Chapter 094: If I Don't Love You, Who Can I Love?
Lei Ling: "Yes, in Yanjing, if you have her past medical records, please give me a copy, please." ”
The lawyer was silent this time: "You give me the email." ”
"Thank you, thank you......"
The lawyer was still cold: "Don't thank me, I'm not for you." ”
In less than three minutes, the lawyer packed and sent Xiao Beiyuan's past medical records, Lei Ling trembled, and finally Qilin took the mobile phone to the doctor.
The more the doctor looked, his brows furrowed, he didn't say anything, he took his mask and went in.
Uncle Nine and Ah Shang sat on the bench, Ah Shang looked at the dense information on the mobile phone about the heavy β thalassaemia, and watched and smashed the mobile phone out.
He was short-tempered, and after losing his mobile phone, he looked at Lei Ling diagonally opposite, and his tone was even worse: "What's the matter with you, she is so sick, and you still leave her in the hospital to take care of the bad things of the Bai family?" ”
Lei Ling didn't speak, but it was Qilin, who couldn't stand what others said about his fifth brother, and stood up: "Hey, how did you talk, my fifth brother didn't know that Xiaobei was sick at all, you ......"
Ah Shang sneered: "Yes, it's ironic that I spent a lot of time in three days going to Switzerland, but I didn't have time to get to know my wife." ”
Qilin wanted to say something, but Lei Ling grabbed him and motioned him not to speak.
How could Qilin stand this kind of grievance: "Fifth brother, Xiaobei didn't tell you ...... in the first place"
Lei Ling shook his head: "It's my fault, I should have found out a long time ago, and I had a clue a long time ago." ”
There are too many clues, she has to eat a lot of vitamins every day, she has been going to the United States every fixed few days every month for the past six months, and she will receive packages from the United States every month, and several times she looks up something on the computer and closes the computer when she sees him......
Uncle Nine coughed, and Ah Shang, who wanted to say a few words, had to sit down, but he snorted.
Several men sat on the benches with their own hearts and minds until the lights went out in the operating room.
Lei Ling stood up and walked over, several doctors came out, looking very tired, the attending doctor just now took off his mask, looked around, and fixed his gaze on Lei Ling's face: "The trauma has been treated, there are stitches in several places, be careful not to get wet, otherwise you will be infected." The internal injury was also treated by a gynecologist, and the effect of the drug has not completely passed, so she should pay attention at any time. As for her thalassaemia, she has always seen it in the United States before, and there is no other way except for hematopoietic stem cell transplantation. This disease cannot be delayed, and it will be life-threatening at any time. ”
Lei Ling kept nodding: "Okay, I know, thank you." ”
The doctor smiled and walked away, followed by a couple of nurses pushing people out.
Lei Ling pounced: "Xiaobei ......"
He couldn't say the rest of the sentence because he was too shocked to speak. The person lying on the bed could no longer see what he used to be, his face, neck, arms, and lips were full of deep and shallow scars, some were scratched, some were bitten, and the bruises on his forehead were bumped.
No wonder she refused to answer when he was on video with her and called instead, probably because she didn't want him to see her now.
Lei Ling was so distressed that half of his body seemed to be numb, held Xiao Beiyuan's hand tightly, and staggered forward with the nurse.
Ah Shang was concerned about the chaos and was about to pass, but he was dragged by the unicorn, and his eyes widened angrily: "What are you doing to make a fuss?"
Ah Shang clenched his fist: "You ......"
Both of them have a one-point temperament, and Uncle Nine can't stand it: "Want to enter the game because of a fight?"
The two of them hummed and separated, like children.
Lei Ling grabbed Xiao Beikite's hand: "Little Bei ......"
He couldn't say the rest of the sentence because he was too shocked to speak. The person lying on the bed could no longer see what he used to be, his face, neck, arms, and lips were full of deep and shallow scars, some were scratched, some were bitten, and the bruises on his forehead were bumped.
