After a month, that night, Xu Heyan came back.

After dinner, the two sat on a wicker chair on the balcony and drank wine.

The night was deep, the breeze was cool, and the leaves rattled, but there was a different kind of tranquility.

Beneath the calm surface, there is another precursor to the coming storm.

However, in recent days, it has rained frequently in Shenzhen, and even the discomfort caused by excessive humidity has gradually become bearable.

Si Wei took a sip of wine and turned his head to observe the person next to him.

Xu Heyan held the can in both hands, staring at the night sky quietly, so quiet that he was like two people before.

She no longer laughed freely, but spoke seldom and became much more calm.

Rubbing the body of the can with his fingertips, Siwei asked, "Have you thought about it?"

"What?" she replied softly.

"During the meal, you said that you were going to the mountains. ”

"Oh. I figured it out. Xu Heyan nodded slightly.

She was still looking at the night sky, her face calm and beautiful.

Siwei asked, "Why...... Will you make this decision?"

"It was quite sudden. She actually smiled and turned her head to look at her: "I want to go to a place that needs me more, and Jincheng is more suitable for me than staying here." ”

Tsujo is far to the north.

She said: "Moreover, although life there will be very busy, it must be peaceful, and it is also a foreign country that Zheng Zhi has always wanted to go but can't go." ”

"I want to go for him. ”

Si Wei's heart twitched tightly, feeling pain.

She steadied herself: "When are you leaving?"

"Next Monday. ”

Siwei nodded and turned her head away in silence.

For a long time, they didn't talk about anything else.

The can of beer was about to bottom out, and just before Si Wei was about to leave his seat, Xu Heyan actually took the initiative to speak.

Zheng Zhi said in his suicide note that he wanted to go to a secluded and peaceful place, but there didn't seem to be one in this world, and he might not have such an opportunity. He also said that he wanted to see the green mountains covered with snow and white everywhere, not because of how beautiful the scene was, but because he was afraid of the current life, and he only wanted to stop for a short time, because his heart would also have a time to rest. ”

Si Wei gritted his teeth, tears couldn't help but welling up in his eyes, and said, "His wish will come true." ”

Xu Heyan lowered his eyes and bent his lower lip very shallowly.

Before ten o'clock, the two went back to the house to sleep.

Siwei didn't feel sleepy, turned on the computer, and continued to write the previous chapter.

The end of the story, she didn't think of yet.

She doesn't want to choose reality if she can.

At one o'clock in the morning, she went to the living room to pour water to drink, and when she passed by Xu Heyan's room, she heard a slight sound inside.

Siwei hesitated for a moment, then stood in the doorway, and leaned sideways to listen.

There is a movie playing inside, and after listening to a few lines, it can be judged that it is a New Year comedy this year.

When the four of them were dating, they were originally going to see this movie, but later Zheng Zhi and Song Ju'an temporarily received the police and had to leave first.

In the end, the two of them watched the movie together.

Si Wei still remembers that when she left the cinema, Xu Heyan emphasized it many times - Zheng Zhi owed her a movie ticket.

This ticket is still owed forever.

When I heard the funny, I heard the suppressed crying in my ears.

Siwei couldn't listen to it anymore and left softly.

In the dark room, Xu Heyan sat on the edge of the bed with his knees crossed, curling himself up into a small ball.

The comedy movie was still playing on the laptop screen, and the warm light hit her face, frighteningly pale.

A comedy that everyone praises, but in her case, she can't even force a smile.

Just because he is gone, everything is boring.

At four o'clock in the morning, the alarm bell rang, and the radio shouted that a barbecue restaurant on Zhongxin Street was on fire, and four fire trucks immediately rushed to the local area.

The street was sealed as soon as possible, and when the firefighters arrived, the fire was spreading, but fortunately, the façade around the barbecue restaurant was not affected for the time being.

The fire started from the first floor, the passage between the upper and lower floors collapsed and blocked, and the wooden floor on the second floor was also burned, and the fire climbed.

In addition, there is no exhaust outlet upstairs, and the smoke has reached its maximum, and the danger factor is extremely high.

It was confirmed that a total of 12 people, including the shopkeeper, were trapped inside.

After getting out of the car, a team was ordered to connect the hose and suppress the open flames on the perimeter of the façade.

