Gu Qiao didn't know how to describe the feeling at that moment, Yin Man had been her admiration for a long time, she thought that the competition between them was frank, but now...

For a long time, she did not speak.

Perhaps because he couldn't stand such a suffocating atmosphere, Yin Man raised his head, and his pale face was full of annoyance.

"Say, whatever you want. ”

Gu Qiao looked down at her, his expression was very indifferent.

"I don't have much to say, I just think you're a little pathetic. ”

Yin Man was a little suspicious of his ears, and suddenly felt very humiliated, and immediately behaved like a cat whose tail had been stepped on.

"Pathetic?"

She felt ridiculous and humiliated, Gu Qiao, a rustic country girl actually dared to pity her?

"I thought you'd love competing in the ring, but what about you... This is really not right. ”

"You don't know anything, just talk nonsense here, less self-righteousness!"

"Self-righteous?"

As if hearing something funny, Gu Qiao laughed.

"You're talking about yourself. Yin Man, I am no longer the same person I used to be, but you still seem to be immersed in the past. ”

After saying that, she returned to the runway to continue training, and the people around her were stunned by such a change, and they didn't know what to do for a while, until Gu Qiao left, and everyone continued to train.

The crowd quickly dispersed, and Yin Man was alone at the training ground of Nuoda at the moment.

The empty stadium magnifies the slightest movement.

Yin Man suddenly felt very weak, his legs even lost the strength to stand up, his arms wrapped around him, and he sobbed quietly.

She no longer had the courage to step into the dressing room, a sympathetic eye would kill, and she would rather be scolded than see that star.

didn't even change his clothes, with red and swollen eyes, Yin Man went home directly.

Seeing her daughter who came back early, Yang Yili uncharacteristically did not immediately greet her, but hurriedly put away all the medicines on the table.

"Mom, are you sick?"

"Ahh Oh... Nothing. ”

As she spoke, she put the medicine bottles on the table into her bag one by one, and her concealed behavior made people even more confused.

Yin Man had a bad premonition, she strode forward, snatched the medicine from Yang Yili's hand, and when she read the words on it, she was stunned in place.

Dihydrotestosterone.

This term, which only appears in anti-doping classes, is now in front of her eyes.

She is an athlete, so she is naturally no stranger to these things, thinking of her recent achievements by leaps and bounds, what else does Yin Man not understand at this moment?

Doubt, anger, incomprehension, all kinds of complex emotions are intertwined, and too many questions are only turned into three words.

"Why!?"

Yang Yili was frightened by Yin Man's violent reaction, and froze in place, stumbling.

"Manman, my mother has asked someone, this medicine is a common thing in the sports circle. If it can be detected, it is stimulant, and if it cannot be detected, it is high-tech. A lot of athletes are eating it, you don't need to use this stuff for others, and when the time comes, you will be dumbfounded. Manman, Mom... Mom is here for your good. These drugs won't be found out, really, you see that your race is not all going well, this is all your performance, mom is just..."

Yin Man was about to go crazy, and she threw the medicine on Yang Yili in a hurry.

"Don't say it, I don't need it!"

Home is no longer a haven where she can shelter from the wind, she never thought that the complacent results some time ago were actually exchanged in such a way, Yin Man took a few steps back, turned around and ran out of the house.

The sun was about to set, casting a warm glow on the horizon, soft and faint.

He Haocheng, who is now doing the training plan, suddenly received a phone call, pressed the phone, he closed his eyes slightly, the temples on both sides jumped wildly, he reached out and rubbed his brows, looked around with a solemn expression, slapped his hands a few times, and summoned all the scattered players on the training ground.

"Yin Man ran away from home, which of you has a better relationship with her, do you know where she might go?"

The silence of everyone is the best answer, He Haocheng waved his hand.

"Okay, that's all for today's training, let's go back and rest, if there is any news from Yin Man, notify me in time." ”

After speaking, He Haocheng picked up the car keys and hurriedly drove to find Yin Man.

From the coach's anxious demeanor and tone, he realized the seriousness of the matter, the players looked at each other, you look at me, I looked at you, and finally followed out to find Yin Man with great tacit understanding, but a full hour passed, and a group of people still found nothing.

Hu Yue was tired and panted, and kicked the garbage can on the side of the road in frustration.

"I knew that the eldest lady had such a big temper, so I didn't speak so directly. ”

Gu Qiao stood beside her, looking around, her brain was running wildly, trying to find out every picture of contact with Yin Man, to see if there were any possible clues, the lights in the distance lit up, swept over her figure, and projected a delicate silhouette on the ground, Gu Qiao slapped his head suddenly.

"Sister Yue, I want to find a place, but I'm not sure yet. You take a break here for a while, and I'll go and see if there's anything to call us. ”

After saying that, he rushed out.

