In the middle of summer in June, at seven o'clock in the afternoon, night fell lazily. The vermilion sunset on the horizon tore a crack in the clouds, like the last trace of unwillingness in the dusk. Of course, it's like me lying on the railing on the fourth floor at the moment, blowing the evening breeze.

The night came as scheduled, and no matter how beautiful the dusk was, it was finally over.

This was my last night in college, and it was also the end of my two years of entrepreneurship at school. Forget it, using the word "end" to describe it still seems too self-deceptive, to be precise, it is "ending in failure". After graduation, the people of the team have their own choices, walking, working, and going to graduate school, and they are scattered...... The studio founded by one hand was officially closed, and people left to cool down.

It's a coincidence, as if everything is coming together one by one, and I can't wait to finish.

I leaned on the railing and looked at the starry night sky, and suddenly I felt that I was a failure, and when graduation was approaching, everyone had their own plans, either to go to graduate school, or to get offe

。 And I, after tossing for two years, not only didn't make a name for myself, but also fell behind in my studies, even if I wanted to go to graduate school, I was powerless. Maybe I was too confident at the beginning, thinking that everything was under my control, so I lost so badly in the end.

After a moment of suffocation, I took a cigarette from my pocket and lit it, and shifted my gaze from the night sky to the downstairs, and for a moment I had the idea of jumping into it. However, just thinking about it, I haven't fallen to this extent......

"Cheng Ting, what are you doing outside, everyone is waiting for you, hurry in and drink!" Li Sen opened the door of the dormitory and shouted to me from the door. In addition to being a roommate and a partner in my studio, he doesn't seem to think as much as I do at the moment, I don't know if it's because he's unusually optimistic, or if he's hiding his emotions too deeply.

As soon as I entered, I saw that the five of them were already having a good time. At this moment, whether you smoke or not, you have a cigarette in your mouth, a beer bottle in your left hand, and a coloring cup skillfully in your right hand. Also, it's the last night of school, and if it's not crazy at this time, when will it be?

"Seven six, Zhai!" Hu You shouted with his eyes open, seemingly domineering, but in fact he was very panicked.

"Hu You, you don't come to fool people, I'll be respectful first!" As he spoke, Qi Min pushed his glasses with the middle finger of his right hand.

"Ouch, I'll go, four more glasses, don't play, don't drink, let's chat, cherish time is the most important thing, right?" Hu You said to us as he shifted the subject, then leaned back in his chair and looked at the numbers on the wall a little weakly, he already owed 16 glasses of wine, but the night had just begun......

Jiang Weiguo spoke at this time: "Then let's not play for now, it's the last night, let's eat this 'loose meal', and tomorrow, everyone should go on their own roads!"

Zhao Yihang glanced at Jiang Weiguo with contempt, looked at him a little speechless and said, "Why does your words sound weird, it seems like we have finished this meal and will have to go to the execution ground tomorrow." ”

"Haha, come, let's have a drink together, and then let's eat!"

"Don't forget each other. Cheers!!"

......

On this night, everyone drank and lay down, everyone's emotions and thousands of words were hidden in the wine, and the mess after the carnival in the dormitory seemed to be the greatest "respect" on the occasion of graduation. I STILL REMEMBER THAT NIGHT, AFTER DRINKING, JIANG WEIGUO RECITED THE CLASSIC LINES OF SHAKESPEARE'S "HAMLET": "TO BE OR NOT TO BE!"; UNTIL THE END, HU YOU DIDN'T FINISH THE 16 GLASSES OF WINE THAT WERE WRITTEN ON THE WALL; ZHAO YIHANG SCOLDED US FOR WASTING RESOURCES, AND DIDN'T FINISH THE WINE HE BROUGHT FROM HOME FOR THE NTH TIME...... Every scene is frozen in our respective memories.

At noon the next day, I was woken up by an annoying ringing phone, and the moment I picked up the phone, I had a splitting headache, and I asked weakly, "Hey, who?"

"I, Su Jing, come out for a while, I have something to say to you, waiting for you at the door of the library. She hung up the phone.

The low tone of my voice woke me up suddenly, and I lifted the quilt and got up, only to see that the dormitory was long gone, and the mess of last night was long gone, and it was cleaned up. I noticed a post-it note on the door of the dormitory, which read: "Brothers, the coming day is long, we will see you in the rivers and lakes! Remember: do not seek to be poor in the same year, the same month, and the same day, but to be rich in the same year, the same month, and the same day! Take the first step, farewell!"

