Chapter 30: Love for the cost of the room
After returning from Yang Qiong's parents' house, Shi Tao has been depressed and depressed, and he has not been in a good mood for a long time.
He knew that his feelings for Yang Qiong were sincere, and Yang Qiong's feelings for him were also sincere, and after this period of communication, he felt that they were each other's true love, irreplaceable.
But because of the problem of the house, Shi Tao was very entangled in his heart, and he had thought countless times, is it really because of the house that he has to let his parents work again?
The parents are old, and the father is not in good health, and he has been taking medicine all the year round, and the parents have no ability to earn money.
Since Shi Tao graduated, he has begun to provide for them in his old age, although he doesn't earn much money, he will leave some money for his parents every time he goes home.
The parents who got Shi Tao's money felt that Shi Tao had grown up and was no longer the ignorant child.
Since he was a child, his parents have loved Shi Tao very much, and Shi Tao's feelings for his parents are very deep. Now that Shi Tao has joined the work and is financially independent, as a son of man, he can no longer let his parents bear the debt of his marriage.
Shi Tao thought that this was also an aspect of filial piety as a son of man, and he must no longer reach out to his parents to ask for money.
This is really Shi Tao's reverse scale, he can't touch it for any reason, if he violates this principle, Shi Tao will be very uneasy, even if it's for his true love.
Shi Tao also felt that if Yang Qiong really loved him, he shouldn't care if he had a house or not, buying a house could be used as the goal of two people after marriage, and it could be completely solved through the efforts of two people, he believed that he had this ability.
If Yang Qiong has to have a house to marry him, it shows that Yang Qiong does not really love her wholeheartedly, which shows that her values are problematic, and she does not pay attention to feelings, but materials.
If Yang Qiong is really like this, then Shi Tao's values are different from her.
If two people are really together in the future, due to different values, there will be a lot of contradictions in their married life.
This kind of contradiction may not be visible for a while, but after a long time, it will inevitably be irreconcilable. That kind of married life will not be happy, not what Shi Tao wants.
For this reason, Shi Tao wanted to find Yang Qiong again and ask to see what she thought.
A few days later, Shi Tao called Yang Qiong to meet her. Yang Qiong readily agreed.
It was another Sunday morning, cloudy, and windy, no longer hot, just a little stuffy, a little breathless.
Yang Qiong came, still wearing the white dress.
But in Shi Tao's opinion, it is no longer so pure and beautiful, but he feels that Yang Qiong is pretending to be a gesture.
Maybe it was because of Shi Tao's mood, maybe Yang Qiong really did it on purpose, and she wanted to get back to her previous feeling so she wore it like this.
This morning, Shi Tao got up late and didn't eat breakfast, but he washed his face because Yang Qiong was coming, and he was very unenergetic.
The overhead fan brought a cool breeze, but the humming chirp made the stone even more annoying.
Yang Qiong entered the room and sat down, and the two of them were relatively silent for a long time, and finally Shi Tao opened his mouth first.
"I ask you something, I hope the two of us are honest with each other, and don't hide the slightest thing. Is that okay?"
"Tell me anything you want, I'll tell you what you want to know. ”
"Do you admit that the two of us are in a romantic relationship?"
"Needless to say, we've been through so many ups and downs, and we've been in touch for so long, and we're dating, if it's not for a romantic relationship, it's long over. Why do you have such suspicions?"
"I'm not skeptical, I'm confirming, which helps me with the following questions. ”
"If you have any questions, please continue. ”
"Do we really love each other? I want you to follow your heart and not pick up what I want to hear, or say that you don't say things against your will. ”
Yang Qiong hesitated for a while, raised her head and looked at Shi Tao, and said very affectionately: "I tell you, although I haven't said it, but today I want to tell you that I really love you." ”
Shi Tao was very excited when he heard this, his eyes were wet, and he stood up and hugged Yang Qiong tightly. Yang Qiong also leaned on his shoulder tightly, and the two of them hugged him like this for a long time.
Finally separated, Shi Tao wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes and continued to ask, "Are you the one who loves me, or something else?"
Yang Qiong didn't seem to understand, and blinked her beautiful eyes, "Of course I'm the one who loves you, do you have any other aspects that make me cute?" I don't understand what you mean, can you explain it to me?"
"It's important to me that I want to make sure that you love my people and not something outside of me. Please give me an exact answer. ”
"Yes, I just love you as a person, no strings attached. ”
"Is it just like the words said by the priest when he officiated at the wedding of the newlyweds in those film and television dramas, and he would not leave me because of my health, illness, old age, and poverty?"
Yang Qiong hesitated again, "Yes, just like they said, I won't stop loving you for any reason." ”
"Well, I'll ask you one more crucial question. If you don't have a house, will you marry me, or will you marry me only if I buy a house?"
