If only as first seen (xix) confess 2
Regarding the magic and incomprehension of Xiao San, Xiao Xiao has been strange in getting along with Xiao San for so many years, so in Xiao Xiao's understanding, what Xiao San said about taking over the incense making industry by herself will not be so ordinary, so she feels that she is acceptable, and even she is happy to accept it.
But as she observed Xiao San, after knowing that he was different from ordinary people, she also had some doubts about her origin, because she felt that since Xiao San raised herself, Xiao San was very unusual, then she was Xiao San's child, and she should be very unusual, but she observed herself for a long time and did not notice that she was unusual, so she also went through several tests that looked silly.
The first time was when she was four years old and saw Xiao San jump from a very high place unharmed, but due to her timidity, she just tried to jump down from the tree, and all she felt was gravity, and there was no effect of any other force. It's just that there was nothing wrong that time, because she saw three napping under the tree, so she mustered up the courage to jump down, she was fine, but the cat under the tree no longer dared to go to the tree to nap.
And then there were small attempts, but in the end they all ended up being very 'ordinary', as she got older, she didn't even have this idea, but completely accepted the fact that she was an ordinary person. From her initial curiosity, to her later unwillingness, to her current indifference, she feels that life is actually like this, what God gives you, you have no other way but to accept.
Later, after Xiao San heard his very abnormal and strange behavior from the three places, he also laughed at himself many times, but he didn't explain too much to himself, but just told himself that if he could live an ordinary life, it would not be a good thing, but Xiao Xiao didn't think that his explanation was any different from not explaining, anyway, the result was the same, but it was just acceptance, so over the years, no matter what she faced, what she did was always accept.
But just when she was ready to accept everything that life gave her thoroughly, she suddenly found that life made a big joke with herself, saying that she was ordinary Xiao San, and in the end it was Xiao San who smashed her already established worldview.
Xiao San is not a woman, even if he has gotten along with so many women, but men and women are different species after all, so he can't appreciate the unique delicacy of girls' hearts. Isn't it going to leave?
Xiao San stared at the box on the table, and was not in a hurry to open it, the crisp sound of knuckles hitting the table echoed in the already quiet study, the girl and the cat did not break such a moment, they were waiting for Xiao San's opening.
"Xiao Xiao," Xiao Mu seemed to be talking to Xiao Xiao, but his gaze stayed on the palm-sized box, and he didn't wait for Xiao Xiao's answer to say to himself: "This day, it's finally here." ”
Xiao Xiao was puzzled, she didn't understand why Xiao San's reaction was so big, she thought it was nothing more than making incense, what else could she not accept? But even if she couldn't accept it, wouldn't she still have to accept it? Xiao Xiao didn't understand Xiao San's worries
, she just felt that since there was no choice, what was the point of saying it or not?
"The perfumer industry has actually begun when human beings began to have wisdom, but the role of the original perfumer is not as prominent and important as today, the ancestors of our vein they first prepared spices for the purpose of expelling mosquitoes, but with the continuous improvement of the social state and the abundance of materials, the purpose of perfumery is gradually no longer just to meet the most basic needs of life, but to immerse itself in the bits and pieces of life, as large as sacrifices, as small as drinking tea and tea, people are gradually accustomed to burning a furnace of incense, in order to seek the elegance of life, so perfumery has come to the point where it is today, to a large extentIt is the formal meaning that is far greater than the substantive meaning. ”
Xiao San paused and then said: "But the perfumer of our vein is different from the perfumer in the secular sense, and the material we use to prepare the fragrance is not the spices such as flowers and trees in the secular sense, but the emotions of people, the emotions of the person who entrusts you to make incense." ”
Xiao Xiao listened to Xiao San's words, a little puzzled, and said, "Emotions?"
Xiao San said: "Yes, emotions. He looked at the girl in front of him with a serious face, and then patiently explained: " You know the word synaesthesia, in fact, people's sense of smell and taste are actually the same, because both will give the body a certain amount of stimulation, and then awaken some emotions from the body or psychology through stimulation, of course, everyone's emotions are unique, are different, so the fragrance concocted by the perfumer is not everyone can use it, and only the one that provides the emotion is effective, and such a fragrance is no different from ordinary perfume for other people. ”
"Then how do you mix other people's emotions in the incense you want to concoct?" Xiao Xiao was a little curious at this moment, she felt that emotions were fleeting and elusive, so it was really difficult to collect a person's emotions.
"This is the characteristic of people of our race, we are born with the ability to see people's emotions, and we have the ability to extract emotions from people's memories, of course, God has given us special abilities at the same time, but also taken some things," Xiao San said this, but after all, he sighed and did not continue.
Xiao Xiao listened to Xiao San's words, digesting the information in his head, and what he could know from Xiao San's words was that, first of all, he was not an ordinary human being, and he also belonged to the race he said. Secondly, I have the ability to read emotions, but I don't know what the side effects are.
But Xiao Xiao felt that something seemed wrong, and hesitated for a while and said, "Then why do others ask us to make incense?" In fact, this question is the most fundamental problem, what is the effect of making such incense? !
"Because, because we make spices that satisfy their innermost desires and needs. Xiao San said sarcastically, calmly.
"As long as there is a spiritual creature, there will be desires and greed in the heart, and the desires and greed in the heart are the biggest demons and shackles in the process of a person's growth, no one can escape this set of shackles that they put on their bodies, because there are greed and desires, so we can live. “
The slender knuckles struck the table again, and for a moment, as if the old man sighed, he said, "Perhaps, living itself is the original sin." ”
"A bottle of perfume alone can satisfy people's desires and needs?" Xiao Xiao was still a little puzzled, she was a little confused.
"Yes and no. Xiao San bought a pass and said, "People, life, or existence itself is a void, and the desires and needs in our hearts are actually only subjective experiences and feelings, so in the final analysis, these things are just obsessions that breed in everyone's hearts, and what we want is to take the emotions of the incense seekers as the introduction, because their desires are wrapped in their emotions, and what we do is just to prescribe the right medicine and temporarily satisfy such desires from the feeling and perception." ”
So, we do satisfy human desires and needs, but what we meet is not satisfaction in the usual sense. When Xiao San said this, the coldness in his eyes did not diminish at all.
"What about the effect?" Xiao Xiao always felt that people are not so easy to satisfy, even if the desire is temporarily satisfied, but there are always new desires and new ideas, Xiao Xiao feels that the human heart is the most uninformed and satisfying thing.