Chapter 231: Even I despise myself
He Yuan didn't deliberately avoid washing dishes.
It's that Tian Rui doesn't have to work the night shift today, so he has a date for two nights.
There is a girlfriend in the hotel industry, and it is so bad that the time is completely staggered.
She rests while you go to work, and you go to work when she rests.
Fortunately, He Yuan is now unemployed, so he can cooperate with Tian Rui's time.
Otherwise, just because of work, the two can break out a lot of conflicts.
However, Tian Rui's mood today doesn't seem to be very good.
Since getting in the car, she has always looked depressed.
"What's wrong with you?"
He Yuan asked with a bowl of fried potatoes in his hand and a little strange.
Shopping and eating snacks have become a must for almost every date they have.
He Yuan has never been in love, and neither has Tian Rui, and the two basically have no experience in love.
It's just that I have the impression that those young couples basically do this, so He Yuan did it.
Sometimes I feel very sad when I think about it, the age when I should fall in love is all dedicated to my studies and work. I'm still in my thirties, and I'm just starting to learn how to fall in love.
He Yuan also paid attention to the "peers" around him, but it is a pity that in the small county town where marriage is generally early, people at He Yuan's age are basically already "old husbands and wives", either gathering at the mahjong table every day, or playing games at home, or taking children, there is really nothing to learn from
"No, nothing. Tian Rui shook her head.
He Yuan felt even more strange in his heart, this was not like Tian Rui's character.
In the past, Tian Rui was the kind of arrogant character, what did she say, in my impression, He Yuan had never seen her when she was unhappy.
Especially after going to Sanya, Tian Rui is even happier, almost every day with a smile and a smile, and the happiness in her heart is about to overflow from her face.
"Then this movie, do we still want to watch it?" He Yuan said with some hesitation.
Dating and watching movies was originally their daily project.
happened to release the "Sad Story Than Sadness" recently, and He Yuan was swiped by the circle of friends again, so he ordered two on the Internet.
Speaking of which, He Yuan feels that the price of movie tickets has increased significantly this year. I remember when I came back to watch the movie before, even if it was a big 3D production, it was only ten or twenty yuan for a ticket. As a result, if I buy it now, I am either in my forties or in my sixties.
At first, He Yuan thought that this was just an example, after all, when he was in Beijing before, it seemed to be such a price.
As a result, the people around them said that they also felt that the price of movie tickets was expensive, and they were still complaining there, and if it went on like this, they would not even be able to watch movies in the future.
He Yuan was a little hesitant now.
After all, looking at the reviews, this movie seems to be sad.
Not to mention the comments, just the name of the movie, the sadness is about to overflow through the screen.
Under normal circumstances, it's okay to go to a sad movie, and neither of them is the kind of person who can be moved at will.
He Yuan is because he has seen too much, so he will not feel it easily, while Tian Rui has been grinning for a long time, habitually heartless, and has no concept of "sadness" at all.
"No, go ahead. Tian Rui raised her head, pulled He Yuan's arm, and smiled at him reluctantly.
Seeing her expression, He Yuan felt a little uneasy, but Tian Rui had already pulled him into the elevator of the shopping mall, and He Yuan had to suppress the uneasiness in his heart.
Originally, they would buy milk tea for watching movies and some small desserts as snacks in the shops outside. Occasionally, I will bring some fruits, such as strawberries and cherries.
Eating is also secondary, mainly as a necessary interaction between couples.
You feed me, I feed you, fingers running between lips, how warm it looks.
After all, after living for so many years, he has always been stuffed with dog food by others, and finally turned over as a serf to sing, He Yuan also wants to enjoy the pleasure of throwing dog food at others.
There's a good saying.
Everyone will become the kind of person they used to hate the most.
But today because Tian Rui was in a bad mood, they didn't buy those things.
He Yuan was going to buy some Coke and popcorn from the theater, but because of Tian Rui's shaking of his head, he finally chose to give up.
"Are you really okay?"
He Yuan saw that Tian Rui was in a depressed mood, and couldn't help but ask again.
"It's fine. Tian Rui shook his head, and then changed the topic, "It's almost time, let's go in." ”
He Yuan wanted to ask again, but Tian Rui had already taken He Yuan's arm and walked towards the ticket gate.
