"I'll just ask. He Yuan smiled.

"By the way, it's New Year's Day soon, how are you spending New Year's Day? Tian Rui asked.

was reminded by Tian Rui like this, He Yuan suddenly thought that this was about to be the New Year.

Since I don't go to work, I don't have to count the days with my hands on my hands, and it's a bit of a messy day.

I often forget what day of the week it is.

"How did you all live before?" He Yuan couldn't think of, and asked Tian Rui instead.

"I don't know, I live like that every year, have a meal, sing a K, and play mahjong together at night, that's basically it. By the way, what about you?" Tian Rui tilted his head and recalled, and after counting it, he threw the question to He Yuan.

"Me...... They usually sleep at home and then go out to dinner with friends at night. He Yuan scratched his face.

"Nothing else?"

"Sometimes friends invite me out to sing a K, have a drink or something, but I'm too far away, so I don't usually go much. He Yuan told the truth.

When he first went to Beijing, he was still young, and his friends called him to sing, so he went.

In the next few years, he felt that it was not interesting, in the winter, it was cold, they sang late, and it often ended at one or two o'clock in the morning, and taking a taxi was a big expense, not cost-effective.

The most important thing is that He Yuan is really sleepy, and he can't open his eyes.

It's better to catch up on sleep at home.

"So how are you going to spend this year? Tian Rui asked.

He Yuan thought about it, didn't have any good ideas, hesitated for a moment and said, "It should be...... It's the same as usual, right?"

In He Yuan's thoughts, celebrating the festival is to find a reason to treat himself. Or it's just multiple excuses, and you can get tired of being with the person you like.

Have a meal together, sing a song together, go out shopping together.

These things that can usually be done together are placed on holidays, and they inexplicably bring a sense of ritual.

"It's so pathetic, why don't you go to my house this year. Tian Rui said casually.

He Yuan noticed that although Tian Rui lowered his head, his ears were erected like rabbits.

I'm waiting here.

Do the math, anyway, you have to go early and late, and you have to die early and die late.

Die early and live early.

He Yuan pretended to think for a moment, and then said, "Okay." ”

"Anyway, you're quite lonely, so I'll be merciful enough to take you in, you...... Wait, what are you talking about?" Tian Rui said to herself, and after hearing He Yuan's answer, she was stunned suddenly.

I said, "Okay. He Yuan repeated again.

Tian Rui came back to her senses, realized her gaffe, and hurriedly coughed.

"Well, ah, that, that's good, then you can spend this New Year's Day with us, haha, haha. Tian Rui laughed awkwardly there.

He Yuan changed the topic at the right time.

Otherwise, the eldest lady will be angry and angry in a while, and she will start to be angry with him again.

Because she had to work the morning shift tomorrow, after eating supper, He Yuan sent her back.

When she got out of the car, Tian Rui specially advised: "Remember what you said." ”

After speaking, Tian Rui closed the car door, hummed a song in her mouth, and jumped into the community.

"Wait, I haven't picked up the cat yet. He Yuan stopped her in the car.

Tian Rui's brisk body slammed suddenly.

I saw her turn around and run back, sticking out her tongue towards He Yuan.

"yes, you're still going to take the cat, I almost forgot about it. ”

He Yuan followed Tian Rui upstairs and put the little guy in the pet bag.

I haven't seen him for half a month, and the little guy seems to have grown up a lot, and he is about to become a ball.

It is not very restless in the pet bag, swaying from side to side, and making a "meow" sound from time to time.

After He Yuan said goodbye to Tian Rui, he slipped the little guy down, put it in the car, and drove home.

As soon as he returned to the old house, He Yuan released the little guy.

The little one crawled out of the bag a little, a little bit, walking carefully, sniffing around with his nose.

After a few minutes, the little one was almost familiar with his surroundings, and suddenly began to have fun. After running around the living room a few times, I grabbed a mouse toy and started playing.

He Yuan looked at the little guy's crazy appearance, with a smile on the corner of his mouth.

Looking at it, a ray of loneliness suddenly rose in He Yuan's heart, and his smile gradually faded.

He sat down in a chair at the door, looked at the dark green turf, and was there in a daze.

It's the New Year.

It's been another year.

Inexplicably, He Yuan had a bit of a hole in his heart.

It's like being in a bustling commercial center, surrounded by bustling crowds.

But he stood aside, lonely and watched everyone partying there.

It's been a few years, and He Yuan can't remember it anymore.

It seems that from a long, long time ago, He Yuan could no longer find festive happiness.

He Yuanfa was stunned for a while, came back to his senses, and remembered something.

He took out his phone, opened the phone book, and flipped to a phone number.

Looking at that number, He Yuan hesitated for a long time, and finally pressed it.

"Hey, auntie. ”

"I want to know, where is my mother......"

……

It was raining lightly.

On a rainy day in winter, the whole sky is gray, and even the mood becomes a little depressing.