There is also a note written in the lower right corner of the post-it note, saying that it is the last person to sign and leave, and put the post-it note away as a souvenir. Seeing that the names of Jiang Weiguo and Zhao Yihang had already been written on it, I smiled, opened the door and went out.

On the way to the library, I had a feeling of uneasiness in my heart, this is the third day of my cold war with Su Jing, and I happened to choose to take the initiative to find me on the day I graduated and left school, is it... Is she going to break up with me?

With a nervous mood, I finally arrived at the library, and at a glance I saw Su Jing wearing a ponytail, a pure white top and blue jeans, and she also happened to see me and walked towards me.

I know it's time for Su Jing and I to have a good talk. She wanted me to go to graduate school with her, and I was only thinking about starting a business, and faced with different choices, we had an argument and had a cold war for three days.

"Cheng Ting, it's the last day, how long are you going to have a cold war with me?" Su Jing said to me first.

After being silent for a while, I replied in a hoarse voice: "You know, my mind is not here, besides, for the sake of my career, I have fallen too far behind in my studies, and it is impossible to pass the graduate school entrance examination." ”

Su Jing's expression was unusually calm, as if what I said was expected by her. She smiled lightly and said to me: "Maybe this is the difference between us, Cheng Ting, you know what my family situation is, I have to make myself stronger and stronger in order to change the situation in my family." Going to graduate school is the most suitable way out for me now, can you understand me?"

"So, are you going to break up with me?" I smiled bitterly and said in a low voice, but then suddenly raised my head to look at her, and continued a little incoherently: "It, actually, Su Jing, you can think about it from another angle, you continue to study, I work hard, the two are not in conflict." My studio is developing very well, and I have already negotiated with the team to plan to go to Guangzhou for development, so the opportunities will be greater. I'll make good money, and then I'll pay you for your tuition, so it's not ......"

Suddenly, Su Jing came closer to me, with tears in her eyes, hugged me tightly, and said to me with a chuckle: "Silly, when did I say I was going to break up with you... Cheng Ting, I don't need you to do so much for me, I just want you to support my choice, that's enough. ”

I also raised my hands and hugged her tightly, happy but also worried, because I lied to Su Jing, she didn't know that my studio was gone...... But it doesn't matter, as long as I mix well, I can still give her a sense of security, right?

After hugging me for a while, Su Jing let go of me, wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes, and asked, "Then when do you plan to go to Guangzhou?"

Actually, my original plan was to leave by high-speed train this afternoon, but I couldn't bear to leave as soon as I reconciled with Su Jing, and it wouldn't be a bad day.

"Tomorrow. I said.

I looked at her and said, "Don't worry, I will come back to school often to accompany you." ”

She smiled like a flower, nodded vigorously and said, "Hmm!"

......

That afternoon, I didn't do anything else, but accompanied Su Jing the whole time. We walked slowly around the school, counting the bits and pieces that had happened in the school in the past few years. Later, we also went to the snack bar near the school to savor the familiar taste.

It wasn't until the evening that I was briefly separated from Su Jing. I went back to the dormitory to pack my luggage, while Su Jing went to the hotel near the school to open a room. Because today is the last day of staying on campus, all dormitories need to be cleared, unless you are staying in school for graduate school entrance examination and those who apply to stay in school in advance, you can continue to live. I originally thought that I would leave today, so naturally I didn't write an application in advance.

When I returned to the familiar 405 dormitory, I opened the door to find that everyone had already left, and all the beds were empty, leaving only my own things, which were coldly arranged. I simply sat on the ground, lit a cigarette, and couldn't help but ask myself: Four years have passed like this, but what have I gained and lost in all these years? Like most people, whenever one stage alternates with another, people always ask themselves about their gains and losses, but what can they do if they know? Gains and losses themselves coexist with each other, depending on what they think.

The brief contemplation ended with the cigarette butt between my fingers and the ashes falling from the ashes. I stood up and threw my things into my suitcase one by one, and the sound I made as I packed my things echoed in the dormitory, signaling that I was about to leave here.

After packing my luggage, I glanced at the post-it note on the door, and only my name was missing. With a chuckle, he signed his name, put the post-it note in his bag, and left the place where I had lived for four years without looking back.

