There are some memories that cannot be forgotten, and Martin's mind can't help but drift to his past life.

All the unforgivable sins of Wang Nan in his previous life came from selfishness!

He almost never pretended to be someone else in his heart.

His selfishness led him out of the abominable, hateful, and hateful trajectory of life!

The biggest mistake of his life: resentment towards his parents trumped in return for their nurturing kindness.

When I was a child, my parents were high-spirited, and they thought about making their son successful, but they lacked patience in discipline methods, and they served with sticks if they were not good.

At that time, Wang Nan couldn't resist, so he could only wait to grow up.

When he went to junior high school, he began to consciously exercise his body, and after the third year of junior high school, Wang Nan's height soared to 180, and his arms and legs were also strong, accumulating capital for resistance.

Finally, one day when he was about to be beaten, Wang Nan snatched the stick from his father's hand, slammed it on the ground, and yelled at his neck: "Are you used to beating?

The father, who had just turned forty, was caught off guard by his son's resistance, trembling with anger but not knowing how to take the next step, he could only lament in his heart: his son has grown up, and he can no longer move him.

Since then, Wang Nan has completely entered a rebellious period, and has been out of control, going farther and farther on the road of bastards.

The following is an excerpt from Wang Nan's bastard words from the age of 15 to 40:

"Don't worry, I'm not a bastard, and I can't beat my parents, but if you dare to beat me! ”

"Do you understand that children become more and more rebellious? Will you take care of children? Always complain that grandma is used to me, you are not as good as her at all!"

"Martin is the most obedient! Martin is good at everything! Why didn't Martin treat you as a son? Tell you, he's afraid of parents like you!"

"Martin, did his parents beat him once? and I was beaten by you!"

"I can't be the master of the money I earn, and I have to leave it to you? Why do you like to meddle in my affairs so much?"

"Joke, of course I suffered my own crime, and I didn't ask you to go to jail for me!"

"I didn't handle the relationship well when I was a child, and now I don't want to think about it, it's meaningless. ”

"It's impossible for me to disown my parents, and you can't change me, just like now, everyone should be cautious and polite when you speak, don't pierce that piece of paper, otherwise both sides will not look good. ”

"I said don't pierce this fig leaf! You have to fight! It's funny to always think like this?!"

The 60-year-old mother had tears in her eyes, and the 61-year-old father had severe pain in her internal organs.

The parents went through a long period of nearly thirty years of reflection;

They are constantly scrutinizing and criticizing themselves;

They continued this guilt for their son until the moment they closed their eyes.

……

If you don't have a father or mother in your heart, you should always have a wife, right?

"Where's your money?"

"Lost. ”

"Lose! You gamble again! Do you still have a bit of cheek? What did you say last time? If you gamble again, chop off your fingers, go, chop!"

"Is there a daughter-in-law like you? forcing your man to chop off his fingers, how can you live this life?"

"I can't live this day, how can I live this month without money? The child is less than a year old, and the milk powder alone costs hundreds, where does the money come from?"

"You take some from your mother first, they can't spend so much money, can't I stop gambling next time?"

"You're really not a person, why am I blind to you!" the daughter-in-law hugged her son and cried.

……

If you don't have parents or wives in your heart, you should always have your own children, right?

The child can't call dad yet, and dad has become mom's ex-husband;

As soon as the child learns to climb, the father has completely escaped from the shackles of home;

The child sensibly asked about his father, but his father didn't hear anything at all;

The child is isolated and helpless at the school gate after school, and that bastard dad is having fun somewhere in the world.

It wasn't until his son was fifteen years old that the legendary biological father gave him the only message: the man was dead.

……

If you don't have parents, wives and children, you should always have brothers, right?

Chen Yong is the most ironclad comrade-in-arms in Wang Nan's army, and the two have faced death together, and they are real friends of life and death.

The old comrades-in-arms lent their hard-earned savings to Wang Nan again and again, making their own partners fall apart because they had no money to buy a house.

Chen Yong, who was still 35 years old and still had no whereabouts, worked hard to persevere, until Wang Nan entered the prison and completely extinguished the light, and then reluctantly left this bottomless pit.

Even so, before Chen Yong disappeared completely, he still went inside to see Wang Nan, and went to the house to leave thousands of yuan for Wang Nan's parents.

Wang Nan and Martin are just one month away from their birthdays, and the two have been crawling together since they couldn't walk.

Kindergarten, elementary school, junior high school, until the graduation of high school, are always in one class at an age, and it is a real hair small.

Since he was a child, Martin has taken care of Wang Nan in all aspects, and he has persisted until he really can't see the slightest change in Fa Xiao, and then he has to leave behind his thirty-year friendship.

Martin's father and Wang Nan's father are a comrade-in-arms and colleagues, and when it comes to Wang Nan's generation, they are pure and solid friends of three generations.

The fathers followed a similar path, transferred to the same county and the same unit together, and were admitted to university as their father, and became deputy section chief, section chief, and deputy director.

The path of the sons is 108,000 miles.

