Or do you want Yu Xiang to know about the things she used to do, she should find a way to hide these things, and then wait until Tao Jingjing wakes up, let her make a decision, whether to let Yu Xiang know these things, but he really didn't know what was wrong, he should have never regarded Yu Xiang as an outsider, and directly regarded him as a member of the familyAt that time, I originally wanted to treat my granddaughter as the person I could rely on, but my granddaughter at that time couldn't bring anything to herself except for endless trouble.

Tao Jingjing looked at Tao Zhongming's eagerness to explain, and felt that Tao Zhongming might have misunderstood herself, thinking that she blamed him for leaking the matter, and it was Yu Xiang, but Tao Jingjing knew that she didn't care who told Yu Xiang at all, or that Yu Xiang knew about the fact that she knew about it, but felt that her pregnancy was her own decision. Even if there were no accidents, I might not have had that child, after all, all the things at that time, all the circumstances did not allow me to have that child, but I didn't want everyone to sympathize with me because of this incident, sympathize with my own experience, and my own emotional experience. This is the last thing Tao Jingjing wants them to know that they have been pregnant and have a miscarriage. Especially Yu Xiang's character, for so many years, from childhood to adulthood between them, no matter what happens, Yu Xiang's first thought is always her and Ziyu, if he knew about the original thing, he must have felt that Xiao Xiche had bullied him, and there was a lot of time later, he was always worried about what decision Yu Xiang would make, and sympathized with his decision, so she didn't say anything about this matter, no one told herself, and she took it alone, after all, it was her own decision. But I feel that no matter whether it is good or bad, this matter is the most direct farewell to your relationship when I was young. She doesn't want to hurt the people around her for other reasons, and let the people around her sympathize with her.

"Grandpa, you don't have to apologize. I know everything you say, and I understand everything you say. I didn't tell you the first time that I was pregnant, but when I found out that I was pregnant, I was already in the United States, and at that time I was eager to find Xiao Xiche for a clear answer, maybe I was too young, or too stubborn, I always thought that the vows that Xiao Xiche once said were true, and he couldn't do anything sorry for me, and it was impossible for him to do things that were sorry for my father. So I naively thought that he was forced to do it, and when he left, I would chase after him, and as long as he dared to tell me that he didn't do it or that someone else forced him, I would definitely believe it. ”

But what do I believe? I believe in a good relationship, such a loving relationship between my father and mother, my mother actually cheated in front of me, and called that person's husband in front of me. Then I introduced Xiao Zixin, saying that it was her daughter, you said that the world is ridiculous, I used to think I knew the world, but then I found out that I didn't know the world at all, and I didn't understand the so-called adult world in this world at all, and Xiao Xiche, I trusted the most in the United States, all my trust was given to this person, and when I needed someone to support me the most, I told me that this world is not what I see, it is just an example, where is he? He was hugging someone else and laughing at the trouble I, a stubborn person, had caused him. That child actually came at a bad time, if it was just Xiao Xiche's betrayal, I might give birth to this child, even you and Dad can't understand me, but I also know that this child is a living life, and I have no right to kill him from seeing this world, but ......"

Tao Jingjing thought about her hesitant appearance standing at the door of the pharmacy, she was really hesitant, she really thought that she had no right to make this decision, and at that moment, he was also ready to meet all kinds of turmoil in the future, but he was prepared, but others did not give him a chance to face all this.

"I was already going to the pharmacy to buy medicine, everyone stood at the door of the pharmacy, I really hesitated, as I just said, I have no right to strangle the right of my belly to see the world, at this moment I also know that I am a mother, this child, he is in my belly, I can feel his existence. But no one else can feel his presence, and no one else cares what I think, what I decide. ”

Remembering that she was sitting alone in the lobby of the hotel, holding her stomach in pain, and asking for help from the people who walked by, no one helped herself, no one helped call an ambulance, that kind of despair was Tao Jingjing's life except for the death of her father, she never felt the feeling she had ever felt in her life, she felt the life passing away from her stomach little by little, feeling that a life was so far away from herself, feeling that the child she had never seen was far away from herself, at this moment, Tao Jingjing hated Xiao Xiche extremely much, hated the person who gave herself hope, but beat herself into hell fiercely, especially hated himself, hated his own incompetence, hated his obsession, hated all his own, all ......