After more than ten minutes, I finally arrived at the hotel with my heavy suitcase. Pushing open the door, Su Jing was sitting on the edge of the bed eating ice cream, she looked at me and smiled, and there was milky white ice cream at the corner of her mouth.

"In this weather, walking down the street with your luggage is no different from carrying a stove on your back. Sweating, I said breathlessly.

"You can rest for a while, do you want to eat ice cream?" Su Jing smiled like a little girl and handed me the ice cream in her hand.

"Hmm....... Then I'll take a bite!" I walked over with bad intentions, picked up the ice cream and took a big bite, leaving only the bottom little bit of crispy crust.

She pouted and said to me with a crying voice: "Hey, didn't you say that you would only eat one bite!"

"That's different, your bite can't be compared to mine. I said jokingly.

Su Jing and I were arguing in this small room for a while, and then I waved my hand, indicating that I was too tired and planned to take a shower first.

As I looked up and let the water from the shower wash freely, the bathroom door was pushed open and she hugged me from behind.

Under the white weaving lamp, the shadows intertwined in the shower, and the sweetness of ice cream still lingered in the lips. At that moment, suddenly all the emptiness, unwillingness, and reluctance in my heart seemed to be released, and all of them were washed away with the flowing water, and the sound of panting breathing mixed with the sound of water penetrated the surroundings of the small space.

After melting away the mixed emotions, I gradually calmed down, and by now she was already asleep. I pulled a pack of cigarettes out of my backpack and pushed open the doors of the floor-to-ceiling windows, admiring the view of my last night in D-City while also smoking the last cigarette of the night.

The smoke in my mouth slowly spit out, and the broken tobacco threads seemed to be my constant feelings for the city. The short departure was so that I could have a better version of myself in front of her, and I knew that I would definitely come back.

Because of this city, and she's there.

......

At noon the next day, Su Jing finally followed me to the high-speed rail station and insisted on coming to see me off. Before going through the security check, Su Jing and I went to the KFC next to us to wait, just to buy some dry food to take on the high-speed rail, and after shopping, the radio outside finally reminded the passengers to go through the security check. I know, it's time to go.

Su Jing stood opposite me, stretched out her hand and touched my lower handle, and said, "You forgot to shave your beard again, remember to shave your beard in the future, so that you can look energetic." As she spoke, her eyes slowly turned red.

I took her into my arms and whispered, "yes, I see. ”

After hugging for a while, Su Jing choked up in my ear and said, "The car is coming, let's go." With that, she left my embrace, and quickly turned her back to me, the back of her other hand covering her mouth, for fear of crying.

I felt very uncomfortable, but parting was inevitable, so I had to say in a low voice, "Wait for me to come back." After saying that, he resolutely turned to leave, and the moment I pushed the door open, KFC happened to play the song "Dust in the Fireworks":

"Watching the flying dust fall, no one realizes how free it is, but the world loves to be lively, and I can't tolerate boredom. It shouldn't be, a person in a daze......"

In this sunny afternoon, I don't know whether it is sweat or tears flowing from the corners of my eyes, and every back who resolutely leaves hides unknown hardships and helplessness.

......

A few hours later, I finally got off the high-speed train, and as soon as I got off the train, I saw a crowd of people. Guangzhou, a bustling city, has such a large flow of people at any time.

"Lend it!" a man in a black cap struck me from behind and hurried away.

I turned my head a little dissatisfied, and was about to speak, but he had already disappeared into the crowd.

"What kind of person, hit someone and ran away. After muttering a few words, I planned to report Su Jing's safety, but I rummaged in my pocket for a long time and didn't find my phone, and then I realized that my phone was stolen by the man who had just hit me.

"!" I leaned weakly against the wall, and if something like this happened, it would be a retribution. Police, it is estimated that it will not help, this is like looking for a needle in a haystack, I can only admit it, blaming myself for being unlucky. After a while, I thought of something, so I quickly opened my backpack and looked at it - fortunately, the wallet was still there. I breathed a sigh of relief, which was a blessing in misfortune! After a while, I carried my luggage into the subway station.

In the subway, I looked at the people outside the subway in confusion, this is destined to be a city that makes people rush and work. However, I was bitter. Forced to work hard for life, this is just the beginning......