I don't have the surname Xu, but her surname is Yan, I am from Liao Province, and he is a native of Bao D.

Her favorite flowers are orchids, her favorite food is announced chicken, fish-flavored shredded pork, her mother is a hospital nurse, and her father is an employee of a state-owned enterprise, just like what I wrote in my book.

And in reality, I call her a girl.

The only difference is that I am not an orphan, I have not entered the entertainment industry, and I have no iron pillars.

She scored more than 600 points in the college entrance examination, a college, and finally she told me that her wish is to open a pastry shop, and we both dreamed of it, she said, when I graduate, we will get married, and then we will work together, and it will not take much to rent a pastry shop.

She wants to go to various places to see the scenery, and the wedding photos want to be taken in the West Lake, I remember all of this, but I am too useless to help her.

In the winter of '16, she had symptoms, and within two months she was diagnosed, thrombocytoless purpura, and then it was a lesion, these are what she told me.

Because she hasn't seen me since she was diagnosed, saying that she was afraid that her illness would drag me down, and I had just graduated at the time, with an internship salary of 2500, and I also collapsed, I couldn't do anything, just TM was like a waste.

But as an old man, I told myself that I had to be strong, comforting and encouraging her, after all, this disease can't give up hope, because of chemotherapy, her hair is gone, so there is also the matter of Xu Yang having long hair in my story.

I also confessed this to my mother, I told her that I have a girl I like, but she is not in good health now, leukemia, my mother looked at me and replied calmly: "Son, you also know the conditions of our family, there is not so much money for her treatment!"

There is no such thing as hysterical rejection.

I was silent for a long time when I heard this, yes, I'm just a rural kid, my father works on a construction site, what money can I have, so the reality is far more exciting than the movie.

Sometimes I think, if only I were a rich second generation, if I was young and promising, even if I could have the income like writing books now, although it is not much, but I can at least help, instead of just comforting her like a waste like I did back then.

I like "Journey to the West" very much, I hate my current self, because now only money can bring a sense of security, I don't want to be a waste next time when it is my parents' turn to have something, if I can go back to the past and look at my current self, I think I will definitely say to my current self:

"Look at that man, he looks like a dog!"

Here I want to say a word to that girl of mine:

"Silly girl, I'm leaving, don't blame me, this trip, thank you for your care, I'm getting off, I'm at the station!"

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