At that moment, Lei Ling's feeling was like a scorpion stung his hand, like someone stabbing a dagger in his heart, and like someone slammed a stick on the back of the head. He froze there, maintaining a fixed position, so distressed that half of his body seemed to be numb.
No wonder she refused to answer when he was on video with her and called instead, probably because she didn't want him to see her now.
How the hell did she survive last night? How did she survive with disappointment and despair?
Finding that Lei Ling was stunned, Ah Shang shouted: "Hey, what are you doing? Why don't you go in to see your wife?"
Lei Ling suddenly came back to his senses and staggered in.
Ah Shang was also about to follow, but Qilin grabbed him: "What are you doing when you go in?"
Ah Shang asked rhetorically: "Then what are you doing in again?"
"That's my sister. ”
"That's my sister too. ”
The unicorn calf protector was heartfelt, grabbed Ah Shang's collar, and gritted his teeth: "She is not your sister, you heard clearly, don't recognize relatives." ”
Ah Shang smiled contemptuously: "Want to fight?"
Kirin sneered: "You think I'm afraid of you?"
Not far away, Uncle Nine said coldly: "Don't go in either of you, get out of the way." ”
The nurse who just pushed Xiao Beikite in came out and was startled when she saw two great gods at the door, and one of them reminded in a low voice: "Don't make loud noises, don't make noise to the patient's rest." ”
Only then did the two people hate to separate, and each stood aside.
Uncle Nine came over and looked at them: "Xiaobei will definitely be hungry when he wakes up, you ......"
Ah Shang then remembered as if he was down to business: "I'll buy it." ”
Qilin grabbed him: "Don't you go, I'll ......"
Uncle Nine felt that the two of them had to die of childishness, and sighed: "You two go together." ”
The two said in unison, disgusted with each other to death: "I won't go with him." ”
Uncle Nine coughed, there was a posture of mountain rain coming and the wind was full of buildings, Ah Shang was afraid of him, so he left awkwardly.
The unicorn is also awkward to keep up.
Finally quiet, Uncle Nine walked to the door and looked inside.
Lei Ling has been standing at the door since the nurse went out, he feels that his feet seem to have taken root, and he can't move half a step, he doesn't feel that he has the courage to walk over and look at the woman, let alone how to say the first sentence.
He felt that he was a sinner and that his sins were unforgivable.
Just thinking of what she had been through, and what he had done, made him want to kill himself.
After standing for a while, his heartbeat was a little more normal, he walked over with heavy steps and sat down on the edge of the bed.
Xiao Beiyuan had a needle on the back of her hand, just now the nurse said that no skin on the back of her hand was intact, and she couldn't find a blood vessel at all, and said that when she was sent, her whole person could be described as full of holes. also said that the first time I saw someone being drugged, I could still carry it hard, and there was no lack of admiration in my words.
Xiao Bei Kite's body is full of holes, her heart is afraid that it has already been full of holes, right?
Lei Ling raised his hand tremblingly, wanting to touch her, but he didn't dare, and finally just helped her tuck the quilt.
"I'm sorry, Xiao Beiyuan, I'm late, I'm sorry......"
She had said that she didn't want him to be sorry, but at this moment, he didn't know what else to say except these three words.
The person on the bed didn't respond, Lei Ling leaned over and carefully pressed his face against hers.
Uncle Nine outside the door looked at it for a while, then turned to leave.
The nurse knocked on the door and came in, a little shy: "Sir, please go out for a while, I want to help the patient deal with personal problems." ”
Lei Ling straightened up and stretched out his hand: "I'll come, I won't trouble you." ”
The nurse glanced at him and became more and more shy: "It's not good, let's do it for me." ”
Lei Ling was expressionless, and took the tray from her hand: "It's okay, I'll come." ”
The nurse blushed and stood there without moving, Lei Ling put down the tray and looked at her: "Are you still okay?"
"Uh, no, no...... Sir, call me if you need me, I'll be outside. The nurse reluctantly took two steps back and turned away.
