"Hmmm... Your grandmother should believe in Buddhism, but Buddhism is profound, I don't understand-" The little nurse saw Lin Su's painful expression, afraid that he would not be able to think about anything, so she hurriedly made a round and comforted.

With the Qiankun Tianxin Jade, he has opened up the second vein of Ren Du, and the majestic murderous aura circulating in his body Xiao Zhou Tian's Lin Su has a clearer mind and sharper five senses than before, and his feelings about everything around him have gone up to a higher level.

On the contrary, the wiser mind brings more sentimental thoughts, and now he really can't figure out why man lives, or why he wants to live in this world, and he himself can't find the meaning of life.

It is better to be a peaceful dog than a troubled world. His fate in his previous life was tragic, his originally harmonious and beautiful family, and his hometown like a paradise were all shattered in the waves of troubled times, his relatives and friends died in the war, and his hometown in his impression had already been burned.

In order to survive, he had to join the army, and then there was endless killing.

At the beginning of the period, there was the thrill of revenge brought by killing, and the heroism brought by unyielding resistance. But gradually, gradually, he was lost in the endless killing, became numb, became silent.

Yes - the thief killed his relatives, ruined his wife, and ruined everything he cherished.

But how can I not be like this? How many people's relatives have I killed, how many people's families have I ruined, how many people's everything has been ruined?

In troubled times, soldiers and bandits are a family, and in the eyes of others, what is the difference between themselves and the thieves they hate?

But at that time, he still had to live, to live for the prestige of "trapping the camp", to live for the brothers who were born and died together in the camp, and to live for the Gao General Lu Wenhou.

Lü Wenhou called the trapping camp his "blade of troubled times", and if he wanted to break the troubled times, he must turn into a sharp blade and cut off this era.

Follow Lu Wenhou to get the world, worship the prime minister, seal the wife and son, and glorify the ancestors?

I never had this idea, I just killed for the anger in my heart, killed to complain to God about injustice, and killed to find the meaning of life.

People are not people, demons are not demons, what else can be left but killing?

When he was defeated and killed by the tiger and leopard riders, who were also the "blades of troubled times", he actually didn't have much resentment, really! The resentment had long been washed and precipitated by the previous killings again and again.

Death is a relief for me, and I can finally end my miserable, sinful, helpless and absurd life.

But why! Lao Tzu has already let go of his relief and pulled himself back to the yang world! Lao Tzu actually doesn't want to live at all!

There is no one I know here, no one I know, no one who is familiar with me, what is the point of living alone in this world?

The little nurse looked at Lin Su's bitter and hateful appearance, and was afraid that the patient would do something that she couldn't think of because of her nervous disease, so she responded stubbornly.

"Take me as an example, well... I must live, at least for the sake of my parents. ”

"They are the people who love me the most in this world and care about me the most, they worked hard to raise me, of course I have to live well, don't let them worry, honor them in the future, and repay their nurturing grace"

Lin Su's heart tightened, and there was an inexplicable sadness.

The tree wants to be quiet but the wind does not stop, and the child wants to raise but does not wait.

I have never fed back my filial piety to my parents, my parents have long been gone, even if the old sergeant who has nurtured him, he has not entered filial piety, and even the corpse of the old sergeant has not had time to regain it from the city!

"After that I will definitely meet the person who will be with me for the rest of my life, and then we will have our children. Then I want to live a good life, I want to get along with him, I want to grow old together, I want to watch the child grow up slowly, and watch him start a family! The little nurse continued wistfully.

Lin Su's heart tightened again, a good wife and a beautiful family, a mother and a filial son, who doesn't want to have it. Although Lin Su had a nominal fiancée Xiaohua in his previous life, he actually never married in his life, and there were no offspring.

Living in that era, as a soldier who was in danger, he was paid silver or rewarded, and he either went to the tavern to buy drunk, or threw it on the belly of those ladies in the military prostitute village, where would he leave a plan and consider marrying a wife and having children?

"If you have no parents, no relatives and friends, no wife and no children, what's the point of living alone in this world?" Lin Su asked with a frown.

"Ah, how can there be such a person?

Immediately, Tang Xin thought about it, did Lin Su remind his parents to die again, and he was lonely?

"Ah~~ Don't think nonsense, you are young, you are in your prime, what are you worried about, you still have a grandmother, of course you have to live well, don't let her worry!"

"What if there is? Your parents are deceased, and you have no husband and no children, and you are lonely, so what is the meaning of living?" Lin Su tried the way this world was to say, and looked at the little nurse seriously and asked.

"Huh~~~~ Aren't you cursing me!!" The little nurse was annoyed, her mouth pouted, and she rolled her eyes playfully.

Seeing Lin Su looking at himself so seriously, his heart softened, he tilted his head and thought about it, and said.

"If I really become like that, I want to live well!"