Tao Zhongming actually looked at Tao Jingjing, looking at her expressionless as if talking about other people's experiences, but he knew that he knew that this granddaughter was extremely painful at this moment, but he couldn't do anything about it, and he couldn't help her at all. Many times, Tao Zhongming is thinking that his granddaughter has always loved him all day long, no matter when he was a child, he always thinks that the granddaughter he loves the most is this granddaughter, but when many granddaughters need him most, he is not around, and he will even do something to hurt his granddaughter, so it seems that he loves his granddaughter or is he just talking, Tao Zhongming himself doubts. This one he wanted to know very much, during that period in the United States, what she had experienced, and what she had faced, she had been thinking that after returning to China, the whole person was not in the right state, plus her father died, the whole person seemed to have lost her soul, was it that moment? She was experiencing the saddest moment of her life for the first time, and she was like an outsider, looking at other people's things and saying the most heartbreaking things to her? At this moment, Tao Zhongming wanted to ask Tao Jingjing, where are the people who hurt her in the past and those who hurt her in the past? I really want to go back to four years ago, back to when my granddaughter planned to go to the United States, or even back to eight years ago, when she was in college, if possible, he would definitely refuse his granddaughter's decision to go to college in college, if possible, before going to college, he would introduce a good boyfriend to his granddaughter, Yu Xiang, any other boy, even if she was in high school early love, junior high school early love doesn't matter, as long as he doesn't meet Xiao Xiche when he goes to college, he doesn't meet Xiao Zixin, even if he has to face the collapse of her father's company and the situation of things happening in the family, Tao Zhongming thinks that as long as it is not the harm brought to her by the closest people around her, no matter what happens, he is willing. But the truth is that I can't change anything, and I can't affect any decisions my granddaughter has made. So now he regrets it, and he hates his most incompetent self.

"The flowers are all gone, all the flowers are gone, all are gone. ”

Tao Zhongming felt that now except to tell Tao Jingjing, now that everything has passed, he doesn't know what else to tell her, tell her anything, and he doesn't have the courage to hurt her at once.

"Yes, it's all gone, it's all gone, and I think that child may not have belonged to me in the first place, which is why he left me so eagerly. But it's okay to leave, if he doesn't leave, maybe I'll have to do it myself later, and maybe I can't accept it at that time. ”

Tao Jingjing said with a miserable smile, really, she was afraid that she would make that decision, here when she knew that she was pregnant, she thought about this child, he was a life, and she had no right to decide everything about her, since she came to her side, she must take good care of him, but if everything happened like this, really, Tao Jingjing felt that she could really break her true thoughts, and then she would give up the child in person after all, but it was okay.

Later, later, Tao Zhongming never asked Tao Jingjing anything about the child, even if he wanted to know, he never took the initiative to ask Tao Jingjing, about the things that had lost the child, why a good child would be lost, all of this, Tao Zhongming didn't ask, it seemed like he knew about someone else's miscarriage, and it had nothing to do with himself. But they both know each other, Tao Zhongming also knows that Tao Jingjing also knows that this matter is like a fish thorn, inserted in each other's throats, and every time they go to swallow, they have a tingling sensation, but they can't pull it out.

That year's New Year, for Tao Jingjing, it can't be said to be the most painful, after all, the most painful thing has already passed, but it is the most lonely, there is a child in the evening, but compared with previous years, there are more sounds at home.

But coldness, this feeling is not just because there are all kinds of voices in the house, but this feeling from the heart, which makes people feel extremely cold.