He was alone in the gloomy pavilion, a staircase that snaked upwards like a great serpent, at his feet, spiraling downward and upward, endlessly.

Jiang Heng clutched the yellowed photo that had been wrinkled in his hand, his eyes dragging a light rain, and he looked out the window. Yang Mu paced listlessly around the room, holding a black mask in his hand, which glittered like obsidian in the gray room. He happened to catch a glimpse of the photo in Jiang Heng's hand, which was a family photo. In the photo, Jiang Heng is holding the child, and his wife is snuggled up to him. Their smiles make the photos harmonious and warm. At this time, Jiang Heng smiled stiffly, and his lips began to squirm......

Jiang Heng's first love with her can be said to be an accident.

Her name is Han Mengmeng, and she is Jiang Heng's junior classmate. Jiang Heng and Han Mengmeng did not have much intersection in junior high school, and it can be said that the number of exchanges between the two of them every year is limited to a few sentences. However, things took a turn for the worse in high school.

One day, Jiang Heng received a message from Han Meng, a passer-by from a distant world: "Can we associate QQ?"

Jiang Heng almost didn't spurt blood when he saw this information, a passer-by relationship girl who basically didn't speak in middle school wanted to take the initiative to associate QQ with me!

Before Jiang Heng could figure out how to deal with this raid, a message popped up in the phone box again: "Don't get me wrong, that is, a boy in our class likes me very much, but I don't like him, and now he makes me embarrassed, so I want to ......"

Han Mengmeng is indeed the kind of girl who is beautiful and has outstanding academic performance, and her quiet, polite and empathetic personality won the popularity of many boys in the class at that time, but she politely refused. Jiang Heng now has a bottom in his heart, and finally knows what kind of medicine is sold in this Han Mengmeng gourd. Han Mengmeng clearly wanted him Jiang Heng to pretend to be her boyfriend, so that the young man would die.

And Jiang Hengke in high school is an out-and-out little ruffian, with a ruffian spirit all over his body and the fact that he knows a few second-rate people in the village, although he is not a big man with a head and a face among the students of the same level, his name is still known to everyone. Jiang Heng's reply was called a straight one: "No, no, sister, are you joking with me?"

"You help me, because you're more suitable......"

"I said no!"

"Well, I know where your home is. I'll go find you right now!"

"Don't bother me, I'm going to take a nap. After Jiang Heng replied, he felt that this little girl might just talk about it, so she left her phone behind and fell asleep.

Dramatically, Han Mengmeng didn't joke, she really came to Jiang Heng's house.

Jiang Heng and Han Mengmeng live in the same village, Jiang Heng goes to high school outside, and Han Mengmeng goes to high school in the village. His house is in the east end of the village, and her house is in the west end of the village. When Han Mengmeng went out, she completely relied on her strength, and she was negligent for a while, and she didn't take the phone, and she couldn't contact Jiang Heng at all.

When she arrived at the door of Jiang Heng's house, she realized how ridiculous she was, she didn't dare to visit, there was no way, she had to wait outside. Minutes and seconds passed, and the sun had already traveled a long arc unconsciously. Night did not fall, but the stars blinked first......

Looking at the stars who had already started working, Han Mengmeng rubbed her sore legs, but still didn't go back.

This nap made Jiang Heng sleep enough, and after waking up, the feeling of lightheadedness became more and more serious, obviously he didn't cover the quilt but was sweating, he wiped a handful of sweat beads on his forehead, and slowly sat up. He had a nightmare in which he was running alone in a dark pavilion, with no light but a staircase, which snaked upwards under his feet, like a giant serpent circling the sky. The damn spiral staircase is pumping longer and longer like a telescope. He kept climbing up, but never reached the end of the stairs......

"Knock knock!"

"Son, are you awake?Is the girl at the door of our house looking for you??," Jiang Heng's mother asked.

Jiang Heng picked up the phone and hurriedly opened QQ, but her avatar had long lost its color. An inexplicable sense of guilt swam into his heart, like a drop of ink dripping into the water, seemingly disappearing, but everywhere. He couldn't help but scold: "Damn, she's really here, didn't I tell her I want to sleep?"

After a fierce ideological struggle, Jiang Heng ran out of the house: "Mom, I'm not going to eat, I'll come back later today......"

He was going to Han Mengmeng's house! He knew where her house was! He really didn't know what Han Mengmeng was doing, didn't he tell her not to come, why did he have to come? Jiang Heng's mother told him that Han Mengmeng had been at his door for more than three hours.