The place Gu Qiao said was an extremely high corner tower in the southeast of the training base, which was very old, who didn't know the real function of this corner tower, which was used as a warehouse for abandoned training equipment, and few people went there, but Gu Qiao had seen Yin Man climb to the roof of the corner tower alone more than once.

Climbing up the dark staircase, the rotating design made it impossible to tell how many floors they had reached, until a door full of rust blocked the way, Gu Qiao stretched out his hand and pushed it open, and sure enough, Yin Man's figure was found on the rooftop.

Gu Qiao slowly approached with small steps, his voice as gentle as possible.

"Yin Man. ”

The person in front of him was shocked, and when he turned around, a face full of anger and anxiety was indeed Yin Man.

Gu Qiao put down the heart he was carrying, took out the phone, and secretly sent a text message to Hu Yue.

After all the intense, emotional release, Yin Man was shrouded in a faint sense of tiredness, at this moment she no longer had the extra strength to quarrel with anyone, but could talk to Gu Qiao in a calm tone.

"What are you doing here?"

"You disappeared all of a sudden, everybody was worried, and now your family, your coach, and all of us are looking for you. ”

"Yes, but I don't want to go back, you can go, just don't see me. ”

Gu Qiao chuckled.

"What are you laughing at. ”

"Yin Man, it's been nearly two years since I came to our provincial team, and this seems to be your first time, so you look at me carefully. ”

Yin Man was stunned for a few seconds, and it took half a day to retract the gaze that was glued to Gu Qiao's body, and she suddenly felt a sense of trance, as if everything in the world had changed in one day, and everyone was no longer the same as before.

She didn't know what was wrong with her, perhaps, at the moment, she didn't care who she was talking to, she just needed someone who could talk to her.

"We're each other, I'm really fine, I'm just... I just suddenly felt..."

"It's boring. ”

Seeing Gu Qiao take the first step to say what she was thinking, Yin Man was a little surprised, she had never met someone like Gu Qiao, who was so sensitive to every change around her, who could feel all her feelings and all her emotions.

"You... How do you know?"

Gu Qiao chuckled and didn't answer, but squatted down and sat on the edge of the rooftop like Yin Man.

She thought that if Yin Man was like herself, she would naturally be able to easily understand the mood of others since she was a child.

"Yes, it's really boring, sometimes I practice by myself and think, what do I do so hard to practice, I can't make much money, I'm tired and kill time, why do I have to practice, the pressure is too great, these invisible pressures are always accumulating, more and more, deeper and deeper, when they accumulate to a certain extent, they eventually accumulate into a time bomb. How can I be happy when I live with a time bomb? You know, the moment the gun went off, I ran away, but it was very successful, I tried my best, but you quickly caught up, I told myself, don't worry, Yin Man, you have no reason to lose. But you're still ahead of me, and when I catch up with you, the only thing I think about is, fall, this person in front of me, fall. I hate myself so much, and I actually rely on you to win the championship. ”

Realizing that the source of all failures is oneself and cannot be blamed on others is actually an extremely painful thing, and Yin Man has to face his mistakes at this time.

She turned her head to look at Gu Qiao and slowly shook her head.

"The winner won't understand that feeling. ”

Gu Qiao chuckled, she didn't refute Yin Man's words.

But in fact, she understands this feeling better than anyone else in this world, the feeling of powerlessness that fate is not in her own hands, but in the hands of others, and she will never forget it for the rest of her life.

She can completely understand Yin Man's mood at the moment, but Gu Qiao is really not a girl who is good at enlightening people, racking her brains, thinking about it for a long time, she still feels that she will give what He Haocheng said to Yin Man.

"Do you remember the time when I was training frantically? The coach scolded me severely, and he told me that the most difficult thing for people is not to recognize their mistakes or shortcomings, but to take action to correct them. Because once you do it, it means that you admit your inadequacy and weakness to some extent, and that's the most unacceptable. However, Yin Man, you have never been a weak person in my eyes. ”

Yin Man turned his head to look at her, and continued to speak softly with a slightly nasal voice.

"I'm not qualified to be weak. When I was a child, everyone said that I was very talented, it was a waste not to practice track and field, I was specially recruited to the provincial team, for so many years, the people in the team came and went, no one will let you because you are young, I have to face a lot of things alone, no friends, all people are competitors, and I can't relax for a moment. It's an atmosphere I've been experiencing since I was 7 years old, and I've never had a breather in between. But in the 100-meter event, no one is better than me, I thought I would run all the way as the first place, but you showed up. Your appearance made me see clearly that the talent I have always been proud of is nothing more than that, and what is even more ridiculous is that I only found out today that I realized that the improvement of my grades actually relied on doping, my mother... My mom she's hiding it from me..."

She didn't continue to say the rest of the words, but Gu Qiao already understood, perhaps, for a proud person, this is the most fatal blow.