The book was supposed to be completed in November or January, but now it is going to be finalized, which is somewhat hasty.

There are several reasons for this.

On the one hand, the book's subscription data is very unsatisfactory, with more than 6,800 collections, but less than 60 subscriptions per book.

And the collection of Buckle Book City is 3,000 plus, and there are not even three of them.

The author has not swiped the data, and the collection is all real. In other words, more than 99% of the readers of this book have become pirated readers, which is more hurtful and discourages the motivation to write.

On the other hand, since the beginning of the National Day, the benefits of the website have changed, and the benefits of new books cannot be enjoyed by this book, but the benefits of old books are gone.

It used to be possible to have a subsistence allowance for four months, but it ceased to exist in October, and it was also a relatively big blow to the authors who received the subsistence allowance for three months.

I could have received an extra month, but I didn't have it, and it had a big impact on my income.

Because of his health, the author has no way to find a job, so he can only make a living from this.

When you can't make a living by this, you can only give up and find another way out - although I don't know if there is a way out.

On the other hand, the content has been blocked many times, and many of the planned plots cannot be written, and I am at a loss as to what kind of content to write next.

There is a more important reason, that is, the author's physical condition and psychological state are very bad during this time.

Physically, in the last ten days of September, I had a low-grade fever for more than ten days, chest pain, tiredness and weakness, and I was tired of oily meat, and I relied on water and rice to fill my stomach every day, and then I had severe insomnia every night, and I was basically able to fall asleep during the day, and my body was extremely weak.

It's already the last few days of this month, and giving up is nothing, so naturally there is no way to give up, so I can only struggle with my weak body to continue to renew.

Two books have to be updated with more than 10,000 words every day, and sometimes there are shielded chapters, and they have to be added, which is really unbearable.

Sometimes I think about it, why do you fight like this? Is money really more important than your body?

But after thinking about my situation, I have to admit that money is really more important than my body.

At least, there is no money, there is a physical condition, and I don't even have the courage to go to the hospital for a checkup.

INTERVIEWER It's not that there is no cost of the examination, but that if there is no cost of treatment, it seems that there is no point in the examination. There's no problem, it's a waste of money. If there is a problem, but there is no ability to solve it, it will only make people more stressed.

For the sake of that little money, how can I survive this month and get this month's subsistence allowance and full attendance.

That's the motivation that sustains it.

When there are no such benefits, the motivation to support will naturally disappear.

In terms of mentality, an emotion that lasted for eleven years went to death, and it hit the author quite hard.

Daily insomnia is also caused by this.

The setting of this book is funny, but the author's emotional death is more than a month after it was put on the shelves.

For the next few months, the heart was in a state of torment.

I want to redeem it, but I can't get it back, and I don't dare to redeem it.

Someone who struggled out of the abyss and got a chance to be reborn should be happy.

It's just that the author is the abyss.

- It is the abyss where vitiligo is getting worse and worse, coughing all night long, health is getting worse and worse, and the economic state has been struggling on the survival line.

Intellectually, morally, I know that I should be happy, but emotionally, I really can't be happy.

I understand the truth, but it's hard to give up.

There is still a feeling that my heart is dripping blood.

When the heart is dripping blood, there is really no way to write a funny plot.

This is not a question of professionalism, this is a question of really not being able to do it.

Attentive readers can compare the style of writing after more than a month on the shelves with the previous style, and may be able to feel it.

In September, it was even more serious.

Reflected in the subscription, that is, more and more people are giving up the subscription, and there are only about a dozen subscriptions now.

The author is tired of writing, and the reader will not be happy to read it, and in that case, there is really no value in continuing.

This number is not the number registered with the author's ID card, and the bound bank card will naturally not be the author's bank card.

Therefore, this book will be the author's last book.

Of course, at the moment, it is also the only book.

Because in addition, they are basically blocked.

Whether this one will also be blocked in the future, the author doesn't know.

Those are beyond the author's control.

The current physical condition is very bad, after this book is completed, I will not choose to open it for a few months, or to recuperate the body, and by the way, adjust my mentality.

You may also go to the hospital for a check-up.

As for the Xianxia "Sword Rising Cangming" that is still being serialized, it is only one, 4,000 words a day, and it should not cause much burden to the body.

Now I want to take care of my body the most.

After taking a look at the new benefits on the website, I may not be able to go down the road of writing in the future, and if my body recovers, I can at least go out and find a job.

Even if it's to go to the construction site to move bricks.

- I don't think I would mind if there are white spots on the faces of the workers who move bricks.

If you can write it down, of course you will write it down.

Here, I still want to say to readers - please support my "Sword Rises from Cangming", which is now 1.75 million words, and you can read it during Golden Week.

I think this one deserves support.

Then, stop looking at piracy.

The biggest victims of piracy are not the great god authors, but the street writers like me.

People who are anemic in the first place really can't stand the bloodsucking of piracy.

Your full order may save an author's confidence to continue writing.

Finally, if you have the energy, you might write a few extra stories about this book this month.

I have an idea, but I don't know if I have the energy to complete it.

No one knows what the future will look like.

If you can look forward to it, let's look forward to it.