In Jishan, Zhao Chuan is the closest person to Song Ju'an, so he can see the difference between him and ordinary people.

But before this incident, Zhao Chuan had never seen Song Ju'an express this kind of emotion.

That night, Song Ju'an had another dream.

In the dream, he and Zheng Zhi sat face to face in the hot pot restaurant, as if they had returned to the night before their mission.

The hot pot is boiling, and it is soaking upward.

Song Ju sat there steadily, watching Zheng Zhi pour wine and vegetables for him.

Seeing that he didn't move, he smiled at him.

Zheng Zhi raised his glass and said, "Touch one." ”

Song Ju'an's eyes flashed, and he picked up the cup in front of him.

"Bang!"

Both of them raised their heads at the same time and drank it all.

Zheng Zhi asked, "I finally came out for a meal, why are you stunned?" He laughed.

Even in a dream, it was clear that his consciousness was awake, and he knew that it was just a dream, but he still couldn't face the person in front of him.

Zheng Zhi said while pouring wine: "Isn't it just a few tasks, no matter how much it affects the mentality, it can't affect the eating, you are like this, I have reason to doubt that you are afraid?"

Song Ju'an turned his face sideways, this question was very familiar, it seemed that Zheng Zhi had asked him.

He slowly came to his senses.

It was the day they ate hot pot together.

At that time, how did he answer?

He said that he was very afraid, because he had more worries, and he had to be responsible for the worries of his life.

Song Ju'an turned his head, looked at Zheng Zhi with straight eyes, and replied:

"I'm afraid. Same answer, different reason: "This profession gives me the duty to protect others, but I can't protect my comrades, instead, he has to die because of me." ”

A year is not long, it is not short, it is enough to make people forget something, but he can't do it.

With that, he put his hands on his forehead, propped his elbows on the table, and fell into a deep depression.

At this moment, he heard Jung Sik's voice.

"No one sacrifices for anyone, and the fate of a firefighter is not necessarily to give his life, but the duty of firefighting is destined to be a dangerous profession. ”

Song Ju'an's body froze, his eyes were hot, and he forcibly raised his head.

Zheng Zhi smiled: "You think that the person who sacrificed because of you is just fulfilling his duty." Yes, he wouldn't have gone in without your permission, but you know what, he never regretted it, even the moment he closed his eyes, he was willing. ”

I have no regrets, I am willing.

Looking at each other, Song Ju'an suddenly pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled, smiling and smiling, and his eyes felt moist.

In the blink of an eye, a stream flows.

On the other side, Zheng Zhi smiled even deeper: "Don't do this again, let it go." ”

Put it down, put it down—

Three words, echoing in my mind many times, ethereal...... Becoming clearer......

In the dormitory, Song Ju'an opened his eyes little by little.

Suddenly, he got up, gently opened the door, and went out.

I didn't go anywhere else, I just found a wall root and sat down.

The hallway was bright, and he raised his right hand and removed the black bracer from his wrist.

A slightly thicker, strangely shaped scar was revealed, and it was ugly and terrifying.

This was rowed late at night half a month after coming to Jishan.

During that time, he often suffered from insomnia, occasionally sleeping for an hour, and then waking up from nightmares.

When I woke up, I became extremely crazy and self-harmed, which was the most out of control behavior I ever did during this period.

And the more painful it is, the more I want to smoke to relieve stress.

So he quit smoking again because he didn't allow himself to get the slightest relief.

In other words, it is nothing more than a different way of punishing oneself.

One is to seek liberation, the other is to hurt oneself, if it is not for the perseverance of willpower, I am afraid that the body has already been consumed to the limit between the two poles.

Miraculously, he survived, and the wounds he had suffered became scars, and although he no longer died in pain, he stabbed from time to time.

But today, it feels different.

Song Ju'an leaned his head against the wall, and there was light in his eyes, which was brighter than the light, and it was a relaxed color that his eyes couldn't dissolve.