The days are not long, the nights are not deep, but there are no lights along the way to illuminate the road ahead. Jiang Heng didn't know the purpose of this trip, and the indescribable excitement and resentment tore in his heart.

Jiang Heng came to her door and shouted wildly, which really fully demonstrated his image as a ruffian. The neighbors who were woken up would go out to see him, and thought that Han Mengmeng had killed someone: "Han Mengmeng! Han Mengmeng!" Even so, he was still full of suspicion and guilt.

She came out, casually letting her long smooth hair fall behind her, wearing a light yellow long skirt, the corners of the skirt fluttered slightly because of her movement, and her hair also slipped in front of her, her eyes were big, she glanced at Jiang Heng and then straightened her hair. She deliberately buried her face. The moonlight covered her with an unreal light, fair skin, and the whole person was simply unreal.

"I ......" Even after a long time, Jiang Heng still couldn't say a few words in his mouth, and he was completely panicked. Because he was moved, he finally understood what it meant to be love at first sight. The gap in his heart was falsely wide, and he finally found the right person here to put it down.

For the first time, he felt his heart throb and blood rushing in his veins. Millions of active atoms vibrate with the melody played by the master musician. She was really beautiful, and he finally understood why those people pursued her in a stubborn way, and falling in love with her was a success......

Han Mengmeng didn't speak, but looked at Jiang Heng quietly, her eyes slowly surged with a layer of water, and it flashed in the night light.

“…… I...... Love you!"

Jiang Heng felt that he had lost his mind, he didn't know what he was here for in the first place! Apologize? He didn't do anything wrong! Why did he apologize? Did he feel guilty? He did feel a little guilty! What was this kind of girl thinking in her head, why did she go all the way to find herself? And she had to wait at the door for hours? When he saw that Han Mengmeng was about to cry, a wonderful feeling that he had never felt before bit his heart, and the sense of knighthood that came to him hit his heart and pushed him to the last vigilance in his heart. I guess I want to protect it.

In fact, he didn't understand what the confession he suddenly remembered at that time was, and he didn't have the slightest affection at all before meeting her.

Perhaps, I was really fascinated by ghosts.

He doesn't know that liking is even a momentary delusion, a kind of magnificent inner drama that we yearn for in our ordinary lives.

“……”

"If you know that you want to be separated, why do you want to be together?" Han Mengmeng asked with a slightly playful expression, full of concern. She knows very well that every high school student's love affair starts with a bang, but it doesn't end up together.

"If the question only considers the result, then how can you enjoy the process?" I don't know how Han Mengmeng felt when she heard this, anyway, Jiang Heng felt that what he said was awesome.

She smiled softly: "It's impossible to come together......"

"Isn't it possible for you to think about it every time you do something?"

After two questions and answers, her head was buried deeper and deeper, and then she nodded her head slightly.

The sudden confession ushered in a sudden result. Looking back, Jiang Heng couldn't say how he got along with Han Mengmeng. Anyway, it was an accident! Because he had to go to school, he started a so-called long-distance relationship, but in fact, the distance was less than a few dozen kilometers, and it could not be called a long-distance relationship at all. But Jiang Heng was still very painful, he only had one vacation every week, and every time he went home, he had to run from the east of the village to the west of the village to see Han Mengmeng.

At first, their relationship was not deep, and for Jiang Heng, it was like playing at home, finding someone to confide in.

Until that day......

If you don't have a road idiot friend, you may never understand how a road idiot got lost.

That day, Han Mengmeng wanted to go shopping on a whim, and also pulled his sister, which is a typical death seems to have to bring a cushion, he is clearly a road idiot and takes his sister who is in junior high school to go shopping?! It's a good thing, I got lost in the city center, and I didn't know where to go to take the bus home.

There were fewer cars on the streets, and fewer pedestrians, until she finally began to panic when she couldn't find even a single person to ask for a pass. She anxiously took out her mobile phone, but she didn't dare to call her family, for fear of being scolded when she went home. The only thing she thought of was that dependence, so she dialed Jiang Heng's mobile phone number.

“… Feed... Jiang Heng, I'm lost in the city! I don't know how to get back! And my phone is running out of battery!"

At this time, Jiang Heng was comfortably eating French fries and playing games, and he thought that his mother had discovered this phone call! He just took a breath of cold air and connected the phone. And Han Mengmeng's words also made Jiang Heng fascinated, this girl usually looks smart and clever, why doesn't her brain turn at this critical moment: "Won't it be over if you take a taxi and come back!"

