Different from the previous two points and one line, Li Fengzhu asked the rickshaw to pull it to the persuasion field. Simply buy some daily necessities, and go up one level to the amusement park. It is crowded with people, drinking tea, listening to plays, watching movies, and they have to walk with people at night.

Just in time for the film that had just ended in the theater on the third floor, Li Fengzhu went against the crowd to borrow a phone in the theater hall.

The old lady who was called Li said into the earpiece: "I waited from dusk to this time, and I thought you forgot about it again." ”

Li Fengzhu was stunned for a moment, and the earpiece was placed diagonally down on his shoulder. I can't help but think that if she wasn't a careless mother, if she always put contact with her family first, would this disaster have been avoided?

"Hey, hey, are you listening?"

"In ...... In. Li Fengzhu smiled first, grabbed the phone, put his lip flap on it, and asked eagerly, "Is Rufu by your side?"

The voice on the other end sounded again with the expected low sobbing, accompanied by the discussion of the neighbors: "Mrs. Li, I think it's a ghost." Nong went to find five families, and one family begged for a handful of rice, and sprinkled it on the roof at night......"

Li Fengzhu didn't have the heart to pay attention to these ridiculous earthworks, and in these words, she only accepted the only useful information, that is, the child's state was not very good. She squatted down violently with the phone, trying her best to block out the surrounding noise: "Baby, is it you, can you hear your mother? Mom's good boy, listen, Mommy believes every word you say to grandma." As you grow older, you'll find that nightmares come true. ”

The sobbing sound in the earpiece gradually stopped, but it did not mean to stop the drum, but because some people understood and wanted to release the grievances: "But...... Mom, I have a lot of pain in my body, it hurts to sit up, it hurts to stand up, it hurts so much!"

If you go back to five years ago, Xiao Rufu will definitely throw herself into her mother's arms if she is wronged, and then stretch out a pair of fleshy little hands, which can reach her nose as high. The child's body temperature is always higher than that of the adult, so when he is tired of crying and falls asleep quietly, the little meat hand hangs around his neck, and when he touches the small palm of the summer, it is two small suns, sending the heat wave from the neckline one after another. If the lesson plan is not written at this time, you have to hold the child in one hand and write in the other, and at the same time have to endure the hot weather, it is very easy to outline the rough and cheesy appearance of an ordinary working woman.

The more I reminisce, the more guilty I feel, why didn't I cherish this sweet little burden in the past.

After thinking about it for a while, Li Fengzhu gritted his teeth, and decided to give up the image of a loving mother and take on the vacant role of "strict father": "Okay, I understand! You told your mother the truth, and your mother can't continue to lie to you." We live in a ...... A world occupied by demons, today it's you, tomorrow it could be me, and we will all have a very painful and difficult time. It's like when Mom was still with you, we were on trains, ships, pulled by horses, and carried by donkeys. Even in the middle of the night, my mother didn't dare to close her eyes, and kept calling you in your ear, 'Your surname is Shen Rufu, your father is a seller of wild ginseng in Jinmen, and your grandmother and mother are taking you to Guannai to seek refuge with him'. You didn't understand why your mother was so different at the time, and she was always yelling hysterically. It wasn't until we finally got the ferry tickets and waited at the dock in Dalian that the younger classmate who was the same age as you misremembered his father's name in another line, so the Japanese pushed the whole family aside and shot them three times in front of everyone. That day there were cries everywhere on the docks, and it was only you, but you were too scared to cry. ”

Downstairs is the famous stage of Jinmen, and the famous actors are vying to come here to raise their voices. It is the so-called Beiping learning art, Tianjin singing popularity, Shanghai making money, and it is the most lively time after dinner in the evening, and the excitement below can be imagined. The fire-like enthusiastic fans let out a deafening "yes", and went straight through the floor, causing the eardrums on the left and right sides of Li Fengzhu to burst. She was so frightened by this battle that she trembled unconsciously, and the moment she looked up at the crystal chandelier, there was a bright red blood light in front of her. At this moment, it was as if time and space had intertwined, back to that night, that dock, back to that dark journey of war and starvation.

Looking at the door of the theater, a couple holding hands one-on-one, as well as a few people in a laughing family, these almost unanimous happy and complete smiling faces shuttled in Li Fengzhu's sight, making her seem so lonely and helpless. But she is a mother, and she can't fall down when the sky falls: "Good boy, think about it, that little classmate must have wanted to hug his mother and say, 'Mom, my body hurts very much', but he didn't even have a chance to cry." And now you can go back to your grandmother, and you can still cry out to your mother, compared to others, you are already a child favored by angels. In any case, Mom wants you to cherish the time you can spend with your grandma. So...... If you don't believe it, don't believe it, if you are very uncomfortable, do you silently say to your mother in your heart? Mom can actually hear it, and your mother will come to your dream to help you rub the medicine, very lightly, very lightly, and it will not make you uncomfortable. You must believe in your mother, your mother will pick you up and take you with you, and your mother will protect your ......"