After a while, Da Jiang brought a man over, who was a cook.

He confessed that he left the kitchen in the middle of the barbecue, and he was going outside to answer the phone, but after a long time and forgetting to turn off the fire, the fire was caused.

Song Ju'an stared at him: "How many liquefied gas canisters are there?"

"There are three in the kitchen corner. ”

Hearing this, Da Jiang's eyes widened.

Song Ju'an frowned, and immediately pulled out the intercom on his shoulder: "The internal attack group is now entering the interior to extinguish the fire with internal attack, control the fire and open up a rescue channel." Pay attention to the fact that there are three liquefied gas tanks in the kitchen, handle them with care!"

After giving the order, Song Ju'an led the search and rescue team to use the second ladder to climb to the second floor.

The first barrier to enter is the tempered glass facing the street, so demolition is the first thing to complete.

This demolition is different from the past, because there is no vent on the second floor, toxic gases gather, if blindly demolished, it is very easy to ignite.

The tempered glass was chiseled out of a few cracks, and every time I started, I measured the proportions.

At about the same time, Song Ju'an beckoned everyone to disperse.

On the flat ground, groups of three raised high-pressure water guns, and the hoses were rounded and sprayed at the tempered glass.

One second, two seconds!

"Boom!"

The glass burst open and scattered both inside and out, and large and small pieces of glass slag fell to the ground, splitting and shattering in a matter of seconds.

But that's not all!

"Stand back!"

At the sound of the order, the team members gritted their teeth and took two steps back with water guns.

The water gun was raised to a certain height, and the water of Baihuahua rushed straight into the second floor, so as to exhaust the smoke and cool down.

Two minutes later, Song Ju'an led people into the second floor.

A flashlight illuminated their feet, and they followed the wall, leaning down, and orderly finding the room where the people were trapped.

When I walked to the door of a room, a report came over the intercom.

Song Ju'an made a gesture and motioned for the team members who followed him to go in first to save people.

It was the news of the internal power group: "Captain, the open fire on the first floor has been extinguished, the three liquefied gas tanks have been treated, and the blocked passage on the side of the building has also been cleared, and it can be passed." ”

Song Ju'an replied that it had been received.

By this time, the door had been kicked open.

Black smoke was billowing inside, and there was no movement.

A few young men froze at the door.

Song Ju'an pushed people away and found that the two bodies paralyzed on the ground were suffocated to death, and their faces were miserable.

For a moment, his expression froze, and his eyes were suppressed and turbulent.

He closed his eyes in despair, then opened them again.

What catches your eye is the same as before.

A familiar feeling enveloped him in an instant, pulling him into the abyss.

He clenched his fists to death, but he could only calm his voice and say, "Carry the body out." ”

After that, take the lead in striding in, pick up one and go out.

Others followed.

On the passage, firefighters walked down with people on their backs.

Ambulance lights flickered in the night, tugging at everyone's hearts.

The iron wall is not afraid of the raging fire, and only the imminent death constantly impacts everyone's psychological defense.

How cruel this should be!

Ten minutes later, the rescue operation was over, and everything was settled, including the hanging heart.

Eight family members of the victims arrived, knelt in front of the bodies and wept.

Compared to the survivors, they are undoubtedly unlucky.

Lost lives, broken families, show the impermanence of life.

Song Ju'an turned his back silently, looking at the messy barbecue restaurant, feeling that his heart was filled with something, but he couldn't vent it.

After a while, he heard a low sob.

Walking a few steps closer, I saw that it was Xiao Shen, who had been in the team for a month, and was squatting in the corner to wipe his tears.

Song Ju'an squatted beside him and listened to him whimper: "Captain, do you have to look down on life and death to do what we do?" But I'm so uncomfortable, that's a living person......

My heart, which had risen to numbness, suddenly felt a crispy and numb pain.

The pain was suffocating, and the pain was so painful that I felt the urge to give myself a knife.

Song Ju'an patted him on the shoulder, and in a calm tone and expression, he said, "It will pass." ”

Will pass......

Somehow, after saying that, I didn't even believe myself.

At the end, the fire department at the scene observed a moment of silence for the eight victims of this accident.

This is just one of thousands of fires that have been ...... by death It's a little different.

