The passers-by you meet casually are all people that others dream of seeing, and the people Min Haoran dreams of seeing have indeed become passers-by.

What's wrong with this world, what is love, just talk about it and leave, just like this?

Min Haoran didn't believe everything in front of him, his hopes were all fake, just a dream, he hoped that the dream would wake up quickly, return to everything, return to the crazy Zhao Ruyan who loved him, and return to the innocent, clean and elegant Zhao Ruyan.

Feelings are a multi-dimensional world of joy, anger and sorrow, and sometimes they are also a flat world of tastelessness.

For a few days at home, Min Haoran was dull all day long, either sitting in front of his grandmother's grave sadly, or sitting on the mountain to reminisce about whispering with Zhao Ruyan.

Min Haoran felt like the reef at the end of the earth: lonely, lonely, helpless.

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"My milk is seriously ill, come back quickly. ”

In August of the third year, Min Haoran suddenly received a telegram from home.

"How could it be, her old man was so strong, she was fine when she left, still tending to her little vegetable garden, and staggering her little feet in front of the stove. ”

Min Haoran's head slammed. He hurriedly asked the unit leader for leave and embarked on the return journey that he thought about day and night.

Min Haoran hurriedly went home, and he also had a strong belief, that is, he wanted to think about what happened to Zhao Ruyan, and he didn't reply to a letter.

"She must have not received my letter, maybe she hated me why she didn't write to her. Min Haoran comforted himself.

The green-skinned train climbed for a week, and Min Haoran returned to his hometown.

"Grandma, what's wrong with you?"

Seeing the bedridden, skinny grandmother, Min Haoran knelt beside the bed and burst into tears.

Grandma tried hard to open her drooping eyelids, but she didn't, her chapped lips moved, as if she had something to say, but she didn't make a sound, Min Haoran howled and cried.

After the tender left, the grandmother chattered about the tender every day, kept shouting the tender name in her mouth, put the tender photo in her pocket, took it out from time to time to see, looked at it once and wiped her tears, it has been a month The tea and rice have just taken a bite, and she is waiting for the tender to come back with her last breath. The father wiped his tears and told Min Haoran.

"Grandma, I'm sorry, it's my grandson who is not filial, I shouldn't have left you......"

"Aren't you good when I left, you also said that the watermelons in Xinjiang are sweet, the grapes are sweet, you want to eat them, I brought you ......"

"Grandma, can you get better quickly, I haven't done my filial piety to your old man yet......"

"Grandma, my grandson can't bear you, I can't do without you, you must get better, get through, promise me if it's okay......"

No matter how Min Haoran shouted, his grandmother's kind and peaceful face was indifferent.

Min Haoran lay down in front of his grandmother's bed and cried bitterly, and it was difficult to calm down for a long time.

The day after returning home, my grandmother lay quietly in Min Haoran's arms, leaving her relatives and driving a crane to the west.

After taking care of his grandmother's funeral, Min Haoran decided to go to Zhao Ruyan.

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The most helpless thing in the relationship is that one is planning the future, and the other is planning to leave.

If love can be explained, then there is no pain in love.

Zhao Ruyan's garment factory is on the edge of the township, and the factory building is about 100 square meters, with more than a dozen workers.

Zhao Ruyan was busy cutting fabrics, and a girl about a year old stood beside her, babbling on Zhao Ruyan's thighs.

"Ru Yan, I'm busy, I'm back. ”

When Min Haoran saw Zhao Ruyan, he was worried about the unhappiness of his grandmother's death, and his mood was much better, so he trotted to Zhao Ruyan.

"Haoran?are you back?!"

Hearing the familiar voice, Zhao Ruyan stopped the cutting in her hand and looked at Min Haoran unexpectedly.

"My grandmother was seriously ill and my family sent me a telegram asking me to come back. Min Haoran said sadly.

"Then how is your grandma now, is it better?" Zhao Ruyan glanced at Min Haoran, and continued to bow her head to cut the fabric, trying her best to hide her embarrassment.

In a panic, she accidentally cut her finger, and in order not to let Min Haoran see her gaffe, she quickly stuffed her bleeding finger into her mouth.

