Mu Huanhuan rushed over like crazy, and kept tapping her fingers on the keyboard, "Why is it gone, why is it gone?"

Shi Huan naturally thought of what was going on with the commotion from the computer just now, and for nearly a minute, he sat there, watching Mu Huanhuan go crazy and typing on the laptop keyboard, his bloodshot eyes were scarlet with an indelible pain.

It was the child he was looking forward to, it was the child of him and Mu Huanhuan, but he didn't have time to take a serious look, and the child was gone in front of him and Mu Huanhuan.

"Shi Huan, you can help me take a look, there must be something wrong with this computer. Mu Huanhuan turned around and took Shi Huan's hand, tears flowed wantonly, and she seemed to be still unknown, and smiled brightly, "Our son is in this computer, you haven't seen him yet, you can get the computer right, you can see it when it's done." ”

Shi Huan's dark and bottomless eyes looked at Mu Huanhuan for a moment, he suppressed the pain in his eyes, and then carefully and gently grabbed Mu Huanhuan's hand, "Huanhuan, calm down." ”

Mu Huanhuan's eyes widened, "I'm calm, Shi Huan, I'm really calm." You believe me, I didn't lie to you. When you come in, I'm still using this computer to watch the baby. ”

As he spoke, Mu Huanhuan turned around and pressed it on the laptop again, but it still didn't work.

"Why is it gone" Mu Huanhuan's whole body was trembling, her hair was stuck to her face with cold sweat, and she was in a state of emotional tension and on the verge of collapse, "The computer is broken? ”

"Shi Huan, you go find someone to fix it, this computer is broken, I can't see our son anymore, I really want to see him." Mu Huanhuan grabbed Shi Huan's hand, with tears rolling in the corners of her eyes, "Shi Huan, I'll help me, I want to see him." ”

Shi Huan pulled her up from the ground, hugged her tightly in his arms, and took a deep breath, "Baby, it's okay, it's okay, I'll have someone fix the computer in a while, and it will definitely be repaired, huh?"

Mu Huanhuan grabbed Shi Huan's clothes tightly, and the sound of whimpering couldn't be slowed down for a long time, she actually understood everything in her heart, but it was precisely because she understood it too much that her heart hurt so much.

"Shi Huan, why didn't you save the baby" Mu Huanhuan clenched his fist and hit Shi Huan's body hard.

Although Mu Huanhuan is very clear. This is not Shi Huan's fault, but at this moment, the pain in his heart that has nowhere to vent his heart, he still can't help but blame everything on Shi Huan's body.

Shi Huan didn't say anything, silently hugged her tightly, and she still vented.

Lu Jingyu at the door couldn't bear to look any further, turned around and went downstairs with red eyes, he dialed a phone to go out, and got the exact news, just nearly ten minutes ago, an explosion occurred in a villa in the south, the specific situation is unknown, and the police have rushed over.

A month later.

In the past month, Mu Huanhuan has been confused every day. Except for meal time, she almost sleeps in bed, she doesn't like to see the light and doesn't like to talk, and after falling asleep, the whole person is curled up in a ball, her whole body is cold, and she often has nightmares, but she will not be awakened, and she is always laughing or crying in her dreams.

During this time, the people of the Li family came, and Li Zhongqian brought Li Ran with him, but Mu Huanhuan looked at them coldly for a while, didn't say a word, and then went upstairs and went back to the room.

Mu Zhenlin and Xiao Yun were very relieved, they ran here in three days, at first Mu Huanhuan also took care of their emotions, not wanting them to worry too much about themselves, they would control their emotions in front of them, after a long time, Mu Huanhuan became more and more tired to deal with it, and when they came again, she locked herself in the room, did not eat or drink water.

Shi Huan had no choice but to ask Mu Zhenlin and Xiao Yun not to come again.

Jiang Cheng and Cheng Youjia also came, Mu Huanhuan saw Jiang Cheng, but refused to see Cheng Youjia.

Shi Huan knew what she was thinking in her heart, she seemed to be offending others, but she was actually punishing herself, using this way of avoiding all those who cared about her and loved her, closing herself off and punishing herself.

The villa that exploded in the south was razed to the ground, and even the walls were blown to pieces, leaving nothing behind.

And before the police found He Junting, he had swallowed sleeping pills and died, leaving nothing but a letter for Shi Huan.

Shi Huan didn't read this letter, and burned it directly.

At night, Shi Huan was awakened by the suppressed crying in his ears, he turned on the bedside lamp, Mu Huanhuan closed his eyes and his face was full of tears, and he couldn't stop trembling.

Shi Huan was used to her like this, and he knew that Mu Huanhuan should have dreamed of the child again in her dream, so even though the picture in the dream was painful, she still let herself hide in the nightmare and was unwilling to wake up.