“…… But...... I don't have any money on me now, so I leave the money for the bus, I can't go back" Han Mengmeng almost cried as she spoke, she wanted to pour out all the grievances in her heart about getting lost, but the imminent thing is that the phone is about to run out of battery, and once the phone is turned off, it will really be in the city for the night!

At this time, the knight finally understood the situation, and began to put on his clothes and prepare to go out, and then comforted: "Don't be afraid, you go to Hedao Bridge and wait for me now, and I will go out to find you immediately." ”

"But, I don't know where the bridge is......

"Walk north along the street of the big supermarket......" But before Jiang Heng's words were finished, the phone suddenly stopped, and when he called again, Han Mengmeng's mobile phone had already been turned off.

Jiang Heng is in a hurry now, what the hell is Han Mengmeng doing, is it possible that he is a road idiot? When he got out of the village, he stopped a taxi and went straight to Hedao Bridge. I also kept insulting in my heart. Which one is this Han Mengmeng singing? Return the chain at the critical moment! What's going on, why do you turn off your mobile phone! How can I contact me when I get to the North Road Bridge!

It was getting dark, the clouds were disappearing, and they were really too lazy to keep up. The roadside lights are interesting enough, they are each flickering but they have no intention of striking. After a long bumpy ride, he finally arrived at his destination, but unfortunately Han Mengmeng did not wait for Jiang Heng's arrival at Hedao Bridge......

Jiang Heng got out of the car and planned to go to the bridge to cater to Han Mengmeng. The taxi driver was quite unhappy, "What if you run away, I can't drive on the bridge." The taxi driver popped his head out of the window, revealing a look of displeasure and distrust, and his expression was like saying, "I've seen a lot of fare evaders like you." ”

"How could I run away and joke! Okay, since you won't let me go on the bridge, we'll wait for her here......" Looking at the driver's attitude, Jiang Heng was quite willing to raise the bar when he arrived. But it's not a way to wait, even if you come to the agreed place, you have no bottom in your heart, if you can't wait for Han Mengmeng here, how can this be good? Han Mengmeng is a road idiot......

"Oh!" the driver looked unpleasant and disgusted, and then extinguished the fire.

Minutes and seconds passed. The lights on the side of the road flickered softly like shooting stars during the day.

"It's been an hour, why hasn't the person you're looking for come yet! Delayed my work for an hour, but there is a charge for these hours!" the driver lit a third cigarette and smiled suspiciously.

Han Mengmeng didn't come, he began to get a little tired. "Probably not coming......" Jiang Heng was full of regret, and an indescribable burning feeling surged from the depths of his chest. He was no longer looking at the bridge, and was about to turn away......

“…… Jiang Heng!"

He heard it! Someone was calling him. That's right, it's Han Mengmeng's voice! high-pitched but soft.

He looked back, and a familiar figure flashed at the bridgehead, appearing in the soft light, such a scene was so unreal! like seeing a mirage of desert regulars again. Jiang Heng was not excited or surprised, because whenever he turned around to leave, he would fantasize that Han Mengmeng would suddenly appear and call him at the bridge. This long wait is finally over!

When Han Mengmeng saw Jiang Heng, she ran over quickly, threw herself into his arms and began to cry: "My phone is out of battery...... I can't get in touch with you...... I've run out of money too...... I'm a road idiot...... You idiot...... How do I know where the bridge is!" she wasn't the kind of girl who was strong and independent. Finally, when she finally saw the hope of going home, she was moved to cry, but she did not forget to vent her grievances that she couldn't find a way.

Jiang Heng didn't know where she came from with such a big grievance, in short, his clothes were soaked, he smiled faintly, patted the little girl's back, and gave her a smooth breath: "Okay, it's all over......"

Jiang Heng finally got his first embrace, but it was so heavy. It really seems that he has picked up a burden, and that unshirkable sense of responsibility fills his heart at this moment. The relationship between the two has also been sublimated at this moment.

And like a lot of stories, love in high school doesn't go too long. They thought that this strong relationship would not be divided, but when they faced the university, they realized that that fantasy can only be a fantasy and can never become a reality.

Before the college entrance examination, they all worked hard, they wanted to go to a university, to go to a city they liked. Time flies quickly, and the college entrance examination has also arrived. The two took the exam together and applied to the same A school together. However, it is a pity that Han Mengmeng was admitted, but Jiang Heng was unsuccessful......

