Reality is not a videotape, it's not as simple as seeing those lone heroes with guns shooting and killing. I never thought that my knife would stab him to death, no matter how critical the situation was, even if he really wanted to kill me, but I never wanted to kill him.

I don't want to kill people......

The fat man looked at me and was speechless for a long time, because he didn't know what to say to comfort me. Outside, the wind blew on the windows, making a "popping" sound, and I lowered my head and smelled the smell of disinfection in the air.

"Xiaoshan, don't do anything stupid......"

The fat man reached out and patted me on the back, but I didn't react at all.

"Hill ......"

I waved my hand and whispered, "I'm fine, let's go." ”

"You rest first, it is estimated that the police will come tomorrow, don't talk nonsense, if you can't come, ask for your sex. Mr. Xu and my grandfather are trying to find a way to help you. Even if you are locked up for a few days, we will definitely find a way to get you out, and we will help you hide it from your father's side. ”

No matter what the circumstances, there is a price to pay for killing. Seeing that I still didn't react, the fat man sighed and secretly left a bottle of wine, then turned around and walked out. Luo Qiong also stood at the door and wanted to say a few words to me, but in the end he was pulled away by the fat man.

I kept my head down, imagining myself as a snail without a shell, just looking for a place to get in and disappear into the eyes of the world.

As the fat man said, the next day the police arrived, and two gay men in green police uniforms walked into the ward, which also caused a riot. At that time, the uniforms of the police were all green, and they looked somewhat similar to those of the armed police.

The two men, one tall and one short, the tall looked like heads, walked in and sat next to me, glanced at me without speaking, and then looked at the wine bottle on the bedside, which was already half empty, and he whispered: "Little comrade, do you know why we came?"

I basically didn't sleep in the first half of the night, and I didn't move much, and I fell asleep after drinking half a bottle of Erguotou on an empty stomach. I woke up in a daze this morning, and I didn't speak, and my mental state was very wrong.

Hearing his words, I nodded slightly, but did not speak.

"Let's find out the situation, did you know the doorman of the elementary school before?

He asked.

I lowered my head but didn't say anything, in fact, I didn't resist or didn't want to speak, and that kind of psychological panic would spread to my face in a few seconds, and my mouth seemed to be locked up, invisibly trapping me.

"Hey, I asked you, didn't you hear?"

Another gay man in the back, who was shorter, scolded.

"Xiaowei, don't get so excited. The matter has not yet been investigated. The tall man waved his hand, in fact, this is a typical singing red face and white face, a more customary means of inquiry, "Little comrade, we have no malicious intent, two days ago, a nearby villager called the police to say that there was a fighting incident in the elementary school next to it, and when we arrived, the person had been transferred to the hospital." It was learned that the victim had died of blood loss. After our forensic examination, the victim was stabbed in the chest, and the knife matched your knife found later. Therefore, we have reason to believe that you stabbed the victim with a knife. I hope you will cooperate with us, because now people are dead, and if you don't say anything, you will probably end up with a heavy sentence. ”

"Boy, do you know that you killed someone? don't kill people and still look like you're dragging like that, asking you something!"

The short man in the back shouted, and the words pricked my ears at once, murder, I really killed someone, the word kept lingering in my ears.

Seeing that I still didn't speak, the two police comrades stood up after looking at each other, and the tall man said: "Now the hospital does not agree with us to arrest you, but we will send more police forces to prevent you from escaping at the door and in the corridor, I hope you understand." In addition, once the hospital agrees to discharge you, we will immediately arrest you and transfer you to the detention center. We will also inform your family ......"

They turned to leave, but as they reached the door, they heard me shouting, "Wait." ”

The two men looked back at me strangely, and heard me say, "If I cooperate with your investigation and tell you the truth, can you not tell my parents? I don't want them to worry about me." ”

"We will consider it at our discretion, but our party's policy is to be lenient in confession and strict in resistance, and it will not work if we talk about conditions. ”

Comrade police shouted solemnly.