Check in and enter the screening room.
He Yuan found their place, and then sat down in turn.
At first, the theater seemed a little empty, and it didn't look like there were many people.
When the advertisements on the screen were almost played, He Yuan was surprised to find that the surrounding places were almost full.
This is still on a weekday, and if it is a weekend, it is estimated that He Yuan will not even be able to buy a movie ticket.
I also read a movie review before that the consumption power of Chinese people is getting weaker and weaker, resulting in the box office of many big productions not going up - where is everyone's weak consumption power, it is clear that you are too bad to shoot, and people are not willing to contribute to the box office for you.
In fact, this time the "King of Comedy" directed by Xing Ye did not contribute to the box office.
There were several movies in a row before, including "Journey to the West", "Mermaid", etc., He Yuan went to the theater to watch them.
Anyway, I can still watch it, but I can't find the feeling I had at the beginning.
As for "The King of Comedy", because of the previous influence, He Yuan was reluctant to watch it.
One is because it is not a movie starring Xing Ye himself, He Yuan always owes a little feeling when he looks at it. The other is because the plot of "The King of Comedy" is too similar to He Yuan himself.
He Yuan was very afraid of touching the scene.
Later, I heard that the box office of that movie was fluttering, mainly because of the schedule, and some competition within the theater, He Yuan also understood it in his heart. However, He Yuan heard that after the movie was released, it was broadcast on the Internet and achieved great success. Many people said in the circle of friends that when they saw Wang Baoqiang's performance, they had a feeling of empathy - the experiences may be similar, but He Yuan felt that he should be a little stronger than Wang Baoqiang, after all, He Yuan felt that his appearance was not handsome, but it was difficult to be called ugly.
The movie didn't start a while later.
The screening room, which was still a little whispering, suddenly fell silent.
"A Story More Sad Than Sadness", just by listening to the name, you know that this is a pure love movie.
Pure love movies have always been He Yuan's favorite, such as "The Little Thing of First Love", "The Girl We Chased Together in Those Years", "To Youth", "You at the Same Table", "Thirty-three Days of Broken Love" and so on.
Among them, the most common memory is "The Girl We Chased Together in Those Years".
To tell the truth, except for when he was in elementary school, relying on his mother, He Yuan flew high for a while, and after his mother left, He Yuan fell into silence.
Don't say that like the male protagonist, he causes trouble everywhere, and even his own whereabouts are monitored by his father all the time, and he can't be as free as the male protagonist at all - He Yuan will be spanked by He Jianhua with slippers when he goes home ten minutes late, and by the way, he will kneel in the room for half an hour, kneeling and reflecting while kneeling.
In this case, He Yuan can't resonate with the male protagonist's experience at all.
"You at the Same Table" is the same situation, but what is a little better than "Those Years" is that the male protagonist's experience in the workplace is a bit similar to He Yuan - they all look glamorous and majestic on the outside, but in fact, they are just losers like dicks in private.
And "To Our Dying Youth" should be a movie with mixed reputations. But there was a sentence from Lin Xiaozheng inside, but it suddenly hit He Yuan's tears.
Lin Xiaozheng said: My life is different from yours, it is a building that can only be built once, so I don't allow it to have a centimeter of error.
In fact, there are many people who have similar experiences to Lin Xiaozheng.
But in the end, most people made the same choice as Lin Xiaozheng - to go against their own hearts and do something that even they despise themselves.
In fact, after contempt for a long time, I will get used to it, this world is the world of "successful people" after all.
As long as you succeed, then you are doing everything right, even if you are wrong, it is right.
Luckily, Lin Xiaozheng succeeded.
Relying on "betrayal" feelings, Lin Xiaozheng went abroad, and by marrying someone else, Lin Xiaozheng got a green card.
This is what many so-called high-level intellectuals were doing in that era.
It's like He Yuan.
I know that there are a lot of dark things around me.
With just a casual hand, he can achieve what others see as "success" – whether it's a house, a car, or something else.
Around He Yuan, there are many people who have been in the industry for a year, or even half a year, in their hometown, and even in Beijing, buying cars and houses. And He Yuan has been in the industry for five or six years, and he still has to calculate the monthly rent and living expenses.
Doesn't he have a chance?