Zhao Chuan had a stomachache in the middle of the night, squatted in the toilet for more than ten minutes, and when he went out, he found a person sitting in the corridor, and he shrank back at that time.

He was smooth, poked his head out to take a look, and found that it was Song Ju'an.

When I looked at him again, I saw him hiding his face and not moving.

Zhao Chuan didn't look good, thinking that he was sad.

Men, how much do they want to save face, how can their vulnerable side be seen by others, so now is not the best time in the past.

So, Zhao Chuan hid in the toilet for ten minutes, and finally stayed up until Song Ju'an entered the dormitory, he thought about it for a while, and stayed for another five or six minutes before pretending to be okay and went back.

It can be said that it is very rigorous.

After this scene, Zhao Chuan took more care of Song Ju'an.

Especially reflected in training, for fear that he would be tired, several new players were assigned from above, and Zhao Chuan rushed to arrange everything;

Three meals a day, if Zhao Chuan goes early, he will give Song Ju'an a copy;

The changing of the guard is on duty, and they have to be on the same shift......

In short, it is to do everything possible to make Song Juan feel the warmth of this team.

Although it was a little late, maybe it would make his life here a little more comfortable.

Two months later, the upper and lower orders were issued, making it clear that Song Ju'an would be transferred back to his original territory a week later, and the Jishan Fire Squadron would be under the full management of Zhao Chuan.

The team members know this in their hearts, but they are inevitably reluctant when the notice is given.

At the end of the training the day before, according to the rules, Song Ju'an had to say a simple goodbye, and there was always nothing to say about the sensational words.

Facing the young and resolute faces, he could only think of one sentence.

This quote for everyone:

"Guarding the lights of thousands of homes will not be extinguished, and defending the territory of thousands of miles of mountains and rivers. ”

Not a soldier, but the feelings of a soldier are still there, and this feeling is also a firefighting mission.

The next day, Song Ju'an stepped on a train to Shencheng.

Zhao Chuan pestered and yelled all night that he had to send him to the station as he wished.

Zhao Chuan was reluctant: "I knew that you kid wouldn't stay long, but I was so good to you, and I almost took a bath when I poured rice and water." ”

"It's okay, when you go to my place on vacation, I'll give you a bath. ”

"Come on, I have a wife, but I can't take advantage of you. Zhao Chuan Zhengse: "Anyway, you must take care of yourself when you go back, I haven't figured out your heart so far, but I think that you who are decisive, courageous, and can shine at the scene of the accident must be the real you." So you have to know that for those who are trapped in accidents, we are their light, and light cannot be covered by darkness. ”

Song Ju'an hooked his lips and smiled: "Okay, remember!"

This train takes eight hours, and the sleeper that Song Ju'an bought happens to be the lower berth, which is much more comfortable.

A year ago, I went north, and it seemed like yesterday.

Outside the window, it was happily green, and as the train moved forward, it was all left behind.

His people are moving forward, and so is his heart.

A week ago, the special service team received the news that Song Ju'an was about to return to the team, and the atmosphere in the team was different all of a sudden.

In their spare time, everyone is talking about it, and everyone is ready to welcome the captain back with the best face.

The train arrives at 4:30 p.m.

After taking a taxi, when Song Juan got out of the car, it was just after five o'clock.

At this point, the players were still training, and he went to meet the instructor first.

Luo Qingqiang was waiting in the office, expecting that he would come here first, and even the fire tea was ready.

A short and powerful "report" was heard, and as soon as I looked up, someone stood at the door.

Luo Qingqiang nodded and motioned for him to come in.

Song Ju'an held his head high and walked to the desk.

"Sit down. ”

He pulled back his chair and sat upright, his hands flat on his lap.

Luo Qingqiang sat opposite, quickly looked the person up and down, and smiled with relief when he saw him so energetic.

Let's get down to business.

"When you come back this time, the work is still the same as before. In addition, a few newcomers came to the team a month ago, some were selected from the grassroots squadron, and some were assigned after training. ”

Song Ju'an said he understood.