He Yuan walked with an umbrella and walked on the stone brick floor, his face was grim.

He rarely has this expression, usually he is smiling, and his smile is kind.

He Yuan pressed the address on his mobile phone and found the location of the tombstone.

I don't know how long this tombstone hasn't been cleaned, and the weeds are overgrown all around, and the tombstone is almost covered.

He Yuan put away the umbrella, and the fine-grained raindrops fell on him unscrupulously, wetting his hair and his clothes.

He didn't have any tools with him, so he bent down and began to clear the weeds around him with his hands.

The rain fell on the lenses, wetting He Yuan's glasses, and his vision became a little blurry. He Yuan stood up from time to time, took off his glasses, wiped them with his sleeves, and then put them back on.

It took a while to clean up the weeds around the tombstone. He cleaned up very carefully, even pulling out the roots of the grass in the mud and throwing them into the open space on the side.

After doing this, He Yuan was tired and panting. He sat down on the stone bricks, gasped twice, and took something out of the bag beside him.

It was a stack of rune paper, small red candles, and a small bottle of liquor.

He Yuan took off the plastic bag wrapped in the talisman paper, spread it on the stone floor, and knelt on the plastic bag.

Inserting the candle in front of the tombstone, He Yuan took out a lighter and lit the candle.

After doing this, He Yuan knelt back and stared at the tombstone intently.

The tombstone is engraved with that familiar name, and a black-and-white photo with a sweet smile.

It should have been found in the album.

He Yuan stretched out his hand, his fingertips lightly swiped over the tombstone, and then slowly retracted it.

"Mom, I'm sorry, I'm here. He Yuan spoke, his voice a little dry.

It's been more than 10 years.

My mother has been dead for more than a decade.

He Yuan couldn't even remember how long she had been gone.

Thirteen years, fourteen years?

Still is...... Fifteen years?

He Yuan can't remember clearly, and he doesn't want to remember clearly.

Many times I woke up from my dreams, and I felt that my mother had just gone on a long trip.

She seemed to have just gone out for a while.

And did not leave.

"I'm sorry I came to see you at this time. ”

He Yuan sat on the ground with his buttocks, ignoring the muddy ground and soiling his pants.

"I have a lot to say to you, but I don't know where to start. ”

"I've always felt like, you're just going out, you're just going to play again. I used to dream that you were watching TV at home while directing me to sweep the floor. I dreamed that you came back from outside and brought me a lot of extracurricular books, "Goosebumps" and "Harry Potter" that you bought for me, I read them all, and I also bought a lot of copies of the plot behind, but unfortunately they are all fake. I also dreamed that we were on the beach, and you ran and ran in front, waving to me as you ran, but I couldn't catch up with you. ”

"I still dreamed that I was playing legends at that time, and I asked you to be coquettish and ask for game point cards, and you told me on the phone, okay, you will buy it for me when you come back. ”

"You liar, you big liar. ”

He Yuan muttered to himself, but tears couldn't stop flowing.

"Now I rarely dream of you, every day when I go home, I am very tired, I just lie in bed and fall asleep, sometimes I dream, I also dream of all kinds of data, all kinds of tables. ”

"You know, I went to Beijing and worked there for several years. You told me that I would go to Beijing in the future, go to a good university, and find a decent job when I came out. I'm sorry, I didn't get into a good university, but I got a decent job. ”

"You know, life in Beijing was really tiring, I was so poor at that time, I owed a lot of debt every month, I could only eat instant noodles, and I almost ran to live in the basement because I couldn't pay the rent. But I gritted my teeth and persevered, because you said you didn't want to see me fail. ”

"It's like fighting when I was a kid, my dad told me that you can't fight with other people. And you told me, don't come back if you lose. Don't cry when you break your teeth, swallow it in your stomach. ”

"You used to laugh at me, saying I couldn't even catch up with a girl. You also told me that you should be generous and not stingy when chasing girls, you should work hard to earn money, and don't let the women who follow me suffer, and you should find the kind of ordinary girls, don't look for girls who are too beautiful, because too beautiful girls have a lot of trouble and trouble. ”

"I've done it, I've done it, I've worked hard, I've worked hard. I don't dare to fall in love, I'm afraid that I won't be able to give others a future. I didn't look for too pretty, but now the one has a good personality, no heart and lungs, big grin, not the kind of troubled person, you must like it very much. ”

"Actually, I wanted to come to see you a few years ago, but when I asked my dad, he said he didn't know. I don't dare to ask my aunt, for fear that I will not mix well and lose your face. ”

"Now I have a car, a house, a cat, and a girlfriend. Oh yes, I'm going to go over New Year's Day to meet her parents, and if there are no accidents, our relationship is confirmed. ”

"I finally dare to come to see you. ”

He Yuan's voice gradually deepened.

"I ...... I really miss you......"