But Shi Huan really didn't want her to go on like this, he was worried that Mu Huanhuan would continue to be muddy, and one day she might really indulge in pain forever and never be able to get out again.

"Baby, wake up"

Shi Huan kept calling her in her ear, and Mu Huanhuan frowned, obviously very resistant to his voice.

"Baby, you're having nightmares, wake up, don't sleep" Shi Huan didn't plan to give up, he knew that if this balance was not broken, then Mu Huanhuan would only get farther and farther away from him.

Mu Huanhuan was woken up by Shi Huan, she opened her eyes and looked at Shi Huan coldly, as if she was looking at a hated enemy.

Shi Huan's heart throbbed suddenly, but he still held Mu Huanhuan in his arms, "Baby, I know that the child is gone, you are sad, and I also know that you feel that you killed him"

"But without children, you still have me, and many, many people who love you. You can't lock yourself in anymore. ”

"If you want to have a child, when your body is well, we will have another one, okay?"

"It's not good, it's not good, it's not good!" Mu Huanhuan suddenly screamed hard, biting Shi Huan while screaming, "There will be no more children, Shi Huan, we won't have any more children, don't you understand!"

"He was only half a month old, he is only half a month old" Mu Huanhuan's nails scratched Shi Huan's face, and blood flowed out of his face, "I just dreamed of him, do you know? I stood outside, watching the explosion swallow him, he was crying, crying in a hoarse voice, I beg you to save him, but why don't you save him, why don't you go? He is your son, our son!"

Shi Huan gritted his teeth, his cheeks kept shaking, and only after half a sound did he say word by word: "Mu Huanhuan, he is dead, you are still alive, do you want to go on like this forever?"

Mu Huanhuan struggled out of his arms, she got up and glared at him, "Shi Huan, it's only been a month, it's only been a month, you're going to forget him, aren't you? He's your son, are you so cold-blooded and ruthless?"

"I haven't forgotten!" Shi Huan looked at her steadily, "Just like you said, he is my son, our first child, I will not have less affection for him than you, he is dead, I am as painful as you." ”

"But Mu Huanhuan, are you really so miserable because of that child? In the past month, you have tried your best to avoid me, even if you are lying on the same bed, you refuse to say a word to me, is it really because of the child?"

"You think it's because I chose you that the child died, and you feel sorry for that child in your heart, and you feel guilty, so you punish yourself in this way, and punish me at the same time, so that I can always remember that child!"

"But Mu Huanhuan, wouldn't you be too cruel!" Shi Huan grabbed her wrist, "If we change places and ask you to make a choice, do you choose that child, or choose me?"

Mu Huanhuan's eyelashes fluttered slightly, she stared at Shi Huan's face for a while, only to find that there were several blood marks on his face, some deep and some shallow, she looked at her hands in a daze, her nails had not been trimmed for a long time, and the nails were stained red.

The wound on Shi Huan's face was scratched by her?

How could she hurt him?

Mu Huanhuan's heart was suddenly shrouded in a strong sense of self-blame, and tears couldn't help but overflow from her eyes, "Shi Huan, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I love you, I really love you, I don't want to hurt you"

Seeing her like this, no matter how tough his attitude was, Shi Huan couldn't help but soften, stepped forward to hug her, and kissed her forehead. While reassuring: "I know, I know, it doesn't matter, you were careless, besides, this little injury will be fine in two days." ”

"No" Mu Huanhuan shook her head and sobbed: "It's not like this, Shi Huan, I feel sick, really, I seem to be really sick, I'm afraid that one day I will do something more excessive and I don't know, you can take me to the doctor"

Mu Huanhuan was too impressed by Lin Shuqing's illness, in fact, she had already vaguely felt that her emotions were a little wrong, but she couldn't control it, and she didn't want to pay attention to it, until just now, when she saw that she scratched Shi Huan's face and neck bloody, she began to face it.

In fact, she didn't want to go to the doctor, and she even hated it, and was afraid that one day she would do more things that hurt Shi Huan, she didn't want to

Shi Huan patted her on the back and comforted her softly: "Okay, don't cry, I'll take you to the doctor tomorrow, good, don't cry." ”

Mu Huanhuan was comforted by Shi Huan, and he was tired and had no strength to fall asleep, and when he was bright, he woke up, and after waking up Shi Huan, he clamored to go to the hospital.

Shi Huan had no choice but to coax her, wait for dawn, let Mu Huanhuan finish breakfast, and make sure that the hospital had arranged it, and then take Mu Huanhuan over.

Psychotherapy is a long process with little effect, after all, in addition to the care and love of the people around them, this disease often requires patients to open their hearts and knots.

And Mu Huanhuan's heart knot is actually in that child in the final analysis.

She understands that even if she gets along with Shi Huan, she will definitely give up her child and choose Shi Huan, but it is one thing to think about it, if she can't get over that hurdle, she won't be able to get out.