When I got to the nurse's desk outside, the other two little nurses came over: "How is it, isn't it handsome?"
"yes, it's handsome, I wanted to look at it twice, and I was kicked out by him. ”
"The one inside is really his wife, and he was really drugged?"
"It seems to be, I looked it up on the Internet, it's too bloody. ”
"Ah, what a bloody dog, let's hear it. ”
"Say it on the Internet......"
In the ward, Lei Ling pulled up all the curtains, locked the door from the inside, and called Dongzi again to confirm that everything was safe, and then returned to the bedside.
There were aunt towels, wet wipes, cotton balls, gauze, and warm patches in the tray, and he looked at it, took a heavy breath, and carefully lifted the quilt.
People in the shopping mall sometimes have some pedantic and ridiculous taboos, and men feel that the blood of their aunt who meets a woman is poured blood mold for eight lifetimes, which is a big taboo among the big taboos. He once met a man who, in order to sign a contract, did not have sex with his wife for a month, saying that women were unlucky. But on the first night of signing the contract, the man spent 1 million to ask someone to find a middle school student, saying that he would be happy to see a red man.
Lei Ling didn't believe in those things before, and he won't believe them now. At this moment, helping Xiao Beiyuan change his aunt's towel and help her paste a warm palace sticker, he only felt unprecedented peace and happiness.
"I know that you are not used to other brands of aunt towels and warm palace stickers, so I will take a look at it first, I have asked Dongzi to buy it, and I will be back soon. You sleep for a while......"
After doing this, he had some blood on his hands, he smiled, got up and went to the bathroom to rinse indiscriminately, folded back, took a cotton swab from the tray, dipped it in warm water and helped her wipe her lips.
There were a thousand words in my chest, but I didn't know where to start.
How should he tell her that he regrets it to death, how should he tell her that he swore that he would not leave her and die and would not let go of her hand, how should he tell her that it didn't matter if he had lost the Bai family for her, how should he tell her that he was scared, afraid that he would lose her......
Just think of the words of the doctors, that she had been tormented by that terrible disease for many years, that she would die at any time, probably tomorrow...... As long as he thought of this, Lei Ling's heart was like being fried in an oil pan.
After doing all this, Lei Ling sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the face that was riddled with holes.
Qilin and Ah Shang came back after shopping, and it was strange that they didn't find Uncle Jiu, and it was even more strange that the curtains in the ward were tightly closed and the door was locked, thinking that something was wrong.
Qilin knocked on the door, and his voice didn't dare to be too loud: "Fifth brother, fifth brother, are you inside?"
After a while, the door opened, and Lei Ling's bearded face appeared in front of them.
Qilin looked inside: "What's the matter, why are you locking the door?"
Ah Shang also looked inside: "What about Uncle Jiu, is it inside?"
Lei Ling shook his head: "No, you guys keep your voice quiet, don't make noise to Xiaobei." ”
The two of them glanced at each other, nodded funny, Qilin shook the things in his hand, and whispered: "I bought something for you to eat, you eat first." ”
Lei Ling shook his head: "I don't want to eat, you can eat, eat and go back to rest, I will guard here." ”
Qilin shook his head: "I...... I'll go in and take a look. ”
Ah Shang: "I'll go in and take a look, just a look." ”
Lei Ling stood aside and turned sideways to let the two of them in.
Fortunately, the two of them didn't have ink, they really looked at it and came out, and when they passed by, Lei Ling said to Ah Shang: "Thank you......"
Ah Shang was awkward: "I'm not for you." ”
Lei Ling smiled bitterly: "No matter who it is, I have to thank you and Uncle Jiu." ”
Ah Shang went out with his head held high, but Qilin didn't leave, and asked hesitantly: "Fifth brother, this matter is very strange, Ah Shang and Uncle Nine seem to be hiding something from us, do you want me to investigate?"
Lei Ling paused: "No matter what they are hiding, they are the ones who saved Xiaobei." You can check the clubhouse and the man who saved Xiaobei in the first place. ”
Qilin nodded: "Could it be related to the Bai family?"