"She passed away the other day. ”

Min Haoran felt bad, Zhao Ruyan did not rush to him with the surprise he imagined, but was as cold as ice.

Could it be that she is empathetic and don't fall in love again? Min Haoran was dumbfounded for a while, not knowing what to do.

The two were silent for a long time.

"Ru Yan, did you receive the letter I wrote to you?"

Min Haoran felt that Zhao Ruyan had received the letter, and he remembered the address of her tailor shop clearly, so there was no reason why he couldn't receive it.

Min Haoran silently surged up in his heart with hatred: What difficulties do you Zhao Ruyan encounter, what are the things, even if you don't love it, you should reply to a letter and say a clear word.

Zhao Ruyan was silent, cutting the fabric by herself.

Many times, silence is not the absence of words, but the indescribability of words.

"Did you receive it, I wrote several letters, why didn't you reply to a letter, let me worry about you so much, do you know?"

Min Haoran asked with a reproachful tone, but he felt afraid of hurting Zhao Ruyan, and his eyes immediately became warm.

"Haoran, I'm sorry, go back, people have an old age, don't be too sad about your grandmother's death, this is also a joy and mourning, and the mourning is smooth. You don't have to worry about me, I'm ....... I...... I'm married. ”

Zhao Ruyan's hands were at a loss, and she turned her back blankly, her shoulders trembling slightly.

Zhao Ruyan wanted to reply, but she couldn't say it at all.

If she said that she couldn't go to Xinjiang, Min Haoran would definitely chase her back, but she couldn't bear to break Min Haoran's dream.

She believes that Min Haoran's decision to go to Xinjiang is also deliberate, he must have a reason to go, trapping him by his side may be the biggest harm to him, she doesn't want to be a fetter to his dream.

Rather than binding, it is better to fulfill. Perfection is not a concession, but a different way of watching.

Zhao Ruyan finally chose to be perfect.

Love is great, but it is often stripped of the body by the ruthless reality, the wounded, the tired, and the bitter for a lifetime.

"Peony flowers die, and ghosts are also romantic" is just a beautiful legend of a romantic chivalrous wanderer.

Things in the world are so helpless. Some people are together, but they see each other but do not love each other, and some people love each other but cannot see each other.

"What? You're married! Ru Yan, you're angry with me, right, how is this possible, what's going on, isn't that Xiong Zhihao's bastard pestering you every day. ”

When Min Haoran heard this, he couldn't believe what was in front of him, and couldn't help but be rude.

In just over two years, the death of a loved one, and the farewell of love, Min Haoran did not believe that the reality would be so cruel.

"Could it be that I was wrong, what did I do wrong, what did I do wrong, God wants to punish me like this, I have to give my family love a death date, the sky is unfair, I don't accept it!" Min Haoran asked himself, heartbroken, beating his chest.

"No, don't ask in detail, I can't do without my parents, they only have one daughter, how can I bear to leave them, I don't want to affect your future, we are destined to be inseparable. Hurry back, there's a lot to do at home. Zhao Ruyan indifferently ordered the expulsion.

"Don't want your mother to cry, don't want your mother to cry. ”

Zhao Ruyan sobbed sadly, and the little girl next to her hugged Zhao Ruyan's leg and cried childishly.

"The baby is good, the mother doesn't cry, the mother doesn't cry, the baby doesn't cry, okay. Zhao Ruyan squatted down and stroked the child's face, looked at her daughter's innocent eyes, her heart was like a knife, and she hugged her daughter into her arms, but she couldn't help it, hugged her daughter tightly and cried loudly.

If you haven't experienced it, how can you know the pain, and who can know the pain and suffering buried in Zhao Ruyan's heart.

"What, this is your daughter, your daughter is so old? Ru Yan, I miss you every day, and this is the result I look forward to? Have you forgotten all our vows? You don't want me to be Chen Shimei, but why do you want to be Pan-Jin-Lian---。 Ah, why, tell me what it's for?"

Min Haoran couldn't believe the facts in front of him, his brain was blank, and he couldn't find the right words to 'humiliate' Zhao Ruyan for a while, so he inappropriately moved out Pan Jinlian, the 'number one gold medal' shameful woman, to vent his hatred.