Emotionally, she didn't want to leave Shi Huan, but rationally, there was no way to be with Shi Huan with peace of mind, and this contradiction and pain aggravated the guilt of the child.

In the afternoon, Mu Huanhuan lay on a rocking chair on the balcony to bask in the sun, and Shi Huan inserted a piece of fruit to feed her.

After nearly two months of treatment, Mu Huanhuan's situation has changed a little, at least the mood has decreased a lot, although there are still not many words, but it is much better than the first month, and she is willing to see the sun and bask in the sun. Occasionally, I will say a few words to Sister Xu.

"What do you want to eat at night?" Shi Huan put the fruit fork into the fruit bowl and picked up the book to read it again.

In the past few months, he has almost been at home with Mu Huanhuan, all the affairs of Xingyao have been handed over to Lu Jingyu, and 80% of Shi Run's work is also handled at home, unless necessary, he almost never leaves Mu Huanhuan.

Mu Huanhuan closed her eyes and didn't answer, although this was the norm, Shi Huan was still a little disappointed.

Shi Huan hoped to get Mu Huanhuan's response, even if it was three or two words, at least it would give him a little comfort from his fatigue in the past few months.

The child Shi Huan's heart was no less uncomfortable than Mu Huanhuan, but Shi Huan couldn't let himself fall into that kind of emotion, he still took care of Mu Huanhuan, if he also collapsed, what should Mu Huanhuan do?

"Shi Huan" passed for a few minutes. Mu Huanhuan suddenly called him softly.

Shi Huan thought he had a delusion, and looked at her in disbelief, "Baby, you called me just now?"

In the past few months, Mu Huanhuan has rarely called his name when he is in a normal mood.

Mu Huanhuan opened his eyes, squinted slightly in the sun, and said lightly: "Shi Huan, let's be apart for a while!"

Something burst into Shi Huan's eyes instantly, "What did you say?"

Mu Huanhuan turned his head to look at him and repeated, "Let's be apart for a while. ”

The former sentence is still a tone of discussion, and the latter sentence becomes a decision.

"No!" Shi Huan vetoed without thinking about it, and there was no room for negotiation at all.

Shi Huan threw the book on the coffee table and was about to leave, Mu Huanhuan took his hand, not using much force, but the soft touch still made Shi Huan stop.

Mu Huanhuan: "Shi Huan, the doctor said that the main problem in my current situation is that I can't get out by myself." I can't live without you, but I can't enjoy your love for me with peace of mind right now. Every time you treat me a little better, the more uncomfortable I feel in my heart, and I am almost out of breath, but I know that you are also very hard, and I can't bear your hard work."

"Shi Huan, I don't want to go on like this, I miss the Mu Huanhuan in the past, I hope I can love you calmly and without reservations as before, and accept your love with peace of mind. ”

"But I know. If I had been around you like this, I wouldn't have gotten better. ”

"Shi Huan, let's be separated for a while, when I have enough courage to face everything, I'll come back to you, and we'll start again"

Shi Huan didn't speak for a long time, and finally asked in a low voice, "How long will it take?"

Mu Huanhuan's throat moved, and she shook her head and said, "I don't know." ”

Shi Huan suddenly turned to look at her, his eyes sharp, "You don't know, then why do you think I'll always wait for you?" Mu Huanhuan, you are so confident in yourself, are you sure that I won't fall in love with other women?"

Mu Huanhuan looked at him in a daze for a few seconds, his eyes gradually became foggy, and he choked up and asked, "Will you?"

Shi Huan opened his mouth, seeing that she couldn't let out cruel words, he leaned down and bit her lips fiercely, and only let go when she was almost out of breath, "Two years, two years at most, if you haven't come back in two years, I don't want you anymore!"

Mu Huanhuan cried and hugged his neck, biting his lip and whispering a good word.

In August, when the fate of the two began to entangle, Mu Huanhuan left City A, and Ruan Xing walked with her.

Letting Ruan Xing follow Mu Huanhuan was Shi Huan's only request to agree to Mu Huanhuan's departure.

Two years, compared to one sound, seems to be very short. But twenty-four months, more than 700 days and nights, for those who have obstacles in their hearts, every minute and every second is extraordinarily long, and every minute and every second is torment.

A month after Mu Huanhuan left, Shi Huan quietly followed a Weibo blogger.

At first, this blogger only had one fan of him, but slowly, there were ten, hundreds, thousands, ten thousands, and one hundred thousand

This blogger is more blogger and irregular, sometimes it is better to have several posts a day, sometimes it takes ten days and half a month to update one, and the content of Weibo is usually recorded with the camera, without any text.

In the picture, there are children of all colors.

Some are in prosperous Europe, with blonde hair, clear eyes, and bright smiles;