without men, I have my own life and aspirations. ”

"Let's go help them, and they may not be able to do it. ”

"Then I see, those stupid people really can't do without us. Come with me. ”

"Do you know where it is?" Ning Meng was going to call Mingxi, after all, now Mingxi already knows how to use a smartphone. When Black Rose said this, Ning Meng was a little surprised.

Black Rose put on that invincible posture again and said, "Of course I know. underground. ”

"Underground?"

"Yes, in what humans call the center of the earth. ”

"So you can hear what Black Charcoal heard, so Black Charcoal didn't find a mistake, just looked in another direction?"

"Of course. ”

Ning Meng suddenly felt that "stupid people" were not only "stinky men", she was also one of them.

The "noise" that Ning Meng couldn't hear was a completely illusory thing to her, and now she had no other way but to believe in Black Rose. The guitar boy that Black Rose had just found was performing well, and Ning Meng's heart for Black Rose gradually relaxed.

In addition to noise, Black Rose is also interested in some gadgets.

Like many human girls, she is attracted to street gadgets and snacks, but she doesn't necessarily have to play with them or eat them, she is just happy the moment she buys them.

Of course, she doesn't seem to know the rules of paying, she often takes things and leaves, and Ning Meng can only follow behind to pay. She kept an account in her heart, and she wanted to put all the indulgence of Black Rose on him today when Gu Mai came.

When the black rose had enough, she suddenly took a hairpin from her hair. The hairpin was as black and shiny as her hair and face. Before Black Rose took down this hairpin, Ning Meng had never noticed that there was such a hairpin, just like people on the road had never noticed that Black Rose was different.

"Did you do it?" asked Ning Meng.

"What and how?"

"I don't mean to discriminate," Ning Meng explained, "I mean, how do you make those people on the road not notice your difference? ”

"I'm no different in their eyes. ”

Ning Meng's eyes were full of question marks.