"That's what I'm worried about. ”
Kirin looked inside again and asked, "Do you want to rest for a while?"
Lei Ling shook his head: "No, I will definitely be scared if she wakes up and can't find me, you go and rest." By the way, I am in the house in Yanjing, the key is in Dongzi, you find someone to clean up, and when she is discharged from the hospital, you will live in it. ”
Kirin was quite puzzled: "Why didn't you let her live in it in the first place?"
Lei Ling smiled bitterly: "Don't you understand your sister's temper, just now for the sake of the Bai family, you want to go back to the original point with me, if I let her live in, how can she be willing?"
Qilin smiled, yes, just Xiao Beiyuan's stubborn temper, he must be unwilling.
"Go away, I'm going in with her. ”
was chased away, Qilin was helpless: "Those injuries on her face and body won't be disfigured, right?"
"Disfigured she's not your sister?
Kirin scratched the back of his head: "Of course not, she will always be my sister." ”
Lei Ling once again gave an eviction order: "That's it, get out, don't grind." ”
Qilin drove away, and in the car not far away, Uncle Nine reprimanded Ah Shang: "I told you a long time ago, be steady and steady, you can't teach, you are so eager, it will arouse Lei Ling's suspicion." ”
Ah Shang didn't dare to refute: "Yes, I was wrong, I don't dare anymore." ”
Uncle Nine sighed: "Come on, go back, I'm tired." ”
Ah Shang started the car: "Uncle Nine, it's either that I can't control it, or I look at that girl like that, and I feel like I'm scratching my heart like a cat's claws." ”
Uncle Nine straightened his face: "Do you think I'm comfortable looking at her like that? Do you think I'm really hard-hearted? I'm worse than you, but now the situation is unclear, can't we risk knowing?" The people sent to follow her withdrew, temporarily withdrew. ”
Ah Shang shouted, "Why? What if she is in danger again?"
Uncle Nine closed his eyes and covered his deep emotions: "If so many things happen Lei Ling doesn't know how to protect her well, then it can only be said that he is a wreck." ”
Ah Shang thought for a moment, nodded, and didn't dare to speak again.
After a while, Uncle Nine spoke again: "Later, you can ask the hotel chef to make some porridge and send it to the hospital, remember ......"
Ah Shang grabbed the white: "I know, don't be anxious to be steady, don't arouse Lei Ling's suspicion." ”
Uncle Nine glanced at him and said, "The doctor said that the wounds on her body are more troublesome to recover, otherwise they will leave scars...... You call Aunt Du'er and ask her to prepare some plasters for removing scars, which should be pure and natural, without any hormones, and send them as soon as possible. ”
Ah Shangshang patted his head: "Uncle Jiu, you are thoughtful, I didn't expect this." ”
"And the girl...... You ask Aunt Durian to prepare some medicine specially for girls to drink, not too bitter, that girl is afraid of bitterness. Doesn't she have tangerine peel candy and loquat candy over there, and prepare a jar for all the sugar. The kind that sticks to her stomach, let her prepare some too. ”
Ah Shangshang remembered them one by one in his heart, and his heart was warm: "Okay, I wrote it down, and I will do it well." ”
Uncle Nine continued to close his eyes: "If you can't do it, you can pack up your things and get out." ”
When Dongzi sent something, he thoughtfully bought razors and other daily necessities, and he blamed himself: "Mr. Lei, I'm sorry, I was negligent and didn't protect my wife." ”
Lei Ling shook his head: "It's none of your business, you've done a good job." You're right, it's all my fault. ”
Dongzi wanted to say something, hesitated, and retreated silently.
There were two full paper bags of the things sent by Dongzi, Lei Ling took out his aunt's towel and a warm palace sticker, thought about it and put it back.
She can't stand any more tossing, so let's take a break.
The sky outside the window was already bright, and the warm sunlight on the balcony was shining on him, obviously warm, but he felt cold in his heart.