I don't know when the old lady Li was already listening closer, and when she heard the words, she immediately interjected: "Is it decided that we will go to Jinmen?"

Li Fengzhu replied: "Mom, I can't put off the work here for a while, so it's better to work hard for you to come to Jinmen." Don't worry, I'll take care of everything. Money and tickets, it will be settled. Also, Mom, I found a doctor friend surnamed Zhang, who is quite tall, has a flat head, and has a Yangzhou accent. Tomorrow morning, I will visit you at our house, and by the way, I will also see Rufu. ”

Although Mrs. Li nodded, she muttered: "But tomorrow is the first day of the week......"

In terms of education, Li Fengzhu, who has been a teacher, has always attached great importance to it, and if there is no great reason, he will never relax for a day. Over time, Mrs. Li also developed such a habit, as long as it was not something she thought was on the line, she would try her best to arrange it in the service.

Li Fengzhu rushed and said: "It doesn't matter, I will ask the teacher for leave." ”

Then there was a cacophony of voices, many of which came into their ears in unison, as if they were stirring something. I heard the old lady in her words: "That, I think, Shunshun...... Ah no, it's easy for a child like Rufu to walk at night, so I'm thinking about Ming'er simply not going to class...... Just go to the City God Temple in the morning......"

Immediately after, there were three or two coaxies, saying "yes", "yes", and "finally spoken".

Hearing this kind of stupid trick in the past, Li Fengzhu must have brought out a bunch of truths. But this time, I can't blame the old man for being superstitious and pedantic, Johnson has planned it well, and if he wants to make Li Fengzhu suffer a dumb loss, isn't the appearance of the matter very evil. "It's okay to try, but you can go back a day later." This friend of mine is very smart, knows a little bit of science, and also knows a little bit of foreign magic. Foreigners also have a way to exorcise evil spirits, let's try it. ”

But this time, on the contrary, the old lady Li didn't believe it: "Where do foreigners have Chinese surnames? Girl, if you are not happy, I will ......."

Without waiting for the words to be finished, the neighbors stopped first with "don't, don't".

Li Fengzhu couldn't help but smile bitterly: "I'm not vague about you, others are Chinese, but their knowledge is from foreigners." I said that I agreed that you would take your child to the City God Temple sincerely, and I asked the teacher for two days off, and I was always able to get it. By the way, in the past two days, you have been following the child for the time being, don't keep coming against him, so as not to provoke him to cry, this crying too much will hurt his vitality. ”

"My girl is talking today, how can she be like a different person. Old Mrs. Li obviously couldn't believe it, and her voice gradually lowered word by word.

Li Fengzhu didn't explain, just smiled. I hung up the phone and laughed with relief when I thought of the imminent reunion. She didn't know if she had completely convinced Xiao Rufu, but she really convinced herself. At this moment, she is so grateful that she is still alive, and she still has a home, even if it is incomplete.

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But when he returned to the newspaper office, Li Fengzhu took a break in advance, and after getting the attic key, he saw that although there were some sundries piled up in the house, fortunately, the furniture was well maintained. In the wooden box under the bed, there is also a ready-made straw mat blanket, which is enough for her to spend the night with a little hands. Unfortunately, she never had the blessing to enjoy a good night's sleep.

According to Principal Liu's observations, Shen Rufu's mental condition was different from that of his peers, and the kidnapping incident followed. It's not time to do a full check-up, but there must be physical abuse. Injuries can always be healed, but what about the heart? From the moment she fled, Li Fengzhu completely regarded her son as an adult, not because she was ruthless, but because she realized that innocence was a luxury in the war-torn era. I have seen the bloody massacre with my own eyes, heard the mourning of the wilderness with my own ears, and experienced the end of the world with my own eyes, and no matter what kind of compensation is given to him, he will not be able to return to carefree. In order to survive, not only her, but many families put the subject of "running for their lives" before all education. As a mother, I can't even give my children basic companionship. She knew she wasn't competent, but she couldn't seem to find a way to do it either. If tomorrow dawns and the speculation of being monitored is confirmed, then even if he brings people to Jinmen, Li Fengzhu must still be vigilant at all times and not overly contacted. Even she was thinking that maybe on the first night of the reunion, she had to hold her beloved son in her arms, and told her not to mention her mother everywhere, and not to shout "mother" loudly when walking on the street......

Thinking from the child's point of view, I really can't understand this kind of hidden life. The classmates all have their own families, and they all talk about interesting things at home, but he can't. So how do you tell him to integrate into the collective, how to open his heart?

Thinking of being extremely tired, he swiped his hand on the pillow, and Li Fengzhu found that the cold piece on the pillow towel was full of tears. She didn't seem to be able to do anything but cry silently. She could not accept Principal Liu's advice to change the way of education, because children who had no sense of danger could not survive during the war years. She can't do it, completely putting her family before her career, and it will never be her choice to just care about her personal safety and abandon her ideals.

What an incompetent and heartless mother!