"The problem of the house is indeed a big problem, I personally have no opinion, I have never asked you to buy a house. But after all, this is a hurdle that must be passed on the road of marriage, and I hope you can face it. ”
"You didn't answer me, I don't have a house, will you marry me?" Shi Tao asked eagerly.
"I think I don't have a problem, you should calm down, my parents have an opinion, my situation is that my parents are blocking our marriage. ”
"That said, the two of us have no problem. ”
"Yes. ”
"Let me ask you again, your parents don't want us to get married because I don't have a house, will you fall out with your parents for me?"
Yang Qiong didn't answer immediately, and raised her eyes to look at Shi Tao three times and twice.
"That's really a problem, do you mean you let me elope with you, or do you mean cut ties with them?"
"It's not that you have to break off the relationship, elopement has that meaning, but it's not that serious. What I mean by this is that even if your parents don't agree, can you follow your heart and insist on marrying me? ”
"As I said earlier, I love you very much, but let me marry you against my parents' wishes, this is no problem for me personally. I'm worried about my parents, we got married without their consent, and if they were acting excessively, or to put it more bluntly, if my mother was forced to die, I really wouldn't be able to marry you, because that would make me regret it for the rest of my life. ”
After listening to Yang Qiong's words, Shi Tao understood, didn't speak for a long time, took out a cigarette and lit it, and took a few puffs fiercely.
"I can understand, I can understand both you and your parents. But from this incident, I found that we are a little different, which is to say, you will not abandon everything, including abandoning your parents to follow me. ”
"As a human being, children should think about reciprocation, and when they grow up, they will abandon their parents, which is also a great unfilial piety. Do you want me to abandon my parents for the sake of marriage, for the sake of my own happiness? Do you think I will be happy if I do that?"
Yang Qiong shifted the topic to Shi Tao, "In order not to cause trouble to your parents, you don't let them work for you anymore, you buy a house and don't open your mouth to ask them for money, I can understand this, you think you are filial piety like this, and I agree with it." But there's one thing, because of that, you can't buy a house right away, and we can't get married right away. If I get married right away, it will cause me to have a falling out with my parents, and I will become an unfilial daughter, do you want me to be an unfilial daughter?"
Shi Tao was silent, he felt that he was thinking simply, he only considered his own problems from his own point of view, and did not consider from the perspective of others, which caused his own consideration to be very one-sided, and also caused him to get into the horns of the bull.
What Yang Qiong said is not unreasonable.
He didn't consider Yang Qiong's problem from Yang Qiong's point of view, nor did he consider Yang Qiong's problem from the perspective of Yang Qiong's parents.
This led to a contradiction between them, which he could not reconcile himself.
"Then I ask you, I don't have a house, I don't have it now, I won't have it next year, maybe not in three or five years, so we can't get married. We're going to get older, I don't care, but what about you? As a woman who is old and not married, what does the world say? Can you accept it?"
This time it was Yang Qiong's turn to be silent again.
Yes, what Shi Tao said is also a problem, how to face this problem, how to solve it? This is indeed a practical problem that needs to be carefully considered and calmly faced.
It's really unthinkable, making decisions on impulse will produce a lot of sequelae.
"When the time comes, you don't think I'm old, and if you are still willing to marry me, I will always wait for you. ”
When Shi Tao heard this, he was very moved, but if this was the case, he actually felt very bitter, is this the love he wants? Is this the marriage he wants?
Two lovers who love each other, but because of a house or their attitude towards a house, they can't really come together. He felt that this world was really unfair and really ruthless.
Worldly concepts determine worldly things, and marriage is a worldly event, so how can he break away from worldly rules? Shi Tao thought too simply.
How can man be separated from the world in the world? How can there be so much purity, how can there be so much nobility, how can there be so much selflessness?
Purity is what others think of as being pure and becoming pure. Noble is what others want to be noble and become noble. Selflessness is when others want to be selfless and become selfless.
Shi Tao's thoughts were confused, he felt that his relationship with Yang Qiong should be simple, where would he think of a house problem, which conflicted with his personal concept, causing him to be very entangled and at a loss.
He felt that his heart, which he thought was strong, was now fragile, as if he had been tormented on a fire. He didn't know if he could handle it, and he didn't know what the consequences would be in the future.
When Yang Qiong left the dormitory, Shi Tao didn't pay attention, his thoughts were extremely confused, and he didn't know how to deal with the rest of the matter.
In fact, Shi Tao was really narrow-minded, he wanted to rely on himself, and forgot that relatives and friends could help, and even he didn't think of going to the bank for a loan, so that he could buy a house first, so that his marriage could be solved smoothly.
He never wanted to bother anyone, anyone, even those who could be financially used to achieve their goals.
It is precisely this concept that limits Shi Tao's expansion.
He kept thinking about whether Yang Qiong was very materialistic, and he didn't think about whether he had true love for Yang Qiong.
If it was true love, why did he marry Yang Qiong desperately? The overly idealistic Shi Tao set up a cage for himself, and if his heart lock could not be opened, he would not be able to break through this cage.