She was in danger alone last night, I'm afraid it's the same mood, right?
She immediately asked him for help, but he couldn't do anything. Just like in that dream, she asked him, "Why didn't you save me?"
"Xiao Bei Kite......"
The phone on the cabinet vibrate, Lei Ling picked it up and took a look, Bai Yutang called.
The thumb lingered between the green and red keys for a moment, and finally chose the red key.
Qilin has a saying that is right, in any matter, you can consider Xiao Beiyuan first, and then think about other things.
The phone was silenced and thrown on the cabinet, and his eyes turned back to look at the person on the bed.
"Qilin asked me to think about you first in everything and then think about others, do you think I'm well-behaved? Xiao Beiji, you have to be well-behaved, okay?When you wake up, you want to beat, scold, kill, or chop me at your disposal......" Lei Ling gently held the hand that was full of holes and put it on his face, "I know you can hear me, right?"
"Last night I had dinner with my dad and talked about the past, and it was quite unpleasant. Actually, I didn't drink much, just a little, but I was so angry that I didn't know why I ran to your side and slept on your bed. I obviously remember that I called you and told you a lot of things, but today I looked through the call logs, and there was no one, it was actually me talking to myself. You see, we always miss out on our childhood, on missing most of the year, on last night, and maybe on a lot of time that we didn't realize...... You ask me, if Bai Yuling wakes up one day and asks me to choose between you and her, who will I choose? I didn't give you an answer, you are angry and think I don't love you, how can I not love you, I don't love you, who else can I love?"
"You know, over the years, there have been so many difficult things. When my parents divorced, when my mother didn't want me, when my grandfather died, when I was sick, including when Bai Yuling had an accident, including pretending to love someone very much, it was too difficult. But the hardest thing is not to pretend to love someone, but to pretend not to love someone. Let the whole world know that you want to kill this person. For most of the past half a year, I have acted so hard, I want the Bai family to make you believe that I don't love you, not only do I not love you, but I also want to kill you. I also want to make them believe that Bai Yuling and the child had an accident, and I would rather die than die, and I would commit suicide by taking sleeping pills. I told Bai Yutang that the revenge between Bai Yuling and the child can only be avenged by me, so that no one is allowed to touch you. I don't know if it's because of my bad acting skills that they will find out something, and they will harm you again and again. Probably it's really my acting skills are too poor, three days and two ends looking for women to shape themselves into scumbags, but I didn't do anything, three days and two heads went to Switzerland to see Bai Yuling but showed my sad thoughts too fake, obviously I want to kill you but I find someone to follow you to report your whereabouts in detail, what did you do, what did you eat, who were with you, smiled, frowned, cried, and got angry, I even secretly ran to your house in the middle of the night, sat on the edge of the bed and looked at you, I wanted to touch you, you wanted to hug you but didn't dare, I was afraid that you would find something. I even went to the meeting to get the message that you had dinner with a man, I left a group of executives and drove to follow you, I was jealous when I saw you laughing at other men, I was jealous when I saw that you didn't care about how I and other women, I was jealous when I saw you saying on Weibo that you made this and that one for the lawyer, and I was jealous when you dreamed that it wasn't my name. I'm jealous and scared, I'm afraid that you love me, and I'm afraid that you don't love me, and I hide even the unicorn from them, isn't it quite perverted?"
"Xiao Beikite, you see, I have become a complete pervert for you. You must be good, I am so bad to you, you must seek revenge on me, you must punish me severely...... Well, no, if you punish me, you will ignore me, and you will return to the original point with me, is it okay for you to change it. Punish me for loving you for the rest of my life, punish me for loving you more than you love me, okay?"
"I know you blame me for hating me, maybe you will hate me even more in the future, and hate me to ...... Desperate to kill me. It doesn't matter, I admit it, no matter how much you hate me, I will never let go of your hand again in this life. Xiao Beiyuan, do you hear, you don't want to get rid of me in this life, heaven and hell, wherever you go, I will go. ”