He has it, since Lin Xiaozheng has it, why can't he have it?
It's not that He Yuan despises those people, in fact, just like the fat man said, when you go to do those things, in fact, to some extent, you are also making income for the company. You do it, although you take some points, give some to others, but the company's income is high; if you don't do it, although you are clean, but the company's income is low, others can't make money on you, and they won't play with you in the end.
He Yuan knew in his heart that what the fat man said was right.
So although He Yuan's business ability is good, he can't stay in every company for a long time, and there is a reason.
Sometimes, being too clean is not a good thing for the company or for the individual.
This is the gap between He Yuan and the "elite".
In the eyes of those "elites", Lin Xiaozheng just chose a shortcut that was faster and more stable. And He Yuan chose a more stupid and bumpy path.
He Yuan also reflected.
Maybe it's really that my horizons are too narrow, or that my desires are too weak.
His needs are actually really low, he just wants a house of his own - and in the past few years, with He Yuan's income, he only needs to work hard for five or six years to buy a large three-bedroom apartment in Chengdu.
So there is no need for He Yuan to take those risks and engage in those off-the-board moves.
Yes, just like Lin Xiaozheng, He Yuan's life is different from others, it is a building that can only be built once, so He Yuan does not allow it to have a centimeter of error.
But the world is just that ridiculous.
Those who take risks, buy a car and a house, and then happen to encounter the skyrocketing property market in China, the original one or two million houses, all of a sudden flew to five or six million, and then take out a loan, and then buy, in a year or two, from a monthly salary of thousands of yuan, to a "local tyrant" with a net worth of tens of millions. On the contrary, it only takes five or six years to steadily own a house of his own He Yuan - now he can't even afford a down payment on a house.
What's more, if you sit in that position, even if you don't take it, others won't believe it.
There are not so many clean people in this world.
If you enter this pool, even if you are clean, you will become "unclean".
No one would think that with He Yuan's position, the purpose was just to buy a small three-bedroom apartment in Chengdu for hundreds of thousands of yuan - in their hearts, He Yuan's goal was to spend at least three or four million to buy a small house in Beijing.
Of course, this was already the price a few years ago, and now, it will start at least five or six million, and eight hundred and one thousand is not capped.
Therefore, in contrast, in fact, He Yuan's favorite is "The Little Thing of First Love".
The kind of person who keeps changing himself, keeps improving himself, and makes himself better, so as to be worthy of the one he likes - isn't it He Yuan himself.
It can be said that He Yuan is very stupid.
It can also be said that He Yuan is very simple.
But He Yuan is like that, I just want to quietly do what I like and get the people who belong to me who should take things.
But this kind of person, he should not appear in the workplace.
He Yuan's eyes watched the movie, and his thoughts were taken away.
By the time I came to my senses, the movie was nearing its end.
I have to say that as a popular movie last year, this "pure love" film naturally has its uniqueness.
At least He Yuan heard the sound of many people sobbing around.
To tell the truth, the movie does have its tear-jerking places, but - He Yuan really hasn't experienced this kind of love of life and death, not to mention, he is not a person who easily trusts others, after going through so many things, He Yuan doesn't trust others at all now.
Even He Yuan felt that in the whole movie, the person who could be called "a story more sad than sadness" was the dentist.
was green by his fiancée, and he was dumped by the person he wanted to marry.
What exactly did he do wrong?
If you see that others are honest, you will bully someone else to death, right?
Yes, you are the heroine, so you know that people have girlfriends, and you deliberately provoke others, just to make the male protagonist jealous.
And what about your male protagonist, in order to find a suitable partner for the female protagonist, knowing that someone has a fiancée, he has to break them up.
But in the end, everyone is already married, and you still acquiesce to others to abandon the dentist and return to you, and finally the two people complete the martyrdom - what is the difference between this and the White Lotus in "Big Fish and Begonia", "As long as the person I like is happy, even if I sacrifice all others, I will not hesitate to do it"?
Others can be moved by the "selfish" love of the male and female protagonists, but He Yuan can't do it.
The reason is very simple, if He Yuan has a role in the movie, he must be the poor, honest spare tire dentist.
In this case, how do you ask him to have a sense of substitution for the love between the male and female protagonists?
He Yuan just wanted to say: "Knock your mother!"