The pain was so bad that he couldn't breathe, Min Haoran's eyes were red, and he turned around on the spot, trying to find something to smash to vent the pain in his heart, but he didn't find it, and he smashed his fist on the tailoring board, so frightened that the scissors ruler hid in all directions, and the startled little girl was stunned, and the howl stopped abruptly.

"Don't look like this, you're scaring the kids. Haoran, many things are not what you think, two years is not a long time or a short time, but a lot of things will happen, in fact, I ...... I...... You'd better hurry back Haoran. ”

Zhao Ruyan's words came to her mouth and retracted them, she thought about it or forget it, the situation has changed over time, all the pain has passed, why bother to regenerate branches and increase troubles.

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If parents are still working hard, then what's the point of growing up.

Zhao Ruyan couldn't bear to leave her parents who raised her.

Her parents have been honest all her life, she has been bullied all her life, and without them, she can't imagine how her parents will be wronged.

Therefore, she can't go to Xinjiang with Min Haoran, then she won't be able to forgive herself for being selfish.

In the face of love and family affection, Zhao Ruyan chose family affection.

"I am used to looking for your shadow in the crowd, thinking back to those happy days, but in fact, I understand that I have been separated from me before, far, far away······· We met and embraced, guessed and doubted each other, and smiled and cried······ Some people scatter while walking, some things fade when they look at it, how much unhappiness no one can understand, how much helplessness there is······ Some people forget when they think about it, and some people wake up after dreaming, only to realize that I was too naïve in the past, but the reality is so cruel" ("Walking and Walking")

"Farewell, Haoran, I'm sorry for you, I really can't leave my parents, I wish you all the best in life. ”

On the day Min Haoran left three years ago, Zhao Ruyan had made up her mind, rushed to the train station, and watched Min Haoran step on the train, following the train all the way and waving her hands, tears like rain.

A person's life is so calmly forced, and the plump ideal is like a mirror, unable to resist the bone sense of reality, and unable to escape the desolation of the overlord's farewell concubine.

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"Okay, you bear Zhihao, are you still human? I'm going to rip off your bear skin today. ”

Min Haoran had lost his mind and rushed out of the factory in a rage.

"Haoran, don't, it's none of his business, don't go to him. Zhao Ruyan hugged her daughter and chased her out and shouted.

Min Haoran was angry, where could he hear Zhao Ruyan's crying.

Xiong Zhihao and a group of people were decorating their house, but they didn't expect Min Haoran to suddenly appear.

This is how to build houses in rural areas in the south, with a little spare money to do a little.

Xiong Zhihao's house has already been built, but when he saw that the exterior wall of other people's houses was tiled, he also picked up the exterior wall of his house and redecorated it with tiles, and this house precipitated his endless thoughts and thoughts about Zhao Ruyan.

Zhao Ruyan's marriage shattered his last illusion, all thoughts were lonely, and he had no intention of remarrying, Xiong Zhihao just wanted to be lonely for the rest of his life.

Seeing Xiong Zhihao, Min Haoran went up and grabbed Xiong Zhihao's collar and pushed it forward, and the defenseless Xiong Zhihao fell on his back.

"You bear dog, you obviously know the relationship between me and Ru Yan, and you are still inserting a lever in it, taking advantage of my absence Ru Yan, you are still not human, yes-no--yes--human. ”

Min Haoran gritted his teeth and could cut off the steel bar, and his fist rained down on Xiong Zhihao's head.

"You madman, what are you talking about?"

Xiong Zhihao blocked left and right to intercept Min Haoran's fist rain, and finally struggled to stand up from the ground.

"What did I say? You still pretend to be confused for me, you and Ru Yan are married, and you both have children. And I'm still in the dark, you took advantage of my absence to harass Ru Yan, didn't you? bullied Ru Yan yes-no-yes?" Min Haoran hissed and roared.

"What nonsense are you talking about, when did I marry Ru Yan? I want to marry her, and I swear that I won't marry her, but is she willing? Why didn't you let her go and give her to me? If she married me, she wouldn't be so tired today. ”

Xiong Zhihao's second monk was confused, looked at Min Haoran in confusion, and wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with his hand.