I clutched the sheets, lowered my head for a while, and then shouted, "I killed ...... man."

My father taught me since I was a child that I must admit all the mistakes I make, and if I am a man, I must have the courage to bear the mistakes I have made.

Anyway, this time I killed someone, and I killed an old man who seemed to me to be a good person. I must bear this blood debt, and I must pay it back!

It's been two days since I entered the detention center, and the fat man and they have a relationship to come to see me. When he saw me in the detention center, the fat man scolded me: "Are you a fucking stupid? What did Lao Tzu say to you when he was in the hospital? Don't open your mouth if you don't know how to say it! Why don't you listen to me?" ”

I kept my head down and didn't speak, my hair was shaved, I hadn't eaten properly for two days and I looked a little emaciated and haggard.

"Fuck talking!"

The fat man scolded.

"Okay, Brother Cui, Brother Shan must be unhappy now, let's not talk about this, let's talk about business first. ”

Luo Qiong shook his head and said.

The fat man pursed his lips, suppressed the anger in his heart and said, "Mr. Xu helped you hire a lawyer, and no one saw what happened at the school at that time." But Mr. Xu will arrange for his driver to testify, at that time, it was the old man who attacked you first, and you fought back and killed him when you protected yourself. The lawyer said that if you can be sentenced to murder in self-defense, you will only be able to squat for a few years at most. My old man also asked for help from the relationship, and the old man's friend said that if your condition is not serious, they can fish you out of it in advance. I've calculated, I'll stay for a year at most, and if you behave well, you'll be released on bail early, hey, I'll talk to you!

I looked at the handcuffs on my hands, and after a moment I looked up at the fat man and said, "Fat man, I killed someone, and I killed someone to pay for my life." You leave me alone, judge me however you want. ”

"Fuck you!"

If it weren't for the glass window, the fat man would have slapped me in the face.

"What the fuck are you talking about, don't you understand me?"

"I'm scared these days, fatty, really scared. I'm afraid that the old man will turn into a ghost and come to me. But I'm not afraid that he will kill me, and I think I should pay him back. But I'm afraid that he will come and ask me why I did it to his daughter without investigating it clearly, and I am afraid that he will ask me why I am so cruel to him. Fat ......"

I raised my head, and my eyes were already blurry, and the fat man and Luo Qiong were dumbfounded. The fat man didn't see me panic when he was a child, when I was a child, I had a fight, and I couldn't stand up when I was fighting, and the fat man was a little panicked at the time, but I still watched coldly, and I was very calm.

"Hill ......"

The fat man whispered my name.

"Fatty, this time is different from the past, this time we were wrong! I am not afraid of killing the bad guy, but I am afraid of killing the wrong person. You said that if we could investigate it at that time, the old man cooperated with us, maybe we could control his daughter. But we didn't figure anything out, and we ended up killing him. It's our mistake, I'm fucking panicking!"

I raised my hand, but I pulled the handcuffs and made a "pop" sound.

"It's time. ”

The armed police comrades in the back opened their mouths and shouted, and the fat man stood up and shouted at me: "I'm leaving, you kid think about your dad more, if you really pay for your life, what will your dad do? Don't cry to death......

They left, and I was taken back to the detention center, where I stood under the bars and stretched out my hand to cover my face.

The subsequent investigation and interrogation proceeded in a step-by-step manner. To be honest, if it weren't for the relationship that I was going to give my father filial piety to the end, maybe my temper would really admit to killing in a fit of anger.

On the day of the trial, I was almost out of shape, and the fat man came again again, and he brought a lawyer. He said that he didn't tell my dad and asked me to cooperate with them.

In the end, the self-defense murder was established but was convicted of excessive defense and was to be imprisoned for two years.

On the day I left the courtroom, I looked back at the fat man and Luo Qiong, but I didn't know what to do in the future.

My life has been stained ever since......"