Jiang Heng chose to repeat his studies without hesitation, and he must go to A college for a year of tutoring! This is his promise to her. And Han Mengmeng doesn't care about it for a year, she has to wait for Jiang Heng.

However, at the beginning, Han Mengmeng had to come to the school to visit Jiang Heng, who was studying hard at school, every time he had a holiday, and encouraged him to give him what he liked to eat. However, under the pressure of the college entrance examination and the impetuous psychology of repeating, his personality changed greatly. He began to get tired of talking to outsiders, and as if he were autistic, he shut himself in a small room that was unknown, and refused the noise of the outside world.

Gradually, Jiang Heng began to get tired of Han Mengmeng's arrival, and he felt that Han Mengmeng was inexplicably putting pressure on himself. And time flies, as if she comes once a day. From boredom to hate, from hateful to hateful. From the beginning of the old days to the simple greetings afterward, from the simple greetings to the eyes closed. Eventually, he couldn't bear it anymore......

The breakup was proposed by Jiang Heng, and he was really tired. Thanks to his character, Han Mengmeng has become the spiritual pillar he chooses to tutor and study hard, but Han Mengmeng has gone to college, and they really started a long-distance relationship, and the vigilance in his heart has finally been washed away.

In Jiang Heng's view, when the spiritual pillar is gone, it will lose its own meaning.

Instead of talking about children's affection, it is better to take a long-term view, and academics are the most important thing. Jiang Heng didn't know what kind of mentality he had in the first half of the year. In short, after the breakup, the inexplicable restraint was replaced by his motivation. Finally, the hard work paid off, and he passed the test and fought his way out of the single-plank bridge of the college entrance examination.

On the day of volunteering, he excitedly dialed Han Mengmeng's phone. Jiang Heng wanted to tell her that his grades could safely go to A-college. He has worked hard for this moment for a year, but Han Mengmeng's phone has long been unavailable. Later, Jiang Heng saw a photo of her eating with her boyfriend in Han Mengmeng's circle of friends, and then realized that he had broken up with her a long time ago, should he still kill her?

Jiang Heng could only laugh helplessly, if he missed it, he might really miss it. He enrolled in College B and went to college. After meeting the old friends in a different city, Jiang Heng happily invited Bai He to the big dining tube outside, but Bai He bought a lot of wine from his own pocket and said that he wanted to accompany him to drink a few glasses. She knew that Jiang Heng had always been interested in Han Mengmeng's affairs, and she also understood his unhappiness.

"Why don't you apply for A college? You must know that even if she is famous, you can also have a flower transfer!" Bai He began to talk nonsense with the help of wine.

"I'm optimistic about you! You can snatch Han Mengmeng back!" Bai He's personality has always been so arrogant, and he is also a man who loves to accompany others to quit drinking and dispel his sorrows.

"Bai He, you're drunk!" Jiang Heng stuck out his tongue and snatched the wine glass from her hand.

Bai He didn't know where the strength came from, so he pushed Jiang Heng back, stood up and pointed at Jiang Heng with his index finger, just like teaching a student who made a mistake: "Jiang Heng, is there paste in the head of such a smart person? Han Mengmeng has liked you very much since junior high school, and you haven't noticed this until now! At that time, she didn't dare to talk to you, because you were too angry. Do you really think that the success of your confession was an accident? I didn't expect it to work. ”

“……”

"And she loves you so much, why should you break up! I really want to pump you for her, do you know how sad she is after the breakup?"

“……”

After Bai He shouted with his teeth and claws, he patted his head with one hand, as if he had woken up from a dream, and his face turned ruddy: "I'm sorry, this has nothing to do with me, it's my emotional excitement." Bai He laughed awkwardly.

Jiang Heng took out his mobile phone, in fact, he understood that he should put it down, he found Han Mengmeng's QQ in QQ.

It's autumn now, and the leaves on the trees are yellow, withered, and about to fall off. The withered yellow leaves will eventually leave the branches, and it will flutter in the wind, and it will leave with a great nostalgia for the golden autumn season. In comparison, a woman's youth is so short, like an epiphany, showing the ultimate beauty while slowly withering. Their time is so precious. They spend their most precious time in love, and they should cherish it no matter what. When lovers are about to face a breakup, no matter who is right or wrong, the man should stand up and apologize to the woman gentlemanly. Thinking of this, he typed out a line of words with the keyboard of his mobile phone: "Han Mengmeng is really sorry for delaying you for so long......"