After graduating from Martin University, he started his own business and built an office building in the ancient city of the capital, with assets of more than 100 million.

Wang Nan was not admitted to college to become a soldier, and the ghost made the god to become an officer, and also found the chief's daughter to marry and have children, so that the parents naively thought that their son had finally changed his ways and "saved the country by curves".

It backfired, the good times did not last long, and the restlessness in his heart and his dedication to anything made Wang Nan once again lost in the whirlpool of going to the sea to do business and make a fortune.

lost all his family funds, took all the savings of his parents-in-law, and owed all his acquaintances hard-earned money.

In the end, he lost his career, lost his family, and left in embarrassment.

With a heart of "never admit defeat" and only fantasies out of thin air, dreaming of getting rich overnight, and discarding all good opportunities to obtain fruits with hard work, Wang Nan wandered around the society for seven years.

Seven years later, the ex-wife who was alone with her son finally stopped waiting and remarried.

In the end, Wang Nan embarked on a desperate death path and "successfully arrived" the prison.

Maybe I really felt the beauty of freedom in prison;

Perhaps it is here that there is time to reflect on the past;

Perhaps I was moved by the weeping confessions of my fellow inmates at every interview.

Wang Nan's selfish heart began to touch his family and affection.

In the past three years, no matter whether it is windy or rainy, my parents have come to meet me almost every month.

They carefully considered the language, and did not dare to mention the past at all, but repeatedly said words of encouragement, hoping that their son would regain his strength.

Wang Nan looked at his father's rickety back and his mother's aging face, and his heart was touched from time to time.

In the third year of Wang Nan's imprisonment, his parents finally couldn't bear the so-called guilt of their son in this life, and passed away one after another, and the old couple left less than a week.

The only sister was also sent to the hospital for rescue due to a heart attack due to excessive grief, and she almost struggled back from the line of death.

The first thing my sister did after waking up was to go to the prison interview room and complain to Wang Nan from beginning to end for 20 minutes in tears, and then immediately after she returned, she published a newspaper: announcing that she had severed ties with the only immediate family member in the world.

All the police officers and other family members at the scene burst into tears after hearing their sister's complaint.

Only Wang Nan sat there fixedly, not crying or making trouble, with an expression on his face, and the corners of his mouth still retained a trace of curvature.

The sister's heart-piercing words pierced Wang Nan's heart deeply, and at that moment, he actually gained a sense of relief and comfort.

It feels good to be scolded by your loved ones, because having the qualifications to be scolded by your relatives is actually a kind of happiness.

Although, this is not the first time, but it must be the last.

Being scolded like this by relatives would never have been tolerated before.

My sister once couldn't see it, pointed at her nose and scolded Wang Nan, let his two big mouths fan over and gag his mouth, and his brother-in-law wanted to vent his anger to his daughter-in-law, but he was also knocked to the ground with three punches and two feet by the well-trained him.

The matter was resolved by the parents on the surface, but the mustard took root in the hearts of both sides, and since then there has been no communication between the two siblings, and even the little good memories of playing together when they were children have been discarded.

It's like two passers-by who come to the house at the same time, but they barely maintain that little politeness on the surface.

Now, at last, the time has come to a complete break, and my sister no longer has to take into account the feelings of her parents, and she happily returns to the Lord.

also helped Wang Nan unload the last nostalgia.

The parents who have been preaching, worrying, and maintaining all their lives have finally stopped;

My parents, who have been opposing, resisting, and refuting all my life, will never appear again;

The "grievances and hatreds" between parents and sons ended with the "complete defeat" of one of the parents.

Don't worry about it anymore, and don't refuse to worry about it anymore;

No more bitter words, no more all as a breeze in your ears;

There is no need to feel guilty about the past, and there is no need to stab people with the past.

Dad, Mom, in the last life, were we enemies?

Sister, in the last life, we were supposed to be strangers, right?

Wife and children, in your previous life, do you owe me a lot?

Friends......

Wang Nan suddenly felt that it was really not interesting to live, and his own existence was a mistake in itself.

This thought quickly spread to every cell in his body, and it was irrepressible!

So, let's end there.

The prison captain expected that Wang Nan would cry, skip meals, not participate in labor, and not think of finding fault and fighting.

But I never imagined that this usually high-spirited and outgoing person would have the courage to die.

If you want to die, it's not difficult anywhere, you don't need to waste too much thought, Wang Nan is ready for everything that will die.

I'm sorry, the people around me, because of my death, you will be implicated.

But I can't care about that much, my parents are still waiting for me to atone for my sins.

Holding the blade and gently pulling his wrist in the quilt, Wang Nan's mind flew like electricity.

10 minutes to recall the complete life;

Ten minutes to complete the final confession;

Ten minutes of non-stop prayer.

If I could live again, I would be obedient, I would study hard, I would lie down willingly, and enjoy every whip of my father's land happily......

In the dark, Martin sat up straight with tears in his eyes, and touched the pillow towel, which was already wet.

This dream is not the first time, Martin wakes up crying every time, and this dream also reminds him all the time: cherish this life!