But the whiteness of the fish belly gradually dewed on the horizon seems to remind you that a new day is coming, and what you experience before dawn is nothing but a nightmare.

This nightmare, though true, can only be frozen in the past.

Leave behind pain and fear that you have to bear.

Back at the camp, it was daylight.

Change of clothes, morning training, meals, everything goes on as usual.

The guard changed at eight o'clock, and after half an hour, training began.

On the playground, the team members dressed in equipment and carried 60-kilogram dummies on their backs and rushed forward.

Halfway through, put down the dummy, carry the 32kg foam bucket and continue running, 100 meters away from the finish line, and then lift the liquefied gas cylinder to move forward.

Wave after wave of people on the runway, when it was completed, they didn't even bother to wipe their sweat, and their first reaction was to make a report.

Five minutes before the start of the meal, all the team members finished training.

After reading the results, Song Ju'an bluntly ordered the disbandment.

The group of people did not hesitate and went to the cafeteria.

On the playground, Song Ju'an was left alone.

He stood for a moment, then started running around the track.

The scorching sun chased the moving figures from top to bottom, and even if a gust of wind blew from time to time, it was suffocatingly hot.

On lap 12, when his stamina was about to be exhausted, he finally stopped.

Hunched, hands on knees, eyes staring straight at the runway, all reminding of what I saw at the barbecue today.

Dark, hopeless, powerless!

"Live up to the oath you made when you joined the company, and I don't live up to you. ”

"You're the captain, but you're not the only one in the decision-making power, if something happens, we'll take care of it together. ”

In the flash of light, what flashed in front of him was the picture of Zheng Zhi lying in the ruins.

At that moment, like an electric shock, the palm on his knee was twisted into a fist.

It's been a month, and this deepest and most painful scar has been deliberately forgotten by him, hidden deep in the depths of his memory, and he doesn't even allow himself to recall.

Even if he dreams back in the middle of the night, he returns to the day of the disaster, and when he wakes up, he will not allow himself to touch it.

He can forget, he firmly believes!

Unfortunately, it doesn't seem to work......

Perhaps from extreme exhaustion, he began to tremble.

The sweat of his sideburns ran down his cheeks, and his expression was obviously indifferent and calm, but his eyes were glancing around, as if he was looking for it, as if he was evading.

When he was helpless, he heard a voice: "Song Ju'an!"

He was startled and turned around.

The moment he looked back at him, Luo Qingqiang felt too unfamiliar, it was an emotion that he had never seen in Song Ju'an's eyes.

Self-blame, struggle, madness, no way back......

He disguised it too well to show any traces at all.

However, if it is not hard-hearted, no one can withstand this successive stimulation.

Therefore, just a second ago, the guess in Luo Qingqiang's heart was confirmed, and he might ...... There is no strength to go any further.

In these few seconds, Song Ju'an had already sorted out his mind.

He walked over and said, "You have something to do with me?"

Luo Qingqiang looked at him without blinking his eyes and did not answer.

"I'll go to dinner if it's okay. He turned and walked away.

"Let's see the doctor. ”

Song Ju'an stopped, and his tone was relaxed: "My leg is fine." ”

"I mean psychometric testing. Luo Qingqiang tried to be as patient as possible.

"I didn't ......"

"This is an order!"

After being silent for a few seconds, Song Ju'an turned around, and then suddenly smiled, the smile mixed with helplessness and desolation.

"I haven't had any problems with the police these few times, why do I need to take a psychological test?" his smile widened, but he looked pale and weak.

Luo Qingqiang said solemnly: "Are you afraid?"

"Joke, it's not the first time I've seen someone killed, how could I be afraid?" he said.

"Yes, since you are not afraid, it's just a psychological test, and you don't need to be resistant. ”

When the words fell, I saw Song Ju'an's smile slowly disappear from his lips, replaced by a deep sense of powerlessness.

Luo Qingqiang remained silent and did not choose to say more at this time.

Song Ju'an looked at him for a while, lowered his head, and pointed his tongue against his cheeks, as if he was thinking.

Those dark eyes, not deep, are a slump that others can't find.

He was uncontrollably self-doubting and self-scrutinizing, eager to crucify himself while stubbornly fighting against it.

Finally, he looked up.

He said, "I obey orders. ”