Luo Qingqiang nodded his chin to the cup of tea: "It's specially made for you, taste." ”

"Thank you, Instructor. Song Ju'an took three or two sips and commented: "It tastes good." ”

Luo Qingqiang laughed: "Don't be so serious, what I'm going to tell you next is a private matter." ”

Song Ju'an relaxed a little, and saw Luo Qingqiang open the small drawer on his right hand and took out a small red book, with a bank card sandwiched on the inside.

"Finally, I don't need to keep this thing for you. ”

Song Ju'an lowered his eyes and looked uncomfortable.

Luo Qingqiang stared at him, his eyes were probing, and his words were more like ridicule.

"I didn't expect that your kid is quite good at falling in love and knows how to hand over wages, but since you broke up, the money must be cleared in both ways, so as not to get entangled in the future. ”

After a pause, seeing that no one was reacting, he added: "This is also thanks to Siwei's girl, if you meet someone else, you are not ready to come back, and the money will definitely have to be taken away." ”

Song Ju'an's back was straight, and the hand on his knee curled up unconsciously.

For a long time, he couldn't hear the emotion and said: "When I told you that I wanted to have a relationship with Si Wei, I promised you that I would be responsible for her for the rest of my life, but now you also know that we are separated, and I mentioned the breakup." ”

At this point, he raised his head again, his voice hoarse: "Don't you blame me?"

The two looked at each other, one trying to see something, the other sophisticated and deep, and on the surface, very calm.

After a while, Luo Qingqiang said: "How do you want me to blame you? At that time, even if I didn't reprimand you were like that, I am afraid that you would see yourself as a sinner in your heart." ”

Somehow, Song Ju'an sounded a little moved.

Then I heard it again.

"Besides, without you, that girl can meet someone better than you, and I'm an older person, so there's no need to be so idle. ”

“......”

I suddenly felt self-inflicted!

Later, Song Ju'an was stuck at the training ground.

A group of people guessed that he would come to the end of the training session, and the team stood in full formation.

You know, this is a sun of nearly 40 degrees, and I have been sweating after several sets of projects, even so, I still stand up straight.

Song Ju'an stood at the front of the team, his eyes swept over them one by one, and a few new faces were added.

This kind of formation to greet him is actually unnecessary, but since there are all of them, Song Ju'an always has to express his feelings.

I saw that his left hand stretched out to the side, and Da Jiang sent the score board.

Song Ju'an raised his eyelids and glanced at everyone, and opened them unhurriedly.

Then, there was a commotion in the ranks, which was quickly suppressed again.

After more than ten seconds, he buttoned the score board and shook it at them, "I looked, the results were better than I expected." From tomorrow onwards, I will train with everyone. Now it's time to disband. ”

As soon as the words fell, a group of people dispersed in an uproar, and they ran to the cafeteria in groups of three or two.

I don't know what I'm happy about, is it being praised? Or can I experience devil training again tomorrow?

......

A month ago, Xu Heyan ended his trip to the countryside and returned to work in the anesthesiology department of the city hospital.

In terms of accommodation, she still didn't go home to live, and rented a room next door to Swei.

Dinner on weekend nights has become a daily operation, and after dinner, the two of them sunbathed in the moonlight on the lazy chair on the balcony.

After a year, although Xu Heyan is not as lively and cheerful as before, he has been able to mention the name Zheng Zhi plainly, of course, more often, he hides him in his heart.

When she was by her side, Si Wei would always unconsciously stare at her for a long time, such as now.

Today's Xu Heyan has become quieter, but unlike being depressed and depressed, she can still laugh and take the initiative to talk about many things, more like a suddenly mature person.

On the other hand, it may also be that there is a person around her who can heal her - Xu Yi.

Si Wei looked away and turned to the quiet night sky.

Without noticing, my mind drifted away.

Until the tranquility in the ears is broken.

Xu Heyan said: "I saw the people of their squadron in the hospital two days ago, and I heard that Captain Song was coming back. ”