Chapter Forty-Eight: Growth and Alienation......
Looking at the girl looking down at the book across the table, my heart was a little blocked......
Today, instead of sitting next to me, he sat across the table......
Except for talking to me when teaching me to do questions, the rest of the time he is looking down at a book......
I can't understand the book I read......
Looking at Dali's mouth without lipstick, I took a deep breath......
"Vigorous...... Last night...... I looked into ......"
There was no reaction from Vigor...... I still look down at books, and from time to time I write and draw......
"Chen Meijia helped Guan Gu tidy up his room last night...... Teacher Zeng and Sister Yifei misunderstood...... What's that...... You know what I mean......"
The pen in Dali's hand paused and looked up at me......
Dali's expression looked calm......
"Hmm...... That's good. ”
"And what...... Meijia: I know ...... Familiar...... But there's really nothing else between me and her......"
He looked me in the eye and nodded......
"Hmm...... I see."
"So you see...... It was a big oolong last night...... Don't be angry......"
Shook his head vigorously......
"Li Fan, have you been under a lot of pressure lately. ”
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Why did Dali suddenly ask about this??
"Stress...... A little bit of it......"
The pressure of the college entrance examination...... The Stress of the Resurrection...... There is also emotional pressure......
"I heard that someone kicked in the door last night and yelled at a girl, do you think this way of handling things is appropriate? ”
“...... Dali, there were too many things that happened last night, and everything was related to Chen Meijia...... I was really angry...... I've also calmed down...... Later on, I also figured things out......"
I kept my head down......
"In fact, I am also responsible for what happened last night...... I entered the misunderstanding of thinking because of the conjecture that Sister Yifei and Mr. Zeng had no tangible evidence, and said something very unnecessary to you, I thought about it for a long time last night, and I felt that there was indeed something wrong, and now I heard you say it, I understand, and restore the incident in time, which you did very well. ”
Vigorously smiled at me, his slightly reddened eyes blinking......
I'm a little distressed......
"But I still want you to know that you did make your mistake last night. We are still in an experimental relationship, and during this time, I hope that we can be better for each other and improve our happiness in the future, so we must face the mistakes we have made and correct them. You've been under more pressure lately than everyone else, I can feel it, I understand your impulsiveness, and I apologize to you for my irrationality last night. ”
What a nice girl......
How many people's girlfriends make trouble when they encounter relationship problems, parting with life and death, crying, making trouble and hanging themselves......
Calm down with each other like vigorously and summarize it well......
I nodded......
"I was a little impulsive last night......"
"Of course...... Aside from some things, I'm still happy, at least still...... I see you angry because of me. ”
Vigorously brushed the hair around his ear...... Smiled slightly......
It's still so good-looking......
"Li Fan, I am seventeen years old, you are nineteen years old, we are still young, we are all lacking in social experience, we are actually flowers in the greenhouse at present, I hope we can experience some wind and rain together, and grow more. You have to become more able to control your emotions so that you can become a secure man, and I also need to learn more about how to be a qualified girlfriend, just like we work hard at the same table today, for the future to be better, is the ultimate goal of our experimental relationship. ”
Dali smiled at me......
"Hmm...... So to put it that way...... Vigorously you're not angry......"
"No, to be precise, I'm not angry right now, I'm confused. ”
He took a deep breath and put away his smile......
"Wonder about what?"
I'm a little confused......
Li Fan...... When I asked you one last question last night, you hesitated for a long time. ”
I was choking......
Dali lowered his head again......
"Li Fan, as far as matters are concerned, I think we have been ...... recently Let's keep some distance. ”
I was a little surprised......
"Why, vigorously...... Aren't all the oolongs from last night untied......"
"But I don't think your eyes gave me an oolong!"
Energetic was a little emotional......
"Meijia's matter, my misunderstanding, your emotional outburst, Sister Yifei and Teacher Zeng's misunderstanding, and even our unhappy parting last night can be an oolong!
Vigorously bowed his head...... Short hair obscured her eyes......
"But when I asked you the last question last night, you should know better than I know what is in your eyes, if you think your eyes are facing me...... Some are oolongs, then your heart is also oolong, I am also oolong in your heart, everything can be explained by oolong, there is no science in this world, there is no honesty, some are just concealment and deception! Li Fan...... Will my trust in you only make you think about lies and deal with me!"
