After a long time, Shi Tao looked at Yang Qiong calmly, "My life is up to me." We can go one step further if we want. ”

Yang Qiong was also silent for a moment, "What you think is too simple, in fact, this world is really complicated, and it is not our idealized world." There are many things we can't control in this chaotic red dust, and real life is not your ideal one. Of course, I said this to myself, we are all naïve. ”

Yang Qiong said very vaguely, she didn't tell her what happened to her in the date with Shi Tao, she felt it was inappropriate.

She didn't want Shi Tao, a hot-blooded young man, to make more mistakes for her, if she poured out all the troubles, annoyances and grievances in her heart to Shi Tao, then Shi Tao might be even more unhappy.

She felt that if she really loved Shi Tao, it was not appropriate to impose that misfortune on him again, at least not now.

"You say that, the two of us can never be together again. Shi Tao was disappointed again.

He once thought about divorcing Shang Mei, and also wanted to persuade Yang Qiong to divorce and reunite with him. After listening to Yang Qiong's words at this time, he felt that his kind of thinking was really ridiculous, and it was really wishful thinking!

"Have you noticed why we have to come together? So that we can get along day and night, as long as it is enough in each other's hearts, in fact, it is also a kind of happiness. Don't you feel it? Although we don't have much verbal communication, I find it pleasant for you to talk to me, and I feel at peace when I communicate with you. ”

Yang Qiong told her feelings, as if she was hinting not to let Shi Tao turn his ideas into reality. In this way, wouldn't it be nice to live in an ethereal emotional world?

"What kind of thing is this, this kind of longing is a kind of torment, this situation is like being in prison, bothering oneself and making oneself unhappy! If it goes on like this, what are we called? Plato?"

Shi Tao was a little emotional, and he was smashing his knees with his fists.

"Platonic is not a noble emotion, and I used to sometimes think that the kind of love that has only simple feelings may be the purest. It's annoying at times, but when you think about having such a relationship, you feel proud. ”

"Where is pride? It's just masochism, a fool needs such feelings!"

Shi Tao seemed to be a little anxious, he didn't understand why Yang Qiong thought like this, in fact, he really didn't know what happened to Yang Qiong, so he didn't have Yang Qiong's feelings.

Yang Qiong's heart didn't want to be with him, but the reality was really not determined by her, she could only endure and accept the reality.

"You treat me as a fool, I know your feelings for me, I know it very well in my heart. If you still love me, you love a fool, you respect my choice, don't push me, otherwise you won't be happy. You're actually pretty good now, and Naomi loves you very much, I can see it. ”

Yang Qiong actually enlightened Shi Tao.

She didn't want Shi Tao to fall too deep, she only needed Shi Tao's feelings for her, she didn't really seem to need Shi Tao. However, this feeling is Shi Tao's own feeling, not Yang Qiong's real thoughts.

"Naomi loves me, she only loves me on the surface, she is afraid that I will leave her. Emotionally, or from the bottom of my heart, I couldn't feel how much she loved me. You don't know, we often quarrel, even if I say a word to you, she is jealous, I can't tolerate this jealousy. She's here with you to oversee us. Where is this love for me, obviously you don't trust me. If it weren't for her, maybe the two of us would be happier. ”

"I don't think so, the more jealous she is, the happier I feel, I don't know if I'm a bit perverted to think so, but that's what I really think. ”

Yang Qiong said her true feelings, she felt that Shang Mei's existence was a reference for her, and she found that she loved Shi Tao more than Shang Mei.

And Shi Tao loves her more than Shangmei, because Shi Tao's concern for her is from the heart, and his concern for Shangmei is only on the surface.

"You know, how tormented I was for a long time after we broke up. I don't know what life will be like without you, I feel like I've come through in a mess for the past few years, and I find that my feelings are a mess, my job is a mess, and my life is a mess. Alas, this is not my ideal life. ”

Shi Tao confided in Yang Qiong about his feelings after the breakup. Shi Tao felt that his unsatisfactory performance in the past few years might really have something to do with his emotional entanglements.

Everything goes well, everything goes well, everything goes wrong, everything doesn't go well, he feels that there is some truth in this statement.

"I'm not. You don't know what kind of life I've lived since I lost contact with you, the life of a prisoner. I locked myself in my own little world and lost contact with the outside world. I even felt that the world was dark, that I was out of place in this society, that I seemed to be abandoned. ”

Yang Qiong felt that talking to Shi Tao about these would make her heart much happier. Because she has never said this kind of thing to others, she doesn't want to say it to others, and the object she wants to say is only Shi Tao alone.