He was the only one left in the gloomy pavilion, a single-track staircase winding upwards like a giant snake spiraling toward the sky. It was that dream again, this time he ran madly to the top of the building, he wanted to see if there was no end to this road, and under his feet was an endless abyss, which seemed to have consciousness, like the eyes of a demon, staring at him.

In the four years of college, Jiang Heng had extremely clear plans and goals, and rational judgment, which allowed him to graduate with excellent grades and successfully find his job. Because of his outstanding ability and good performance, he was quickly appreciated by his boss.

Later, he was assigned to the group branch in City A as general manager. As an airborne leader who has not worked too long, after Jiang Heng completed the handover of the work at hand, he took a good look at the development of the branch of City A in recent years, as well as the information of these people who will partner with him in the future. I heard that this vice president is a very capable young woman, who is good-looking and capable, and is rumored to be miraculous.

The assistant who gave him the information cautiously gossiped and said to Jiang Heng that maybe Mr. Jiang's lifelong event would be solved.

Jiang Heng smiled.

When Jiang Heng came to the branch full of expectations and ambitions, when he saw the so-called deputy manager, his heart smiled, and he was extremely relieved, as if he had found his beloved thing that had been lost for a long time, and said: "Han Mengmeng, it's been a long time since ......."

It is really an endless road, and after taking Jiang Heng around for a long time, God returned to the place he wanted to return to the most.

But......

Yang Mu sat on the sofa next to him, extinguished the cigarette butt in the ashtray and said: "Then what? It's a good ending, isn't it? Don't tell me that Han Mengmeng ended up with someone else......"

Jiang Heng's face was full of decadence, his beard was unkempt, and his tie was crooked, and he drooped his head and said, "No, she did end up with me." We soon got married and had children...... But the good times did not last long, and the child often had a fever and was often covered in fever and sweating...... When I arrived at the hospital for an examination, I learned that it was hereditary leukemia...... "At this time, he already felt dry when he spoke.

Speaking of this, Yang Mu was also shocked into a hot sweat, and his body began to heat up inexplicably, and his heart was mixed: "That is to say, both mother and son are ......."

"Yes, both mother and son suffer from leukemia...... Jiang Heng raised his head and frowned as if he was enduring pain, his eyes were full of begging. Grief overshadowed the usual noise of the city, and time seemed to stand still.

"Dreams you know are nothing. This dream may be short-lived for a few seconds, or it may be a lifetime. And no one can predict whether it will be a dream or a nightmare. The most important thing is that it has to pay the price of life...... "Yang Mu handed over the "black goat face" in his hand, the mask is the face of the black goat, and the black noodle is simple and rough carving, which highlights that the two black horns are really made of shape, and even the lines are neat and symmetrical. The pair of hanging eyes and the mouth that seemed to be smiling made people feel real and incredible, like a holy relic bought by a foreign country to ward off evil spirits.

"Life doesn't matter to me anymore, I just want to see them once......" His voice didn't have a hint of emotion. Without thinking, he took the mask and put it on his face......

Haste as a law.

Jiang Heng was the only one left in the dark pavilion, and a single-runway staircase snaked upwards at his feet, like a giant snake hovering towards the sky. It's this dream again.

"How long are you going to fool me!!" Jiang Heng suddenly went crazy, stretched the pavilion, and rushed up step by step. The darkness began to fear him, the dazzling dawn pierced his eyes, the growing pain only gave him hope, he had never been so real.

That unrealistic light and hope constantly gave him the motivation to run.

At the end of the pavilion was a hidden door, and without thinking he stepped forward and pushed it open......

"You're back......" Han Mengmeng's voice came from the kitchen, and she obviously heard the door open. Han Mengmeng walked out of the kitchen with a gray apron, and Jiang Heng looked at his wife and the child babbling along with the TV. He exhaled, frowning and stretching out. He unbuttoned his coat, and suddenly a black mask flashed in his mind, and several fragments flashed through it.

Jiang Heng was puzzled, he sorted out his clothes, slowly picked up the child, and said with a stiff smile: "My son's illness ......"

Han Mengmeng scratched her head with her left hand, revealing a look of complaint: "What's going on in this hospital, it's ridiculous to check ordinary anemia as leukemia......

"Is it......" he smiled monotonously, his eyes filled with tears, he held the child with one hand, and hugged his wife with the other......