Bang –
Vigorously close the book with a heavy slam......
"My mother said that if a boy can cheat on a girl casually, it will only make the relationship pitiful, the information base is not equal, and a reciprocal love relationship cannot be established at all!"
There was a little crying in the words of the force......
I want to comfort her...... But the table separates us...... I can't reach ......
At that moment, I really felt a sense of distance between us......
She is getting farther and farther away from me because of my lies...... I'm getting farther and farther away because I have to stick to the lie......
"The killer of marriage and love is the crisis of trust, and now that we have appeared, I hope we can calm each other down...... Let's not get too close lately...... Let's keep our distance for a while...... If you have the answer in mind, come and tell me, and we are still the same as usual, if you are still thinking about making up lies, thinking about how to lie to me...... I...... Feel like we're not the right fit. ”
Vigorously went out......
Same as last night...... There are no superfluous words......
Because there is still nothing to say......
I was alone looking at the question in front of me...... The brain and the heart are stuffy together......
I really, really wanted to tell her everything......
I have money...... I belong to another world...... I know what the future holds......
But I can't......
I said I had money...... Vigorously will go...... I belong to another world...... Vigorously disbelief...... I know the future...... Mighty will think I'm lying to her......
If only Dali weren't that smart......
If you can be like an ordinary girl...... Or be superstitious......
But is that really powerful......
Isn't what I like is strong rationality, independence and intelligence......
What a contradiction...... It feels like I'm resurrected in a contradictory way......
Looking at a piece of A4 paper next to the table...... It's densely packed with sample questions that Dali sorted out for me last night......
Since the revision period...... Maybe I'm the one who slept first......
She was able to arrange it well every day during the day...... Even the time for his own nap is arranged......
But I don't have the heart to do that right now......
I study for the sake of vigor, without vigor, what is the meaning of my learning......
I lay on the table and didn't want to do anything...... Don't want to do anything......
How to explain it...... How can you give Dali an explanation that is neither a lie nor a truth......
Downstairs bar.
"Welcome to Sekiya ...... Love Apartment"
"Oh......"
Wan Yu, Guan Gu and Zhan Bo sat on the sofa...... While drinking sullen wine...... While holding an emotionless welcome party......
"I don't think we should have come down for a welcome meeting...... It doesn't feel like the atmosphere is good at all now......"
Zhanbo sighed......
"I can't help it...... Ziqiao doesn't come...... Mika didn't come either...... Teacher Zeng and Sister Yifei have something to do...... Xiaofan and vigorously want to learn...... That happened last night......"
Wan Yu also sighed......
"It's okay, it's okay!!You two can come!I'm already very happy!!"
Guan Gu felt that it was nothing, and took a sip of wine.
"Sekiya...... Are you still used to staying last night......"
Zhanbo tilted his head and asked......
"Get used to it!!...... Found that China can't just order takeout...... Otherwise, it is easy to be ......."
Guan Gu was in a cold sweat when he recalled the energy he had on the phone call last night......
The sound of kicking the door is so loud!!
"Sekiya ~ Do you think it is difficult to learn Chinese~"
Wan Yu adjusted her mood and chatted with Guan Gu.
"I feel like Chinese is like a girlfriend!!I love her so much, but I can't control her!!"
Seki gave an inappropriate but apt analogy!
"Hey!Does Sekiya have a girlfriend!!"
Zhanbo seems to have discovered something!!
"No, no, no, I just...... Let's take an analogy!!"
Guan Gu quickly shook his head.
"Guan Gu!!It just so happens that I know a Chinese cram school, called Mars Chinese!
Zhanbo and Guan Gu had a drink.
"That's great!!I'd love to improve my Chinese!!"
When Guan Gu heard that he could learn Chinese, he was very happy.
"Sekiya~What do you think of China~"
Wan Yu patted Guan Gu on the shoulder.
"Great!!It's completely different from what I imagined!!Every day on the street I write that China is very good!The Chinese people are very good!!Chinese agriculture is very good!!China is very good in many aspects!!China is really a confident country!!!"
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All right...... You really need to learn Chinese......