Chapter 15: Disputes
When the car stopped at the entrance of the community where Gu Nanjia lived, it was already close to zero, and he accidentally played late, as if he was afraid of wasting any second in the past three days.
The girl thanked her obediently and pushed open the passenger door.
It wasn't until the white sedan merged with the traffic and could no longer be found that she turned around and walked towards the community.
The night was a little late, but I was in a good mood, and I hummed an unknown tune in my mouth.
Playing with the key and stepping out of the elevator, she never expected to bump into the person she wanted to see the most and the person she didn't want to see the most.
"Liu Pei?!!When did you come?" his voice trembled slightly.
The person who subconsciously felt the least likely was leaning against the shadow in front of the door, with cigarette butts falling at his feet.
The khaki casual plaid shirt was full of wrinkles and some white ash on the walls, and his hair was messy, like a homeless homeless man.
"Jiajia, why did you change the password, I was almost asleep after waiting. ”
He tried to smile at her, his voice was dry to hoarse, his eyes were a little red, and he looked haggard and tired.
Gu Nanjia unconsciously took a step back, and there was thunder in his mind.
She didn't think he would come, and she never took her emotions to heart like she had done countless times before.
"Jiajia?" he saw her retreat, thinking that the anger in his heart had not subsided, and his tone became more humble, "It's me who is not good this time, don't be angry, okay?"
But the more he did this, the more unpleasant she felt in her heart.
When he is indifferent, blamed, and unconcerned, she can convince herself that it was all his fault, and then tentatively touch the tenderness of another man.
And what's going on now?
It's like... It's like she's the one who left him where he was.
"Liu Pei, don't be like this, we broke up. Don't look too far away, your tone lacks ups and downs, as if you don't have feelings.
"Jiajia, don't make a fuss, I'm tired, let's go in and say okay? I'll cook you a supper." ”
He grabbed his hair and walked over to hold her shoulder, and the cigarette butts on the ground were accidentally kicked and scattered everywhere.
"It's so late, I'm alone, it's not very convenient. ”
"Jiajia, I know you're still angry, it's my fault this time, forgive me this time, okay?"
As he spoke, he took another step forward to take her into his arms, but she dodged to the side.
"How many times has it been this time? How long have you not been to come to me? How many times have you missed an appointment? How many times have I forgiven you? If I hadn't blocked your contact information, you wouldn't have come here now, would you?"
Gu Nanjia turned sideways and didn't want to face him, he was always like this, he had the courage to admit his mistakes but did not repent.
Guilt and anger are mixed together, mixed with the grievances in the chest cavity about to rush out of the eyes.
was a little overwhelmed by the questioning, and wanted to defend himself but couldn't find a reason, Liu Pei had to take two steps back and light a cigarette.
"Jiajia, I didn't mean to snub you so much, I'm just a little confused, and I don't know how to face you, but it's definitely not that I don't love you anymore. ”
The explanatory words fell into her ears, making her feel inexplicably irritable.
"What are you dissatisfied with, you say, have I rejected you once in so many years? You obviously have so many opportunities, you say it!"
"You're always like this, you have to hide everything in your heart and let me guess, what I want is a shoulder that can lean on when I'm tired, not a child who needs me to take care of everything!"
As he spoke, tears fell, and he was a little hysterical.
The incandescent light overhead suddenly went out as if frightened. Only a little spark on a cigarette was left in the dark corridor, and the moonlight was so dark that no one could see anyone's expression.
Liu Pei heard her crying, and he couldn't hold back his emotions, and he stretched out his hand to wipe her tears: "Just talk, why are you crying, I know it's not good for me." ”
Gu Nanjia waved his hand away and turned her back, she didn't want to cry.
"Look at you, you're still so crying. It's always working day and night, and it makes me feel like you're moving away from me step by step. ”
Hearing his comforting words, my heart swelled up with a sourness, and I couldn't stop it.
"You've been like this since you were in high school, and if you have any grievances, you like to shed tears, lock yourself up and see no one. This time, I cleared out all my things, and the password of the door lock was changed, which is so worrying. ”
"Worried?" Gu Nanjia looked back at Liu Pei's eyes, "Have you really worried about me?"
"Have you ever worried about me every time you missed an appointment? Have you ever worried about me every day when I come home alone and face an empty house? Have you ever worried about me when you want to be rejected for a meal?"
"Now you tell me you're worried about me? Are you worried about your ridiculous possessiveness or about me? If I don't cry or make a fuss and send you those salutes to school, will you still worry about me?"
The girl took two more steps back, her body already pressed against the wall, but her tone grew tougher.
"I know it's because I've been busy with internships and I've spent less time with you, but I'm already trying my best to compensate you? Why do you think I'm moving out of my house and going to such great lengths to live on my own?"
"I'll tell you the first day I clean up the house, just to say that we finally have a little home of our own, and then what? Except for the first few months, two years, you tell me how many times you've been here?"
"You showed up when you wanted to see me, but what about when I wanted to see you? Do you think of this place as a home, or as a casual inn?"
Questioned, he was a little speechless, and Liu Pei snuffed out the cigarette in his hand with some irritability.
"Yes, you're right!" his voice rose a few degrees, "it's that I've been avoiding you, and it's that I'm not willing to spend time with you." Then tell me, is it me or you who is the person who spends his days in the company?"
Gu Nanjia was startled by his roar, and didn't know where he touched his scales.
"Do you think I'm a rare school? I'm a rare you! You are the one who wants to study in the media, you are the one who is busy with internships every day, you are the one who says I don't care about you, and now you are the one who says you want to break up! Gu Nanjia, can you not be so willful?!"
She was a little angry by what he said, and roared back with a crying voice: "Who am I trying my best for? Is it just for myself? Do you think that after four years of idleness in college, you can support a family? Since I make you look down on you so much, then don't come to me!"
Gu Nanjia pushed him away and ran towards the stairwell.
Liu Pei chased after her for two steps and grabbed her in front of the fire door.
"If you let me go, we can't continue to be together!"
He held her tightly, but he wouldn't let go.
"Let go, you're scratching me. Gu Nanjia suddenly stopped struggling, and her crying voice was terrifyingly cold.
He was stunned for a moment, and his hand relaxed a little strength, and she broke free and ran downstairs.