I vented all my emotions on the steering wheel, and the scenery on both sides quickly retreated.

The speed had skyrocketed to 120 yards, but I didn't think it was enough.

Those emotions were not vented from beginning to end, I just felt more depressed.

My mind went blank at first, and then the images of Xia Yan's past flashed back in front of my eyes like a movie.

I loved her, I loved her dearly, ever.

"Didi-"

A large truck honked at me, pulling me out of my chaotic thoughts.

I don't want to die yet, I want to find Xia Yan.

I adjusted my mood and gradually slowed down.

I drove aimlessly around the road, and I didn't know where to go to find Xia Yan.

Before those memories of her exploded, I had done almost everything I could.

I've been to hospitals, schools, police stations, and found nothing.

After all, ten years have passed, and the places I have been to with Xia Yan in those memories have already undergone earth-shaking changes, and there are no clues at all.

And my mother and Yi Xin, who know the truth, will not say anything to me after today's incident, and will not even pay attention to me in a short time.

Eventually, I got home.

When I opened the door with the key, the room was pitch black, and I closed the door softly and called tentatively, "Mom." ”

No one answered, I turned on the light, the room was empty, and my mom was supposed to be there to help me clean up the mess at the Kate Hotel

I looked at the various "happy characters" paper cuts pasted on the windows in the room, and I didn't know what kind of emotions to use for a while.

I can even remember the joy I felt when I went out in the morning, but now I have mixed feelings when I see these things that represent joy and happiness.

In the morning I thought Ihin and I were going to have a perfect wedding, and a few hours later I broke it all with my own hands.

I know that my actions have caused a lot of harm to Ishin, but I really can't control myself not to do that, I can't marry a woman who is full of lies, at least not at the moment.

I stood in front of a window and reached out to tear the "Xi Zi" paper cut off the window, but in the end I still didn't tear it off.

I turned off the lights and went back to my room to lock the door.

The darkness engulfed me, and the little bits and pieces of Xia Yan rushed to my eyes like a tide.

It seems that it was just yesterday, and it turns out that many scenes in the dream are real, and we used to love each other so much.

The corners of my eyes moistened slightly, perhaps a nostalgia for the past, or the excitement of regaining a lost memory.

The constant memories filled my brain, and I passively accepted the memories that had been sealed for ten years, and before I knew it, I fell back into a dream.

"Is it Mr. Gu Chenye?"

"I am. "I glanced at the caller ID and picked up the phone.

The phone number is a landline, which is a little familiar, and I always have a feeling of uneasiness when I pick it up.

I'll be off work in an hour, and I'll be able to go see Xia Yan after work.

"Summer... Miss Xia Yan ...... "The nurse on the other end of the phone was speechless, and it seemed that it was difficult to say what she wanted to say.

Hearing Xia Yan's name made my heart skip a beat, I grabbed my phone and asked eagerly, "What's wrong with Xia Yan?"

Because I was in a hurry, my voice was loud, which attracted the attention of many colleagues.

I frowned and waited for the nurse's answer, unoblivious to the puzzled glances of my colleagues.

"Miss Xia Yan, she cut her wrists and is being rescued, you-"

Cut wrist ......

I couldn't hear the nurse's words clearly, I picked up the car keys, I didn't care about asking for leave, I forgot to even take my suit jacket, and I got up and ran to the parking lot downstairs.

I shuddered and inserted my car keys into the car and started the car, and cold sweat broke out on my back.

I promised to accompany me more.

Why did you choose without saying a word......

"Mr. Gu Chenye?......

I didn't hang up on that call, and amid the nurse's constant questioning, I finally heard her voice again.

"I... I'm here. I replied to her with a trembling voice, the speed of the car has been exerted to my extreme, I just want to get to the hospital as fast as possible, I don't even dare to ask her how Xia Yan is doing?

That result was unacceptable to me, so I didn't ask, and even deceived myself in my heart, as long as I didn't ask, Xia Yan would be fine.

"Although Miss Xia Yan is out of danger for the time being, the patient's mood has not been very stable recently, and it is likely that she will choose to hurt herself again in the short term, so I suggest you come and see it as soon as possible. ”

'Out of danger for a while. This sentence was like a breath of oxygen in the suffocation, which made me breathe in an extremely depressed emotion.

My grip on the steering wheel relaxed slightly, leaning back.

A blinding white light shone into my eyes, and I couldn't see anything for a split second.

"Bang!"

After the violent impact, my eyes were bloody, and the sharp pain in my body was unforgettable.

I snapped my eyes open and breathed heavily, but even that didn't soothe my choking.

"You have a new message. "The sound of my phone made me realize that the scene just now was another dream of mine.

But I also knew that this dream was what I had been.

My chest heaved and heaved, and it took a long time for my breathing to calm down.

I turned on my phone and found that it was already four o'clock in the night.

The text message just now was sent by Xiao Jun.

"Auntie will clean up your mess at this time, I asked Qiangzi to drive Auntie back, don't worry. Not long after you ran away, Yi Xin also left, I don't know where I went, I asked my aunt, and my aunt didn't know. It's not that I'm talking about you, Chen Ye, you really can't do this today. ”

"I don't want to-" I squinted and typed a few words, but after thinking about it, I still didn't send it, I deleted the words I had just typed and retyped "Okay, got it." "Then send.

I also know that what I did today is very unmanly, but I really can't do it better, and I can't pretend to know the truth without knowing it.

I'm more willing to accept the broken truth than a perfect lie.

"Bang. "The sound of the door being slammed shut should be my mother's return.

My mom stood outside my door for a while, didn't call me or knock, just sighed in front of my door and went back to her room.

After my mom left, I put my phone on silent and closed my eyes.

Like my mother, I didn't know what to say to her at this time.

I simply let myself fall into a drowsy again.