"But it seems that you are always much better than me, I was promoted and dismissed, this kind of ups and downs, people who have not experienced it can not understand at all. It's really not just a job change, it's really a psychological ordeal. And you are getting promoted all the way, and it seems that you are more beautiful than me, but I don't see how happy you are, which is the most incomprehensible to me, and you are the most distressing to me. ”

When Yang Qiong heard this, she couldn't help but have a sour nose and tears flowed out, but she quickly wiped it with her hand, she didn't want Shi Tao to see it.

Her heart is actually more uncomfortable than Shi Tao, how can her sadness be something that Shi Tao can understand.

Shi Tao's feeling is the feeling of a normal person in the workplace, but she is suffering from physical and mental damage, and the injuries she has suffered are not understood by others at all, including the current Shi Tao.

"I'm not you, and I can't concretely relate to your feelings. You are not me, and you cannot clearly understand my inner torment. But I don't think it matters, the important thing is that I'm glad that you're still missing me. ”

Yang Qiong didn't say anything deeper, she just expressed her feelings about Shi Tao.

"What do you think we should do? Will it just go on like this?" Shi Tao really didn't know what Yang Qiong really thought.

"It's okay to do it, a lot of things are reluctantly coming, you know that the twisted melon is not sweet. If we want to solve something, just let it be, can't we just do that?"

Yang Qiong did not explicitly ask Shi Tao to take further action, she actually did this to protect Shi Tao, to take care of Shangmei's feelings, and to protect herself.

"Look at your attitude, I think it's good, I follow your wishes. ”

Although helpless, Shi Tao didn't want to go against Yang Qiong's wishes.

The two of them sat quietly for a while, snuggling up to each other, enjoying this rare two-person world that belonged to them.

Shi Tao felt that he couldn't go back too late, otherwise it would arouse Shang Mei's suspicions. I looked at my phone, and it was already ten o'clock in the evening. The good times always go by too quickly.

Shi Tao pushed Yang Qiong away from his side, "It's time to go back, it can't be too late, otherwise Sun Monkey will make trouble in the Heavenly Palace again." ”

Yang Qiong smiled, "It seems that you, the Buddha, don't want to make trouble with Sun Monkey." ”

"Alas, how can I be a Buddha, for others I am a monkey, others are a Buddha, I can't turn over the palm of others. But today I finally turned it out. Shi Tao laughed at himself.

"Hahahaha!" Yang Qiong laughed for a rare time, "Then let's go." ”

"Wait a minute. Shi Tao pulled Yang Qiong.

Yang Qiong had already stood up, and she was going to leave, so she stopped.

"What's wrong?"

"Next time, when will we date again?" Shi Tao asked Yang Qiong for her opinion, looking forward to another tryst with her.

"You arrange it, this time you arrange it well, and hopefully you can find an opportunity like this again. Yang Qiong gave the initiative to Shi Tao.

Shi Tao also stood up, "We have to have a farewell ceremony." As he spoke, he kissed Yang Qiong again.

Yang Qiong was very cooperative, kissed Shi Tao again, and finally separated, and said, "It's time to go." ”

"You go first, and when you get back to the dormitory, I'll go. Shi Tao also has to do the final processing in order to give Shang Mei an act.

"Okay, I'll go first. Yang Qiong said and left first.

Shi Tao watched the back that he had been thinking about disappearing into the dark night again. After calming down his excitement, he took out the wine bottle he had prepared in advance, unscrewed the lid, poured some on his jacket, and wiped his lips and walked to the construction site.

When she returned to the dormitory, Shang Mei was already lying on the bed, and when she saw Shi Tao's return, she was full of alcohol, and hurriedly got up.

"Oh, it's so memorable to come back so late. You see you've drunk so much again, good fellow, this garment smells of wine, so quickly take off your clothes and throw them in a basin, and I'll wash you tomorrow. What kind of important customer is this? I have to drink, so late. ”

Shi Tao pretended to be drunk, stripped off his clothes and threw them into the basin.

"There is no way, this kind of occasion is common, people can't help themselves in the rivers and lakes!"

Shi Tao didn't say anything more to Shang Mei, and fell asleep on the bed.

"Hey, get up, get up, get up first, you haven't undressed yet." Oops, it smells of alcohol all over the quilt. Shang Mei urged Shi Tao to take off his clothes first.

"Oh, that's so much trouble. Shi Tao pretended to be drunk, closed his eyes and took off his clothes, then went to sleep with his head covered in the quilt again.

He knew that he didn't feel sleepy, he kept thinking about the scene of his tryst with Yang Qiong, and in that intoxicating memory, he gradually fell asleep, as if he had been intoxicated by his dreams.

It's a dream that will wake up eventually.