"It's not easy for people to walk through this world. If I don't have any concerns, then I do what I love and do what I feel is meaningful. Taste the food of the world, travel the beauty of the world, and experience all kinds of wonderful customs!"

"Even if I am alone, I have to live, and I have to live a wonderful life, so that I can live up to this life!"

"You~~ I don't know which tendon is wrong, no matter how you say it, it is possible to live, there is a future, and there is nothing when you die!

Only by living a wonderful life can we live up to this life? Only by living can we have a future, and when we die, everything will be over?

Lin Su seemed to realize something, and he seemed to have walked into a dead end.

I thought I was relieved to let go, but in fact, it was because I didn't let go of my previous life, and I was afraid that I would be out of place in an unfamiliar environment and lonely, so I was so confused.

Since God has given me another life, why can't I completely let go, not experience it well, do it with idealism, and live another wonderful life?

Ants are still greedy for life, why not spare their lives. The things of the previous life, the cause and effect of the previous life remain in the previous life. Since you are alive, you must live well!

Lin Su's eyes lit up again, and he looked at the little nurse and said seriously: "I understand! Since I am alive, I have to experience it well and live wonderfully!"

"Yes, yes, yes, just figure it out, don't think about those messy things! You just have temporary amnesia, and it will be fine soon, Anla~~" The little nurse also said happily when she saw Lin Sumao's sudden appearance.

Lin Su smiled for the first time after waking up, and he smiled happily.

"Then Miss Tang, can you take me to taste the food of the world, travel all over the world, experience all kinds of wonderful customs, and experience the wonders of the world together?" Lin Su stared at the sweet and lovely little nurse with burning eyes.

"Ahh

Tang Xin's cheeks were flushed, and the deer in her heart was bumping, this... Is this a confession? Why is it so sudden... We haven't known each other for long...

The little nurse looked at Lin Su with a shy face, and when she saw Lin Su's sword-eyed eyes looking at her, she quickly lowered her head and twisted the corners of her clothes.

He looks really... It's pretty handsome.,Now it's dementia.。。。 It's pretty cute... The heart and eyes are also simple, and there are no bad intentions... No, where did he simply pull, asked a question that didn't know the so-called philosophy, and finally said such a crooked thing to suddenly confess...

That's bad!

He must be very likable to girls.,Why did he suddenly treat me ... Do you want to say yes? Am I older than him...

The little nurse Tang Xin's heart was rippling, her feelings were confused, and she was thinking wildly.

"I... I'm not familiar with this place... A lot of things don't ... You... Are you willing to help me?" Lin Su lowered his head and lost his voice when he saw the little nurse's "ah", and he continued to ask timidly.

"Ah?——h

Yes, he has amnesia, he can't even remember basic daily necessities such as televisions, mobile phones, microwave ovens, etc., how can he come to confess chasing girls? He wants to find someone to help him recover his memory.

The little nurse was lost for a while, but the trace of emotion in her heart was aroused by Lin Su, and now she couldn't help blushing and heartbeat when she saw Lin Su, and she was very embarrassed.

"Well—okay, I'll help you!You—you—rest—I... I'll come back in the afternoon" Tang Xin blushed and dropped this sentence, and left the ward like an escape.

Lin Su didn't know why, so he stood in place and watched the little nurse who escaped out of the room.

He's an ancient elite soldier.,That's good at killing people and goods.,But it's about figuring out girls' minds.。。。 That's pure.

There are no girls in the barracks at all, even if they go to the military prostitute village, they are all paying money, lying down, and going straight to the bottom, how can there be an opportunity to communicate with women and guess each other's thoughts?

Although Lin Su didn't understand why the little nurse was so embarrassed, she was still very happy, Miss Tang woke up the person in her dream with a word, helped him untie the knot, and promised to help him experience it together in this completely unfamiliar environment, wonderful together, how could her heart not blossom?

Lin Su walked back to the window by himself, looking at the scenery outside the window.

He likes to look out at the scenery in the distance, which makes him feel good. Although his location is only on the fourth floor, and the scenery from the window is not as good as that in the hill in his previous life, the scene of high-rise buildings in the distance, busy traffic, and endless flow of people can still shock and amaze his heart.

On the edge of the window outside the window, a butterfly with a black body stopped at some point, and its wings flared as if it was greeting Lin Su.

This butterfly seems to have a relationship with Lin Su, since changing wards, this black butterfly will fly to the edge of the outer window every once in a while to watch Lin Su rest.

Lin Su looked at the familiar black butterfly, smiled at it for the first time, and nodded, as a return gift for the uninvited visit.

Then he continued to look out the window, but his eyes were no longer melancholy, and he was full of hope.

The black butterfly's wings went up and down, as if to say goodbye, and while the patient was not paying attention, it flew away quietly and disappeared into the sky.