"What's going on, what the hell is going on, and who is Ru Yan's child?"

Min Haoran was stunned by Xiong Zhihao's words, who else can Zhao Ruyan marry?

"After you left, I thought I had hope of getting Ru Yan's heart, I chased her with a dead face, coaxed him, pestered him, and almost didn't die in front of her, but, alas, ....." Xiong Zhihao squatted down sadly, lamenting.

"But what?" Min Haoran looked at Xiong Zhihao in confusion.

"But no matter what I did, she wouldn't accept me. Not long after you left, she got married to a rich man with a big belly. ”

Xiong Zhihao's eyes were full of helpless despair.

But that man was not good to her, with a few stinky money, he was away from home all day, and he often beat and scolded Ru Yan. Xiong Zhihao gritted his teeth.

Because she gave birth to a girl, the family was even more cold to Ru Yan, who divorced a year ago and moved out with her daughter to live in her own factory. ”

"Later, I went to her again, I didn't dislike her, I still wanted to marry her, but she was so cold and resolute that she didn't agree."

Xiong Zhihao finished speaking in one breath, squatted there and cried intermittently.

"Tell me, who is it, who spoiled Ru Yan, tell me. ”

Min Haoran picked Xiong Zhihao up from the ground, his eyes full of anger.

"Haoran, forget it, everyone has their own fate, I have counted it all, I also swore that I would not marry Ruyan, but she did become someone else's wife. ”

Xiong Zhihao's eyes were indifferent, and he felt guilty for not protecting Zhao Ruyan well, and his snot flowed down.

"No, I'm going to find the settling account of the dog's day, if he bullied Ru Yan and forced Ru Yan to marry him, I will take his dog's life. Min Haoran roared.

"Okay, I'll go with you, and I'll settle the old and new accounts together. Xiong Zhihao picked up a hoe in front of the house.

Xiong Zhihao is small and thin, but he is not a loser, and he has to a big guy every time he fights.

Zhao Ruyan's husband Scareye has coveted Zhao Ruyan for a long time, and he didn't give up when he bullied Zhao Ruyan with cross-eyed last time, and harassed and curried Zhao Ruyan from time to time when Xiong Zhihao was away, but he was afraid of Xiong Zhihao and didn't dare to do anything out of the ordinary.

I don't know where he and Cross-Eyed learned the skills of the old man, and they actually made a fortune by playing cards, and they didn't do anything wrong in the village anymore.

He and Dou Cross-Eye usually go to other places and provincial cities to play with their bosses, and they can win dozens or millions at a time.

Scar-Eye is lustful, spends all day drinking when he wins money outside, and rarely goes home.

Once Lao Qian was discovered, the two were beaten half to death, Scareye was beaten into a cripple, and he didn't dare to go out to play anymore, so he returned to the countryside to claim the king, and no one dared to provoke.

Later, he became notorious, and after divorcing Zhao Ruyan, he invited cross-eyed to go to the county town to mix with society.

Therefore, Min Haoran and Xiong Zhihao pounced.

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Min Haoran walked back dejectedly.

The death of his grandmother brought infinite pain to Min Haoran's heart.

He never imagined that after only three years of leaving, that healthy, charitable, and kind dear relative would be separated by yin and yang.

What made her even more uncomfortable was that Zhao Ruyan, who loved so persistently and had a mountain alliance and sea vow, also became so ruthless.

"Pedestrians rush by on the road, and no one looks back. I'm just a stranger walking down the street in tears...... I understand why the heartache has become strange, love is like life can't be repeated, I understand these truths, but how can I let go of it. Now I am just a stranger to you, and when you see me walking in the rain, you will not be heartbroken for me anymore ......" ("Once Heartache")

Let it be, feelings can't be forced.

The real go with the flow is not inaction, but not to do what you can.

Zhao Ruyan already has her own destiny, maybe this is the destiny of heaven, the destiny of heaven cannot be violated, no matter how hard she tries, not only will she not be able to win Zhao Ruyan's heart, but it will hurt her, and she will only be blessed with blessings.

She has her suffering, she has her helplessness, so she misses her, half in the dust, half in the air.

A big part of growing up is accepting, accepting parting ways, accepting the impermanence of the world.